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Indigo B&B #3
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Three women scarred by trauma. Will they find a way to thrive?
Heidi and Ann have been together nearly sixteen years, and yet, something hasn’t been right in their relationship from the start. Struggling with deep trauma, Heidi pulls away and doesn’t know how to function in a normal loving relationship. Ann is overwhelmed by shame when it comes to her needs. Eighteen months ago, they took a leap and opened their relationship in hopes of finding a better balance.
Insert Lila.
Lila is young, vicarious, and a strength for both Ann and Heidi. With trauma of her own, she was graced with the tools to cope and thrive. Now she has to choose if she can work through her own past and race toward the future either by herself or with Ann and Heidi in tow.
Indigo: Three is an age gap, small town novel about overcoming our past to live into our present and maybe even hope for a future. Be prepared for abuse triggers, but also to see the beauty of fighting for what we deserve. A life full of love and safety.
Heidi and Ann have been together nearly sixteen years, and yet, something hasn’t been right in their relationship from the start. Struggling with deep trauma, Heidi pulls away and doesn’t know how to function in a normal loving relationship. Ann is overwhelmed by shame when it comes to her needs. Eighteen months ago, they took a leap and opened their relationship in hopes of finding a better balance.
Insert Lila.
Lila is young, vicarious, and a strength for both Ann and Heidi. With trauma of her own, she was graced with the tools to cope and thrive. Now she has to choose if she can work through her own past and race toward the future either by herself or with Ann and Heidi in tow.
Indigo: Three is an age gap, small town novel about overcoming our past to live into our present and maybe even hope for a future. Be prepared for abuse triggers, but also to see the beauty of fighting for what we deserve. A life full of love and safety.
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Adrian J. Smith
78 books425 followersAdrian J. Smith has been publishing since 2013 but has been writing nearly her entire life. With a focus on women loving women fiction, AJ jumps genres from action-packed police procedurals to the seedier life of vampires and witches to sweet romances with a May-December twist. She loves writing and reading about women in the midst of the ordinariness of life. Two of her novels, For by Grace and Memoir in the Making, received honorable mentions with the Rainbow Awards.
AJ currently lives in Cheyenne, WY, although she moves often and has lived all over the United States. She loves to travel to different countries and places. She currently plays the roles of author, wife, and mother to two rambunctious kids, occasional handy-woman. Connect with her on Facebook, Twitter, or her blog.
AJ currently lives in Cheyenne, WY, although she moves often and has lived all over the United States. She loves to travel to different countries and places. She currently plays the roles of author, wife, and mother to two rambunctious kids, occasional handy-woman. Connect with her on Facebook, Twitter, or her blog.
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July 28, 2022
My thoughts while reading this and immediately upon finishing - I have never read about such a dysfunctional couple. If you enjoy books driven by lack of communication, look no further.
Open relationships are a rare find in lesfic, so I was looking forward to reading about that aspect (Per the blurb - Eighteen months ago, they took a leap and opened their relationship in hopes of finding a better balance.) but that is literally all we are told, so the reader is left to surmise how that came about. To me, it felt like Ann suggested it, and Heidi reluctantly played along.
How their relationship survived all of that, I'll never know. But this is a romance, so you'll be pleased to know there is a happily ever after - and what more can we hope for?
ARC provided by the author
Open relationships are a rare find in lesfic, so I was looking forward to reading about that aspect (Per the blurb - Eighteen months ago, they took a leap and opened their relationship in hopes of finding a better balance.) but that is literally all we are told, so the reader is left to surmise how that came about. To me, it felt like Ann suggested it, and Heidi reluctantly played along.
How their relationship survived all of that, I'll never know. But this is a romance, so you'll be pleased to know there is a happily ever after - and what more can we hope for?
ARC provided by the author
July 20, 2022
Book three in the Indigo series is probably the most emotional one and definitely the one that pulled me in the most. Not that I didn’t love the other two books I definitely do, but this book is just something else. It contains so many feelings. I actually struggle to describe the depths of my own feelings during it. Maybe I also have to say that I struggle to understand poly relationships. The whole concept is foreign for my brain. But and here comes the but. Reading books like this one are so important for myself. They help me to understand how other people‘s feelings differ from my own and to see how it’s possible to make it work.
What we get in this story are Heidi and Ann who are in a relationship for more than 15 years. They love each other but drifted apart, most of all because they didn’t talk about their feelings. Heidi never really shared what happened in her past and Ann also closes up and prefers to run from their but also her own problems. Sex is something Ann gets from other woman and quite some time from one and the same Lila.
When Heidi meets Lila things start to change for all of them. Lila is like the missing puzzle piece. She is younger than the other two and even if she has her own trauma, she is much more carefree. She reads Ann and Heidi in the most perfect way and knows exactly what to tell them to make them think about their own issues. All while they get lost in each other’s arms.
I don’t wanna say too much about what happens in the story because it happens a lot, even if I somehow think the sorry could have went on for much longer because there was still so much to work through. The moments I struggled were actually the non-communication part at first. And most of all I struggled with Ann there. Her hiding away instead of actually listening were difficult for me at some point. Of course her own trauma leads to her act the way she does and Heidi on the other hand isn’t innocent too of course. At some point I totally understood Ann‘s hurt and I would have definitely felt the same. Again I don’t wanna give too much away so better read it yourself maybe you will know then which part I mean. ☺️
Another thing that is important to mention is that even if the book‘s main topic is huge trauma, it never goes into any details. You will know what happened and it definitely broke my heart, but not in a way I couldn’t deal with it. I appreciated that very much. The book is also written from the POV of all the three characters which gives you a wonderful insight.
