2.5 ⭐
First things first, the book cover is atrocious. I can't help but cringe every time I open my Kindle and see that in my library. Good thing, though; I'll be getting rid of that after I return this book.
Secondly, I felt so exhausted after reading this story. I didn't know this was a slow burn—well, technically not—because Toren (33) and Jennsyn (21/22) had ONS in chapter one, but that was FTB. Anyway, after that one night, the progress then became a slow burn that I didn't enjoy at all. Everything was dragged on, and my frustration is getting worse with every chapter.
These two had spent more time apart than together. And on the off chance that they could talk or have a decent interaction, it would only last for a few minutes, then they'd go back to avoiding each other for days, sometimes weeks.
But apparently the pull between them is too strong to resist, and their one night cements a bond that can never be broken. I would even say this was love at first sight; just reading Toren's POV and him all of a sudden spewing poetic stuff is more than enough to give that impression. I think it was the same for Jennsyn (weird name, btw).
Aside from the fact that they are apart most of the time, I didn't like that Jennsyn was the main pursuer in this freaking relationship. She's the one who's always seeking Toren out, making excuses to talk to him or just see a glimpse of him. She was the one who put in so much effort just to connect with him, and mind you, she did that up until the 63% mark. I mean, she's definitely something; I'm not sure to applaud or shake her hard, honestly.
Toren said he's hopelessly fucked in all the right ways when it comes to Jennsysn. But I think I could probably count, using two hands, the number of times he tried to show this affection for her. I have to admit, he has a good way with words. While it's endearing to read his inner monologues about his feelings for Jennsyn, there's not much action from him to support those feelings. Maybe because it's the forbidden aspect of their situation? Idk, honestly. Because if that's the case, why can Jennsyn find ways to see him and Toren can't do the same? 🤷♀️
Anyway, like I said, this is a slow burn, and they only decided to throw the caution at the 63% mark. Of course, it has to be a secret, and they have to sneak in at night to spend time together. But even during these times that they were together, they hardly talked about relevant stuff; most of it was spent getting tangled in the sheets. 😮💨
And the reason why Jennsyn decided to transfer schools was revealed way too late in the book. Actually, it was only brought up in the last chapter! Why, though? She spent 92% of the book on her own, excluding the time with Toren. She never made any friends on her team, thanks to her trust issues.
Had she tried to open up to her roommates, who happen to be her teammates as well, I think the burden she's carrying would be much lighter. Liv and Stevie have shown her time and time again how they want to include her in their activities, yet she keeps turning them down every time. I really hoped she'd eventually give them a chance, or at least the benefit of the doubt, but nah, she was more than happy to be a loner and avoid them all the time.
Ugh, I really didn't enjoy it, mainly because of the push and pull that lasted way too long, Jennsyn's trust issues (also parental issues), and Toren's indecisiveness. I wish I could say I had a great time reading this, but that would be a lie.
While this didn't work for me, maybe other readers might find this more up their alley.
Book info:
- Small town romance
- Sports romance
- Forbidden romance
- Coach x Student
- ONS
- Parental issues (strict, neglectful)
- Age gap (12)
- No cheating, OMD, breakup
- OWD (two scenes where women flirted with him but he wasn't interested)
- Non-virgin MCs (h - few bfs, H - playboy)
- Celibate after their ONS (but the H did think, not just once, trying to get laid to get over the h, but he didn't push through with it 🙄)
- HFN (7 mos later)
- Bonus epilogue (8 years later, married with 2 daughters)