For Johanna, as far as Paul was concerned, “there is knowing and there is knowing better.” Her relationship with Paul was both beautiful and ugly, so when he calls out of the blue asking her for a favor, she was stumped. With all the lies, alcohol, beatings, and disappointments he put her through, she really should’ve have given even one minute of her time.
Brett was also a guy that’s been burned and kicked by love. Two awkward, nerdy souls that can’t let go of the past. Brett was reluctant to let another girl break his heart and Johanna couldn’t get rid of her addiction to Paul, who continues to use and abuse her.
Nonetheless, the two take a chance on each other and the chemistry between them is evident. Told in the POV of both Johanna and Brett, their stories relay the bitter realities and harsh struggles in dealing with overbearing parents, so-called friends, lousy jobs, self-esteem battles, and trust issues. The narrative was simply engaging with a clever wit and a touch of poetry.
Resentment and regret are 2 emotions these characters knew all too well. Would that keep these 2 from each other? Brett and Johanna seemed to be the light in each other’s dark world. I thought they were pretty good for each other. But, alas, first loves can never be forgotten, and, unfortunately, they continue to taint their lives. Can they give themselves to each other while still chained to others?
“There’s something between us, even it’s only a beaten-up past and a sealed-off future.”
“Your past is something you take with you every step you take, but you can’t let it control your path.”
The emotional toll and baggage of these characters were just so raw and unrelenting. Filled with heart and heartache, this is a trying love story.
Nice read about growing, learning from your mistakes, and finally letting go. It’s a good one!