Last but not least I know how much this story means to Adrian J. Smith and I can’t even imagine how hard this had to be for her. I am in awe of her and very grateful she has written this story. She touched me deeply with it. These are the stories that need to be written more, to give affected people the possibility to relate.
I received an advance reader copy from the author and voluntarily leaving a review.
What we get in this story are Heidi and Ann who are in a relationship for more than 15 years. They love each other but drifted apart, most of all because they didn’t talk about their feelings. Heidi never really shared what happened in her past and Ann also closes up and prefers to run from their but also her own problems. Sex is something Ann gets from other woman and quite some time from one and the same Lila.
When Heidi meets Lila things start to change for all of them. Lila is like the missing puzzle piece. She is younger than the other two and even if she has her own trauma, she is much more carefree. She reads Ann and Heidi in the most perfect way and knows exactly what to tell them to make them think about their own issues. All while they get lost in each other’s arms.
I don’t wanna say too much about what happens in the story because it happens a lot, even if I somehow think the sorry could have went on for much longer because there was still so much to work through. The moments I struggled were actually the non-communication part at first. And most of all I struggled with Ann there. Her hiding away instead of actually listening were difficult for me at some point. Of course her own trauma leads to her act the way she does and Heidi on the other hand isn’t innocent too of course. At some point I totally understood Ann‘s hurt and I would have definitely felt the same. Again I don’t wanna give too much away so better read it yourself maybe you will know then which part I mean. ☺️
Another thing that is important to mention is that even if the book‘s main topic is huge trauma, it never goes into any details. You will know what happened and it definitely broke my heart, but not in a way I couldn’t deal with it. I appreciated that very much. The book is also written from the POV of all the three characters which gives you a wonderful insight.
Last but not least I know how much this story means to Adrian J. Smith and I can’t even imagine how hard this had to be for her. I am in awe of her and very grateful she has written this story. She touched me deeply with it. These are the stories that need to be written more, to give affected people the possibility to relate.
I received an advance reader copy from the author and voluntarily leaving a review.
August 1, 2022
Heidi, a social worker, and Ann, a nurse, had been in a committed relationship for over a decade and a half. While love had never been a problem, there had been something missing from the start. So, after trying and failing to find that piece, they opened up their relationship. Ann immediately began seeing other people and in that time began a longer term relationship with a woman. Heidi, ever the introvert, hadn’t met anyone that interested her. Enter, Lila, young, observant, and beautiful on the inside and out. Could she be that missing piece?
Adrian J. Smith handled the three women’s traumas in such a delicate way. She created three multidimensional main characters that were so well developed. I know that this author experienced her own trauma as a child, so I am simply in awe that she was able to write this book and really write it well. Ann was passionate, dedicated, protective, and full of shame. This inhibited her greatly in her relationship with Heidi. Heidi experienced an appalling amount of trauma in her younger years but she not only survived, she persevered. She was compassionate, patient, and wise. Her inability to be vulnerable with Ann inhibited her greatly in her relationship with Ann. Lila, was perceptive, loyal, and open minded.
Our author’s ability to intertwine three characters’ lives in such a natural yet strategic way really made this book so fantastic. It was amazing to go through everything with these mains and see how they not only came together but were able to all finally communicate to make everything work out.
This book deals heavily with trauma. While there isn’t direct trauma on the page, there are a lot of references to the trauma all three women had faced in their younger years. This may be off putting to some readers.
This deep, emotional, and engaging book is something that will stick with me for a long time. It showed how shame can be combatted through vulnerability and communication in order to make the relationships between our main characters stronger.
I received an ARC copy from the author in exchange for an honest review.
Adrian J. Smith handled the three women’s traumas in such a delicate way. She created three multidimensional main characters that were so well developed. I know that this author experienced her own trauma as a child, so I am simply in awe that she was able to write this book and really write it well. Ann was passionate, dedicated, protective, and full of shame. This inhibited her greatly in her relationship with Heidi. Heidi experienced an appalling amount of trauma in her younger years but she not only survived, she persevered. She was compassionate, patient, and wise. Her inability to be vulnerable with Ann inhibited her greatly in her relationship with Ann. Lila, was perceptive, loyal, and open minded.
Our author’s ability to intertwine three characters’ lives in such a natural yet strategic way really made this book so fantastic. It was amazing to go through everything with these mains and see how they not only came together but were able to all finally communicate to make everything work out.
This book deals heavily with trauma. While there isn’t direct trauma on the page, there are a lot of references to the trauma all three women had faced in their younger years. This may be off putting to some readers.
This deep, emotional, and engaging book is something that will stick with me for a long time. It showed how shame can be combatted through vulnerability and communication in order to make the relationships between our main characters stronger.
I received an ARC copy from the author in exchange for an honest review.
July 11, 2022
Adrian J. Smith
Indigo: Three (Indigo B&B Book 3)
Book 3 of 4: Indigo B&B
Ann and Heidi had been together for 15 years, but there was a distance between them. Heidi was having Intimacy issues, and never shared that with Ann. This caused Ann to feel out of touch with Heidi and feel insecure in their relationship.
Ann meets Lila, at the hospital where they both worked. Ann starts to date Lila. Ann liked how Lila was free and flirty with her. Lila had a confidence that could shine in any room.
