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Therapy
Sometimes you have to get lost in order to be found...
I’m needy.
I’m broken.
Cutting breaks through my numbness, but only opens more wounds.
Depression, self-harm, bullying....that's my reality.
Sex and guys....that's my escape.
The space between the truth and lies is blurred leaving me torn, lost and confused. And while the monsters that live in my head try to beat me-- the two men that I love try to save me.
This is my story of friendship, heartache, and the grueling journey that is mental-illness.
Warning: Due to possible triggering subject matter and some sexual situations this book is not recommended for anyone under the age of 17 years old.
I’m needy.
I’m broken.
Cutting breaks through my numbness, but only opens more wounds.
Depression, self-harm, bullying....that's my reality.
Sex and guys....that's my escape.
The space between the truth and lies is blurred leaving me torn, lost and confused. And while the monsters that live in my head try to beat me-- the two men that I love try to save me.
This is my story of friendship, heartache, and the grueling journey that is mental-illness.
Warning: Due to possible triggering subject matter and some sexual situations this book is not recommended for anyone under the age of 17 years old.
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First published February 10, 2014
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April 20, 2015
5 stars!
Therapy left me speechless. I read it over a week ago and I’m just now writing the review. After I finished, I was gutted. It was devastating, beautiful and emotional. It’s one of those books that won’t be for everyone, but I loved it. Therapy is the perfect title for this book, because I feel like I’m in need of some therapy after reading it.
Her life is a mess. Cutting, sleeping around, being constantly bullied by the popular kids at school. Except for Jace. Jace is one of the most popular, but he doesn’t pick on Jess. In fact, he stands up for her and tries to get the others to stop. Jace is every girls high school crush. Jessica is no different. He’s the perfect guy. Sweet, hot, and popular. And he wants to be friends with Jessica. Jace’s friendship changes her life.
Before Jace goes off to college, a stupid mistake Jessica makes changes everything between them.
Six years later, Jessica is older and on her own. She isn’t as shy as she was in highschool, but the way she copes hasn’t changed. She gets into some trouble and gets sentenced to Therapy. Individual Therapy and group Therapy. She gets diagnosed and figures out why she is the way she is. Then Jace comes back into her life. Even though he’s unavailable, theres a part of him that can’t let Jessica go. He still has all the feelings for her he once had. That hasn’t changed.
Then there is Kingsley. The guy she meets in group. He’s there for an entirely different reason than Jess. He grows to care for her. Teaches her that it’s okay to have a normal, healthy friendship and relationship.
Things get complicated. Things from the past come to light. Jace learns some things that change his perception of past events. Theres Jace... theres Kingsley... Will either be able to save Jessica from herself? Or will she learn once and for all that only she can do that?
I really want to go on and on about Kingsley, Jace, the snowflake and so much more, but this is a story you won’t want spoiled. You want all the twists and turns to be a surprise. This book will stick with me. The story and characters I won’t be forgetting anytime soon. It’s a story about mental health, bullying, first loves, vindictive people, forgiveness, friendship, healing and survival. I felt when I read this book. A lot of the feelings weren't good, but they were strong. I was reading this the same time as one of my friends and I had to call and leave her a crying voice message at one point- That’s how this book effected me. But if you know anything about me as a reader, I love to feel, so it worked. There was a lot I loved about this book-
I loved the writing, the fact that you got the perspective of three of the characters, and all the emotions I felt. Even though it didn’t end in the way I wanted it to, I still loved it. I recommend this book to all of you readers like me that like to feel, and don’t mind crying through an entire book ;) Be prepared, it’s an emotional rollercoaster of a read! I applaud this author for writing about such a difficult subject that is so personal to her. Bravo. This is the first Kathryn Perez book I've read, but it won't be the last!
*ARC kindly provided by author in exchange for an honest review*
Therapy left me speechless. I read it over a week ago and I’m just now writing the review. After I finished, I was gutted. It was devastating, beautiful and emotional. It’s one of those books that won’t be for everyone, but I loved it. Therapy is the perfect title for this book, because I feel like I’m in need of some therapy after reading it.
“They say monsters live under our beds. They’re wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”Jessica Alexander has some issues. Jessica is starting her senior year of high school. She doesn’t have any ‘real friends’. She is a cutter. She is also defined as a slut by the majority of the other students. All she wants is to feel loved, connected. Sex is the only way she gets that feeling. Cutting also makes her feel. She feels alive, it gives her control and a different kind of pain to focus on.
Her life is a mess. Cutting, sleeping around, being constantly bullied by the popular kids at school. Except for Jace. Jace is one of the most popular, but he doesn’t pick on Jess. In fact, he stands up for her and tries to get the others to stop. Jace is every girls high school crush. Jessica is no different. He’s the perfect guy. Sweet, hot, and popular. And he wants to be friends with Jessica. Jace’s friendship changes her life.
Before Jace goes off to college, a stupid mistake Jessica makes changes everything between them.
Six years later, Jessica is older and on her own. She isn’t as shy as she was in highschool, but the way she copes hasn’t changed. She gets into some trouble and gets sentenced to Therapy. Individual Therapy and group Therapy. She gets diagnosed and figures out why she is the way she is. Then Jace comes back into her life. Even though he’s unavailable, theres a part of him that can’t let Jessica go. He still has all the feelings for her he once had. That hasn’t changed.
“You were beautifully flawed, but perfect to me.”
“I belong to you, Jess. My heart has belonged to you since I scooped you up off the ground over six years ago. That has never changed.”
“Let me go, Jace.”
“I don’t know how.”
Then there is Kingsley. The guy she meets in group. He’s there for an entirely different reason than Jess. He grows to care for her. Teaches her that it’s okay to have a normal, healthy friendship and relationship.
“You’ve awakened a part of me that’s been locked away for the past year. I love you and if loving you is wrong, then I don’t ever want to be right.”
Things get complicated. Things from the past come to light. Jace learns some things that change his perception of past events. Theres Jace... theres Kingsley... Will either be able to save Jessica from herself? Or will she learn once and for all that only she can do that?
I really want to go on and on about Kingsley, Jace, the snowflake and so much more, but this is a story you won’t want spoiled. You want all the twists and turns to be a surprise. This book will stick with me. The story and characters I won’t be forgetting anytime soon. It’s a story about mental health, bullying, first loves, vindictive people, forgiveness, friendship, healing and survival. I felt when I read this book. A lot of the feelings weren't good, but they were strong. I was reading this the same time as one of my friends and I had to call and leave her a crying voice message at one point- That’s how this book effected me. But if you know anything about me as a reader, I love to feel, so it worked. There was a lot I loved about this book-
I loved the writing, the fact that you got the perspective of three of the characters, and all the emotions I felt. Even though it didn’t end in the way I wanted it to, I still loved it. I recommend this book to all of you readers like me that like to feel, and don’t mind crying through an entire book ;) Be prepared, it’s an emotional rollercoaster of a read! I applaud this author for writing about such a difficult subject that is so personal to her. Bravo. This is the first Kathryn Perez book I've read, but it won't be the last!
*ARC kindly provided by author in exchange for an honest review*
September 27, 2015
“They say monsters live under beds. They're wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”
This is the story of Jessica Alexander. A high school student who lets guys use her body as they please and then gets bullied about that from the popular kids. Jessica is trying hard to feel some kind of love and connection from those around her , that's why she lets guys manipulate her. She's also cutting herself, because she believes that this is how she's having control of her own pain.
"Sex is my way of connecting, another way to feel something. I guess sex equals love for me since I have no idea what love really feels like. It’s my
version of love and it fills a void, so I continue the vicious cycle of sleeping with every guy I go out with."
"Their weapons aren’t illegal, yet they cut me deeper than a blade ever could. Hiding behind electronic shields, they use their words like swords. I wonder what’s worse—the invisible scars they leave or the visible scars I inflict upon myself?"
Jace is the only popular guy who doesn't treat her that way. Not only that, but he tries to defend her and get her back on her feet. He's becoming the only friend she ever had and since he was also her crush, she's getting attached to him. But Jace doesn't want to treat her like other guys were treating her, so he's offering to her his friendship and only.
“You’re worth more than you think.
You just have to believe that;
then everyone else will too.”
Their story takes an unexpected twist and because of certain circumstances they lose each other and the story moves forward several years later where they meet again.
New persons are in their lives now and things become messy once again. Kingsley is someone who waltzed into Jessica's life the most appropriate moment and their relationship took a turn that no one expected.
It's been a week since the day I finished reading this book. I still don't know how I feel about it. I still don't know what should be the most appropriate rating for this one. I don't think it's either 'you love it or hate it' kind of book. I believe this is far more complicated.
I was so mad at the characters of the book. I was so mad at the author of this book. This book was freaking intense and had me frustrated. I didn't support their movements. I didn't support their conversations or their actions. It got me emotional and I couldn't stand the pain that it caused me.
I don't want to say much, because this book shouldn't be spoiled. It has so many twists and turns and you get shell shocked every now and then. My own advise would be to turn the pages slowly because you really don't know when you'll be staring at the pages speechless. A powerful book addressing really intense issues. I'm sure this story is going to keep me troubled for a long while.
Thank you for the BR Alice!
This is the story of Jessica Alexander. A high school student who lets guys use her body as they please and then gets bullied about that from the popular kids. Jessica is trying hard to feel some kind of love and connection from those around her , that's why she lets guys manipulate her. She's also cutting herself, because she believes that this is how she's having control of her own pain.
"Sex is my way of connecting, another way to feel something. I guess sex equals love for me since I have no idea what love really feels like. It’s my
version of love and it fills a void, so I continue the vicious cycle of sleeping with every guy I go out with."
"Their weapons aren’t illegal, yet they cut me deeper than a blade ever could. Hiding behind electronic shields, they use their words like swords. I wonder what’s worse—the invisible scars they leave or the visible scars I inflict upon myself?"
Jace is the only popular guy who doesn't treat her that way. Not only that, but he tries to defend her and get her back on her feet. He's becoming the only friend she ever had and since he was also her crush, she's getting attached to him. But Jace doesn't want to treat her like other guys were treating her, so he's offering to her his friendship and only.
“You’re worth more than you think.
You just have to believe that;
then everyone else will too.”
Their story takes an unexpected twist and because of certain circumstances they lose each other and the story moves forward several years later where they meet again.
New persons are in their lives now and things become messy once again. Kingsley is someone who waltzed into Jessica's life the most appropriate moment and their relationship took a turn that no one expected.
It's been a week since the day I finished reading this book. I still don't know how I feel about it. I still don't know what should be the most appropriate rating for this one. I don't think it's either 'you love it or hate it' kind of book. I believe this is far more complicated.
I was so mad at the characters of the book. I was so mad at the author of this book. This book was freaking intense and had me frustrated. I didn't support their movements. I didn't support their conversations or their actions. It got me emotional and I couldn't stand the pain that it caused me.
I don't want to say much, because this book shouldn't be spoiled. It has so many twists and turns and you get shell shocked every now and then. My own advise would be to turn the pages slowly because you really don't know when you'll be staring at the pages speechless. A powerful book addressing really intense issues. I'm sure this story is going to keep me troubled for a long while.
Thank you for the BR Alice!
October 9, 2014
3.75 Therapy Stars
”They say monsters live under beds. They’re wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”
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OVER THE TOP DRAMA, COINCIDENCES and ANGST GALORE but if you’re a fan of the Avoiding Series this books a smidge like that, but on CRACK!
This story felt the like the author threw in everything but the kitchen sink at times but I did read it in one sitting. I really liked the main character, the author’s writing style, and those two hot guys!!
The first 60% of the story (5 Stars for me) had a nice pace and the writing is indeed highlight worthy but then the author crammed in so much drama that I couldn’t stop reading but also for me took away from the story and it's believability and I felt like she threw everything she could think of into one book- lies, schemes, coincidences, pregnancies and death.
The story starts with a Jessica in her senior year being brutally bullied by two horrible girls at school while having feelings for one their boyfriends. It should be mentioned that Jessica is a cutter, she suffers from undiagnosed mental illness and she falls hard for the hot quarterback and all around athlete, who not only defends her but befriends her.
