Lilya is FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Let me tell you reading this book fucking DRAGGED. Jesus Christ this is the hardest I've ever had to force myself to slog through a goddamn book. But let's get into this shit.
Overall I loved the ML, found the FL intolerable, and considered dropping this book about a hundred times. The ML is literally the only reason this review isn't 1 star-- let's talk about why.
First: I'm not a fan of the misogynistic, borderline transphobic ideals (nobles wearing "womanly" clothes) followed by blatant racism (barbarians who wear bones in their hair and warpaint during dinner) literally in the opening chapter. Like wtf.
But I was both entertained by the unlikable MC (quote: "Most would say her value was in her beauty and her breeding, but she knew her true talent was making men despise her. Not only men, but any person that dared make her acquaintance.") and appalled that noble girls literally hit their princess until she got bruises and no one cared or intervened?? Like the fuck?? And her dad WONDERS why she's so angry. I genuinely don't understand why they hate her so much and why her dad is such a goddamn coward about protecting her (quote: "Perhaps it was for the best that she wouldn’t be queen of Calos, despite being the eldest and more experienced. What kind of queen could rule a people that reviled her very existence? That was why Father kept her tucked away since she’d come of age. It was the only kindness the bitter king ever offered her. Sophia would be quietly wed to a lord of some foreign king that offered trade and thus protected her from bloodthirsty subjects that thought her spoiled and unworthy.") Like who the hell treats their princess and child like that. The subjects desire to raise a rebellion in her name in response to the sacrifice felt so ingeniune and hollow personally, considering how they treat her.
She is such a naïve, oblivious character though Jesus Christ. Like her dad literally called her a sacrifice but she just defaulted to a normal wedding? Especially when there seems to be a precedent of sacrifices to the dragons? Like tf. The audacity to call Rosemary gullible as this is going on too (quote: "Sophia watched tears dry on Rosemary’s weathered face. She was a kind woman, kinder than Sophia deserved. And gullible, so very gullible. If men titled her queen, it was only in mockery. If people stood against the king’s choice, it was only because they were Gods fearing, devout people and knew the Gods forbade blood sacrifice.")
The fact that so much importance was put on her being *his* and how his fire couldn't hurt her/her scent calling to him had me 👀👀 as fuck, like I called them being mates from the second his POV started but then his response to her calming/laughing had me just soft as fuck that was so sweet oh my god. But ofc it has to be enemies to lovers cause why not. I was sitting here yelling internally that they better get past that fast cause he's sweet and smitten as hell, like he's already so much better than so many male leads just because he acknowledges his faults and realizes where he's going wrong, and also that he shouldn't lie to or scare her (quote: "One word, clipped so she didn’t hear the growl rising in his chest. It wouldn’t do to frighten her again, not if he intended for her to stay.") And couldn't keep her there against her will like UGH I love him. Well I guess SHE had to get past it. He didn't seem to care even as he narrated such. Like the actions were very much different from the words here lmao. Puppy of a man I love him.
His plotting to keep her and convince her to stay with him was so fucking cute, but fucking hilarious in time with his essential "I won't fuck her unless she begs but GOD I hope she begs" djdndm. His determination to convince her what she means to him, that he doesn't just wanna fuck her, and that everything has to happen on her terms (plus the "he was admittedly a little too eager to please her") had me soft as fuck genuinely. I think the romance genre has ruined my standards for fictional men. Like waiting for consent is the bare minimum why am I so soft about this dkdmssm. I will say the glutton spell was surprisingly wholesome, and his response to her asking who his mistress was had me. He's such a little shit and I was so so excited for her to realize but alas she's an oblivious ass and had to be bitchy about it when she did. Also he is SO horny for her and the fact his eye slits give that away so easily is immensely entertaining to me, my man was really •v• to 'v' every time she breathed near him. Plus he's just...ugh so sweet. Saying he wouldn't, *couldn't* hurt her even if he's pissed and hates her family, and trying so hard to put her at ease.
