Clyde is living a life that is not his own in rural he is controlled by fear and his older brother's violent rage. He passes time by smoking pot and having anonymous sex with men at rest areas. Then he meets Evan. Clyde must find the strength in himself to stand on his own feet and become a man worthy of Evan's affections. (M/M)
This is certainly an interesting piece of writing. There is the naiveté of the primary MC, Clyde, and yet not. Clyde and his brother, John, contract to cut timber locally in Maine. They live with their mama and the family is somewhat rough around the edges. Clyde loves his brother, but maybe not just in a brotherly fashion. He thinks it's more than that. But when they hire Evan it starts to sink in that what Clyde feels for his older brother is quite possibly nothing more than brotherly love, mixed in with some youthful confusion. What he's feeling for Evan is more significant. I guess the most confusing aspect for me was that Clyde felt he loved John when he also feared his reaction. Knew John could be a bit hot-headed, thought he would be aggressive along with homophobic once he found out Clyde was gay. Anyway... People don't always react the way you think they will. Clyde is sweet, Evan the same, and John was a pretty good guy when push came to shove. Besides, you have to love guys who love their mum.
I'm a character person and I loved -- absolutely loved -- John in this. He's the older brother, and fits every stereotypical homophobic, racist, and downright abusive tag going. Or so you think. There's a beautiful twist in this. It comes on such a violent and brutal turn of events concerning Clyde, his younger brother, and you can't help but feel for both of them when the line between brothers is crossed, but... this was a perfect read. I would have loved it to be just a little longer, but as stands... perfect! John was such a huge surprise. I really wanted to hate him, but couldn't. And in a way, I see why Clyde felt the way he did about him. All it took was a little growing up on Clyde's part to see it, and the reader is taken beautifully through his character growth in order to see him reach this understanding.
This was a surprising story. A short story packing a mean punch. It goes to say you never really know someone. Most of the time not even yourself. And sometimes, do you even want to? Growing up, becoming a man; is not only unavoidable but also hard work. You need to be prepare. And under the right circumstances, you'll be. You'll command your life and yourself when the time is right. Family, environment, love... it all factors in the man you'll become. For better. Or worse. Or worst.
I loved this story. Seemed simple but had hidden a whole lot of meaning. And some truth. And some of that was scary as hell to face.
There was much that I liked in the story. Reading it felt like getting the message: You should love your brother, but not in a sexual way. But when you do anyway, you should feel guilty. I didn't like that message.
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