”I. See. You. Jessica Alexander.” He cups my cheeks and repeats himself, “I see you. You need to see you too.”
After Jase leaves for college and a very poor decision on Jessica’s part the couple/friendship is shut down by her and she moves on with her life.
”It’s been six years and it’s time to stop missing him, wanting him, and wondering where he is and if he’s happy.”
Six years later, their paths cross again when Jessica faces mandatory therapy by a judge and she is diagnosed. Jase is engaged but wants a life with Jessica, while Jessica meets a wonderful guy named Kingsley at a group meeting, Jase’s mother is sick, his fiancé is a witch and author takes us one crazy ride.
”I’m closer to happy than I ever have been, I think.”
I would recommend that in the future the author tones down the drama a few notches and her reading audience will definitely increase because her writing style is enjoyable!
”They say monsters live under beds. They’re wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”
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OVER THE TOP DRAMA, COINCIDENCES and ANGST GALORE but if you’re a fan of the Avoiding Series this books a smidge like that, but on CRACK!
This story felt the like the author threw in everything but the kitchen sink at times but I did read it in one sitting. I really liked the main character, the author’s writing style, and those two hot guys!!
The first 60% of the story (5 Stars for me) had a nice pace and the writing is indeed highlight worthy but then the author crammed in so much drama that I couldn’t stop reading but also for me took away from the story and it's believability and I felt like she threw everything she could think of into one book- lies, schemes, coincidences, pregnancies and death.
The story starts with a Jessica in her senior year being brutally bullied by two horrible girls at school while having feelings for one their boyfriends. It should be mentioned that Jessica is a cutter, she suffers from undiagnosed mental illness and she falls hard for the hot quarterback and all around athlete, who not only defends her but befriends her.
”I. See. You. Jessica Alexander.” He cups my cheeks and repeats himself, “I see you. You need to see you too.”
After Jase leaves for college and a very poor decision on Jessica’s part the couple/friendship is shut down by her and she moves on with her life.
”It’s been six years and it’s time to stop missing him, wanting him, and wondering where he is and if he’s happy.”
Six years later, their paths cross again when Jessica faces mandatory therapy by a judge and she is diagnosed. Jase is engaged but wants a life with Jessica, while Jessica meets a wonderful guy named Kingsley at a group meeting, Jase’s mother is sick, his fiancé is a witch and author takes us one crazy ride.
”I’m closer to happy than I ever have been, I think.”
I would recommend that in the future the author tones down the drama a few notches and her reading audience will definitely increase because her writing style is enjoyable!
February 19, 2014
5+++++ therapeutic stars!!
I would class myself as an emotional reader, don't get me wrong I love smuty reads and 9/10 times I need smut in my books but sometimes I need emotion, I tend to read books that have a story behind the story if you get me? a moto, something that will help me think and be a better person in real life. I work as an health care in a hospital so I would definitely say this story sat home in my life and my job to be better, to help better, to not judge and to love more.
I would say all these all have some role in this story, this is not a light read but still it did consume me and I loved it, would I recommend it? yes but its not a meets b and happy ever after this is an emotional roller-coaster of a story and this story comes from the heart, this author has lived these scenes herself so has come from living with mental health problems herself, your really understanding what it's like to live like that, I'd say if you enjoyed Meredith Walters in the dark series you'll love this story and yes its a stand alone with an hea.
Ok so what's it about
This is about a girl who is different, who doesn't act the same as all her peers, who's quiet but comes off as a slut and sex is where she feels along with cutting herself and writing her emotions down in poetry they're the three things that enable Jess to survive. Jess is bullied throughout her school life, her mums an alcoholic, her dad has no emotion and doesn't want to know her, her brother lives elsewhere as a attorney as doesn't want to know her therefore she's lost and alone with no-one that cares but around people that judge and isolate her.
She just wants to feel
Therefore she cuts..
Jace is popular, he has a plan for his future mapped out for him mainly from his mother but still he has a future mapped out, his friends are not nice to Jess, his girlfriend is Jess's bully and this story really does illustrate bullying not in the kind way, some people can really be cruel, they judge Jess. Jace on the otherhand wants to be Jess's friend and help her, this is where their feelings get in the midst of the story don't worry I'm not going to go into too much more detail of the story but this is very much a romance still it is yes about mental health etc but romance is very much a vital part intigated into the plot.
There are many bumps along the way, emotions and things that go on that really you need to read for yourself but this is a beautiful book. Beauty doesn't always come from what you see but what lies within and I'd say this story really is about whats inside and how Jessica comes alive and learns how to live This is survival
"Nothing makes us so lonely as our secrets."-paul Tornier
Is love enough though??
Will time heal wounds??
Is Jace a victim too??
And one little girl with a snowflake that saves the day....
"I love you, Jess. All of you: the good, the bad, and the imperfect. I love it all."
Jessica
A recommended read!!!
I would class myself as an emotional reader, don't get me wrong I love smuty reads and 9/10 times I need smut in my books but sometimes I need emotion, I tend to read books that have a story behind the story if you get me? a moto, something that will help me think and be a better person in real life. I work as an health care in a hospital so I would definitely say this story sat home in my life and my job to be better, to help better, to not judge and to love more.
Pain, hurt, sad, happy, sex, cutting, mental health, being different, family, friends, soul-mates, other half, marriage, judging, being different, bullying
I would say all these all have some role in this story, this is not a light read but still it did consume me and I loved it, would I recommend it? yes but its not a meets b and happy ever after this is an emotional roller-coaster of a story and this story comes from the heart, this author has lived these scenes herself so has come from living with mental health problems herself, your really understanding what it's like to live like that, I'd say if you enjoyed Meredith Walters in the dark series you'll love this story and yes its a stand alone with an hea.
Ok so what's it about
This is about a girl who is different, who doesn't act the same as all her peers, who's quiet but comes off as a slut and sex is where she feels along with cutting herself and writing her emotions down in poetry they're the three things that enable Jess to survive. Jess is bullied throughout her school life, her mums an alcoholic, her dad has no emotion and doesn't want to know her, her brother lives elsewhere as a attorney as doesn't want to know her therefore she's lost and alone with no-one that cares but around people that judge and isolate her.
She just wants to feel
Therefore she cuts..
Jace is popular, he has a plan for his future mapped out for him mainly from his mother but still he has a future mapped out, his friends are not nice to Jess, his girlfriend is Jess's bully and this story really does illustrate bullying not in the kind way, some people can really be cruel, they judge Jess. Jace on the otherhand wants to be Jess's friend and help her, this is where their feelings get in the midst of the story don't worry I'm not going to go into too much more detail of the story but this is very much a romance still it is yes about mental health etc but romance is very much a vital part intigated into the plot.
There are many bumps along the way, emotions and things that go on that really you need to read for yourself but this is a beautiful book. Beauty doesn't always come from what you see but what lies within and I'd say this story really is about whats inside and how Jessica comes alive and learns how to live This is survival
You are brave. You are strong. You are smart. You are beautiful. You are worth it.
"Nothing makes us so lonely as our secrets."-paul Tornier
Is love enough though??
Will time heal wounds??
"Second chances are sometimes needed more than once"
Is Jace a victim too??
And one little girl with a snowflake that saves the day....
"I love you, Jess. All of you: the good, the bad, and the imperfect. I love it all."
Jessica
A recommended read!!!
i-m-a-quitter
February 19, 2014DNF at approximately 30%...I tried, and I just can't do it.
Warning: Probably contains spoilers!!
Reading about the bullying.....BRUTAL! It made my heart hurt. I wanted to cry for how cruel they were to Jessica. I felt for her and what she had to go through. Cutting was something she could control in an environment that was completely out of her control. It lessened the pain.
Her poetry was tragic yet beautiful. Words and music were her other escape. Jessica wrote what she couldn't say. She had no friends. She was invisible to her family and everyone around her. Writing was Jessica's way of expressing all that she felt.
And then there was Jace. I just don't understand why he let the bullying go on for as long as it did. His girlfriend Elizabeth and her BFF Hailey were the most vile people. Incomprehensible the things they did to Jessica.
Jace finally stands up for Jessica. He saves her after she's been beat my Elizabeth and her posse. Jessica and Jace become friends. Best friends. Jessica wants more, but Jace doesn't want to ruin what they have. Jessica has an obsessive personality. When she's with guys she becomes what she thinks they want. She becomes clingy. She gets jealous. She wants them to want her and to want to be with her.
This is where things turned for me.....Jessica's jealousy and behaviors towards Jace made no sense to me. The scene where she catches Jace at the pool with another girl. *shakes head*
And then Jace's reaction....showing up at her house drunk and then proceeding to have sex with her? And for Jessica to lie and say she was on birth control so that Jace wouldn't use a condom?
Now I'm really not liking you much Jessica.
Well guess who gets pregnant from that one time having sex.....Jessica! And does she do the right thing and tell Jace? Hell to the NO!
Jessica lies some more. Jace isn't keen on the idea of being a dad.....he's pissed that Jessica didn't give him the choice. He's just starting college and a baby will ruin everything.
So Jessica makes more bad decisions. She lies, lies, lies. And gets Jace's mom to help her get rid of the baby. Now at this point, I'm not thinking Jessica's actions are in any way redeemable. At all. And it's official I don't like you Jessica.
Jessica cuts off all ties with Jace and moves to Dallas and becomes a bartender and drinks and sluts away all of her problems.....and now I'm done.
I don't even care what happens to Jessica. I don't think she deserves Jace after what she did. And while I can honestly say, I don't know the pain that Jessica feels, and what she goes through mentally....she knew what she was doing when she lied and told Jace she was on birth control. Period.
PS--The story and writing also got choppy here for me too. The first 25%+ of the book is present day and then all of a sudden we flash forward six years and get a bunch of flashbacks. It didn't flow for me.
Warning: Probably contains spoilers!!
Reading about the bullying.....BRUTAL! It made my heart hurt. I wanted to cry for how cruel they were to Jessica. I felt for her and what she had to go through. Cutting was something she could control in an environment that was completely out of her control. It lessened the pain.
Her poetry was tragic yet beautiful. Words and music were her other escape. Jessica wrote what she couldn't say. She had no friends. She was invisible to her family and everyone around her. Writing was Jessica's way of expressing all that she felt.
And then there was Jace. I just don't understand why he let the bullying go on for as long as it did. His girlfriend Elizabeth and her BFF Hailey were the most vile people. Incomprehensible the things they did to Jessica.
Jace finally stands up for Jessica. He saves her after she's been beat my Elizabeth and her posse. Jessica and Jace become friends. Best friends. Jessica wants more, but Jace doesn't want to ruin what they have. Jessica has an obsessive personality. When she's with guys she becomes what she thinks they want. She becomes clingy. She gets jealous. She wants them to want her and to want to be with her.
This is where things turned for me.....Jessica's jealousy and behaviors towards Jace made no sense to me. The scene where she catches Jace at the pool with another girl. *shakes head*
And then Jace's reaction....showing up at her house drunk and then proceeding to have sex with her? And for Jessica to lie and say she was on birth control so that Jace wouldn't use a condom?
Now I'm really not liking you much Jessica.
Well guess who gets pregnant from that one time having sex.....Jessica! And does she do the right thing and tell Jace? Hell to the NO!
Jessica lies some more. Jace isn't keen on the idea of being a dad.....he's pissed that Jessica didn't give him the choice. He's just starting college and a baby will ruin everything.
So Jessica makes more bad decisions. She lies, lies, lies. And gets Jace's mom to help her get rid of the baby. Now at this point, I'm not thinking Jessica's actions are in any way redeemable. At all. And it's official I don't like you Jessica.
Jessica cuts off all ties with Jace and moves to Dallas and becomes a bartender and drinks and sluts away all of her problems.....and now I'm done.
I don't even care what happens to Jessica. I don't think she deserves Jace after what she did. And while I can honestly say, I don't know the pain that Jessica feels, and what she goes through mentally....she knew what she was doing when she lied and told Jace she was on birth control. Period.
PS--The story and writing also got choppy here for me too. The first 25%+ of the book is present day and then all of a sudden we flash forward six years and get a bunch of flashbacks. It didn't flow for me.
