I'm Malcolm Blackwood. A black sheep. A hard shell over a broken soul. A walking collection of hangups held together with spite. I'm feared and respected by everyone at Langley College. Except for one person. North Nolan. The golden boy. He couldn't possibly be any more different from me, and somehow we've entered into a tentative relationship.
He wants me. All of me. But can I give it to him? I don't know, but I'm determined to try.
When he requests a reward that's different from any that I've given him before, it means straying even further out of my comfort zone. Will I rise to the challenge, or will I fall back into my old toxic ways?
'Kissed by my Teammate' is the fifth book in the 'My Dark Jock' series, and ends with a HFN, with a final HEA. This short features spicy M/M BDSM scenes between consenting adults.
Hi! I'm Arden, a small scruffy person living in the UK. Most days I can be found at my laptop with a mug of hot chocolate (almond milk) and a bag of snacks (savory) writing absolutely filthy M/M smut (just the dirtiest).
I love writing dark and dangerous guys, fun banter, confused himbos, and mindblowingly raunchy kinks.
Nooooooo, you're telling me now I have to wait until June? WTAF!
This. Was. So. Good!
I highly recommend this series, and it must be edited into a full size novel. The character development Mal goes through is so thorough. The writing is witty, humorous and easy.
I would love to read more about North and his backstory, really see that fleshed out more. Already dreading the collision with Mal's dad in the next one. Even though there isn't much grovelling as such, and I really wanted it in previous instalments, that's okay, because he apologizes a lot.
By the way, I am rating the spice here because this has transitioned from Erotica to romance somewhere along the lines of the last book. And it's 🔥. Less kinky than previous parts but hot nonetheless.
Ahora que North convenció a Malcom que no iba a ir a ningún lado y que eran exclusivos, la relación entre ellos cambio de gran manera. Malcom ahora se deja convencer a hacer mas cosas fuera de su zona de confort y North acepta todo lo que Malcom le pide. Ahora, cuando North convence a Malcom a ir a un bar con el equipo de futbol, no esperaba que éste aceptara. Así que ahora están juntos en público, pero eso significará algo para Malcom? Podrán ambos superar el "secretismo" de su relación y ser abiertos con sus compañeros? Logrará North que Malcom sea su "novio" por fin?
Ahora si estamos en pleno romance, conocemos el pasado de Malcom, y el porque se su actitud y sus cicatrices. La historia comienza a volverse mas dulce y rosada que antes. Ahora ya se que si van a tener un final de "Felices por Siempre", solo me queda saber como va a enfrentar Malcom sus demonios y como North va a ayudarlo a superar sus miedos.
This time I lean in, hovering my lips just in front of his. A reversal of our usual system. It seems like a day for turning things on their heads. He closes the gap. And when we break apart we’re both smiling. “All right, I’ll be your fucking boyfriend,” I grumble. “And you should move in with me because I’m not staying in this puke-soaked shit hole ever again.” He rests his head on my chest and I curl my arm around him, cautiously at first, testing the way it feels, and then tight as I lower my face to the top of his head and breathe in. He smells good. He smells like home.
I think the thing I love most about these books is that not only does the story flawlessly pick up from the previous one but also simultaneously it somehow feels like a book on its own. Can’t wait for the next one!
Ayyy esta quinta parte es más emocional. Mal cuenta la historia de su cicatriz (dios que duro) y le vemos ya prácticamente aceptar que quiere a North para él y que sí que siente cosas por él.
“You might be everyone’s golden boy out there, but in here, where it matters, you're my toy.”
Me gustan mucho 🥺
We fit together so perfectly. I look down at him rocking up into me, and I feel like my heart is going to burst. “Oh God, Mal, I love you.”
Quizá esta es la parte que menos me ha gustado porque está ya todo muy afianzado. Me hicieron fangirlear más las anteriores, cuando Mal todavía intentaba fingir que no sentía nada y no podía. Y las escenas sexuales lo mismo, en los anteriores son más hot para mi porque son más kinky y tienen más BDSM, en este como Mal ya siente cosas pues son mucho más light (que me ha encantado y tiene mucho sentido para cómo va la historia, pero yo soy más fan de las otras).
This is Mal, raw and true. The tang of his breath, the stale sweat on his clothes, the bed hair, it all makes him feel so real, so human, so perfectly imperfect. He's not a fantasy figure from my forbidden kinky sex dreams anymore. He's Mal. My Mal. Who sweats, and makes mistakes, and tries to hide it all because he thinks someone else is going to hurt him.
Estoy deseando leer el sexto y ver cómo acaban estos bebés.
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“And every time I'm pulled to him like he’s my center of gravity. Our lips meet, and he’s sweet and soft, and everything I'm not.”