I really did just super dislike Sophia for most of this book. She was so naïve, self centered and honestly just bitchy. Immediately assuming Burne wanted her throne and that's why he was "lying" about her family was so ridiculous. Especially when she herself says so many times throughout the beginning of the novel that no one knew how her grandfather killed the dragon and that her family is selfish and greedy. Why is she so against someone *else* saying that? I felt so, so bad for Burne when she just kept being a bitch to the point that he had to leave to calm down, just for her to condemn him for it (quote: “You only have three days. Are you going to waste one leaving me alone in your library?” Defeat etched deep grooves in his handsome face. “Yes, I am.”) like...he's so sweet and so good and she's gonna treat him like that? And her next chapter just CONTINUES her being a self-centered bitch? (Quote: "Sophia was absolutely not going to feel guilty. Guilt implied she was in the wrong. She was a captive, a victim. Guilt was not her burden to bear in this mess.") Like...the fuck girl. I legit considered dropping this book more than a few times just purely because of how awful she was. And then got sucked back in by the sweetness of Burne, and the hope that Sophia would realize it, and their bond (her being comforted by his scent and his belongings repeatedly, even while being a bitch, HAD me tbh). I did looooove when she was actually nice and playful, it had me soft as hell and it mixed with Burne as a whole are the only reasons I didn't drop this book (quote: “You’re at my mercy now.” I have been at your mercy from the moment I laid eyes on you.")
I also low-key lost it at the scene of her meeting his dragon. That shit was SO cute and so teasing and just ugh quality content. Only to be immediately ruined by Sophia being prickly and incapable of imagining for even a moment she's his mate. Like seriously how dense can she be. He has been nothing but adoring and devoted, while saying he'd never forsake his mate, but she can't even consider it's her?? (Quote: "The dragon wanted one person and that person was not she. And perhaps, she thought bitterly, Burne didn’t want her at all. Perhaps he was a smooth liar and that mysterious woman meant nothing to him. Sophia was a warm body. That was enough for most men.") Like...he's done nothing but prove otherwise to her and I'm just *throttle hands*
God when they argued over her being spoiled, and the reveal of Rosemary 's death tho. Ugh my heart. Poor baby. Him PROTECTING HER THO. Trying to stop her when he saw it first, and then literally curling around her and taking arrows for her had me. And the yoink back home was top tier. I'm so glad he protected her, and comforted and loved her even when she blamed him and yelled/hit. She needed that. And the MATE REVEAL UGH. I still can't believe she never put it together, but the reveal was so cute and sweet nonetheless. Like Burne is SO SWEET AND LOVING, even when she has a barbed tongue and is a bitch like omg (quote: “could you fall in love with me, exactly as I am? Or is it merely some force of divinity that draws you to me?” “I’m half in love with you already.” “I won’t hold my tongue for you.” “I should hope you never do.”) Burne had my entire heart this whole book like ugh. Love him. I literally lost it at how ridiculous their first kiss/bonding was, but god he's so SWEET and so in LOVE (quote: “You think you’re dark but you, sweet Sophia, are the light Calos needs shining on them.”)
Also, btw, can we just talk about how FANTASTIC the first Burne was and how irrevocably in love with his wife he was?? Like I am soft as fuck. I would read a book about them, even knowing how it ends. That man was a simp and a half and I adore it wholeheartedly. Like the last thing he wrote, the last thing he did, was with his mate's well being in mind (quote: “It has come to this, as I feared it would. I will do what I must. My crown, my kingdom, and all of its riches, my people, my throne, and the blood in my veins, I shed it all for Ruby.”) and that's how more mate, especially fated mate, media should be. I'm so sick of borderline abusive bs guised as mates, when it should be love and devotion and adoration such as this.
But yeah this book was...oof it was an experience. And not necessarily a good one. I may or may not continue the series after a hefty break but thank FUCK I'm done now ugh.