February 19, 2014
It's vampire hour and I have to get up at 5:30am. I look sucker punched!!!! This book was so beautiful. This is a stay with me forever book. Damn I feel so gutted even though the book ended in my favor ❤️❤️❤️ I still feel incredible pain. This is by far not an easy read but I highly recommend it !!! Just make sure you have some double ply Kleenex and fight the urge to hurl your kindle/nook/iPad and grab some friends !!! This is a hand-holding book !! I don't know what I would've done without my girls reading this at the same time ! ❤️❤️❤️ the angst is top notch !
Review to skyrocket your heart to the moon to follow ..... I need time to process dammit !
Review to skyrocket your heart to the moon to follow ..... I need time to process dammit !
January 1, 2015
Yesterdy I was seeing lists of the best books that people read in 2014 so I thought what mine would be and Therapy kept popping up in my mind. I don't think this is going to be a proper review but I just have to say something for this book. I don't want to say much because I really don't want to spoil anything so here we go.
This book broke me to pieces, them put me back together just to tear me up again!
Jess, Kingsley and Jace were all victims, trying to find a way to take control of their lifes.
“They say monsters live under our beds.
They’re wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”
Therapy is Jessica's story. Jess is a very troubled girl. She cuts and she has continues promiscuous sex with random guys to fill her need for love and attention. For that she's being bullied constantly in school.
"Needing someone to love me and want me has always
driven me to the brink of madness."
Then Jess makes an unlikely-friendship with the most popular guy in school, Jace.
I liked Jace from the start. They're time together, they're fist kiss, the first touch, everything was perfect. It felt like I was right there, experiensing everything with them. Just amazing, so raw and beautiful.
But then came one of the best book guys I've ever read!
Kingsley. Tha man left me breathless!
My god!! Kingsley stole my heart from the start. From the very first time we saw him. This character will always have a place in my heart.
I adored everything that had to do with Kingsley, from his Harley, to his guitar playing even his cooking skills.
Kingsley was PERFECTION.
His story was unbelievable, he was broken in his own way but he was also so strong. I admired his will to leave every bad memory behind and try to move forward. I loved how he helped Jess to move forward. He offered her everthing she needed to start living again and stop wasting herself away.
Jessica and Kingsley healed each other.
So if I loved it so much then why the first time I've read it I only gave it 3 stars?
Well cause .
I was crying so hard that I had to stop reading multiple times. Even now that I think about it and try to collect my thoughts, after so many months since I've read it, it gives me shivers and tears me up. That scene totally fucked me up. I don't think there are words for the emotions that it gave me.
Please, PLEASE pick up this book. It truly is a phenomenal read that will stay with you forever. It will make you cry, it will make you laugh, feel furious at times but it will also show you love and healing.
It makes you underastand the struggles and the pain, that people with mental illness or people with bad shit happening to their lifes, have to go through. And how hard is to overcome it so you can move forward.
“You’ve awakened a part of me that’s been locked away
for the past year. I love you and if loving you is wrong,
then I don’t ever want to be right.”
WOW! I've written a lot more that I thought I would but I had so much to say. Sorry if my thoughts are all over the place but this books truly gives me all the feels.
Warning. This book contains :
This book broke me to pieces, them put me back together just to tear me up again!
Jess, Kingsley and Jace were all victims, trying to find a way to take control of their lifes.
“They say monsters live under our beds.
They’re wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”
Therapy is Jessica's story. Jess is a very troubled girl. She cuts and she has continues promiscuous sex with random guys to fill her need for love and attention. For that she's being bullied constantly in school.
"Needing someone to love me and want me has always
driven me to the brink of madness."
Then Jess makes an unlikely-friendship with the most popular guy in school, Jace.
I liked Jace from the start. They're time together, they're fist kiss, the first touch, everything was perfect. It felt like I was right there, experiensing everything with them. Just amazing, so raw and beautiful.
But then came one of the best book guys I've ever read!
Kingsley. Tha man left me breathless!
My god!! Kingsley stole my heart from the start. From the very first time we saw him. This character will always have a place in my heart.
I adored everything that had to do with Kingsley, from his Harley, to his guitar playing even his cooking skills.
Kingsley was PERFECTION.
His story was unbelievable, he was broken in his own way but he was also so strong. I admired his will to leave every bad memory behind and try to move forward. I loved how he helped Jess to move forward. He offered her everthing she needed to start living again and stop wasting herself away.
Jessica and Kingsley healed each other.
So if I loved it so much then why the first time I've read it I only gave it 3 stars?
Well cause .
I was crying so hard that I had to stop reading multiple times. Even now that I think about it and try to collect my thoughts, after so many months since I've read it, it gives me shivers and tears me up. That scene totally fucked me up. I don't think there are words for the emotions that it gave me.
Please, PLEASE pick up this book. It truly is a phenomenal read that will stay with you forever. It will make you cry, it will make you laugh, feel furious at times but it will also show you love and healing.
It makes you underastand the struggles and the pain, that people with mental illness or people with bad shit happening to their lifes, have to go through. And how hard is to overcome it so you can move forward.
“You’ve awakened a part of me that’s been locked away
for the past year. I love you and if loving you is wrong,
then I don’t ever want to be right.”
WOW! I've written a lot more that I thought I would but I had so much to say. Sorry if my thoughts are all over the place but this books truly gives me all the feels.
Warning. This book contains :
January 16, 2014
5+++ Lay Down on the Couch Stars
I was honored to beta read this book for the author and write an honest review.
At the beginning I was like...
And then I was like...
And throw in a lot of....
As you know I read a lot of books. There are some books that are fun and fast and over. This is not one of those books. This one will stick with you. You will be thinking about this one for days and days after. Check with me in a few months and I am sure I will still be thinking about Therapy. Probably because I need some serious therapy after reading it. This is not an easy book to read. There are really hard parts to it. And funny parts. And sad parts. And hopeful parts.
So tired
Can't let go
Can't move on
Standing still
Running away
Can you still see me?
Am I fading away?...
Jessica is depressed, cuts herself, writes beautiful poetry and wants to fade away. Be invisible. Not be noticed. Because being noticed hurts.
Jace is the boy who sees her. He tries to rescue Jessica from all the pain that has come her way. And he does. For a time. The thing about having a rope thrown to you....about having a reprieve from the bad stuff, is that when that rope is taken away, when the reprieve is over....it makes the hurt that much more. Because now you know what happy feels like. And you miss it.
"No matter how hard you try to hide inside yourself, I'll always see you. Those walls may be up, but I see right through them", he whispers. Then he turns and walks away.
Walks. Away. Jessica must learn to put herself back together. In therapy she meets Kingsley. He also knows about loss. Can he and Jessica heal each other?
You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience....
But Jace is not ready to let Jessica go. He still has feelings for her. When their worlds collide, Jace, Jessica, and Kingsley are all pulled together...all circle each other. Like a star imploding. When that happens, a black hole is formed. A black hole that sucks everyone in. And you are sucked right in with them.
There are bitchy fiancés, controlling mothers, absent mothers, heartbreaking stories, stolen files, protective snowflakes, sexy guitar playing, mean girls, and moments of hope.
This is ultimately the story of people who have very little choice in their life. Jessica, Jace and Kingsley are all victims of other people's choices. I was so mad when I read this. Mad at each of them. Mad at Ms Perez for making me hurt and laugh and feel along with the characters. And the one that made me the maddest is the one that had less choices than anyone else. They are all victims trying to find a way to not be a victim. Trying to find a way to take control of their circumstances. Of their feelings. Of their mind.
...you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it.
There are so many things I can't/won't tell you because I don't do spoilers. Just let me say, this one will stick with you. Like peanut butter on the roof of your mouth, you will be tasting these characters, this story for a long time to come. Think of the books you have read that you recommend over and over again. Add this one to that list.
I was honored to beta read this book for the author and write an honest review.
At the beginning I was like...
And then I was like...
And throw in a lot of....
As you know I read a lot of books. There are some books that are fun and fast and over. This is not one of those books. This one will stick with you. You will be thinking about this one for days and days after. Check with me in a few months and I am sure I will still be thinking about Therapy. Probably because I need some serious therapy after reading it. This is not an easy book to read. There are really hard parts to it. And funny parts. And sad parts. And hopeful parts.
So tired
Can't let go
Can't move on
Standing still
Running away
Can you still see me?
Am I fading away?...
Jessica is depressed, cuts herself, writes beautiful poetry and wants to fade away. Be invisible. Not be noticed. Because being noticed hurts.
Jace is the boy who sees her. He tries to rescue Jessica from all the pain that has come her way. And he does. For a time. The thing about having a rope thrown to you....about having a reprieve from the bad stuff, is that when that rope is taken away, when the reprieve is over....it makes the hurt that much more. Because now you know what happy feels like. And you miss it.
"No matter how hard you try to hide inside yourself, I'll always see you. Those walls may be up, but I see right through them", he whispers. Then he turns and walks away.
Walks. Away. Jessica must learn to put herself back together. In therapy she meets Kingsley. He also knows about loss. Can he and Jessica heal each other?
You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience....
But Jace is not ready to let Jessica go. He still has feelings for her. When their worlds collide, Jace, Jessica, and Kingsley are all pulled together...all circle each other. Like a star imploding. When that happens, a black hole is formed. A black hole that sucks everyone in. And you are sucked right in with them.
There are bitchy fiancés, controlling mothers, absent mothers, heartbreaking stories, stolen files, protective snowflakes, sexy guitar playing, mean girls, and moments of hope.
This is ultimately the story of people who have very little choice in their life. Jessica, Jace and Kingsley are all victims of other people's choices. I was so mad when I read this. Mad at each of them. Mad at Ms Perez for making me hurt and laugh and feel along with the characters. And the one that made me the maddest is the one that had less choices than anyone else. They are all victims trying to find a way to not be a victim. Trying to find a way to take control of their circumstances. Of their feelings. Of their mind.
...you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it.
There are so many things I can't/won't tell you because I don't do spoilers. Just let me say, this one will stick with you. Like peanut butter on the roof of your mouth, you will be tasting these characters, this story for a long time to come. Think of the books you have read that you recommend over and over again. Add this one to that list.
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April 12, 2015 No rating
I have been thinking about how to rate this book. The fact is that I have no idea, so I'm going with no rating .
I knew from the beginning that it was going to be a tough read, honestly, after reading the author's note, I freaked out.
Jessica loves hooking up with some random guys here and there, she needs to be loved and feel the connection with someone. That's why she has been bullied in school and called a slut and many more nasty things. But Jace Collins is different from others, he wants to protect her, he wants to fix her. What if she can't be fixed?
I felt so bad for Jessica at the beginning. She didn't deserve all that horrible stuff at school, no matter what she did with guys.
But unfortunately, something around 30% made me hate her. I know it will sound harsh, but I lost all of my respect for her from that point.
Jace, well, I didn't like him so much. He was okay at the beginning, but then I kind of lost my interest for him. I didn't feel the connection between Jessica and him, I didn't root for them to be together, so this must mean something.
And then Kingsley Arrington makes his appearance. I liked him, he was broody, sweet, bossy and hot. DON'T read the spoiler in case you want to read this book.
It was a tough read because it dealt with important issues. I couldn't understand the heroine for what she did around 30% and I couldn't apologize her for that, but I could see and understand her struggle in some other occasions.
It's hard to rate this book, because it will provocate different feelings in you.
Did I enjoy reading this book? No.
Would I recommend it? No. But...It's far more complicated than this. That's why I didn't rate it..
I try not to DNF books so that's why I kept reading, or I would have DNFed it at some point. The heroine did something that I couldn't understand at all, so from that point I knew the book was kind of ruined for me.
This is a really intense read, even though I didn't enjoy it, I will remember of it for sure!
Thanks to Sophie for BRing this book with me!! <3
I have been thinking about how to rate this book. The fact is that I have no idea, so I'm going with no rating .
I knew from the beginning that it was going to be a tough read, honestly, after reading the author's note, I freaked out.
Jessica loves hooking up with some random guys here and there, she needs to be loved and feel the connection with someone. That's why she has been bullied in school and called a slut and many more nasty things. But Jace Collins is different from others, he wants to protect her, he wants to fix her. What if she can't be fixed?