Lila meets Heidi later on in the book. They run into each other in the cafeteria at the hospital. Heidi came to surprise Ann for a lunch date. . Lila was instantly drawn to Heidi, she was attracted to her from the very beginning. Once they begin to talk, they connected on a deeper level due to their previous experiences with sexual abuse. Lila wanted to know her and figure out why she was so sad.
The first couple of chapters Heidi and Ann were not getting along, they seem worlds apart. Heidi was lonely and sad from her past trauma. She did not feel safe enough to share how she was really feeling and the struggles that she was going through. The two main characters have given each other permission to date other people.
The story made me feel so many things. It was like Lila was the missing piece for each main characters. She could see the pain and sadness in Heidi and could read how Ann avoided her issues with Heidi.
Heidi and Ann had an open relationship. Which they do not communicate about well. They both are dating Lila and do not figure that out for awhile. My heart went out to Heidi. She was in so much pain about what happen to her when she was a 12 year old little girl .
All three women were hiding pain and trauma, All the woman were afraid to be left alone. They are had open wounds. Each one of them needed to be handled carefully. This story touched me in so many ways.
I don’t want to give the story away. It’s definitely an emotional roller coaster, but a good one. This is a story about three people who need love and attention. They love each other so much, they’re willing to do whatever it takes to keep their stuff love alive.
I want to thank the Author Adrian J. Smith for the arc this is one of my favorites this year. 5 stars ⭐️ ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ I highly recommend this book.
Indigo: Three (Indigo B&B Book 3)
Book 3 of 4: Indigo B&B
Ann and Heidi had been together for 15 years, but there was a distance between them. Heidi was having Intimacy issues, and never shared that with Ann. This caused Ann to feel out of touch with Heidi and feel insecure in their relationship.
Ann meets Lila, at the hospital where they both worked. Ann starts to date Lila. Ann liked how Lila was free and flirty with her. Lila had a confidence that could shine in any room.
Lila meets Heidi later on in the book. They run into each other in the cafeteria at the hospital. Heidi came to surprise Ann for a lunch date. . Lila was instantly drawn to Heidi, she was attracted to her from the very beginning. Once they begin to talk, they connected on a deeper level due to their previous experiences with sexual abuse. Lila wanted to know her and figure out why she was so sad.
The first couple of chapters Heidi and Ann were not getting along, they seem worlds apart. Heidi was lonely and sad from her past trauma. She did not feel safe enough to share how she was really feeling and the struggles that she was going through. The two main characters have given each other permission to date other people.
The story made me feel so many things. It was like Lila was the missing piece for each main characters. She could see the pain and sadness in Heidi and could read how Ann avoided her issues with Heidi.
Heidi and Ann had an open relationship. Which they do not communicate about well. They both are dating Lila and do not figure that out for awhile. My heart went out to Heidi. She was in so much pain about what happen to her when she was a 12 year old little girl .
All three women were hiding pain and trauma, All the woman were afraid to be left alone. They are had open wounds. Each one of them needed to be handled carefully. This story touched me in so many ways.
I don’t want to give the story away. It’s definitely an emotional roller coaster, but a good one. This is a story about three people who need love and attention. They love each other so much, they’re willing to do whatever it takes to keep their stuff love alive.
I want to thank the Author Adrian J. Smith for the arc this is one of my favorites this year. 5 stars ⭐️ ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ I highly recommend this book.
July 21, 2022
My god I was so angry at the beginning of this book thinking one of the characters was cheating. I felt so many emotions from start to finish that I was emotionally exhausted by the end. But I couldn't put it down, I devoured it and was a little depressed when it ended. This series is wonderful. Great characters, well written and one hell of a roller-coaster. I highly recommend this book and author.
July 8, 2022
I am really enjoying the Indigo series and this third installment is great. Heidi and Ann have been together for fifteen years and while they love each other tremendously, they struggle to connect and communicate. Both have childhood trauma they haven’t fully shared which keeps the other from being able to understand parts of themselves. They both recognized their relationship had issues and they recognized that to stay together, opening their relationship to others was something they would likely need to survive together. Enter Lila. Lila is unapologetically poly and not looking for long term romantic relationships. Her own trauma compels her to keep a distance but gives her tremendous insight and understanding into both Ann and Heidi. Lila is the key to unlocking the communication and connection between Ann and Heidi, even though it takes them time and a trip to Indigo to realize they’re both dating the same person. Ann and Heidi just might be who Lila needs to find what she’s been missing too. It’s a painful but worthwhile journey as the three women navigate their relationships and face their demons to prove to each other they are wanted and loved.
I received an ARC copy for an honest review.
I received an ARC copy for an honest review.
August 4, 2022
Adrian writes about difficult issues with so much sensitivity. Ann and Heidi have been together for over 16 years. From the start you can tell how much they love each other. But they have a disconnect. They have a huge problem communicating. They have a open relationship, but Heidi has never been out with anyone else. She has some bad issues from when she was young. But she trust Ann to go out and come back to her. Ann has been going out with a much younger female from the hospital where they both work. Lila is a very easy going, out going, beautiful female who doesn't want a relationship. This is the story of how they all try to work out their issues. In the end how many will be left together? There are some tough issues, but handled with great care. I did receive an ARC but these are my own views.
March 25, 2025
Stars: 5 Stars
Format: Audiobook
Narrator: Quinn Riley
Series: Indigo B&B Book 3
Steam Level: Steamy
I read this for the I Heart Sapphic 2025 Reading Challenge for the prompt Small Town Setting.
