Father Zusima did it, and made me 3 star this in the end, even though this part probably had the best monologue I read anywhere by Ivan Karamazov.
He is just way too delusional, and way too extreme, that bit about if all people in the world don't believe in Jesus anymore and you meet just another believer, then there will be love again, and the world won't die!
Like what the actual fuck? that's extreme, not being able to see love in people except those of the same religion as you! or the delusional thought, that only they can keep the world alive!
I am atheist, so I am to a great extent anti-religion, but these moronic things he kept saying, just didn't set well with me at all.
And you could feel at many points a fight within himself about certain sadistic ideas in religion, like Hell for example, he said that Hell is symbolic, and then he went on to rant about how some people will be tortured in hell, but they are completely in tune with the devil and his defiance that they won't listen to god who is calling to them lol I swear I am laughing for how ridiculous that thought is, I am imagining torturing someone, and calling to them "Why won't you love me? Why won't you let me save you from the torture I am putting you through? Are you really that blind to know the truth that I love you? You are hopeless, Hey Angels! raise the heat, maybe this dickhead listens when he feels more pain."
And it's not only him who is in conflict really, even Ivan "The Atheist" is in conflict, he is thinking about religion way too much, making up long scenarios about it, thinking too seriously about it, I understand that society kind of forces you to think about religion, specially if you are in a Muslim society like me, because that thing I said before about priests not having an opinion about anything that matters in the world anymore, and if they had and we heard it, it would probably be moronic, is the complete opposite here, we can't get their Muslim equivalent to shut up, and they are beyond stupid, they are brain rotted, and their rot is spreading to any other simple mind that will give them their ears, which are Millions.
Even the religious stories that from his perspective seemed to be what affected him the most, they are not even that good of stories, all of them are simple fairytales, designed to either make you love your torturer because he will repay your suffering, or to warn you of nations that have been wiped out because of a sin or another (Because that god that loves them can't stand seeing people not choose him) or make you believe in a miracle you never saw and never will see, making you go through life looking around you like an idiot, waiting for a sign, interpreting every coincidence as a miracle about each and every idiotic thing that happens in your favor.
This part of the novel was pretty tame, Alyosha isn't really the best character in this novel to have as the point of view, he is way too tame, and way too naive, to offer any useful insight on anything really, his gullibility really hurt this part in my opinion.
For this to work we need more Dmitry, more Fyodor (even though I hate his guts), More Grushenka, more of the love triangle between Katrina, Dmitry and Ivan.
I can only hope now that with the death of father Zusima, we will finally remain on topic, stop wasting time in the fucking church, and delve into the souls of our characters, and reach the focal point of our story.
I have to take a short break though, I will read a small novel for Milan Kundera (My first Kundera novel, a year of many first I love it) and then get right back to the third part of Brother Karamazov, we are at a point in the story where I feel I can take that break, and even the ending didn't make me want to read the next book like part 1 ending did.