I felt so bad for Jessica at the beginning. She didn't deserve all that horrible stuff at school, no matter what she did with guys.
But unfortunately, something around 30% made me hate her. I know it will sound harsh, but I lost all of my respect for her from that point.
Jace, well, I didn't like him so much. He was okay at the beginning, but then I kind of lost my interest for him. I didn't feel the connection between Jessica and him, I didn't root for them to be together, so this must mean something.
And then Kingsley Arrington makes his appearance. I liked him, he was broody, sweet, bossy and hot. DON'T read the spoiler in case you want to read this book.
It was a tough read because it dealt with important issues. I couldn't understand the heroine for what she did around 30% and I couldn't apologize her for that, but I could see and understand her struggle in some other occasions.
It's hard to rate this book, because it will provocate different feelings in you.
Did I enjoy reading this book? No.
Would I recommend it? No. But...It's far more complicated than this. That's why I didn't rate it..
I try not to DNF books so that's why I kept reading, or I would have DNFed it at some point. The heroine did something that I couldn't understand at all, so from that point I knew the book was kind of ruined for me.
This is a really intense read, even though I didn't enjoy it, I will remember of it for sure!
Thanks to Sophie for BRing this book with me!! <3
February 28, 2014
Therapy is a beautiful journey between the dark and light. Kathryn Perez gives us an insiders look at the world of mental illness, love, relationships, and life. She shows us the struggle to function day to day, while also emphasizing the hope and gift of life itself. Boldly this author approaches the subjects of bullying, self destructive behavior, and co-dependence. I was captivated by this story from the first chapter to the last. Emotionally, I'd give this book 10 stars . Do I recommend it...without a doubt!
March 12, 2014
Urgh. Right now, at the time of starting this review, I have no idea how to rate this book. It's one of those where you want to give half of it 5 huge stars and the other half you're absolutely furious with!
I'm going to go with 3.5. Because I couldn't put it down, but there were issues that made me so damn mad and prevented me from giving it any higher! I'm gutted, but I was just so angry.
3.5 STARS FOR JESS, JACE & KINGSLEY!
I'm no one. I barely exist.
Therapy is Jessica Alexander's story. Jess is a poorly girl. She struggles with every day life, she is bullied at school, she cuts to relieve her stress, she is premiscuous and uses sex to make men want her, she needs men to want her and like her, she craves love and attention, she's needy and clingy... Her head is a mess.
I don't want to give too much away with this review, as you don't get many details in the blurb, so basically, this book begins by following Jess through her final year in high school and her unlikely friendship with gorgeous, popular, star quarter-back, Jace Collins.
When circumstances force Jace and Jess apart, we flick forward to a point in Jess's life where she is forced to face the reality of her mental health and attend therapy sessions.
Enter Kingsley Arrington. And, coincidently, re-enter Jace! As Jess's life is thrown into full-blown drama status, as if she didn't already have enough going on, Jess battles with her love for both men. Both men represent different qualities and needs in her life and both men love her back.
Ok, I'm not going to tell you anymore, because I don't want to ruin this story. It was absolutely nothing like I'd expected and I think the reading experience was all the more intense for that. So I'm not going to give you any more.
However, I will tell you a little more about the characters, the feel of the book, the writing, etc. And there really are so many dimensions to this book.
Shitballs. This was a heavy read. In the back of the book, I read that author, Kathryn Perez, has written this book from her own experiences with mental health, self harm and therapy. Wow, if that didn't make it all the more emotive! This isn't some fluffy representation of mental illness. This is the real deal. And it's hard hitting.
Jessica is such a complex and honest character. Many of our heroines are almost prudish in their hesitancy to have sex or be in a relationship. And even when we come across a heroine who sleeps around some, it's often all in the name of independence and doing what she wants to do. Jess is different. She completely admits to sleeping with men because it's what they want, because it's what you have to do to make boys like you.
Jess is bullied at school by Jenson High School's very own mean girls! At school she is timid, silent and tries her best to be invisible. Yet there is this fire in her, this bravery and this defensiveness that gives her a sharp tongue.
The bullying is excruciating to read. It's graphic and uncompromising and it does extend to physical violence, so there might be some of you out there who won't deal well with that.
Jessica's friendship with Jace is perfect. I loved watching them grow closer and I loved his caring, protective side. I loved that he was confident enough that he didn't care what the others thought of him.
I loved high-school Jace and since I'd read a couple of reviews telling me this was going to have two lead males, by 50% when we'd still not met Kingsley, I was convinced that I was going to be totally Team Jace and that nobody was going to change my mind.
However, I wasn't! I have to say, I was Team Kingsley. Again, I really can't tell you too much, but I loved Kingsley!!! He is pure and strong and sure of his feelings. I just adored everything about him, from his shirtless guitar playing, to his Harley, to his caramel banana waffle cooking skills! Kingsley, to me, represented the perfection that Jess had always been searching for in life. The unconditional love, the friendship despite her flaws, her mistakes, her mood swings and her vulnerability.
And as for adult Jace... well, when compared to Kingsley I kind of felt that he just continually fell short. I felt like he wasn't as patient with Jess as he could have been, especially as he had a real understanding for her mental health and her personality disorder. He stressed her out, he made things worse and more confusing, he wasn't cautious and patient. He wasn't strong enough to fight for her and stand up for his love for her. He was reckless and passed judgement. He really disappointed me.
But there were times when I couldn't help but pine for the love that Jess and Jace had shared as teenagers. And, it was clear, to me, that Jace had his own deep seated issues and needed help dealing with those. Jace is a people pleaser and a fixer, he takes it upon himself to keep everyone around him happy and to make sure everything is fixed and okay. So, in that respect I felt for him and a part of me was rooting for the Jess and Jace we knew in the first half of the book.
"I don't know how."
And then there was the curve-ball at 86%! Oh. My. Christ! What the hell? So, because of this curve-ball, some of you will not want to read this book. In fact, if I'd known this was coming, I wouldn't have read it. It's something I try to steer clear of and one of the reasons I've turned down a few books for reviewing. So, if you have issues, like me, about not knowing who your hero is most of the way through the book... and if you like your happy endings 100% happy, with unicorns and rainbows to boot, send me a private message and I will try to explain further. I can't put much more on this review without including spoilers. But just know that this curve ball is what changed this book from 5 stars to 3.5 stars, for me.
However, if it weren't for the stunning writing, I probably wouldn't have given this book a rating at all. So all of that said, this book was superbly written and absolutely gripping. I'm totally gutted about the 'curve-ball' and really wish I could give this more, because for the most part, I loved it! Kathryn Perez is an extremely gifted author and I will definitely be looking into her other titles. I highlighted so many quotes thorughout Therapy because the writing was just so thought-provoking and so moving.
However, there a few things I need from my books... the first is a happy ending. And I mean a happy ending that I love, that I've been rooting for, that makes the heart-break worthwhile and that makes me melt and grin like an idiot when I close the book for the final time. Therapy does have a happy-ish ending. The ending is happy in the way that it eludes to hope and a positive future for the characters. And it suggests that Jessica will find the love she has always wished for and is dealing with her mental health. But it isn't the ending I was hoping for.
The second thing I always need is to know who I am supposed to fall in love with. I don't mind love triangles, but only if it's obvious who I'm supposed to be championing. I don't want to be made to fall in love with someone, only to have them not win out in the end. In this book, I fell in love with two men, so it was always going to end in tears, for me.
As you can tell, I'm conflicted over this book. Some of you will love this, some of you won't. Part of me loves it and bows down to Kathryn Perez for a beautifully written, highly emotional, gripping, honest account of somebody living with the traumas of mental health issues. However, I just can't get passed the things that broke my heart and ultimately, left it broken.
Have you read it? Tell us what you thought?
'Therapy' Statistics
• Steam Rating (out of 5): ♥♥
• Ending: Happy ending-ish
• Length: 386 pages
• POV: Alternates between Jessica, Jace & Kingsley.
• Narrative: First person. Present tense.
• Series: ✗
• Can this be read as a standalone? Yes
• Themes:
Mental health
Self harm
• WARNING. This book includes...
Self harm. Suicide attempts. Abortion. Violent bullying.
Alcohol abuse. Death. Sexual content.
• Writing: Great
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August 27, 2016
Hi, I'm Julia and I have a... Well, I came here for a therapy, so you'd better tell me, what's the diagnosis. I'm here for wondering how on Earth could this book possibly get 4.28 on GR and I'm a confused reader. Two days ago I started reading some book I tried to like in spite of all the bad signs. It tried to be good for me, and for the first time in my life I started wondering whether it could possibly beat #1 in my Top-1 Worst Book Ever. I didn't want anything from it, I didn't expect it to be really good, rather okay-ish. The title was Therapy.
It was so bad that I laughed a lot of times, and I loved that about it. It never gave me any reasons to relate to the characters or to like them, and it made me want to go to the therapy, the real one.
It made me laugh so hard, while I was explaining to my friends what was going on, that I cried, it made me question my life choices.. about picking up NA contemporary books, reminding we could never ever get back together. It made me appreciate other awful books I'd read, showing they hadn't been that bad after all. It was an awful book, and even though it makes me happy as hell that I finally finished it, I'm so glad I read it. I've been on such a terribly unhealthy cycle with choosing books lately. Honestly, I never knew what Santa-Barbara really meant until Therapy. Insta-love and love triangles were all I really knew. The past two days have opened my eyes to me so much. I know I have a really far and tough journey ahead of me with this review, but where I am now is so much closer to being done with it than I could ever imagine. I'm ready. Now, Julia starts to rant.
Sorry, I totally twisted up Jessica Alexander's speech. But hey, at least I've just quoted myself the same way Kathryn Perez did in her book! I mean, who does that? Okay, let's get serious*.
* I've never been in situations mentioned in the book and even though some things might sound harsh, I've no intention to offend anyone. It's just my opinion on the book after all.
Jessica "They Call Me a Slut" Alexander is a typical girl from contemporaries-touching-serious-topics. She cuts herself to feel alive and have some control over something, has amazingly awful family — father who doesn't notice her at all and mother who prefers to be drunk all the time — and is bullied at school for being a "slut" (well, she sleeps with Mean Girls' boyfriends, why wouldn't they call her names? I'm not saying so-called boyfriends aren't to be blamed, but still). So when Jace "Hot as Fuck" Collins — who is, by the way (and I'm quoting!), "not only the star of the football team, but also the baseball and male swim teams too" (it seems Rowling didn't destroy all the Time-Turners...) — helps her after she was beaten by his girlfriend's — Elizabeth "On Wednesdays We Wear Pink" Brant — friends, she can't believe it. Why would a typical Hot High School Quarterback From Disney Movies help her? Why would he care?
First of all, let me start with toothpicks.
The sides of his lips curl up and he sticks his hand into his pocket, pulls out a toothpick, and flicks it into his mouth. He starts rolling it back and forth across his lips, chewing on it.
My God.
He rolls his eyes and keeps spinning that damn toothpick back and forth across his lips. It’s incredibly sexy, and I wish he would stop it.
I’ll never look at toothpicks the same way again after Jace. For Halloween, maybe I’ll be a toothpick just to give him the hint that I’d love for him to roll me around in his mouth too.
The oh-so sexy toothpick was in full effect, and he looked nothing like a guy who regretted anything.
I can easily imagine this Vogue title: Toothpick is the New Sexy.
While Jace was okay-ish for the first half of the book, or at least bearable, the second love-interest was simply... weird. God Bless Love Triangles (not really).
“Stop your damn whining and get your little ass over here so I can show you how to do this. Only way to not be out of shape is to get in shape. So shut your trap and let’s start getting you in shape.”
I sigh and roll my eyes. He’s so bossy, so frustrating. In a weird way, I like it. I can’t really explain why just yet, but regardless, I know that I feel stronger just by being in his presence.
Excuse me? I'm used to harsh jokes, but this? It's not bossy, it's fucking rude.
Another thing that made me cringe was writing. It's so full of sentences-you've-probably-seen-in-so-many-NA-books. And let's be honest, it's simply bad and really poor.
