La meg sove til dette bare er en drøm

by Elissiv Stifoss-Hansen, Ellisiv Stifoss-Hanssen

Mia legges inn på sykehus for behandling av livmorhalskreft. Det er akkurat slutt med kjæresten Anne-Marie. På sykehuset flyter Mias tanker og følelser mellom fortid, nåtid og fremtid. Hva skjer med bevisstheten når sykdom og behandling tar kontroll over kroppen?La meg sove til dette bare er en drøm er en stille, nær og intens fortelling om hvor brutal sykdom kan være, om hvor vanskelig kjærlighet kan være, og om hvorfor noen må skrive. Det er en roman om å huske og glemme, om å gli mellom livet som det var og livet som det har blitt, og frykten for om reisen ender.

Genres: Fiction

191 pages, Hardcover

First published January 22, 2014

Reviews

[Noah · Rating 5 out of 5]

There are multiple lesbians and they are Norwegian, however, one has cancer

[Maja (prologen) · Rating 3 out of 5]

Det tok litt tid før jeg forsto at vi gikk frem og tilbake i tid, men jeg likte at man fikk se hvordan livet var før hovedpersonen ble syk. Jeg klarte ikke ha så mye sympati for Mia ettersom jeg følte at hun var veldig flytende og destruktiv i kjærlighetsforholdene. Det var fint å lese en bok der hovedpersonen var lesbisk uten at det var viktig for historien, bare naturlig. Setter også pris på at det ble skrevet om livmorhalskreft da vi trenger fokus på dette.

[Emily · Rating 4 out of 5]

I've read this almost immediately after Kjersti Skomshold's "Monsterhuman." As a result, I have a some idea of what is fictionalized from the story, from her friendship with Kjersti. Kjersti and Elissiv went to Folk Highschool together and at that time Ellisiv was already very sick, but not with cervical cancer, her lungs were failing. She needed a lung transplant. It was as they were doing tests in preparation to put her on the transplant list that they found Ellisiv had cervical cancer and she underwent cancer treatment. They treated the cervical cancer aggressively in order that Ellisiv would get a clean bill of health so that she could get a transplant. And she has since the transplant.
By using autobiographical fiction to tell her story Ellisiv was able to set very strict boundaries around which part of her story she wanted to tell in this book.
The story is nonlinear. It jumps around between her treatment and her relationship and break-up with "Anne Marie" around the time of her cancer diagnosis. Occasionally it's difficult to make the transition and tell exactly where you are in her timeline.
Ellisiv gives some vivid truths about what it's like to experience the treatment for cervical cancer; about doctors who were dismissive at best; and about feeling stifled by her parents, who were her caregivers.
If you're interested in memoir or women's health this short (under 150 pages) and well worth reading (definitely a much easier read than Monsterhuman).

[Andreas Collins · Rating 4 out of 5]

Bra bok som beskriver ens kamp mot kreft. Samtidig beskrives frustrasjonen som ligger i kjærlighetssorg. Anbefales!

[Salomon · Rating 4 out of 5]

really beautiful and real. The non linear structure is perfect

[Marlenesabine · Rating 2 out of 5]

2.5
Gjorde ikke annet enn å gi meg kjempefrykt for å få livmorhalskreft.

[Tea · Rating 4 out of 5]

"La meg sove til dette bare er en drøm" er en bok jeg ikke glemmer med det første. Boka handler om Mia som legges inn på sykehus med livmorhalskreft. Mye av boka handler om kreften, behandlingen og hvordan kroppen og hodet har det etter å ha fått beskjed om mistanken om kreft, den endelige diagnosen, og behandlingen av kreften. Ellisiv Stifoss-Hanssen forteller ting rett ut - her "sugarcoates" lite. Dette er en av bokens styrker, men det gjør den også veldig vond å lese.

Boka handler også om Mias to tidligere kjærester, Kristin og Anne-Marie, og hvordan hun ikke klarer å gi slipp på dem og på kjærlighetssorgen.

Jeg synes også boka handler om relasjonen til foreldrene. Scenene med foreldrene er de meste hjerteskjærende i hele boka, og jeg synes de er både vonde og nydelige!

Dette er en sterk bok. Den er litt vanskelig å lese, for handlingen og tankene hopper fra det ene til det andre, og frem og tilbake i tid, noe som gjør at den kan være litt forvirrende. Språket er veldig fint - i enkelte kapitler beskrives handlinger og dialog rett fram, mens andre kapitler er mer poetiske og åpne for tolkning. I det hele tatt er dette en bok med mange fasetter, og jeg likte den godt!

[Zemmiphobe · Rating 2 out of 5]

This book was difficult to get through, and not because the subject matter is depressing. This book does deal with a sad and serious matter that does make the story a bit dreary and the author could have included a little bit more hope and support, but the story would function fine without it anyway because it is sad situation. What doesn't work I. This book is the characters and the writing style. This book jumps back and forth in time so much you'll feel the whiplash. There are no headers or differences in the writing to suggest that your are changing times and sometimes it changes mid page or mid paragraph. This makes the story hard to follow because you spend more time trying to place the recollection into a timeline to follow the story. This is especially annoying when characters make a very quick appearance with no explanation about who they are because they do not receive their introduction until the memory of their meeting is recalled 100 pages later. The other problem is the characters. None of the characters seem to have a well rounded identity. She dislikes some and likes some, but I can't figure out what about any of them make her feel one way or the other. Her character is apathetic and distant. At first I thought this was maybe from the exhaustion of her cancer treatment, but she is the same way in her memories. Why she is that way or how it feels to her to be that way, is never explained. At one point they mention angst or anxiety, but they never specify if they using it colloquially or as an actual diagnosis and she never describes anything that sounds recognizably like anxiety. Overall, the book was not very enjoyable because the distancing of the main character made the whole story feel distant and unemotional. None of the characters were relatable or real feeling. I thing the subject matter and discussion of the everyday concerns of a chemo patient was the best part. It was realistic and descriptive in a way non of the characters were.

[Maren Elise · Rating 3 out of 5]

Ganske rotete bok, og jeg ventet hele tiden på at noe skulle skje, men det ble aldri noen ordentlig handling. Det var fint å få et innblikk i hvordan det er å ha kreft, men i og med at det ikke var noen ordentlig handling og skrevet rotete får den ikke helt den effekten den burde hatt.