CW: Childhood SA (past), still birth (past), abuse (past)
PLEASE pay attention to the CWs for this book. They play a MAJOR roll in the story and are impossible to skip. The reason this review is so late is that I wanted to see if this was a book you could skip if you needed to. And yes you can. In Indigo: Law Ann makes an appearance but doesn’t play a major roll. Jerica is the love interest in that one and she’s hardly in this. All you need to know going forward is that Ann and Jerica are nurses.
My review for this book is going to be different from my normal way of doing things.
This was an extremely hard read. If I had been physically reading it instead of listening, it would have taken at least three times longer to finish. If I finished it at all. It was very well written and the story was gripping to the point I absolutely had to give it five stars. I’m not a big fan of Why Choose stories where they aren’t all together in one big happy group but I understand why it’s not (at this particular moment of time in the story at least.)
The issues with miscommunication and intimacy are ones that any intimate partnerships experience and the author portrays it with a nuance many do not. The solid commitment Ann and Heidi have to each other despite these issues actually heightened the tension to nearly unbearable. You get chapters from each of the three, Ann, Heidi, and Lila, so you see/understand how the miscommunications are happening and it helps take away the irritation that comes from this trope. Plus all three characters have a depth that made them relatable.
I cannot stress enough how good and difficult this book is. So hard that I had to reread a very long, favorite book afterwards to decompress. So I would suggest having something low angst on board ready to read afterwards.
Overall this story is amazing. It is one heck of an emotional roller coaster and while I will never reread this one, it will absolutely be sticking with me for years to come.
TLDR: skippable you just need to know Ann and Jerica are nurses at the same hospital
Format: Audiobook
Narrator: Quinn Riley
Series: Indigo B&B Book 3
Steam Level: Steamy
I read this for the I Heart Sapphic 2025 Reading Challenge for the prompt Small Town Setting.
CW: Childhood SA (past), still birth (past), abuse (past)
PLEASE pay attention to the CWs for this book. They play a MAJOR roll in the story and are impossible to skip. The reason this review is so late is that I wanted to see if this was a book you could skip if you needed to. And yes you can. In Indigo: Law Ann makes an appearance but doesn’t play a major roll. Jerica is the love interest in that one and she’s hardly in this. All you need to know going forward is that Ann and Jerica are nurses.
My review for this book is going to be different from my normal way of doing things.
This was an extremely hard read. If I had been physically reading it instead of listening, it would have taken at least three times longer to finish. If I finished it at all. It was very well written and the story was gripping to the point I absolutely had to give it five stars. I’m not a big fan of Why Choose stories where they aren’t all together in one big happy group but I understand why it’s not (at this particular moment of time in the story at least.)
The issues with miscommunication and intimacy are ones that any intimate partnerships experience and the author portrays it with a nuance many do not. The solid commitment Ann and Heidi have to each other despite these issues actually heightened the tension to nearly unbearable. You get chapters from each of the three, Ann, Heidi, and Lila, so you see/understand how the miscommunications are happening and it helps take away the irritation that comes from this trope. Plus all three characters have a depth that made them relatable.
I cannot stress enough how good and difficult this book is. So hard that I had to reread a very long, favorite book afterwards to decompress. So I would suggest having something low angst on board ready to read afterwards.
Overall this story is amazing. It is one heck of an emotional roller coaster and while I will never reread this one, it will absolutely be sticking with me for years to come.
TLDR: skippable you just need to know Ann and Jerica are nurses at the same hospital
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August 4, 2022Indigo Three is a lovely story about how three women who have all suffered some sort of sexual trauma in their past, find and fall in love with one another, and amazingly become what’s been missing from each of them for much of their lives.
Ann, Heidi and Lila are unique women with full lives, and as we all do, each carries baggage from their past. One might think that more dysfunction would result from blending and uniting the love of three women, but in this case, the opposite occurs. What could turn into an absolute disaster, and nearly does, somehow works out and creates an interesting and loving relationship between the three women. Lila provides the missing piece for Heidi and Ann by helping them to communicate with one another in raw, honest, and meaningful ways, and they provide an example of how long-term love for one another and continued effort can be the backbone of a long and lasting relationship. Lila isn’t convinced that Heidi and Ann will be the only women she engages with romantically, but she knows that she cannot give up the home she has found within their circle.
This book brought a bit of enlightenment to me on the topic of polyamorous love and relationships. The way Smith weaved the lives of the three women together in loving and respectful ways was nothing short of phenomenal. The trauma of each woman’s life was intimately detailed, yet gently soothed in the love created by the three. It was in moments an emotional roller coaster ride and thought provoking in others. It was a thoroughly enjoyable read.
While Indigo Three is part of a series, it can also be a stand-alone book, and it’s one worthy of the time to read. For those who are not in tune with polyamorous relationships as I was, the sweet relationship that develops is simply further proof that love is love, and it needs no understanding; it just is.
Ann, Heidi and Lila are unique women with full lives, and as we all do, each carries baggage from their past. One might think that more dysfunction would result from blending and uniting the love of three women, but in this case, the opposite occurs. What could turn into an absolute disaster, and nearly does, somehow works out and creates an interesting and loving relationship between the three women. Lila provides the missing piece for Heidi and Ann by helping them to communicate with one another in raw, honest, and meaningful ways, and they provide an example of how long-term love for one another and continued effort can be the backbone of a long and lasting relationship. Lila isn’t convinced that Heidi and Ann will be the only women she engages with romantically, but she knows that she cannot give up the home she has found within their circle.