“I'm about to make love for the first time in my life. Sex is one thing, but love..”
Never heard it before, uh-huh.
“I’m going to kiss you like no one has ever kissed you before.”
and
“I’m going to make love to you like no one else ever has”
“You ain’t getting out of it, darlin’.”
Darlin’? What the hell?
He’s never said that to me before. I think I like it, though. No, I think I love it!
Does it sound like good writing?
Okay, joking aside. This book actually tries to touch a serious topic (aside from bullying) — mental illnesses. I'm not a doctor, and I've no idea how accurate the disorder was showed in the book, but the thing is... I felt as if it was in the book just to justify character's actions.
Therapy lacks of explanation as well. I'm not talking about constant "coincidences". A lot of NA authors love to add 100% inexplicable events in their books, and it felt as if Kathryn suggested me just to "deal with it". If it's a contemporary, which is the one set in real life without any 'mystical things' going on, please, elaborate weird things you add.
I can go on and on about flaws, because so many things happened here. Therapy is just 385 pages long, and even though I love action-packed books, I wasn't ready for a lama-drama-packed one. No lamas here, though.
The plot covers 7 years of characters' lives, but it's predictable, and even when it's not, a lot of the things going on feel cheap.
Therapy gets its deserved #1 spot in my Top-2 Worst Books Ever, and now, I guess, I should get a therapy. This time, a real one: with great characters, fascinating plots and beautiful writing. I guess I know where to look.
June 2, 2014
“Everyone needs a little therapy at one point or another in their life.” –Jessica
Wow! This book was AMAZING!
Jessica had a horrible life at home with a mother who was drunk half of the time and a father who didn’t know she existed. She never felt love at home, so she tried to find it through guys that she slept with in high school. Not only was she labeled “loose,” but she was also bullied at school.
One day, the popular guy, Jace stands up for her and soon they become friends. Jess makes it known that she would like to be more than friends with him, but Jace holds back and insists that they stay friends. Things change between them and it effects their friendship. For six years they are separated.
“Loving someone doesn’t suck. Losing the person you love is what sucks.”
Then one day Jace finds her again. When they reconnect, neither is really ready for a relationship, but the love that Jace has for her while they are separated never wavers. *swoon*
“…You weren’t just a girl I slept with once. You’re a girl I’ve loved—always.”
“I. See. You. I always have and I always will. No matter how hard you try to hide inside yourself, I’ll always see you.”
Jess is forced into therapy where she meets Kingsley. I have to say I was TEAM JACE all the way and really wanted to dislike Kingsley. But damnit if he didn’t worm his way into my heart. So I have to say I was both TEAM JACE and TEAM KINGSLEY.
"You deserve a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience, and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you've ever built up. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart."
I can’t say anymore about this story without spoiling it, so if you haven’t read it I highly suggest it. This is a MUST read. I have to warn you this isn’t the normal romance. This touches on some very serious issues. Have the tissues ready because you will need them!
“Jessica, falling in love can’t always be a happily ever after or a once in a lifetime kind of story. Those happen in books, in movies. This is life and it’s real. Life has no script, no outline. We broke the rules of love long ago. All I know for sure is that with you, the rules will never apply.”
Wow! This book was AMAZING!
Jessica had a horrible life at home with a mother who was drunk half of the time and a father who didn’t know she existed. She never felt love at home, so she tried to find it through guys that she slept with in high school. Not only was she labeled “loose,” but she was also bullied at school.
One day, the popular guy, Jace stands up for her and soon they become friends. Jess makes it known that she would like to be more than friends with him, but Jace holds back and insists that they stay friends. Things change between them and it effects their friendship. For six years they are separated.
“Loving someone doesn’t suck. Losing the person you love is what sucks.”
Then one day Jace finds her again. When they reconnect, neither is really ready for a relationship, but the love that Jace has for her while they are separated never wavers. *swoon*
“…You weren’t just a girl I slept with once. You’re a girl I’ve loved—always.”
“I. See. You. I always have and I always will. No matter how hard you try to hide inside yourself, I’ll always see you.”
Jess is forced into therapy where she meets Kingsley. I have to say I was TEAM JACE all the way and really wanted to dislike Kingsley. But damnit if he didn’t worm his way into my heart. So I have to say I was both TEAM JACE and TEAM KINGSLEY.
"You deserve a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience, and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you've ever built up. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart."
I can’t say anymore about this story without spoiling it, so if you haven’t read it I highly suggest it. This is a MUST read. I have to warn you this isn’t the normal romance. This touches on some very serious issues. Have the tissues ready because you will need them!
“Jessica, falling in love can’t always be a happily ever after or a once in a lifetime kind of story. Those happen in books, in movies. This is life and it’s real. Life has no script, no outline. We broke the rules of love long ago. All I know for sure is that with you, the rules will never apply.”
May 31, 2023
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Type: Standalone Book 1 in Therapy series
POV: First Person - Multiple
Rating:
Jessica Alexander grew up in an environment that made her feel empty and worthless. She knew her journey toward healing would not be easy. The individuals she met along the way helped enrich her life, but her personal demons constantly threatened to derail her progress.
I wanted to read this book for a long time, and not sure what stopped me, but I’m glad to finally did it. I thought it would be depressing, but it turned out to be very angsty instead. I love angsty books, but it had been a while since I found one that hit it right, and this book achingly delivered.
Throughout the book, I had a lot of conflicting thoughts on the characters. I wanted to love them but also punch them in the face. Life threw them into the deep end, and watching them clawed their way out produced myriad of emotions. And I loved how the author didn’t take a shortcut in ending the story.
Therapy is a story of finding oneself. It would appeal to readers who enjoy a story with characters who went through a hard-earned life.
🔹⛓🔹. . . (F)BR with Twinsie CC . . . 🔹⛓🔹
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Type: Standalone Book 1 in Therapy series
POV: First Person - Multiple
Rating:
Jessica Alexander grew up in an environment that made her feel empty and worthless. She knew her journey toward healing would not be easy. The individuals she met along the way helped enrich her life, but her personal demons constantly threatened to derail her progress.
I wanted to read this book for a long time, and not sure what stopped me, but I’m glad to finally did it. I thought it would be depressing, but it turned out to be very angsty instead. I love angsty books, but it had been a while since I found one that hit it right, and this book achingly delivered.
I hate myself most of all because no matter how strong I try to be, I know the truth. I’m weak. I’m fucking dirty. I’m used up. And no man will ever love me, because I hate me.
Throughout the book, I had a lot of conflicting thoughts on the characters. I wanted to love them but also punch them in the face. Life threw them into the deep end, and watching them clawed their way out produced myriad of emotions. And I loved how the author didn’t take a shortcut in ending the story.
Therapy is a story of finding oneself. It would appeal to readers who enjoy a story with characters who went through a hard-earned life.
🔹⛓🔹. . . (F)BR with Twinsie CC . . . 🔹⛓🔹
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February 12, 2016
5+++++ Excuse me while I go commit myself STARS
Crowded hallways are the loneliest places
For outcasts and rebels
Or anyone who just dares to be different
And you've been trying for so long
To find out where your place is
But in their narrow minds
There's no room for anyone who dares to do something different..." Hunter Hayes Invisible
Where you bullied in high school? Or maybe you did the bullying? Do you know someone who has been bullied? This book tells the story of a girl who suffered through just that... Jessica, Jess. The moving target of the mean girls in her high school.
Jessica is not liked. She does not feel loved, and even though she is known as the school slut, she has never been in love with any of the boys she has slept with. Because of the emotional hurt she is put through at school, and the lack of support she is getting at home, Jessica is a cutter.
Cutting gives her control. Cutting gives her power. Cutting gives her something to feel other than misery. She believes this is the only thing that can help her get through the pain. She doesn't tell anyone about the cutting, because there is no one to tell... No one to listen... Until, finally, there is.
Jace is perfect. Well as perfect as the most popular jock in school can be. His family is rich and he is going to be successful. He is dating the head cheerleader. He is at the top of the totem pole in high school hierarchy. Jace is hiding a secret as well. Jace doesn't pick on Jessica. Jace actually cares for Jessica, and after one faithful night, he will discover just how much.
Jessica never expects to fall for Jace and Jace doesn't expect to fall for Jessica, but they do, and this book tells you the 10 year story that is their romance, and heart break.
“Everything has beauty. Even the ugly. Because without the ugly, there would be no beauty. Because without beauty, we would not survive our pain, our sorrow, and our suffering.” —Madeline Sheehan
They both make mistakes that take them away from one another but through it all, they love one another and Jace is determined to not give up on Jessica. Not when his friends mock him, not when his mother tells him she doesn't approve, not when college separates them, and not even when life plays them a cruel hand. But little do either of them know, they have help from a very unlikely place... A little girl named Vivvie. Because although Genevieve is there, she’s also here, with us. I don’t know what there is like, but here has never been so promising...
There are several surprises, twists and turns in this book, but it ends on a positive note, and gives you hope for the characters and for yourself.
For me, this book pulled at my heart strings and hit me at the core. It made me laugh at times and it made me cry, A LOT. It broke my heart. It made me feel amazing!
So your confidence is quiet
To them quiet looks like weakness
But you don't have to fight it
'Cause you're strong enough to win without a war
Every heart has a rhythm
Let yours beat out so loudly
That everyone can hear it
Yeah, I promise you don't need to hide it anymore
Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different
Dare to be something more...."Hunter Hayes
Some of my favorite quotes:
“Listen to me right now. You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience, and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up.. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
Crowded hallways are the loneliest places
For outcasts and rebels
Or anyone who just dares to be different
And you've been trying for so long
To find out where your place is
But in their narrow minds
There's no room for anyone who dares to do something different..." Hunter Hayes Invisible
Where you bullied in high school? Or maybe you did the bullying? Do you know someone who has been bullied? This book tells the story of a girl who suffered through just that... Jessica, Jess. The moving target of the mean girls in her high school.
Jessica is not liked. She does not feel loved, and even though she is known as the school slut, she has never been in love with any of the boys she has slept with. Because of the emotional hurt she is put through at school, and the lack of support she is getting at home, Jessica is a cutter.
Cutting gives her control. Cutting gives her power. Cutting gives her something to feel other than misery. She believes this is the only thing that can help her get through the pain. She doesn't tell anyone about the cutting, because there is no one to tell... No one to listen... Until, finally, there is.
Jace is perfect. Well as perfect as the most popular jock in school can be. His family is rich and he is going to be successful. He is dating the head cheerleader. He is at the top of the totem pole in high school hierarchy. Jace is hiding a secret as well. Jace doesn't pick on Jessica. Jace actually cares for Jessica, and after one faithful night, he will discover just how much.
Jessica never expects to fall for Jace and Jace doesn't expect to fall for Jessica, but they do, and this book tells you the 10 year story that is their romance, and heart break.
“Everything has beauty. Even the ugly. Because without the ugly, there would be no beauty. Because without beauty, we would not survive our pain, our sorrow, and our suffering.” —Madeline Sheehan
They both make mistakes that take them away from one another but through it all, they love one another and Jace is determined to not give up on Jessica. Not when his friends mock him, not when his mother tells him she doesn't approve, not when college separates them, and not even when life plays them a cruel hand. But little do either of them know, they have help from a very unlikely place... A little girl named Vivvie. Because although Genevieve is there, she’s also here, with us. I don’t know what there is like, but here has never been so promising...
There are several surprises, twists and turns in this book, but it ends on a positive note, and gives you hope for the characters and for yourself.
For me, this book pulled at my heart strings and hit me at the core. It made me laugh at times and it made me cry, A LOT. It broke my heart. It made me feel amazing!
So your confidence is quiet
To them quiet looks like weakness
But you don't have to fight it
'Cause you're strong enough to win without a war
Every heart has a rhythm
Let yours beat out so loudly
That everyone can hear it
Yeah, I promise you don't need to hide it anymore
Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different
Dare to be something more...."Hunter Hayes
Some of my favorite quotes:
“Listen to me right now. You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience, and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up.. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
February 16, 2014
This review is one of the hardest I have ever had to write, why? This book touched me on so many levels and I am still processing everything I have read (In the best way possible) Book hangover does not come close to covering what I am experiencing. I have been with Kathryn though this journey, I got the first chapter of the book last January and I have never wanted a book in my hands more.
