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⚠️Triggers: Graphic Drug Abuse, Drug abuse leading to miscarriage, Domestic Violence ⚠️
Summery
Lynn and Jimmy's marriage has been dying for years. Fallen into decay like everything else in their lives. Lies and hidden secrets have consumed them. She has sunk into routines and work, and he sunk into a bottle. Turning a bad marriage into an abusive one.
Lynn is in her 50s. She is dying. Cancer is spreading through her and left her with only a few months. She knows some things have to change. As luck would have it, she won the lottery! 5 million dollars. She has decided not to share it with Jimmy. She has plans for the money. Plans that don't include him. Plans so that she can die with peace. But how does she stop him, and who is trying to stop her?
My Thoughts
This book started off very engaging.
I quickly felt for Lynn from the beginning. Trapped with an abusive husband, self blaming for the abuse, just wanting to do some good before she died. She was easy to care about.
Jimmy, on the other hand, was a complete waste of a human. Vile, abusive, drunk who couldn't care less how his wife felt as long as he was getting his way. I hated him.
I feel like that's a testament to the author that I was able to care about and hate characters so throughly. Even the neighbor, Rose, was realistic and well written.
I could have done without the graphic description of drug use. It did nothing for the plot. It very easily could have just eluded to it without going into the details of tying off and plunging the syringe, euphoria, and the misery. It was over the top and too much. I found it disturbing and unnecessary.
I get that her drug abuse led to her miscarriage, which led to her current domestic situation. I'm not saying that it doesn't belong in the story. Just not is such graphic details.
Since this is an arc, I'm going to overlook the grammatical errors. I can't overlook the constant jumping of timelines. I got whip lash trying to keep up. Never quite knowing if it was past or present. I found it distracting and disjointed.
The plot became a hard to follow roller coaster with an almost laughable ending. I did finish it. I did enjoy parts of it. It desperately needs a strong edit. It has a lot of potential, but it is just not there yet. At least not for me.
I received an advanced review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.