This book brought a bit of enlightenment to me on the topic of polyamorous love and relationships. The way Smith weaved the lives of the three women together in loving and respectful ways was nothing short of phenomenal. The trauma of each woman’s life was intimately detailed, yet gently soothed in the love created by the three. It was in moments an emotional roller coaster ride and thought provoking in others. It was a thoroughly enjoyable read.
While Indigo Three is part of a series, it can also be a stand-alone book, and it’s one worthy of the time to read. For those who are not in tune with polyamorous relationships as I was, the sweet relationship that develops is simply further proof that love is love, and it needs no understanding; it just is.
October 13, 2023
Wow!
There is so much emotion within this book that I found it a little difficult to read at times. Not to detract from the writing and story, it's just that some of the topics raised hit me to the core on a personal level, namely childhood trauma, while others forced me to reevaluate my feelings towards what may be considered taboo subjects.... Open relationships - polyamory. While 2 separate beings that may or may not be related, these are concepts that most people, myself included until reading this book, cannot truly understand. Until now, I've never understood how or why they can work.
Indigo Three, however, is so well-written and honest that it provides a level of clarity that will leave the reader with an understanding of how intrinsically fulfilling they can be.
The author tells the story of the MC's, Heidi, Ann, and Lila, and their relationship choices in such a pure and honest way. All 3 characters have experienced different traumas in their childhoods that affect the way their adult personalities have developed and the way they interact with partners/lovers.
I can't really go into too much more detail as I don't want to give any of the story away, but I do want to encourage you to read it.
This book is amazing, you won't be the same after reading it (in a good way that is!!)
There is so much emotion within this book that I found it a little difficult to read at times. Not to detract from the writing and story, it's just that some of the topics raised hit me to the core on a personal level, namely childhood trauma, while others forced me to reevaluate my feelings towards what may be considered taboo subjects.... Open relationships - polyamory. While 2 separate beings that may or may not be related, these are concepts that most people, myself included until reading this book, cannot truly understand. Until now, I've never understood how or why they can work.
Indigo Three, however, is so well-written and honest that it provides a level of clarity that will leave the reader with an understanding of how intrinsically fulfilling they can be.
The author tells the story of the MC's, Heidi, Ann, and Lila, and their relationship choices in such a pure and honest way. All 3 characters have experienced different traumas in their childhoods that affect the way their adult personalities have developed and the way they interact with partners/lovers.
I can't really go into too much more detail as I don't want to give any of the story away, but I do want to encourage you to read it.
This book is amazing, you won't be the same after reading it (in a good way that is!!)
August 5, 2022
Well, that was...different. I did not see a throuple situation coming! Heidi and Ann have been together for nearly 16 years and clearly love each other, but are definitely lacking in the intimacy/sexual department. Lila is a young thang that ends up accidentally dating both of them since their relationship is open. When they all find out, they decide they want to be with Lila and each other. Lila has commitment issues due to her childhood, so I understood her hesitation. Plus, the proposition is pretty strange and certainly not for most couples. It felt to me like the couple has horrible communication issues, didn't even try to do couples therapy or anything else to fix their problems, and were really just bored of having sex with one another. I truly felt the connection between Heidi and Lila were really strong and tbh, I think they fell harder for each other than Ann and Lila did. Ann was pretty annoying overall, I didn't care for her character. I definitely understood some of her struggles with rejection from Heidi and having a high sex drive, but she really didn't handle herself well in those situations.
The steamy scenes were really hot, but it was pretty weird for me to imagine, being monogamous myself. BUT I'm not kink shaming. You do you, boo.
The steamy scenes were really hot, but it was pretty weird for me to imagine, being monogamous myself. BUT I'm not kink shaming. You do you, boo.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
October 24, 2022
I love love loved this book. Just wanted to continue the journey with the main characters at the end.
This book may not be to everyone taste as it touches on sexual abuse. That said it is beautifully written and shows how different people can be affected by this and deal with it. I could not put this book down, I was interested in the journeys of all the characters and just wanted to tag along with them and find out how things would turn out for each of them. Can’t recommend this book highly enough. Well done Adrian.
This book may not be to everyone taste as it touches on sexual abuse. That said it is beautifully written and shows how different people can be affected by this and deal with it. I could not put this book down, I was interested in the journeys of all the characters and just wanted to tag along with them and find out how things would turn out for each of them. Can’t recommend this book highly enough. Well done Adrian.
January 15, 2023
Very well written. Serious undertone. Much talking and there is a love.
I got an ARC for an honest review.
I got an ARC for an honest review.
February 1, 2025
It's not a bad book, but polyaromy is not for me.
October 8, 2025
Adrian J. Smith's deepest, most emotional and poignant story she's written yet, imho. Not just in this Indigo series, but amongst other books of hers that I've read/listened to, thusfar. I have a feeling this particular story is a very personal one because of the depth of the underlying trauma(s) that's filled with a myriad of emotions laced in her entire narrative. Words have energy. And they reverberate in Smith's story with profound impact in the form of her characters' thoughts, their emotions, their psyche when facing the reality of their lives as individuals, partners and friends. They say physical scars heal but mental/emotional/psychological scars cast long shadows before true healing surfaces.