"You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
Jessica, she captured my heart. Oh how I just wanted to jump into the book and give her a hug show her she is loved and tell her everything will be okay. My heart broke for her, bullying is something that should never be overlooked and this book showed how truly horrible it can be.
“Sometimes I wish depression was a living, breathing, tangible being, so I could wrap my hands around her throat and squeeze ‘til all that’s left in her pools of darkness is nothingness, rendering her powerless to ever hurt me again.”
I will admit Jess doesn't do herself many favours with her promiscuous nature but that is no excuse for what she is put through, she just wants a connection - any connection even if it is for the wrong reasons is what she craves. She wants to feel, and one way she helps her self feel is through cutting - it's something she can control.
Things only begin to look up when Jace comes into her life - Oh Jace, can I please have my own? I promise to look after him. Now where was I? Oh yes Jase is the Jock, you know what one? He dates the head cheerleader, his family is rich and his life from the outside looks perfect.
Jessica and Jace begin to form a connection and I could not put the book down, their connection is beyond words (literally I sat here for about half an hour thinking what would sum it up). This book shows a journey of love, finding yourself and happiness.
“Listen to me right now. You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience, and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up.. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
If you are anything like me you will need a box of tissues, some chocolate and a large stuffed animal to hug - I ugly cried, snot and all during this book and I do not regret a thing because at the ends of this book I felt amazing, this was not your average book it was so much more and it came with a message that had meaning.
All of the issues touched upon in this book are going on all around the world right now and we are too oblivious to realize, and I hope like me this book will make you think and make you take notice. Personally I have suffered through bullying and depression so I feel wonderful know Kathryn is using her talent as a writer to bring attention to these issues.
Kathryn my dear friend, you are a wonderful women and I am honoured to know you, thank you for giving me, us, everyone this amazing book it is destined for success and is not something I will ever forget. You have such talent with words and a strength I admire.
"You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
Jessica, she captured my heart. Oh how I just wanted to jump into the book and give her a hug show her she is loved and tell her everything will be okay. My heart broke for her, bullying is something that should never be overlooked and this book showed how truly horrible it can be.
“Sometimes I wish depression was a living, breathing, tangible being, so I could wrap my hands around her throat and squeeze ‘til all that’s left in her pools of darkness is nothingness, rendering her powerless to ever hurt me again.”
I will admit Jess doesn't do herself many favours with her promiscuous nature but that is no excuse for what she is put through, she just wants a connection - any connection even if it is for the wrong reasons is what she craves. She wants to feel, and one way she helps her self feel is through cutting - it's something she can control.
Things only begin to look up when Jace comes into her life - Oh Jace, can I please have my own? I promise to look after him. Now where was I? Oh yes Jase is the Jock, you know what one? He dates the head cheerleader, his family is rich and his life from the outside looks perfect.
Jessica and Jace begin to form a connection and I could not put the book down, their connection is beyond words (literally I sat here for about half an hour thinking what would sum it up). This book shows a journey of love, finding yourself and happiness.
“Listen to me right now. You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience, and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up.. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
If you are anything like me you will need a box of tissues, some chocolate and a large stuffed animal to hug - I ugly cried, snot and all during this book and I do not regret a thing because at the ends of this book I felt amazing, this was not your average book it was so much more and it came with a message that had meaning.
All of the issues touched upon in this book are going on all around the world right now and we are too oblivious to realize, and I hope like me this book will make you think and make you take notice. Personally I have suffered through bullying and depression so I feel wonderful know Kathryn is using her talent as a writer to bring attention to these issues.
Kathryn my dear friend, you are a wonderful women and I am honoured to know you, thank you for giving me, us, everyone this amazing book it is destined for success and is not something I will ever forget. You have such talent with words and a strength I admire.
October 3, 2014
ok, probably in the minority...but WTH was that!
The Bullying = terrible, made me cry big ugly tears
The Angst = off the charts
The whole tale = baffling from start to finish
Jessica - gutted me...her writing was so tragic, her whole damn life was tragic.
Jace - confounded me...cant really decide if he was good or bad
I understand the trauma of the whole scene, the bad life, the damaged girl, but I was completely overwhelmed with the continued bad choices and consequences.
I also had some issues with the back and forth present day and past tense changes.
IDK, perhaps its just me. It was a hard book to read, I struggled from start to finish and I also couldn't read it fluidly as I had many interruptions over a 3 week period. that being said, its hard to get into a book when too much time passes as who knows where the reader's head is when you pick back up into a story as harsh as this.
The Bullying = terrible, made me cry big ugly tears
The Angst = off the charts
The whole tale = baffling from start to finish
Jessica - gutted me...her writing was so tragic, her whole damn life was tragic.
Jace - confounded me...cant really decide if he was good or bad
I understand the trauma of the whole scene, the bad life, the damaged girl, but I was completely overwhelmed with the continued bad choices and consequences.
I also had some issues with the back and forth present day and past tense changes.
IDK, perhaps its just me. It was a hard book to read, I struggled from start to finish and I also couldn't read it fluidly as I had many interruptions over a 3 week period. that being said, its hard to get into a book when too much time passes as who knows where the reader's head is when you pick back up into a story as harsh as this.
June 15, 2023
4.25★
Jessica Alexander is plagued with inside and outside forces that cause her to take certain actions. Though she seeks to ease her pain, the pattern repeatedly emerges.
This narrative is chock-full of challenging and difficult situations stirring up different emotions. As the timeline progresses from Jessica being in high school to an adult, complexities arise and the consequences of choices are compounded. With loss and healing at the forefront, these characters must confront their biggest fears.
In reading this book, I definitely wanted to shake some sense into the characters, but also knew it all had to shake out a certain way. The drama at times gave me some anxiety, but the path was one that was well paced and with some twists. I also felt for one particular character.
Therapy is about self-healing and moving forward. This book may appeal to those seeking a highly emotional book.
*This was a (F)BR with Twinsie Hawkey*
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Jessica Alexander is plagued with inside and outside forces that cause her to take certain actions. Though she seeks to ease her pain, the pattern repeatedly emerges.
“Sometimes you just have to accept that some things can’t be fixed, and that it’s not about fixing what’s broken, but about accepting what’s lost.”
This narrative is chock-full of challenging and difficult situations stirring up different emotions. As the timeline progresses from Jessica being in high school to an adult, complexities arise and the consequences of choices are compounded. With loss and healing at the forefront, these characters must confront their biggest fears.
In reading this book, I definitely wanted to shake some sense into the characters, but also knew it all had to shake out a certain way. The drama at times gave me some anxiety, but the path was one that was well paced and with some twists. I also felt for one particular character.
Therapy is about self-healing and moving forward. This book may appeal to those seeking a highly emotional book.
*This was a (F)BR with Twinsie Hawkey*
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March 9, 2014
If only to be owned, disowned, and a masochist. I swear there's a bar joke in there somewhere….
I was very inconsistent with my love for this book, my mind was a little all over the place. From the very start, I was undecided. The pacing in the beginning threw me off completely. Jess and Jace. The bullying. A lot of history that just seemed to happen too fast. Certain plot points didn't sit well with me either. The explanation to why Jace was with Elizabeth despite well….everything, was extremely weak in my eyes; it bothered me. Especially after what happened to his sister? No. Really? It was a very hard explanation to swallow.
I guess you could say that me and Therapy got off on the wrong foot.
Then chapter 7 happened, the fight, and for some reason something just clicked. Okay book, now you have my attention. Then chapter 9? What the hell!! You now own my attention.
From that point on, it took me. It owned me. My heart raced for what was to come.
I was so invested in Jess and Jace's relationship. I was scared, nervous, my heart beat in funny ways, and it seemed like every muscle in my body was tense. I. Was. Owned.
Then I was disowned.
In my opinion, what captured me in Therapy was the development of Jessica and Jace. Everything I felt, was in some way tied to them. They were the source of my emotions. A source that was drained by the inclusion of Kingsley. To become such a crucial aspect of the story so late in the game, left me completely detached from his character. Where adding his POV should have helped, having to juggle his, along with two other point of views prevented me from investing too deeply into his character. However, those that seemed to have connected with Kingsley (where I didn't) became so emotionally intertwined with the story, they physically hurt. I didn't have that. I wanted that.
I actually cheered at the very same moment that so many others clothed themselves in tissues, became violent towards their kindles, and self medicated with vodka and Xanax. Not because I'm a heartless masochist, but because I was detached. My emotions were only developed towards Jess and Jace.
I also felt like there was something in the dynamic of Jess and Jace's present relationship that was very reminiscent of the Avoiding series. Once my brain made that connection, it was a distraction.
So as I said earlier, my love for this book was very inconsistent, but there was love. Love for so many aspects. It had heart, passion, and it kept me interested the entire time. I also loved the twist concerning Vivie. I completely understand why so many other readers were turned inside out by Therapy, why their emotions ended up on the outside. Depending on the amount of your investment, this book has the potential to break you. It just didn't do that for me. I wish it had. I think perhaps dividing this story into two books, allowing more time with certain characters and enhancing development would have made a colossal impact. I needed more time to care. More time to become torn. More time to let those emotions develop so I could be allowed to feel.
However, I did think it was a really good book and I will most definitely be looking forward to more Kathryn Perez in the future.
READ ON!
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I was very inconsistent with my love for this book, my mind was a little all over the place. From the very start, I was undecided. The pacing in the beginning threw me off completely. Jess and Jace. The bullying. A lot of history that just seemed to happen too fast. Certain plot points didn't sit well with me either. The explanation to why Jace was with Elizabeth despite well….everything, was extremely weak in my eyes; it bothered me. Especially after what happened to his sister? No. Really? It was a very hard explanation to swallow.
I guess you could say that me and Therapy got off on the wrong foot.
Then chapter 7 happened, the fight, and for some reason something just clicked. Okay book, now you have my attention. Then chapter 9? What the hell!! You now own my attention.
From that point on, it took me. It owned me. My heart raced for what was to come.
I was so invested in Jess and Jace's relationship. I was scared, nervous, my heart beat in funny ways, and it seemed like every muscle in my body was tense. I. Was. Owned.
Then I was disowned.
In my opinion, what captured me in Therapy was the development of Jessica and Jace. Everything I felt, was in some way tied to them. They were the source of my emotions. A source that was drained by the inclusion of Kingsley. To become such a crucial aspect of the story so late in the game, left me completely detached from his character. Where adding his POV should have helped, having to juggle his, along with two other point of views prevented me from investing too deeply into his character. However, those that seemed to have connected with Kingsley (where I didn't) became so emotionally intertwined with the story, they physically hurt. I didn't have that. I wanted that.
I actually cheered at the very same moment that so many others clothed themselves in tissues, became violent towards their kindles, and self medicated with vodka and Xanax. Not because I'm a heartless masochist, but because I was detached. My emotions were only developed towards Jess and Jace.
I also felt like there was something in the dynamic of Jess and Jace's present relationship that was very reminiscent of the Avoiding series. Once my brain made that connection, it was a distraction.
So as I said earlier, my love for this book was very inconsistent, but there was love. Love for so many aspects. It had heart, passion, and it kept me interested the entire time. I also loved the twist concerning Vivie. I completely understand why so many other readers were turned inside out by Therapy, why their emotions ended up on the outside. Depending on the amount of your investment, this book has the potential to break you. It just didn't do that for me. I wish it had. I think perhaps dividing this story into two books, allowing more time with certain characters and enhancing development would have made a colossal impact. I needed more time to care. More time to become torn. More time to let those emotions develop so I could be allowed to feel.
However, I did think it was a really good book and I will most definitely be looking forward to more Kathryn Perez in the future.
READ ON!
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January 3, 2015
You know when you start to read a book that you've had on your kindle for awhile and you start reading and don't want to stop and you think 'what took me so long to read this?' Yeah, that was me about 5% in!
Therapy was an amazing story of a girls heart-achingly beautiful journey to become who she was meant to be, even while battling her demons!
I know better than anyone how easy it can be to fool people and hide your darkest secrets inside. Because I do it every day.
