Great dual-timeline structure, great concept. Great characters & relationship dynamic, written well. Although it doesn’t fully work, a fun read - and when it didn’t work, it didn’t work in interesting ways.
*Structure*
The author wrote in the acknowledgements that writing this book while also working as a professor during covid near killed her so I hate to say this, but… it reads like a(n extremely well-written) middle draft. The scene-to-scene-to-scene emotional arc logic isn’t *quite* there, at least not all the time, like the author wrote a bunch of scenes and threaded them together pretty well but hasn’t completely smoothed out the emotional crescendos yet. As a result, it feels a little bit repetitive, or like there are parts that could have been cut. I loved the structure (his POV in present day, hers in short flashbacks getting chronologically closer as the book goes on) but it feels like there was a little bit of padding to balance that out, maybe.
*The Exes*
I know that in Romance World having characters be in other relationships on page is controversial, but I loved that aspect of the story - I loved their exes tbh! They felt like real people who really had chemistry on page with the MCs, it totally made sense why the couples got together and why the relationships didn’t last, and even with Lily’s ex, whose sad fate you learn very quickly, you feel like he was a great guy but not a saint, and never just a plot obstacle.
*Power Balance*
This is a book about two aggressive, manipulative characters battling for control in their workplace, and the book’s biggest problem is that it doesn’t fully assign the “blame” correctly, especially by the end of the book.
Murray is the main POV character, but he’s very static - for most of the book, he’s just reacting to what Lily is doing, and even when he’s trying to take charge he’s really just flailing - I never bought that he had a master plan, or saw the big picture, or wanted anything other than ~have career and relationship success~. This is especially dramatic in comparison to Lily, who clearly does have a consistent plan throughout the entire book.
I think that intersected in an ineffective way with the fact that on the workplace level, Murray is in the power position - practically speaking, he’s the producer. Lily is just the talent, and even though she’s kind of wild, it’s always in service of what Murray wants, or what Lily thinks he wants. She’s taking his direction - explicitly, at multiple points, he literally tells her what he wants to happen in the plot of the reality show and she happily goes off to execute it.
At the same time, structurally within their workplace, Murray is the white man who gets stuff handed to him and who gets credit for all the success, while Lily is the Asian woman who is harassed, discriminated against, and excluded from opportunities unless Murray goes out of his way to help her.
So we have this workplace setup that reinforces that Murray is the one who gets stuff handed to him, while Lily is the one who has to work for it… and that’s what ends up happening in the romantic plot line as well: Murray “takes his space” and passively waits her out, which is portrayed as fair after the way she’s tried to manipulate him and after she hasn’t been fully honest with him about the show or her feelings; at the same time, Lily has to dramatically apologize and confess her love, beg Murray to come back, and burst into tears ON NATIONAL TELEVISION in order to “earn” him back. (I get that part of this is trying to show that she’s finally being emotionally vulnerable, but I think other scenes portrayed that was more effectively.)
Basically the book is trying to argue that this dynamic is totally unfair in the workplace BUT somehow totally correct in their relationship. And giving the author the benefit of the doubt and assuming this is an intentional juxtaposition…. It really doesn’t work at all. I ended the book thinking that Lily had been put through it, way more than necessary, while I was supposed to be thinking Murray was a great guy….. for doing nothing?? And the cherry on the sundae was how he ends the book (a book all about how they’re great work *partners*) by offering her a job working FOR him, because she has no other career options.
Like - what??
I think the intention may have been that it would balance the fact that the book begins with Murray surprised, thrown, and in the dark about Lily’s plans - but it goes too far in the opposite direction. It’s hard for me to see how this book didn’t end with Lily worse off than she was at the beginning, frankly. She’s got a demotion and she’s now working FOR her boyfriend? I liked Lily and Murray both a lot as characters, and I totally bought their chemistry and compatibility. But the way the end of this book played out, I am rooting against their relationship.
(But as I’ve said this book was super readable - if the story had continued I would have kept reading!)
*Misc*
And a few other things that don’t really fit into the above:
- There was this Murray characterization piece about how (over)protective he was toward Lily which brought out some interesting ideas that I would have loved to see explored further. The protectiveness really worked on an individual character level, and given Lily’s husband’s fate, but also intersected with gender/race stuff in and out of their workplace in a specific, realistic way. We didn’t really see much of how Lily felt about it, and earlier in the book I thought Murray might face a ~reckoning~ about the way in which that urge can be harmful as well as helpful… but he did not. (Not that I think he needed one, but it would be a sort of typical way to wrap up that character element. I kind of like that that didn’t happen, but I would have enjoyed if the topic had been explored further, in a more nuanced way.)
- There was this running thing about Murray’s “daddy voice”, which, maybe in Australian it has a different ring to it but every time the word “daddy” was used I recoiled. The voice is supposed to be commanding/scolding (Murray uses it at work a lot!), and nothing about “daddy” says scolding, I could see “dad voice” being a phrase a human being might actually use to describe that tone, but “daddy” never. I hate it lol. (I kept thinking maybe it was hinting at a sexual thing, like the book reveals that Lily likes when Murray has that vibe, but it never really went there.)
- The thing where Lily brings Murray food/coffee and tries to get him to eat… probably a personal thing but I hated this too. It sort of compounded the unaddressed gender/race/power dynamic stuff, and I just wasn’t convinced that she would do that kind of thing. It seemed like an attempt to make her more sympathetic and frankly I didn’t think she needed it. (The head massage thing she did covered that base!)
- I cannot speak personally to the racial/representation stuff in this book, but I think that it was trying to have it both ways by having these manipulative reality producer MCs who were still totally woke and drew the line at racism - for me, it was an attempt but it was not totally successful, in a way that came down in part to the fact that Murray was the main POV character. I guess I appreciated the commitment to telling the story primarily through the eyes of the white MC but as a result I felt like the book spent a lot of time focusing on him wanting to not be racist ~for~ Lily - which tbf felt very realistic! - and not much time focusing on Lily’s experience/thoughts/decisions (so we never got a real sense of whether he was successful).
- As I’m writing this out - interesting that this is a rom com largely from the guy’s perspective, I feel like that’s rare!
- And just to say it - massively impressive to write a trilogy about three different couples that is THIS interwoven. At the same time I think it was sort of genius because it makes it feel like all the side characters were a lot more fleshed out than they often are in romcoms like this.