And, Quinn Riley truly did the story justice with her deeply resonating performance. Every nuance - emotional, psychological, mental, even physical - could be felt viscerally from her richly versatile voice that can be unpacked into so many layers, with each MC she portrayed. Listening to Riley bring them to life as the embodiment of Lila, Heidi and Ann, was a harrowing experience as you could literally hear each trauma speaking like it was its own character, separate from the survivors altogether, as the story and character development unfolded.
Smith deftly injected some of the most difficult and detailed interaction scenes ever written between couples. Riley took them on and vocalised them with such conviction that you could feel each character's pain, loss, fears, doubts, insecurities, worldview about relationships, physical vs emotional intimacy, self-love, self-worth, unconditional love, the universal language of love. I loved every communication scene because Smith did not spare any detail about some of the most intimate, difficult subjects to discuss, argue or confront between 2 people in a relationship - intimacy, safety, security, truth, honesty. Smith wrote them with such impassioned conviction, so intimate were the interactions, the effect was visceral, gut-wrenching.
I don't believe I've read any couple's communication in a romance written with such brutally honest, raw and personal way. She dares to delve deep into the inner psyche of a person and shines a light on some of the darkest, unspoken emotions that only reside within oneself and not brought up because they could potentially be a time-bomb, or a threat to one's sense of security, if ever mentioned in a relationship.
The root cause of most, if not all, relationship problems or failures is communication, or lack or absence thereof. Adrian J. Smith went there in this story. And I love her for it. Bravo, indeed! I'm sure it must have been very hard to put it into writing. But she did it. And bloody hell, wait until you hear Quinn Riley transform each and every word, every nuance, into real life effect. It's even more deep-seated when it's all played out in stirringly vivid consequence with a vocal intensity that transports you to intense realism.
By the end of the book, I was emotionally drained. At times, it was soul-crushing especially when the traumas were finally uncovered. Other times, it was heartbreaking to witness a total breakdown of communication between two people who were supposed to be in love with each other for the past 16 years and they were stuck. Which brings me to the poly aspect of the plot. The way Smith weaved it was both suspenseful, intense and original! It's like watching (reading/listening to) an explosive slowly detonating as the story reached its climactic moment of truth! That's all I'm gonna say about it! Totally worth it, though.
Brace yourselves, readers. It's one of the most intense, triggering, yet also a therapeutic read of a love story between a long-term couple, and a new person in their lives. A refreshing take on polyamory. Well, at least I never encountered this particular presentation, not that I've read a lot stories pertaining to this subject matter. The number of stories I've read I can count with one hand. Whereas all of them are similar in terms of how polyamory is usually portrayed, this 3rd installment of Smith's Indigo series is different in tone, style, purpose. It's deeply rooted in the imperativeness of communication amongst all parties involved, open, honest interactions that are focused on each party's needs, expectations, and consent, at all times. Smith's writing is conversational and insightful. She delves into the depths of what effective communication in relationships entails and uses them as the building blocks for crafting an evocative, captivating relationship story that resonates deeply.
I highly recommend "Indigo: Three" which can be read as a standalone.
And, Quinn Riley truly did the story justice with her deeply resonating performance. Every nuance - emotional, psychological, mental, even physical - could be felt viscerally from her richly versatile voice that can be unpacked into so many layers, with each MC she portrayed. Listening to Riley bring them to life as the embodiment of Lila, Heidi and Ann, was a harrowing experience as you could literally hear each trauma speaking like it was its own character, separate from the survivors altogether, as the story and character development unfolded.
Smith deftly injected some of the most difficult and detailed interaction scenes ever written between couples. Riley took them on and vocalised them with such conviction that you could feel each character's pain, loss, fears, doubts, insecurities, worldview about relationships, physical vs emotional intimacy, self-love, self-worth, unconditional love, the universal language of love. I loved every communication scene because Smith did not spare any detail about some of the most intimate, difficult subjects to discuss, argue or confront between 2 people in a relationship - intimacy, safety, security, truth, honesty. Smith wrote them with such impassioned conviction, so intimate were the interactions, the effect was visceral, gut-wrenching.
I don't believe I've read any couple's communication in a romance written with such brutally honest, raw and personal way. She dares to delve deep into the inner psyche of a person and shines a light on some of the darkest, unspoken emotions that only reside within oneself and not brought up because they could potentially be a time-bomb, or a threat to one's sense of security, if ever mentioned in a relationship.
The root cause of most, if not all, relationship problems or failures is communication, or lack or absence thereof. Adrian J. Smith went there in this story. And I love her for it. Bravo, indeed! I'm sure it must have been very hard to put it into writing. But she did it. And bloody hell, wait until you hear Quinn Riley transform each and every word, every nuance, into real life effect. It's even more deep-seated when it's all played out in stirringly vivid consequence with a vocal intensity that transports you to intense realism.
By the end of the book, I was emotionally drained. At times, it was soul-crushing especially when the traumas were finally uncovered. Other times, it was heartbreaking to witness a total breakdown of communication between two people who were supposed to be in love with each other for the past 16 years and they were stuck. Which brings me to the poly aspect of the plot. The way Smith weaved it was both suspenseful, intense and original! It's like watching (reading/listening to) an explosive slowly detonating as the story reached its climactic moment of truth! That's all I'm gonna say about it! Totally worth it, though.
