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274 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 6, 2013



"Now anyone can see," he whispered, his breath fanning over my ear. "Anyone in any of those houses. What would they say?" He chuckled. "Look at that slut, they'd say, letting that man do those things right outside."
Matt reached past me smoothly and opened the back door of his car.
"In you go, little bird. Get on you hands and knees.(...)"
He began fumbling for somethign in his pocket. A condom, I realized.
"No, I - " I stammered. "I have an IUD, I..."
I wanted skin to skin. I wanted Matt to give it to me, now, hard.

"Tell me about my cock," Matt whispered.


"This feels amazing!"



"Matt's smirks came in flavors -- two parts kindness, one part wicked amusement, a little lust in the mix. Oh, and one hundred percent smug bastard."
"I was infatuated with a guy I knew nothing about... Shit. Was I falling for a stranger?"
"I'm trying to teach you this mysterious skill, one that you seem to lack. It's called how to say goodbye."
I smiled and rubbed the back of my neck.
"What are you grinning at?" she said.
"I never want to," I said.
"What? Never want to what?"
"I never want to learn how to say goodbye."
"I glared down at my cock.
"Hold your fucking horses," I muttered.
God, fuck… was this seriously my life? Stalking a girl I'd met online, parked outside her house at midnight, speaking to my dick?"


There is no such thing as loneliness. There is only the idea of loneliness.
"I'm trying to teach you this mysterious skill, one that you seem to lack. It's called how to say goodbye."
I smiled and rubbed the back of my neck.
"What are you grinning at?" she said.
"I never want to," I said.
"What? Never want to what?"
"I never want to learn how to say goodbye."
God, I felt amazing. I felt tattered in the best possible way, like our violent passion had blasted me clean. When I eased off Matt's arm and climbed out of his bed, I knew that I was leaving something behind. It was my old skin. He'd taken me for all I was worth.
"I was going to him because I loved him, and because love is unstoppable."
"I couldn't bear to think he housed such strange sorrow. Sad things seem truest to me."





















‘I had never felt such longing in my life. My whole body responded to the idea of Hannah near me.’

‘Was I asking for trouble?
Tonight, trouble was a beautiful body standing next to a beautiful car right outside my house, waiting for me.
I didn’t feel a single twinge of fear.
I felt raw elation.’

‘“Beautiful man. I wish you could see yourself. You look lost.”
“I feel lost,” I whispered.’

‘…I was wrapped around her finger. She gazed over her shoulder with half-lidded eyes and whispered my name. Why did I think I had any power over Hannah? I was hers.’

‘”My body…craves your body.” Matt bounced me again and we moaned together. “It f-feels the distance…when we’re apart. Hannah, I can’t be apart from you.”
“You never have to be,” I said.’

‘The hollowness inside of me didn’t shrink. It expanded until it seemed to press at the limits of my being. I became less than a shell of myself. I was a fine limning – a suggestion of Hannah Catalano.
One day, I thought, I wouldn’t even be that.
I understood how people fall apart.
I understood how dangerous it is to let someone become your whole life, and how powerless we are to prevent it. Never deny me, Matt once said. As if I had a choice.’



"No specifics, no last name, no phone number. Nothing. I don't want to know you, and I don't want you to know me. We write together online, that's it. I'm not looking for a new friend. I'm looking for a writing partner."



"Despite last night and the best sex of my life, Hannah and I hadn't truly kissed yet."

”Don’t give me that look. I’m trying to teach you this mysterious skill, one that you seem to lack. It’s called how to say goodbye.”
I smiled and rubbed the back of my neck.
“What are you grinning at?” she said.
“I never want to.” I said
“What? Never want to what?”
“I never want to learn how to say goodbye.”
”He dressed like sex, drove the sexiest car I’d ever been in, and bought me the Cadillac of sex toys without blinking.”
”The best days are the first to flee.”
“The tiny endless peeping of the chicks was breaking my fucking heart. I would probably cry when I got into the barn. That’s what I usually did. Finally, I captured one of the chicks. I cupped its body to my chest. Little bird, I thought. Soft warm little bird.”
"I never want to learn how to say goodbye."

"God, Hannah. I've been thinking about fucking you. It's like there's something wrong with me. I can't stop thinking about it. I want my body against yours, my cock inside of you. It's driving me wild. Does that frighten you?"
"No. No, I've... been thinking about it too."

Matt's smirks came in flavors— two parts kindness, one part wicked amusement, a little lust in the mix. Oh, and one hundred percent smug bastard.
She left me alone in the riddle. I needed her because I loved her— or I loved her because I needed her. Why had the feelings turned to a maze? Now I was lost in the dark. In my dreams I ran paths walled with high hedges. Always the leaves brushing me like laughter. Always the long night.









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