“She’d positively vibrated with the thought of being the one to break through that last vestige of childhood and bring her darling Cadence fully into womanhood. But at the same time, she hadn’t been able to overlook the magnitude of the responsibility. Hadn’t been able to overlook it, nor come to terms with it.”
*****
Being sixteen years old and destined to marry the boy your mother picks out for you sucks. Being sixteen years old, gay, in love with your new nanny, and destined to marry the boy your mother picks out for you sucks worse—and it’s not so great for the nanny, either.
Thirty-three-year-old Marlee Meeks isn’t exactly sure how long she’s harbored romantic feelings for her young charge, Cadence Ashlock, but by the time they share their first forbidden kiss, she knows their lives have become dangerously entangled.
Keira Michelle Telford is an award-winning author with a love for the gruesome, the macabre, and the downright filthy. She writes dystopian science fiction, contemporary and historical erotic lesbian romance, and other lesbian fiction, often with a focus on age-gap relationships.
4 stars. I have to finish this review fast because I've a feeling someone will break down my door and throw me behind bars any minute now. That's how much of a guilty pleasure this was. Age gap usually is interesting to me due to difference of experience and environment but never before I've read about it as a taboo.
I was surprised it didn't come off as predatory either. It just works and I like it and please don't arrest me. Thank you.
My second book by this author and not at all a bad read. I did however have more trouble looking away from the age gap in this one. I think what caused that was because Marlee has known Cadence since she was 13. Sure nothing happened back then but Cadence was still such a young girl. (although nowadays 13 year olds look more like 18 year olds)
The other thing that bothered me a little was the realism of it all. The father being a total perv doesn't surprise me one bit but demanding Marlee dressing the way she does and even buying her outfits seems a little too much. The same goes for the 'contract'. I thought how very 50 shades of you but I doubt that's legal.
I did like that despite me constantly expecting the other shoe to drop, the book was angst free, so points for that but it is nowhere near as good as "the housemistress" . Ends with a 3,5* rating.
Yes, a re-read was in order because I wanted to end this year on a high note and that means ending with a Telford.
Cadence of my heart is thematically the same as The Housemistress meaning a relationship between a teenager and a woman twice her age. If you know Keira Michelle Telford's work, you know age-gap relationships are her thing. Now I know that it's all sorts of wrong, a taboo... but the way Telford plays with it, reasons with it, seduces you with it... you can't help but come around and end up loving the story.
I have to confess I loved The Housemistress more. Maybe it's because Vivienne Carriveau put up more of a struggle against her lusty feelings than Marlee Meeks did in this story. But the build-up is still delicious and I still give it 5 stars.
I'm with Arn on this one. I feel like I should not like this book. But props to the author for writing a book that should feel creepy but doesn't because of her amazing writing ability. Therefore, I'll read anything she publishes.
This is a great way to get back into reading novels. Starting off with a great f/f romance. (There is an age gap, but I am a sucker for those) I don’t want to say that this is my favorite Keira Michelle Telford book because I still have more to read.. but this one really had me hooked and I may read it again in the future.
I loved the turmoil that Marlee had and how she really didn’t want to give in. I loved that this was angst free, though I was anxious with Cadences parents. Loved the banter between Marlee and Cadence, they felt like a genuine couple. The plot is kind of simple, but cute.
Sidenote: I read this in one sitting while at work. This book is steamy and I really shouldn’t have read it at work. I’m sure I blushed a few times.
Can’t wait to read another book by Telford, so far I have not been disappointed.
Her first period arrived at thirteen, not long after Marlee’s arrival at Neverleigh, as if the mere presence of her delightful new nanny kick-started her body’s need to reach maturity.
My, oh my. Keira Michelle Telford is skirting a line with this one. Basic blurb: Cadence has been in love with her nanny since she was thirteen. As Cadence’s sixteenth birthday approaches, there is a sexual awakening in Marlee, her nanny, when she sees Cadence in a black dress. She realises the girl she has been caring for so long isn't a girl anymore, but a woman with ass and boobs. But with the age of consent being seventeen, Marlee’s feelings for Cadence are not legal in the eyes of the law.