Brace yourselves, readers. It's one of the most intense, triggering, yet also a therapeutic read of a love story between a long-term couple, and a new person in their lives. A refreshing take on polyamory. Well, at least I never encountered this particular presentation, not that I've read a lot stories pertaining to this subject matter. The number of stories I've read I can count with one hand. Whereas all of them are similar in terms of how polyamory is usually portrayed, this 3rd installment of Smith's Indigo series is different in tone, style, purpose. It's deeply rooted in the imperativeness of communication amongst all parties involved, open, honest interactions that are focused on each party's needs, expectations, and consent, at all times. Smith's writing is conversational and insightful. She delves into the depths of what effective communication in relationships entails and uses them as the building blocks for crafting an evocative, captivating relationship story that resonates deeply.
I highly recommend "Indigo: Three" which can be read as a standalone.
January 24, 2025
fucking hell this was depressing.
I have a whole essay written about this but, frankly, I'm so drained by these people I don't think I can muster any more of my energy to them.
probably not going to read anymore of this series because wtf
edit: fuck it. this book put me in a bad mood for the whole three days it took for me to finish it so it's getting a proper review
Writing: writing is fine but you will get told some things that just are not supported by actions
Characters: whoo, baby, here we go. I'm going to try to be sensitive here because these ladies are all severely traumatized, but that's about all we learn of who they are.
anne is insecure and thinks the only way to show love is through sex. every time her partner says "not tonight" she spirals into thoughts of not being good enough. but she won't have that conversation with her partner because if there's one thing these women are gonna do it's not talk to one another.
heidi was sexually assaulted in the past and basically never wants to have sex with her long-term partner, preferring cuddles and closeness except she will also not verbally tell her partner this. she just constantly refuses sex UNTIL she meets a new person, then she's happy to open up about her trauma and her boundaries and desires oh, and also, she wants sex with this new person. that's not going to give anne anything to worry about at all.
lila was also sexually assaulted as a child when her father passed her off to his friends for money and her image was sold all over the internet. this is how she bonds with heidi who is actually incapable of having a conversation. lila comes across as "I can fix her" taking on partners who are clearly not doing well and have literally nothing else to offer.
seriously, where are these women's personalities? the only thing we know about any of them is 1. they have trauama and 2. they suck at communicating
absolutely not rooting for anyone. go to therapy and learn how to express yourself
Plot: after 15 years together, two women who know nothing about each other because they are abysmal communicators open their relationship because neither is getting their needs fulfilled by the other but instead of talking about it, they think other people will solve their problems. no, I'm not being an ass. they actually use the third person as a mediator to help them get their shit together and communicate with each other.
What would make this an extra star read for me: SEPARATE
Vibes: depressing af
it's for somebody but that somebody is definitely not me.
this book is Depressing. and not depressing in the way that childhood lovers were forced to separate because her drunken father threatened to kill her boyfriend so she pushed him away to save him only for them to reunite 20 years later, refall in love, and on the cusp of happily ever after have him die in a tragic accident so his organs can be donated to her ailing son on the brink of death.
seriously, the start of this book, while no doubt is reality for so many (too many) couples, is straight up depressing and I do not claim that energy for me. as if it wasn't bad enough to read about two people who are only together because they have love for each other but don't at all act like it, what really makes this a tough read is the way these two people literally do not talk to each other???? what do you mean you've been together 16 years and never told your partner about your past trauma and how that formed your needs and boundaries around intimacy????? and what do you mean you've never actually expressed what those needs and boundaries are????? you are not obligated to share your trauma, but even if you don't talk about the Thing, you still need to talk about the basic stuff every relationship needs to succeed.
I am convinced people don't know how to date, and they enter into relationships based on 1st date vibes then just never update that status. like... did you even try to get to know one another? were you updating the picture of who that person is with every interaction and new piece of information or were you just clinging to the imaginary person you created or perhaps they created?
these two people may have had a healthier romance if they were open about not wanting sexy stuff and limiting things to cuddles. instead we have one constantly being triggered and the other constantly feeling rejected and like they aren't good enough.
now.... MAYBE, and that's a big maybe, this book might have been saved with the entrance of a third party for a poly situation because heck yeah it's natural and healthy to not expect one person to fill every single need you have. it's a lot to find someone you like as a person and are compatible with who also happens to be sexually compatible as well. if you found your perfect human but they had a kink you weren't into, does it make more sense to dump the whole human or supplement that part of your life with an extra human? isn't this why you have more than one friend? you have different people to enjoy different things with.
or maybe that's just adhd people who have so many hobbies and interests it'd be damn near impossible to find someone who is into all the same things😅
aaaaanywhooo. the third party in this book felt more like an "I can fix her" person who is interested in these women because they are tragic. there's literally no reason for her to be interested in heidi when they first meet because heidi is just not that interesting? she doesn't engage in conversation and very much acts like someone with a whole lot of trauma who retraumatizes herself daily with her job. their conversations were genuinely so baffling to me as a cornerstone for a romantic connection. or maybe I just learned the hard way you cannot love someone to healing.
cannot express enough how much I despised every moment of this book.
