Reading James Baldwin's essays, particularly 70 years after they were originally published, evokes so many emotions.
Awe, because his writing is so complex and intricate, and so far from the less literate and far too simplified writing of this part of the 21st century.
Anguish and depression, because, in seventy years, so few have taken their understanding (if they have any) of Baldwin's work enough to heart to make the effort to heal, either themselves or society.
Sadness, because so little has changed, and embarrassment, for being the instrument of little, if any, change.
Baldwin's writing is lyrical. Nobody who ever heard him speak on talk shows in the 1970s or 1980s can be surprised by his mastery of evocative English; except for those who are so far to the Right and so devoid of education and understanding, almost every reader has to be stopped and stirred by how he details the simplest of truths. Even those who could dare to disagree, or who honestly admit that they can't fully understand what he is saying, have to acknowledge the talent with which he expressed himself.
That is not to say that Baldwin's writing is always easily. His long sentences are discursive; his meaning is sometimes clouded a rhetoric which is less flowery than smoky, with tendrils of poetic descriptions leading the dizzied reader away from the main point. In more than one spot in the first two essays, I found that I had to read aloud to make sure I wasn't carried off, too far from the main points. However, unlike when I'm reading an author who has just been too puffed up to stick to cleanly-spoken main matters, I find any difficulty in reading Baldwin to belong to solely to myself as reader.
Of the four essays making up this slim volume, I found Equal in Paris to be the most compelling and the easiest to follow. While it's possible that might be because it involves the least (of the four) effort for deconstruction and uses the most (if possible) plainly spoken language, it is mostly because it is so personal a story.
In 1949, through no fault of his own and for a fairly ridiculous reason, Baldwin was imprisoned awaiting trial in Paris. I have rarely, except when reading Holocaust memoirs, felt so raw an experience in my bones. I'm a straight, cis, white, 58-year-old suburban woman fairly well into the 21st-century, and I carried Baldwin's angst and confusion around with me all day after reading this essay.
I wouldn't want to "spoil" the story by providing details, if such can be said about someone's true, lived experience, but I do imagine that even the most woefully White Nationalist, even whoever sees himself totally at odds philosophically with Baldwin, would be unable to read this essay and not imagine himself in Baldwin's place. Even such an imagined person, and even I (philosophically so much closer to Baldwin) cannot fully comprehend his situation, but if Baldwin's writing were only judged on how evocative this one essay were, his position as a great writer would be established.
The remaining four essays are even more complex, requiring a deeper understanding of history, of sociology, and of humanity. They cover the concepts of alienation, of identity (mostly Black, but also white European and African), of how both Americans and Europeans try (or don't try) to understand, or even perceive, Black identity, and how that understanding and perception is generally superficial.
The first two essays even explore how Black American students in the post-WWII era, studying in Paris, are alienated from their own selves and imperfectly understand their own identities, both as Americans and as Black men. (Baldwin concerns himself almost entirely with men; with the exception of random, non-speaking chambermaids, the only woman Baldwin ever really references is a rural Swiss bistro-owner's wife in the final essay.)
I found myself repeatedly transfixed by Baldwin's turns of phrase. I could not stop reading this part:
The black man insists, by whatever means he finds at his disposal, that the white man cease to regard him as a n exotic rarity and recognize him as a human being. This is a very charged and difficult moment, for there is a great deal of will power involved in the white man's naïveté. Most people are not naturally reflective any more than they are naturally malicious, and the white man prefers to keep the black man at a certain human remove because it is easier for him thus to preserve his simplicity and avoid being called to account for crimes committed by his forefathers, or his neighbors. He is inescapably aware, nevertheless, that is in a better position in the world than black men are, nor can he quite put to death the suspicion that he is hated by black men therefore. he does not wish to be hated, either does he wish to change places, and at this point in his uneasiness e can scarcely avoid having recourse to those legends which white m en have created about black men, the most usual effect of which is that the white man finds himself enmeshed, so to speak, in his own language which describes hell, as well as the attributes which lead one to hell, as being as black as night.
Similarly, the eternal truth of the following is haunting:
The idea of white supremacy rests simply on the fact that white men are the creators of civilization (the present civilization, which is the only one that matters; all previous civilizations are simply "contributions" to our own) and are therefore civilization's guardians and defenders. Thus it was impossible for Americans to accept the black man as one of themselves, for to do so was to jeopardize their status as white men. But not so to accept him was to deny his human reality, his human weight and complexity, and the strain of denying the overwhelmingly undeniable forced Americans into rationalizations so fantastic that they approached the pathological.
Baldwin wrote this essay sometime between the end of the 1940s and 1955 when it was published, and following his thought patterns to the end of the essay would have to tear themselves in knots to deny his truth, as he notes, "People who shut their eyes to reality reality simply invite their own destruction, and anyone who insists on remaining in a state of innocence long after that innocence is dead turns himself in a monster."
These essays will be sticking with me for a long time, and I anticipate reading more Baldwin, in whose oeuvre my education is woefully lacking.