The age-gap romance with a teen one year shy of age of legal consent and her much older love interest was a theme in the author’s The Housemistress and seems to be a recurring one in many of her novels. While I loved The Housemistress, the romance depicted her made me feel uncomfortable and I asked myself why?
First of all, Cadence. Her behaviour is so very childish and teenager. She feels jealous of Marlee and even an old man approching Marlee (whom she knows to be very well gay), makes her jealous. She throws temper tantrums and her child-like disposition wasn't working at all. Moreover, Marlee is such a motherly figure for her. It's hard to see a romance working out between them at all.
It doesn't help that the book reminds me very distinctly of Lolita. It is the mark of a classic that Lolita managed to convince its readers that the sexual predation described in the book is actual a romantic one–this either offends readers or it offends readers and manges to make them marvel at the genius of the author.
the slightly feline outline of a cheekbone, the slenderness of a downy limbs, and other indices which despair and shame and tears of tenderness forbid me to tabulate―the little deadly demon among the wholesome children; she stands unrecognized by them and unconscious herself of her fantastic power. –Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
“Marlee,” Cadence coos softly, urging her to turn around. “Look at me.” Her voice is so seductive. How is that possible? How can such a sexually naïve young girl be so damn seductive? –this book
I won’t compare Marlee and Cadence’s relationship to one of sexual predation, but the way in which Marlee pushes away from Cadence but is drawn in by Cadence’s sexuality–the portrayal that somehow a sixteen year old girl's sexual advances cannot be held off by Marlee is similar to the psychology portrayed in Lolita.
Marlee has an overwhelming sexual desire for Cadence which weakens her resolve (very easily might I say) to not end their relationship right away. And the writing insinuates that it is Cadence’s sexual body that makes Marlee succumb to her advances.
Marlee feels her body respond to Cadence’s provocative form. –this book
There is another addition to their dynamic–Cadence has been in love with Marlee since she was thirteen. KMT goes so far to mention that Cadence has been “shaving since she was thirteen”.
Stepping away from the nuances of the relationship, I'll talk about the writing. Keira Michelle Telford tries to write in a way which is simultaneously modern but also vintage but comes off as a mild case of purple prose. She tries to be intense but it doesn't work, particularly the sex scenes which are supposed to be erotic.
The characters in this book are just carricatures and skeletal archetypes with no flesh whatsoever. Cadence’s father is an asshole who dresses Marlee in clothes which will sexualize and stress her cleavage. Cadence’s mother is a woman who calls her daughter a "dyke" in a derogatory manner and has no character of her own. The maid (Rachel) Marlee had been having an on-and-off relationship with is just a barrier to evoke jealousy in Cadence, a testimony to her love for Marlee (this approach just doesn't work with me, ever. But then Cadence is just sixteen and we can't really expect her to know better). Cadence herself behave like a teenager. Marlee’s family (shown very briefly) are the supportive type as expected of them.
The only character we have any insight to is Marlee because the book is from her pov. But most of her thought comprise of how sexy Cadence is.
The biggest fallacy (for me) in this book is that it doesn't have any real conflict. Cadence’s father is a sexual predator but he never tries to put a hand on Marlee unlike many governesses who have experienced harassment on the job. No, the only conflict Marlee faces is that she doesn't get vacations for which she is handsomely compensated.
Moreover two people who find out about their licentious relationship are hardly even bothered by it. Marlee’s sister is supportive of her and even Rachel encourages her. Marlee never has to encounter any real barrier to their relationship in any form. There are so many things Cadences parents could do to Marlee when Cadence announced their relationship to them: they could kick her out of the job. They could get the law involved on this. They are extremely wealthy people and should be able to influence authorities as they see fit. Marlee being an "old dyke" as they see it, should be removed for being a bad influence on their daughter (their words).