This book, certain parts I should say, were very difficult to read. Especially since I have a daughter of my own, I kept 'thinking where are the parents?' 'Why doesn't anyone see what's happening here?' - when it comes to bullying I HAVE NO TOLERANCE!! The way that Jessica suffered at the hands of classmates, the ignorance of the school and the neglect of her parents had me actually going from growling at the book to having tears run down my face. Jessica's story had my emotions all over the map!
I keep saying Jessica's story, because even thought the secondary characters were amazing as well, this is ALL ABOUT JESS! Her journey!
I adored both Jace and Kingsley and my heart broke for both of them at times, and I wanted to shake Jace and scream at Jess and really just hug Kingsley but all in all this was a beautiful ride and I am thrilled to say I finally took it! I am a huge fan of emotional stories, the more emotion an author can bring out of me, the more I love them. This author truly has a gift for making my heart ache...and I loved every minute!
Accepting the ugly shit in life is just part of living. Pain tells us we are still here; it lets us know we've survived.
Therapy was an amazing story of a girls heart-achingly beautiful journey to become who she was meant to be, even while battling her demons!
I know better than anyone how easy it can be to fool people and hide your darkest secrets inside. Because I do it every day.
This book, certain parts I should say, were very difficult to read. Especially since I have a daughter of my own, I kept 'thinking where are the parents?' 'Why doesn't anyone see what's happening here?' - when it comes to bullying I HAVE NO TOLERANCE!! The way that Jessica suffered at the hands of classmates, the ignorance of the school and the neglect of her parents had me actually going from growling at the book to having tears run down my face. Jessica's story had my emotions all over the map!
I keep saying Jessica's story, because even thought the secondary characters were amazing as well, this is ALL ABOUT JESS! Her journey!
I adored both Jace and Kingsley and my heart broke for both of them at times, and I wanted to shake Jace and scream at Jess and really just hug Kingsley but all in all this was a beautiful ride and I am thrilled to say I finally took it! I am a huge fan of emotional stories, the more emotion an author can bring out of me, the more I love them. This author truly has a gift for making my heart ache...and I loved every minute!
Accepting the ugly shit in life is just part of living. Pain tells us we are still here; it lets us know we've survived.
February 16, 2014
GEE-ZUS!!! This one will stick with ya...
5++ stars
5++ stars
May 29, 2023
3 Stars
Opinion Breakdown
The Good: The premise and how it showed the value of self-love (not that way -- get your minds out of the gutter! 😉) and therapy.
The Not-So-Good: While I empathized with the h, I also got frustrated with her for her communication skills. The pacing was a little off too. It felt long but then fast-forwarded over some (what I felt were) important things in the end.
The Bad: I struggled with the twist at the end and how it all ended. That was not what I wanted to happen at all! I felt like it was glossed over way too quickly and easily! The villains were also a little OTT and too soap opera-esque (and not in a good way).
Overall: I read this super quick considering how long it was, so I think that says something positive about it! I did, however, struggle with some things and it definitely didn't end the way that I wanted it to. So, I'm honestly torn on how to review this tbh. I'm going to go with a middle of the road 3 stars because while I didn't hate it, I (sadly) didn't love it like many of my GR friends did either.
Brief Summary of the Storyline: This is Jessica's story. I'm going to keep this super vague in hopes of not ruining it. This starts when she is in high school and struggling with depression, finding solace in emotionless hookups and cutting, and mega mean girl bullies. Jump to six years later and she is even more of a mess as she was in high school and going to mandated therapy for driving drunk and still cutting. There are some big secrets revealed, some love triangle drama between an old love and a new love, some much needed self help, and she gets a HFN ending.
**This is going to be a different format than my usual reviews because I went in blind and I think other readers should too and I don't want to ruin too much**
Point Of View (POV): This alternated between 3 different mc's POVs.
Overall Pace of Story: Good for the most part. It did feel long at times (and it is at 437 pages on my kindle app) but I never skimmed. The ending felt too abrupt though.
Instalove: No, more like friends to more
h (heroine) rating: 3.5 stars. Jessica. I felt bad for her struggles but I also wanted her to communicate a little better at times.
Sadness level: Moderate. I shed some tears but never needed any tissues.
Heat level: Good. They have some good tension, chemistry, and scenes -- but not so much it takes away from the story (and more about the emotional connection).
Descriptive sex: Yes
OW (Other Woman)/OM (Other Man) drama: Yes! Love triangle here.
Possible Triggers: Yes
Closure: This ends in an alright place for the couple in the end, but I would call it a HFN ending because of where she is herself
Safety: This one is probably Not Safe for most safety gang readers
Opinion Breakdown
The Good: The premise and how it showed the value of self-love (not that way -- get your minds out of the gutter! 😉) and therapy.
The Not-So-Good: While I empathized with the h, I also got frustrated with her for her communication skills. The pacing was a little off too. It felt long but then fast-forwarded over some (what I felt were) important things in the end.
The Bad: I struggled with the twist at the end and how it all ended. That was not what I wanted to happen at all! I felt like it was glossed over way too quickly and easily! The villains were also a little OTT and too soap opera-esque (and not in a good way).
Overall: I read this super quick considering how long it was, so I think that says something positive about it! I did, however, struggle with some things and it definitely didn't end the way that I wanted it to. So, I'm honestly torn on how to review this tbh. I'm going to go with a middle of the road 3 stars because while I didn't hate it, I (sadly) didn't love it like many of my GR friends did either.
Brief Summary of the Storyline: This is Jessica's story. I'm going to keep this super vague in hopes of not ruining it. This starts when she is in high school and struggling with depression, finding solace in emotionless hookups and cutting, and mega mean girl bullies. Jump to six years later and she is even more of a mess as she was in high school and going to mandated therapy for driving drunk and still cutting. There are some big secrets revealed, some love triangle drama between an old love and a new love, some much needed self help, and she gets a HFN ending.
**This is going to be a different format than my usual reviews because I went in blind and I think other readers should too and I don't want to ruin too much**
Point Of View (POV): This alternated between 3 different mc's POVs.
Overall Pace of Story: Good for the most part. It did feel long at times (and it is at 437 pages on my kindle app) but I never skimmed. The ending felt too abrupt though.
Instalove: No, more like friends to more
h (heroine) rating: 3.5 stars. Jessica. I felt bad for her struggles but I also wanted her to communicate a little better at times.
Sadness level: Moderate. I shed some tears but never needed any tissues.
Heat level: Good. They have some good tension, chemistry, and scenes -- but not so much it takes away from the story (and more about the emotional connection).
Descriptive sex: Yes
OW (Other Woman)/OM (Other Man) drama: Yes! Love triangle here.
Possible Triggers: Yes
Closure: This ends in an alright place for the couple in the end, but I would call it a HFN ending because of where she is herself
Safety: This one is probably Not Safe for most safety gang readers
February 6, 2017
Well, I'm not very good at writing reviews but here goes.
Therapy has sent into a coma induced feel. I have absolutely loved this book.
10 stars for me. It was captivating. I couldn't put it down, the twists and turns in the the book were unbelievable and from the first page until the last, it's a piece of art. The poetry and writing had me thinking about the book constantly. If you haven't read this book I strongly recommend to read it.
The books starts when Jessica who is the main character is 18 years of age and is severely bullied to stage where she has no friends, she is isolated from her family and although she lives with them. She uses sex as her vice to feel loved. The story continues when Jace a class member decides he is going to protect and look after Jess as a friend.
Jessica hits rock bottom still cutting herself, alcoholism and using sex to make herself feel wanted. She it's diagnosed with Bpd by a psychiatrist, a personality disorder. The story continues with the battle she faces with Bpd, relationships, friends and living in general with the depression she suffers.
It's amazing how powerful the human mind is. What a destructive force field it can become. What vices we have to use to get through all we are thrown in life and how we can overcome the toughest of obstacles. The bullying is real in society and with having three daughters myself I hear constantly of the bitching and ostracism of girls, at schools, in parties and what they have to contend with and social media is a huge contributing factor to this problem in our society today. The photos that were taken and placed on social media is a real problem and minors or not they should be shamed and charged. As they are contributing to the state of an individuals mental health state and in the long run their self confidence and happiness.
The poetry throughout the book is amazing. I loved this one. Gave me shivers when I read it.
You only know the mask I wear.
Who am I?
Do I even know you?
Black..... White...... No gray
I either love or I hate
When I want to hold on, I claw instead
No sense of purpose
Eyes that are dead
Regret and rejection I swallow down
I just want someone to love me
Emotional pain creeps all around
When someone hurts me, it hurts forever
Be. Me. For. A. Day
Let me walk beside you
Let me look over
See the me in you
I'ii keep filling the hole in my sole with IOUs
While you keep filling it with I Hate Yous
So if you never read another book in your life you have to read this extraordinary piece of work.
Just a word that this book may have triggers if you are susceptible for depression, mental illness
Therapy has sent into a coma induced feel. I have absolutely loved this book.
10 stars for me. It was captivating. I couldn't put it down, the twists and turns in the the book were unbelievable and from the first page until the last, it's a piece of art. The poetry and writing had me thinking about the book constantly. If you haven't read this book I strongly recommend to read it.
The books starts when Jessica who is the main character is 18 years of age and is severely bullied to stage where she has no friends, she is isolated from her family and although she lives with them. She uses sex as her vice to feel loved. The story continues when Jace a class member decides he is going to protect and look after Jess as a friend.
Jessica hits rock bottom still cutting herself, alcoholism and using sex to make herself feel wanted. She it's diagnosed with Bpd by a psychiatrist, a personality disorder. The story continues with the battle she faces with Bpd, relationships, friends and living in general with the depression she suffers.
It's amazing how powerful the human mind is. What a destructive force field it can become. What vices we have to use to get through all we are thrown in life and how we can overcome the toughest of obstacles. The bullying is real in society and with having three daughters myself I hear constantly of the bitching and ostracism of girls, at schools, in parties and what they have to contend with and social media is a huge contributing factor to this problem in our society today. The photos that were taken and placed on social media is a real problem and minors or not they should be shamed and charged. As they are contributing to the state of an individuals mental health state and in the long run their self confidence and happiness.
The poetry throughout the book is amazing. I loved this one. Gave me shivers when I read it.
You only know the mask I wear.
Who am I?
Do I even know you?
Black..... White...... No gray
I either love or I hate
When I want to hold on, I claw instead
No sense of purpose
Eyes that are dead
Regret and rejection I swallow down
I just want someone to love me
Emotional pain creeps all around
When someone hurts me, it hurts forever
Be. Me. For. A. Day
Let me walk beside you
Let me look over
See the me in you
I'ii keep filling the hole in my sole with IOUs
While you keep filling it with I Hate Yous
So if you never read another book in your life you have to read this extraordinary piece of work.
Just a word that this book may have triggers if you are susceptible for depression, mental illness
February 22, 2014
This book is unbelievable!!!!!!!!! 5 very very angsty stars!
Did I cry? No
Did I tear up a lot? Yes!
If you are looking for your stomach to hurt real bad, this is the book for you! I just wanted some to hold my hand the whole time...
I loved Jace from the start...the 1st time they slept together was written like I was right there. I felt every kiss,
every touch,
every word.
It was amazing!
The dialogue was written beautifully. The thoughts they were both thinking, again, written wonderfully!
Then you get to time with Kingsley and again, the dialogue and the inner thoughts were written like it was for me.
You get 3 POV's, love that!
Only drawback to the book, I wasn't in love with the ending. I was looking for an epic ending, but it's ok, the rest of the book was so emotional and beautiful!
I highly recommend, but you will need to be ready for a read like this one.
Did I cry? No
Did I tear up a lot? Yes!
If you are looking for your stomach to hurt real bad, this is the book for you! I just wanted some to hold my hand the whole time...
I loved Jace from the start...the 1st time they slept together was written like I was right there. I felt every kiss,
every touch,
every word.
It was amazing!
The dialogue was written beautifully. The thoughts they were both thinking, again, written wonderfully!
Then you get to time with Kingsley and again, the dialogue and the inner thoughts were written like it was for me.
You get 3 POV's, love that!