Mal has my heart. North is so perfect for him. I am living for these two falling for each other. The spice and the humor and vulnerability in this one was perfectly put together for these two.
I'm crying my heart out. I'm screaming into the void. I said the last one was the best one but this one is even better! Shit. Got. Deep. Whoever said this is just erotica? Take your words back, all of you! (nothing wrong with erotica though).
I feel like getting Malcolm drunk was the best way to make him vulnerable; I'm not sure he would open up so soon otherwise. I had been going to say Mal was Shrek — grumpy, antisocial but with so many layers — but he went and shattered my heart like a mirror. He's such a cutie. If North is a golden retriever, then Mal is a cat with big, begging eyes. I loved seeing Malcolm break apart — not because I'm evil, but because he needed to. How long could he keep going like that? He needed someone in his life to open up to, to share his pain with; and thankfully he has North now.
Oh, North! I loved, loved, loved how he took care of Mal. Yes, they play their BDSM games and Malcolm is the one in charge, but they are still equal partners, and I hope Mal realizes sooner or later it's okay to be vulnerable, it's okay to be a mess and it's okay to let your boyfriend to comfort you once in a while. North was actually trying to make Mal more sociable and got worried when Mal became too drunk. He didn't have sex with him, didn't claw answers out of him. He didn't even try to hug him not knowing if Mal would like it.
And then there are all these little details that always make me smile or tear up (or both at the same time). That's what I really appreciate about this story. North taking drunk Malcolm's shoes off. Mal pouring honey over food because he knows North loves sweet things. Mal tidying North's room without complain even though he doesn't have to. North constantly asking if Mal is okay at the bar or trying to make him join the conversation.
This makes my heart bleed: "He's not a fantasy figure from my forbidden kinky sex dreams anymore. He's Mal. My Mal. Who sweats, and makes mistakes, and tries to hide it all because he thinks someone else is going to hurt him. But that person isn't me, and if anyone tries to hurt him again they'll have to go through me first." North swears to protect him 😭 North loves Mal so much! But he's not alone. Mal loves him just as much! He's maybe not sure if he should say it but he constantly shows it! He puts himself out of his comfort zone all the time. Mal who just wants to be boyfriends and live together, to sleep together and cuddle (which helped him to sleep better, by the way!). Mal who secretly wants to drink with the boys! And he even likes his stupid hat! 😭 Mal needs to be protected at all times!
And they know each so well! North instantly noticed that Mal was freaking out after they had cuddled. Mal saw right through North in the morning after the party.
Their love language: "As I took him apart and claimed him as my own, piece by piece, I swore to myself that I was never going to hurt him again." "But that person isn't me, and if anyone tries to hurt him again they'll have to go through me first."
So now I'm worried about this piece of shit which is the father. To lay your hands on someone, let alone your own child, is bad enough but ten years old? HE WAS JUST FUCKING TEN, WHAT THE HELL. And then he lost his mom as well. Poor baby Malcolm! He deserves only love and support. Don't even get me started on this older man asshole who used lonely, sad Mal to his advantage. Can't even try to guess how the meeting with the father goes. I hope at least the teammates support Mal and North.
I can't believe the next part is the last. I'm not ready to say goodbye 😢 But I'm glad our boys are gonna get their happily ever after; I love them so, so, so much 💖
P.S. I hope North finds that snow globe collection after all, lmao.
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He's worked his way inside me, kicking out the self protective structures I've put in place as he goes, so that now it's only him holding me up. If it all goes wrong now what’s left of my heart is going to cave in, collapse, crumble, until all I am is a ruin of a person, dust, and rubble.
What you'll get: Grumpy sunshine Kinks College football Halloween Gay and bisexual rep
CW/TW: Abuse/neglect of a main as a child by a parent
These two are a hoot. Mal is disgusted to learn that he's developed actual feelings for North and he is beside himself about it. North tricks him into going out for Halloween like the couple/non-couple they are and he has a shockingly good time.
I just cracked up through this because his walls are coming down and he is very grumpy about it. I'm interested to see where we go with book 6 based on that cliffhanger. I hope it doesn't undo all of the progress Mal has been making.
Tropes - sports, erotica, grumpy x sunshine, obsessed, possessive, jealous
Representation - gay rep, queer rep
In my review for the previous book, i spoke about how I liked getting more of Mal’a vulnerability and we get that tenfold in this one. Lots of character development and I liked seeing Mal let loose and come out of his shell. It’s been obvious since the start that he’s dealing with some kind of trauma which we get to learn more about in this one.