Ending spoiler:
Everything is so incredibly easy.
And that's okay, except KMT tries to make it intense. The book is just a whole pile of wangst.
Nothing as gritty as the cover suggests it might be.
Romantic development based on the physical attraction so heavily doesn't work well for me. Cadence is 'milky' and 'white' her body lean and angular but simultaneously curvy while Marlee is a large-breasted woman whose skin is 'smooth and flawless' even at 33. And yet both characters lack the sensual appeal of Rylie and Vivienne from The Housemistress (sorry, I can't stop comparing!)
A 1.5 star read. The sex scenes bored me out of my mind. And Marlee’s internal monologuing during the sex is annoying. She has way of exclaiming things like:
Cadence had come to her! (Yes, she did. Get over it.)
Cadence is thinking about sex! (Yeah, sixteen yo is thinking about sex. What about it?)
Cadence isn’t wearing a bra! (No shit, Sherlock)
Cadence really wants to have sex with her! (Cool.)
Cadence had a wet dream! (Wow.)
She’s only sixteen! (No! No way! Really?!)
And oh my goodness, the obsession with sex and virginity and the hymen. I understand that authors do their own opinion inserts in books, but the whole "author insert Marlee monologue" that preservation of the hymen is an oh so archaic thought (which it is!) was so annoying.
Scissoring and dry jumping despite the sexual climax and orgasm is “a kind of sex we can have without you (Cadence) giving anything up.
(The way in which Marlee baby-talks Cadence is ridiculous and ruined the dynamic for me. This quote is a prime example of that)
I'm really starting to love her standalone stories this one did not disappoint. Marlee being a nanny what a great teacher for Cadence if you know what I mean (hot) ;)
After having read two of the author's books, I can see a pattern here.
THE PATTERN She seems to be very partial about a particular pairing of her main characters: a minor mature beyond her years and certain about her sexuality, and an irresistibly beautiful and curvaceous 30-something wet-dream. The book sits on the border between erotic novella and lesbian romance. It's on the shorter side, and the sexual and amorous tension between the leads develops early on. No time to waste.
There is . The author doesn't shy away from colorful language, which I don't have a problem with, except...
Both leads are distinctly femme, and the author allows no room for doubt there, which is good for those who are into this (myself), but suckers for the butch-femme game will find absolutely no luck here, not even in a way of side characters, so consider yourselves warned. My only pet peeve is , but it's not too overcooked.
What's a bit cringe worthy is, . The elephant in the room is not so much the age difference itself, but rather the age of the younger lead. I don't have a big problem with her motivation in the story, after all I too used to be a 16yo fawning over my 30-something attractive female teacher. What concerns me is the motivation on the side of the 30-something years old. I can't help but see her involvement as somewhat predatory, . 30+yos have a considerable advantage in maturity and life's experience over teenagers, so their relationship cannot be symmetrical, even if both of them had the best intentions to have it that way. And this is true regardless of the fair point levelled in both of the author's books I've read so far about the arbitrary nature of the age limit of consent in different countries.
END OF THE PATTERN
The author can certainly write a witty dialogue and conceive an intriguing character, and after reading two of her books, I have to say I would really like to read a longer story from her, one where (if I could make a wish) she'd reduce the age gap to say more manageable 10 years, and increase the age of the younger woman to 20-something (to remove the cringe), and provide the reader with a larger canvas on which to portray the leads. I don't doubt for a second she'd be perfectly capable of that, but the question is whether she'd be interested and emotionally invested in such a thing.
This is the 3rd book I’ve read by this author. And I am always unsure how I feel when it comes to love that presents itself in this way. I remember being quite sure of a lot of decisions that I made when I was younger. Is it possible to know without a doubt who you belong with even at such a young age? It really is a fine line. I do remember when 12 y/o girls were being given in marriage. As society changed so did the age of consent and certain expectations to protect the young. Biology and brain development seems to be at odds at what is old enough.
