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189 pages, Kindle Edition
First published March 1, 2024
Jonathan Buckley’s Tell is a probing, exuberant and complex examination of the ways in which we make stories of our lives and of other people’s. Structured as a series of interview transcripts with a woman who worked as a gardener for a wealthy businessman and art collector who has disappeared, and may or may not have committed suicide, it is a thrilling novel of strange, intoxicating immediacy.
Seize the day and all that. That wasn't the way Les took it. No silver linings with granddaddy's clouds.
‘And Harry took the opportunity to wind him up a bit, about Curtis and Lara, which was a risky thing to do, when you bear in mind that Asil put his sister's boyfriend in A&E when he found out he was two-timing her. Safe to say there was a bit of friction between those two—Asil could be a bit of a dick at times, you have to say. Pardon the language. Harry's niece, she was a plumber and she played for a football team, and Asil thought that was pretty funny. Women and football. A woman plumber, come to that. He had some very old-fashioned notions. The relationship between Katia and Ulla, for example. It made him queasy. But in his defence, I don't believe he ever tried it on with any of the girls. Jacqui would definitely have been game. But I think it would have gone against his principles, mixing work and pleasure like that. And he wouldn't have been one for a meaningless bit of fun.’
'—everything seemed to interest him. Almost everything. Not sport. He wasn't interested in sports. Not at all. A waste of time, to his way of thinking. Told Lara he could never sit through an entire football match. Odd, because he was a very competitive person. When you're in that world, everything's a competition, isn't it? So maybe sports wasn't serious enough for him. Not enough at stake.'
‘A standard housewife was what he'd wanted, but Hilde was never going to be standard housewife material. Back home, she'd been part of an arty crowd. She'd studied textiles and fashion at college, because textiles and fashion were female territory. but what she really wanted to be was a painter. She had lessons with various artists, in lieu of payment for modelling. There were some disreputable specimens among her friends. Hilde's parents were liberal-minded, but not that liberal. When they let her go off to England they'd hoped they were saving her soul. That was the story. But after the war she found out that someone she'd known in Vienna had also made it to London. She'd been one of his models, and his muse. In England she became his muse again, and quite a bit more. She'd been quite a bit more in Vienna too. She told Lara his name and Lara looked him up. You can see his pictures in a few museums, apparently. There's one in London somewhere.’
‘Noisy rock was very much his thing, and he had things to say about the subject, about the way everything gets lumped into categories, so if you liked Led Zeppelin that meant you were a Heavy Metal fan, so you must have liked Black Sabbath and Deep Purple and every other big-din outfit. But there were nuances, and the nuances are getting lost now, when you have all these experts pontificating about a period that was finished before they were born. You know, you hear these people talking about how something captured the zeitgeist. Any given year could have a dozen zeitgeists, if you ask me. Pick a year and look at the albums. Sex Pistols, Sister Sledge, Bob Marley, John Denver - all the same year. That's my thing, that period.’
FIRST SESSION
I can talk for as long as you like, no problem. You'll just have to tell me when to stop. How far back do you want to take it? Because Lily is what it's about, in my opinion. And the mother is part of the story too. Father too. Goes without saying. But maybe better to pick them up later. Shall we start with the crash? Seems an obvious place.
[Pause]
And there's a terrific bit, after the threat from the Nazi artist, when it occurs to Lara that she exists in this old lady's mind alongside the one-armed pianist and that terrible Stephanie woman, and hundreds of other people who Lara knows nothing about, most of them dead, and then it hits her that of course it's the same for everyone - we have no idea who we're living alongside in the minds of the people were met. We're keeping strange company, every one of us. This isn't the only world we live in, the one that's around us, the one we see. We're characters in hundreds of different worlds. All of us.
If you talk to Viv, she'll probably give her theory an airing. That huge row with Lily, the screaming match, Viv thought it might have been about Curtis and Karolina. Or Curtis and someone else. Most likely Karolina. Perhaps Katia was laying into Curtis and Lily wasn't having any of it. Standing by her man. Has to be pointed out that Viv didn't much care for Karolina. And Curtis had broken up Katia's first family, don't forget. Made her father miserable for years. So Viv put two and two together and made five. She has more of an imagination than me. On the subject of Karolina, I've said all I have to say, I think.
..because you can't see the back of your own head. You think because you're you, you've got access that other people don't, because they're on the outside and you're on the inside. But on the inside it can be darker than outside. And you're too close to what you're looking at. Like having your nose right up against a picture. You can't really see it.
[Inaudible]
… you remember someone doing something, years back, and you know it happened more or less as you recall, that it was this person who did this thing in this way, but can you describe them, like you can describe someone who was in front of you an hour ago? You can’t. Your mind’s eye is seeing them, but you can’t describe them. The mind’s eye isn’t an eye. It’s not that kind of picture you’re getting. Not really a picture at all. Even the person you saw an hour ago. You can’t see them like someone who’s there. The fade-out happens right away. It’s what the police always say. Eyewitness often doesn’t mean much.
(p. 98)
But the system is what it is. I wish it wasn’t, but it is. It’s not going to change. Harry will tell you I’m just a fan. Blinded by the charisma. I don’t think that’s fair. There were things I admired and things I didn’t like so much. But credit where credit is due. I could also point out that Harry was happy to work for Curtis. We all were. Most of us. [...] Which is not to say I have no problems with someone being that rich. Of course I do. If the world was run the way it should be, nobody would be that rich. Goes without saying. It’s wrong. (p. 35)
But we all do it, to make things fit, in retrospect. I know that. Like when you take a photo of something from a distance, and things look closer to each other than they are in reality. When we look back, the perspective is all crushed up. Such and such a thing happened, but when we remember it we can’t experience it again exactly as it was. We make a story of it. It’s something we need to do. There has to be a build-up.
[Pause]
(p.151)