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Not My Fault: A father's secret shame, a daughter's living hell
"What mattered was that someone listened to me. Someone believed me, after 25 years. That means everything."
A mum of three who was abused and raped as a child by her own father has revealed her ordeal drove her into the clutches of middle-aged paedophiles.
Trish Hinde, 35, was sexually abused by her father, Gerard King, from the age of six. Alone and scared, she internalised her trauma and began suffering from violent seizures. Her father took responsibility for her epilepsy care, even abusing her on hospital visits.
Trish and her five siblings were neglected, often relying on neighbours for food and watching helplessly as bailiffs carried away their possessions. In her early teens, Trish was recklessly promiscuous and became a victim of child sexual exploitation, often finding herself in danger.
She reported her childhood abuse many times, in letters to family members and social workers, in an essay she wrote at school, to a therapist and to NSPCC. But, despite her father being jailed for abusing another child, her complaint never went any further. Trish became suicidal and despairing. Her relationships seemed doomed because she had damaging flashbacks and seizures whenever she became intimate.
But in 2015, she met her husband, Craig, and found true happiness. They had three children, Jacob, now six, Oscar, five and Jessica, three. But Trish was overly protective of her children and did not like her husband looking after their daughter. Realising her past history was damaging her marriage, she decided to go to the police. This time, at last, they listened.
In April 2022, Gerard King, 59, was convicted of rape, indecent assault and indecency with a child at Chester Crown Court. Trish maintains the court case and conviction were not important to her.
A mum of three who was abused and raped as a child by her own father has revealed her ordeal drove her into the clutches of middle-aged paedophiles.
Trish Hinde, 35, was sexually abused by her father, Gerard King, from the age of six. Alone and scared, she internalised her trauma and began suffering from violent seizures. Her father took responsibility for her epilepsy care, even abusing her on hospital visits.
Trish and her five siblings were neglected, often relying on neighbours for food and watching helplessly as bailiffs carried away their possessions. In her early teens, Trish was recklessly promiscuous and became a victim of child sexual exploitation, often finding herself in danger.
She reported her childhood abuse many times, in letters to family members and social workers, in an essay she wrote at school, to a therapist and to NSPCC. But, despite her father being jailed for abusing another child, her complaint never went any further. Trish became suicidal and despairing. Her relationships seemed doomed because she had damaging flashbacks and seizures whenever she became intimate.
But in 2015, she met her husband, Craig, and found true happiness. They had three children, Jacob, now six, Oscar, five and Jessica, three. But Trish was overly protective of her children and did not like her husband looking after their daughter. Realising her past history was damaging her marriage, she decided to go to the police. This time, at last, they listened.
In April 2022, Gerard King, 59, was convicted of rape, indecent assault and indecency with a child at Chester Crown Court. Trish maintains the court case and conviction were not important to her.
244 pages, Kindle Edition
Published March 14, 2024
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March 26, 2024
Beautifully written, compelling, and heart breaking - once I started reading, I couldn’t put it down. Trish’s account of her childhood abuse is devastating, but her story of perseverance and of bringing her abuser to justice is awe-inspiring. Her bravery in speaking out and telling her story will hopefully help others who are suffering in silence to come forward and hold their own abusers accountable.
March 23, 2024
Brilliant book well written I'm over the moon that Trish got justice
April 28, 2024
Disappointed to not know what ger mother and sibling know, react,or just ignored her or supported. Many many loose ends in this book.
May 14, 2024
Interesting heart crushing read , ,
I was appalled by the teacher not acting upon the essay,good Lord , followed by several other bodies disgusting...the Drs report shocked me the most , brave lady not giving up
I was appalled by the teacher not acting upon the essay,good Lord , followed by several other bodies disgusting...the Drs report shocked me the most , brave lady not giving up
June 17, 2024
The stars I am giving this book are not for the story itself as it is truly and awful one, but for everything else, the writing style, the courage etc.
From the first two pages it is Instantly a gripping read. I couldn’t put it down! (Took me less than 24 hours to read it).
This is a shockingly devastating true story. One that made my insides shudder. What happens during this book will have you wanting to reach in and cradle that young girl in your arms. You will want to scream at certain “professionals”. But enough of the devastation within these pages - what you need to take from this is It’s an inspiring story. One that should be spread far and wide. One of guts & courage. Self awareness and altogether bravery.
You are a brave woman Trish Hinde. An inspiration to many of us.
From the first two pages it is Instantly a gripping read. I couldn’t put it down! (Took me less than 24 hours to read it).
This is a shockingly devastating true story. One that made my insides shudder. What happens during this book will have you wanting to reach in and cradle that young girl in your arms. You will want to scream at certain “professionals”. But enough of the devastation within these pages - what you need to take from this is It’s an inspiring story. One that should be spread far and wide. One of guts & courage. Self awareness and altogether bravery.
You are a brave woman Trish Hinde. An inspiration to many of us.
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