Yet I see the burgeoning love as pure and quite simple. They loved one another. They only didn’t what her parents were going to do anyway. I could feel their love. It was very palpable. I was surprised that I could feel their intense love from one another even while being conflicted about it.
I was also filled with so much angst throughout this book. I kept waiting and holding my breath that extreme trouble and punishment was coming. I think I worried about that most. Even while conflicted I still felt like they would be forced apart in the worst way imaginable. I’m still holding my heart and trying to breathe.
This is a wonderful writer. To write about something such as this in the most delicate and heartfelt way.
I’d give this 2.5 stars. Usually I would only give a rating below three stars if I regret reading the book. I don’t regret reading this book but I can’t say I enjoyed it the way I think it was meant to be enjoyed. This book was well written but I struggled to not be creeped out by Marlee. It was a short book so there was not much room for reticence. Marlee sees Cadence’s ass in a sexy dress and pretty much immediately wants to have sex with a young girl in her care. She doesn’t act on her desires at first but she doesn’t do much to stop Cadence from acting on hers. Despite the very responsible choices that have to be made by the end of the book I never really got over the creepy factor.
The set up is also so strange. Rich people who want to behave as if they are trapped in the past and expect others to act accordingly. I get that the set up is necessary for it to make sense that a teenager needs a nanny but it was so out of the expected. Honestly I think this author has a way of making a parallel universe where things are just a bit different than ours seem quite real. It is an impressive talent and I’m sure I would enjoy it more in a different book.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Definitely a slow starter and builds on the tension until they finally have their first kiss. Then they have their first times together, Cadence finally being able to do what she'd wanted to for so long with Marlee. Well-told story that I really enjoyed. Just enough sexy stuff and funny stuff. I did want to see the mom's change and progression into a better mom, but I do guess wealth has a way to make a woman either crazy or amazingly brighter and more insightful. The former became Cadence's parents.
* One last thing to add here: The tension, which revealed itself to be sexual tension of course (after that first kiss), lasted only a few weeks. Their love visibly seen growing each time they slept together. Each time they learned about the other just a little more. Their passion continuing to grow. I wish there was an extended version of the Epilogue to show where they are like 5 years down the road. I also did want to see some kind of serious action between them and the others, maybe some kind of standoff where Marlee comes to the rescue with a rifle that she purchased in secret.
This was one of the hottest books I’ve ever read. It definitely explored childish innocence as a sexual pleasure, but it quickly proved itself to be just appreciation of the young, not anything too extreme. I can see how some people might be put off, but I thought it showed a brilliant age gap romance and character development. It was also almost angst free which I am personally a fan of.
I have yet finish "Fingersmith" but this did give me the same vibe. Maybe I will do that next year. I liked this one, the connection between the MCs was good and I also loved how the younger MC was really knew what she wanted. Just amazing. I just realised in these age-gap relationships, it is usually the older person that seems uncertain.
Felt like I should not have liked it (had too much of a 'Lolita' feel to it for me) but I strangely liked it. Only because the writing was good, the subject material was a bit different to what I usually like. I read it after 'The Housemistress' which I thought was a bit 'off'.
This was good, I have read other books by the author. I am patiently waiting for further books on The Magistrate series... Been a couple of years now so I read this one next. Thanks.
quotes: 1) “I’m not for sale Marlee.” Cadence is on the verge of tears, begging for reassurance. “I want to be with someone I love” 2) Cadence loves the thought of keeping a secret with Marlee. Especially a sexy secret. 3) “If I don’t make love with you at least once a day, I’lol go batshit crazy.” (from cadence, this was so funny) 4) “Good.” Cadence leads Marlee away. “Then Marlee’s going to take me to bed.” Oh, if only they knew how true that was!
Goodreads Win An enjoyable read, but the characters were superficially written with not much backstory. The emotions and feelings were well developed, and I enjoyed the new contemporary spin on an old culture with old habits. I would have liked to see more in-depth characters. Good read!