Only drawback to the book, I wasn't in love with the ending. I was looking for an epic ending, but it's ok, the rest of the book was so emotional and beautiful!
I highly recommend, but you will need to be ready for a read like this one.
October 18, 2014
6 ALL-CONSUMING POWERFUL STARS!!
"Depression is a sneaky, evil bitch. She creeps in when you least expect it and snakes her way throughout the corridors of your mind while feeding on the light of your soul. She shows up during your most difficult times, only making them harder to shoulder Sometimes. I wish depression was a living, breathing, tangible being, so I could wrap my hands around her throat and squeeze 'til all that's left in her pools of darkness is nothingness, rendering her powerless to ever hurt me again"
WOW! JUST WOW!
I didn't put this down. I read this in one sitting.
I'm not going to tell you a damn thing about this story, you have to read it. YOU HAVE TO READ IT. I'll tell you how I felt and what this story did to me though.
I will warn you, this book isn't for everyone. I love emotional, gritty, all consuming stories. It's been awile for a book to totally grab my soul. I WAS CHEWED UP AND SPIT OUT.
"They say monsters live under beds. They're wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside"
MY HEART WAS TORN FROM MY CHEST! After I finished, I layed in bed shaking my head for about an hour. THIS IS MORE THAN A BOOK, IT'S A PAINFUL JOURNEY.
It will be a long time before I will get over this, if ever. As I write this, goosebumps are up and down my arms.
I'LL PROBABLY BE BACK TO WRITE MORE!
"Depression is a sneaky, evil bitch. She creeps in when you least expect it and snakes her way throughout the corridors of your mind while feeding on the light of your soul. She shows up during your most difficult times, only making them harder to shoulder Sometimes. I wish depression was a living, breathing, tangible being, so I could wrap my hands around her throat and squeeze 'til all that's left in her pools of darkness is nothingness, rendering her powerless to ever hurt me again"
WOW! JUST WOW!
I didn't put this down. I read this in one sitting.
I'm not going to tell you a damn thing about this story, you have to read it. YOU HAVE TO READ IT. I'll tell you how I felt and what this story did to me though.
I will warn you, this book isn't for everyone. I love emotional, gritty, all consuming stories. It's been awile for a book to totally grab my soul. I WAS CHEWED UP AND SPIT OUT.
"They say monsters live under beds. They're wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside"
MY HEART WAS TORN FROM MY CHEST! After I finished, I layed in bed shaking my head for about an hour. THIS IS MORE THAN A BOOK, IT'S A PAINFUL JOURNEY.
It will be a long time before I will get over this, if ever. As I write this, goosebumps are up and down my arms.
I'LL PROBABLY BE BACK TO WRITE MORE!
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July 27, 2016BLURB I’m needy.
I’m broken.
Cutting breaks through my numbness, but only opens more wounds.
Depression, self-harm, bullying....that's my reality.
Sex and guys....that's my escape.
The space between the truth and lies is blurred leaving me torn, lost and confused. And while the monsters that live in my head try to beat me-- the two men that I love try to save me.
This is my story of friendship, heartache, and the grueling journey that is mental-illness.
Sometimes you have to get lost in order to be found…
I’m broken.
Cutting breaks through my numbness, but only opens more wounds.
Depression, self-harm, bullying....that's my reality.
Sex and guys....that's my escape.
The space between the truth and lies is blurred leaving me torn, lost and confused. And while the monsters that live in my head try to beat me-- the two men that I love try to save me.
This is my story of friendship, heartache, and the grueling journey that is mental-illness.
Sometimes you have to get lost in order to be found…
May 14, 2015
Items ticked off: 17
In theory, I should like this book. And I did, to an extent. Up until around the 40% mark, I thought I'd give it at least three stars. Not above that, not with all the minor things that irked me. I digressed. The book moved along in an even pace, nothing really changed. And it did throughout the entire story. But as said, the 40% mark. That's when I first began to look at the overall picture. And... it wasn't pretty. All those minor things that irked me. When I added them up, they weren't minor things anymore, not when looking at the big picture.
But let's take a moment to see what Therapy is all about. It's the story of Jessica, a young woman who's been bullied all through her high school years. Then senior year comes, her last year of walking through the corridors and being terrorized by her bullies. Almost like a movie, the über-popular Jace – who happens to date Jessica's biggest bully – steps in and saves the day, making Jessica's bully at least tone it down. Jessica and Jace form an unlikely friendship that soon turns out to be more, but they are both hesitant to start anything so serious when they're young. In the end, right before Jace leaves for college, they follow through on their feelings for each other. However, one lie breaks them up. Then we fast forward six years later and Jessica is now doing court mandated therapy where she is diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. A coincidence lands Jace back in Jessica's life and they must both face their past and present, as well as current demons.
So. Those things that irked me. Let's just get them out of the way.
1. The dialogue
I'm not shy about saying the dialogue is terrible. Stilted, unnatural, and lacks flow. The character's constant monologues and overdramatic outbursts just didn't do it for me.
2. The characters.
I give all props to the author for writing a heroine struggling with BPD, one who's not the typical virgin(al) shy insecure girl. Jessica i rude, impulsive and self-destructive. That I give all props for. Even if I disliked Jessica more often than not, she brought out an emotion from me. Sadly, none of the other characters did. Jace was stereotypical and way too one-dimensional, especially for a main character. There's no character development to him, or any of the other secondary characters. Speaking of Jace...
3. Jace
Here's the thing. Jace had a younger autistic sister who died. She was bullied and died one day partly because of that in a car accident. He goes for years watching his girlfriend being the biggest bully of the school, not telling anyone about the bullying of Jessica. Yet, he tries to appear all apologetic and shit to her. I do not buy it. Not with all the guilt he claims to carry around. Not with how much he claims his sister meant to him. My dislike for Jace is partly because of this and partly due to the lack of character development. Then there's this habit he has of saying things that upset me on several levels.
I knew you had been with plenty of guys, but that night...that night you looked more innocent and untouched than any girl I’d ever known.
4. The belittlement
As seen above, Jace is very fixated on how Jessica is innocent and all that when she's with him. Now, there's two love interests in this book, Jace and Kingsley. I disliked both (still partly due to lack of character development). But also because they continue to belittle Jessica pretty much all the time. They don't say it out loud, but in their minds... Yeah, not pretty. They think it's "cute" when Jessica gets mad, it's adorable and all that when she's independent. I just... it bothered me too much.
5. Quoting yourself
So each chapter began with a quote from a famous person, or just a generally famous quote... or the author quoting herself. I'm not going to say the quotes aren't relevant, or that they are bad... it's just... well, I find it tacky. It's kind of like rating your own book five stars. Seriously, I don't care if it's Stephen King, a completely new author, or another big shot name in the literary world, quoting yourself in your book, I still find it weird.
6. Last but not least, the portrayal of women
I have probably said this before, but the portrayal of women irked me endlessly. Every woman who isn't a friend of the heroine is presented as an evil witch. I'm not opposed to writing mean women. Hell, give me a psychotic one and I'm still on board with that. It's when practically every single character that isn't a friend of the heroine is described a bitch that I get irritated. It's so often used to simply make the heroine look better, and I find it a cheap way to do so. Let the heroine stand on her own despite her flaws, just because another character is worse, it won't make me like the heroine more.
I will end saying that the heroine isn't your typical heroine, and I loved that. Jessica is difficult to like, and most of her troubles are caused by herself, but she tried to get better. I really need to stress this point: Jessica is a strong character. If that's what your looking for, look no further.
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February 14, 2016
This book. It broke me. There were parts that I had to physically walk away. Puffs Plus and Godiva chocolate got me through, at one point, I think I was wiping my face with candy wrappers... don't judge!
It hurt. The intensity of highs and lows Jessica and Jace felt... it gutted me. The complexity of feelings that Ms. Perez was able to weave into words was so incredibly potent. I had to take a couple of days before I was able to even write this review, because I wasn't sure I was going to be able to rate it.
“They say monsters live under beds. They're wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”
How true is that... take a minute and let that sink in. Depression is real folks. It's real and it's scary. It's so isolating and people live with it...and die from it every single day. Yeah... deep, right? Whew. I need another bar of chocolate, or a glass of wine. Or both. At any rate, this book. While a very difficult and gut wrenching read... was absolutely sensational. 5 stars!
It hurt. The intensity of highs and lows Jessica and Jace felt... it gutted me. The complexity of feelings that Ms. Perez was able to weave into words was so incredibly potent. I had to take a couple of days before I was able to even write this review, because I wasn't sure I was going to be able to rate it.
“They say monsters live under beds. They're wrong because our mind is where monsters truly reside.”
How true is that... take a minute and let that sink in. Depression is real folks. It's real and it's scary. It's so isolating and people live with it...and die from it every single day. Yeah... deep, right? Whew. I need another bar of chocolate, or a glass of wine. Or both. At any rate, this book. While a very difficult and gut wrenching read... was absolutely sensational. 5 stars!
May 20, 2023
Spodziewałam się czegoś więcej ale nie uważam aby sama książka była zła. Myślałam i szczerze liczyłam na to, że pojawi się tam sporo autodestrukcji, innego spojrzenia na ludzki byt. W znacznym stopniu skupiała się na relacjach uczuciowych głównej bohaterki, które przypominały mi niestety romansidła od Colleen (a tego nie lubimy hehe). Miała szanse na rozwój od tej psychologicznej strony ale nie było to przedstawiane i tłumaczone w należyty sposób. Szanuję samo podejście i przeplataną problematykę ale nie zaspokoiło to moich oczekiwań. Momentami pojawiały się niedopowiedzenia i same wątki były przedstawiane w absurdalny sposób. Z takich „drobiazgów” to tłumaczenie jest felerne albo autorka naprawdę napisała całą książkę lekko podwórkową gwarą.
November 11, 2018
What an absolutely amazing story! One of my top 10 of all time books!
I stumbled upon this book with the recommendation of Colleen Hoover (Slammed, Point of Retreat, This Girl, Hopeless, Losing Hope, Finding Cinderella, Maybe Someday).
I have to say this story is exactly as the synopsis states. Jessica is a broken young girl who is battling depression and self harm. As a high school student, she is struggling to fit it. This isn't the "broken" girl and "popular boy" fall in love story we have all read a million times. Kathryn's amazing writing has allowed us into the mind of Jessica. You feel her pain, her hopelessness and desperation at times. We all have thought, "she is one crazy girl", but once you read this book, you will see those with mental illness with a different set of eyes. You will feel the love and devotion Jace has for her and her relationship with Kingsley will surely make you swoon. (We all need a Kingsley in our lives).
This book changed my life. I view bullying in a different light, I see mental illness like that, an illness, and I have found that people enter our lives for a reason. (I honestly believe I found this book for a reason). I would say, I recommend this book more often than any other book I have ever read.
If you are looking for a "happy go lucky" book, then find something else. If you are looking for a book that will make you laugh and cry (sometimes, big, ugly, snotty crying), this is absolutely the book for you.
After you read this book, you will have a new appreciation for snowflakes too!
I stumbled upon this book with the recommendation of Colleen Hoover (Slammed, Point of Retreat, This Girl, Hopeless, Losing Hope, Finding Cinderella, Maybe Someday).
I have to say this story is exactly as the synopsis states. Jessica is a broken young girl who is battling depression and self harm. As a high school student, she is struggling to fit it. This isn't the "broken" girl and "popular boy" fall in love story we have all read a million times. Kathryn's amazing writing has allowed us into the mind of Jessica. You feel her pain, her hopelessness and desperation at times. We all have thought, "she is one crazy girl", but once you read this book, you will see those with mental illness with a different set of eyes. You will feel the love and devotion Jace has for her and her relationship with Kingsley will surely make you swoon. (We all need a Kingsley in our lives).
This book changed my life. I view bullying in a different light, I see mental illness like that, an illness, and I have found that people enter our lives for a reason. (I honestly believe I found this book for a reason). I would say, I recommend this book more often than any other book I have ever read.
If you are looking for a "happy go lucky" book, then find something else. If you are looking for a book that will make you laugh and cry (sometimes, big, ugly, snotty crying), this is absolutely the book for you.
After you read this book, you will have a new appreciation for snowflakes too!
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