Mal and North are so so cute together and honestly, are made for each other; they fill each other’s cups in different ways. I’m excited to see their conclusion in the next one 🤞🏾
Scale: ⭐️ - would've DNF'ed / continued out of spite ⭐️⭐️ - shit, but whatever ⭐️⭐️⭐️ - meh, could've been better ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ - lit 👅 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ - loved it, inject this shit into my veins 🤪
So... Do as I say and not as I do and post your review when you read the freaking book otherwise you forget to post *sad face*
We finally got us some vulnerable Mal🥹 You can bet your ass out that some cute little tears of emotion came out of my eyes too!
But really, I will never forget the tiny cowboy hat and how even out of his comfort zone, this time Mal truly tries to make North happy even outside of their spicy games.
And we needed both of them to give into each other's emotions, we needed North taking care of Mal for once and we needed Mal to break.
And now I don't know how I feel about having to wait for the last of these shorts cause I want it right now🤷🏼♀️ we get our HFN in this one but the cliffieeeeee😮💨 that's a heavy duty one.
I just loved them so much, maybe even more this time than the others🥹 they really do deserve the world🥰
Please note this just my personal opinion, any and all hard work by the author and their team is always appreciated.
Well dayummmm! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 🤯⭐️🤯⭐️🤯⭐️🤯⭐️🤯⭐️🤯⭐️🤯⭐️🤯⭐️🤯
BDSM is not for everyone, and let’s face it, it is not a easy troupe/ genre to write - that is not the case for this series of books…
A series of short books following the same “couple” yeah I said it Mal, COUPLE!
Yes this is hot and steamy and detailed and seductive BUT it is so much more than just that. It’s beautiful, heartfelt, intense and believe it or not …. thoughtful!
I have spent the last 24 hours devouring all 5 books and I cannot wait for the 6th… I want to see the end but I also don’t want the series too end at the same time 😂 Arden Long what have you done!?!?
Mal opens up to North in this one and it was soooooo soooooo perfect and beautiful. Its just what they needed after all the other things they been through.
North and Mal went out because North did good on a paper and they both had a few. It broke down Mal's walls and they talked about his dad, his mom, how he got that scare and who else has hurt him. North was seeing red and now he wants to protect Mal from ever being hurt again. The moment he said he loved Mal was so sweet and what follows was too.
The sex and the love making both were hot and wonderful in this. Becoming boyfriends was as well. Got a feeling the next one going be a wild ride with the reveal about his dad and now he's there.
3.25 A lot of progress on this one for the couple and I’m not complaining one bit. Mal started to true North and let him be vulnerable around him as well. Him telling the story of the scar was the moment he really opened up to whatever North was going to do for them both after he heard the whole story. The Halloween party scene was so hot and cute. Them getting kicked out because they were doing the nasty in a changing room was hilarious and at the same time deserved. At the end they finally had the talk and now are together which made me happy.
My favorite of the series so far! Grumpy Mal getting soft? Be still my heart. And North being himself? Yes please. I love these two. I can't get enough. Plus Mal is finally letting us in on some secrets, which I've been dying for those answers/stories! There's not much to say because it's basically still just erotica, but it keeps getting better and better. 3/5 spice levels.
Notes: grumpy/sunshine, past trauma, family trauma, BDSM
Not gonna lie I almost gave up. But. These have gotten progressively better the more I read. I’m hooked. I need the next book like I need Dino nuggets. I am in love with these guys and I can’t wait to see what happens next. AND THAT CLIFF HANGER? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!
There are some typos and grammatical issues. Some slang I’m apparently not hip enough to know. But they don’t distract from the story so all the stars anyways
-dark mm romance -teammates to lovers -grumpy/sunshine -heavy bdsm/kink -secret toxic relationship
hot damn. this whole series is kinky & intriguing! no slow burn at all BUTTT the tension & getting to any kind of resolution thru this development is soooo hornyyy!! & i am into it!!!
Well I guess the best time for ghosts to come out would be Halloween. Add in a few I mean a lot of alcohol, well you know "en veritas vino". And now the past meets the present. I can't wait!!!
"His eyes narrow, and then he fits his hand around my jaw, tilts my head up, and leans into my face. "What makes you think I'm not scary?" I gulp. How many times can you fuck in one morning? Asking for a friend."
[3.5⭐] Ahora sí la relación entre los protagonistas ha cambiado totalmente.
Estaba esperando escenas así, en las que Mal pueda abrirse sentimentalmente y contarle todos sus miedos y traumas a North. Fue hermoso. Tengo mucha curiosidad por el final. Ojalá no decepcione. :)
Much better on the development and spacing of events. I feel like I’m really seeing the characters now. Still a little more sexual scenes than I felt necessary, but the emotional content saves most of it. Very curious to see how it plays out!
I thought this was the final book . Anyway Malcolm is coming out if his shell a lot more telling North what happened to him which made me warm up to him more.