I have a whole essay written about this but, frankly, I'm so drained by these people I don't think I can muster any more of my energy to them.
probably not going to read anymore of this series because wtf
edit: fuck it. this book put me in a bad mood for the whole three days it took for me to finish it so it's getting a proper review
Writing: writing is fine but you will get told some things that just are not supported by actions
Characters: whoo, baby, here we go. I'm going to try to be sensitive here because these ladies are all severely traumatized, but that's about all we learn of who they are.
anne is insecure and thinks the only way to show love is through sex. every time her partner says "not tonight" she spirals into thoughts of not being good enough. but she won't have that conversation with her partner because if there's one thing these women are gonna do it's not talk to one another.
heidi was sexually assaulted in the past and basically never wants to have sex with her long-term partner, preferring cuddles and closeness except she will also not verbally tell her partner this. she just constantly refuses sex UNTIL she meets a new person, then she's happy to open up about her trauma and her boundaries and desires oh, and also, she wants sex with this new person. that's not going to give anne anything to worry about at all.
lila was also sexually assaulted as a child when her father passed her off to his friends for money and her image was sold all over the internet. this is how she bonds with heidi who is actually incapable of having a conversation. lila comes across as "I can fix her" taking on partners who are clearly not doing well and have literally nothing else to offer.
seriously, where are these women's personalities? the only thing we know about any of them is 1. they have trauama and 2. they suck at communicating
absolutely not rooting for anyone. go to therapy and learn how to express yourself
Plot: after 15 years together, two women who know nothing about each other because they are abysmal communicators open their relationship because neither is getting their needs fulfilled by the other but instead of talking about it, they think other people will solve their problems. no, I'm not being an ass. they actually use the third person as a mediator to help them get their shit together and communicate with each other.
What would make this an extra star read for me: SEPARATE
Vibes: depressing af
it's for somebody but that somebody is definitely not me.
this book is Depressing. and not depressing in the way that childhood lovers were forced to separate because her drunken father threatened to kill her boyfriend so she pushed him away to save him only for them to reunite 20 years later, refall in love, and on the cusp of happily ever after have him die in a tragic accident so his organs can be donated to her ailing son on the brink of death.
seriously, the start of this book, while no doubt is reality for so many (too many) couples, is straight up depressing and I do not claim that energy for me. as if it wasn't bad enough to read about two people who are only together because they have love for each other but don't at all act like it, what really makes this a tough read is the way these two people literally do not talk to each other???? what do you mean you've been together 16 years and never told your partner about your past trauma and how that formed your needs and boundaries around intimacy????? and what do you mean you've never actually expressed what those needs and boundaries are????? you are not obligated to share your trauma, but even if you don't talk about the Thing, you still need to talk about the basic stuff every relationship needs to succeed.
I am convinced people don't know how to date, and they enter into relationships based on 1st date vibes then just never update that status. like... did you even try to get to know one another? were you updating the picture of who that person is with every interaction and new piece of information or were you just clinging to the imaginary person you created or perhaps they created?
these two people may have had a healthier romance if they were open about not wanting sexy stuff and limiting things to cuddles. instead we have one constantly being triggered and the other constantly feeling rejected and like they aren't good enough.
now.... MAYBE, and that's a big maybe, this book might have been saved with the entrance of a third party for a poly situation because heck yeah it's natural and healthy to not expect one person to fill every single need you have. it's a lot to find someone you like as a person and are compatible with who also happens to be sexually compatible as well. if you found your perfect human but they had a kink you weren't into, does it make more sense to dump the whole human or supplement that part of your life with an extra human? isn't this why you have more than one friend? you have different people to enjoy different things with.
or maybe that's just adhd people who have so many hobbies and interests it'd be damn near impossible to find someone who is into all the same things😅
aaaaanywhooo. the third party in this book felt more like an "I can fix her" person who is interested in these women because they are tragic. there's literally no reason for her to be interested in heidi when they first meet because heidi is just not that interesting? she doesn't engage in conversation and very much acts like someone with a whole lot of trauma who retraumatizes herself daily with her job. their conversations were genuinely so baffling to me as a cornerstone for a romantic connection. or maybe I just learned the hard way you cannot love someone to healing.
cannot express enough how much I despised every moment of this book.
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August 4, 2022Adrian J. Smith
INDIGO THREE
First of all, the author has done a fantastic job of diplomatically addressing a sensitive issue that more women face than we know about.
This story centers around three women, Heidi, Ann & Lila. Heidi and Ann have been together for 15 years, and even though they love each other very much, but with Heidi’s intimacy issues, there is distance between them. Heidi never shared the trauma that happened to her when she was 12 years old. That event causes her issues, and as a result, Ann feels out of touch with Heidi and insecure. As a result of the distance, they have decided that to stay together, they entered an open relationship.
Ann and Lily meet at the hospital where they both work. Lila is a big flirt and starts flirting right away with Ann. Ann loves that Lila is so open and carefree, poly and not looking for a relationship due to her trauma. Ann and Lila get together, and Ann’s needs are met & because Ann has a partner, Lila doesn’t feel threatened to enter into an affair with her.
One day, Heidi came to the hospital to have lunch with Ann. Lila saw her there and was immediately drawn to her and wants to know more about her. Heidi being in the frame of mind she’s in, she is shy and retreats from talking to Lila. This intrigues Lila even more.
Lila meets Heidi again in the grocery store and again Heidi withdraws from here. As the story progresses, Heidi opens and tells Lila about her trauma when Lila voices her own trauma. To make things more interesting, Lila doesn’t know that Heidi is Ann’s partner and Ann doesn’t know that Heidi is seeing Lila.
They discover their connection when Heidi invites Lila to go away her and Ann to Indigo. Heidi feels that Lila just may be the one to help her find what she’s been missing.
It’s a long and painful albeit worthwhile journey as they navigate their relationship, face their demons, and prove to each other that they are wanted and loved.
I received an ARC of this book in return for an honest review.
INDIGO THREE
First of all, the author has done a fantastic job of diplomatically addressing a sensitive issue that more women face than we know about.
This story centers around three women, Heidi, Ann & Lila. Heidi and Ann have been together for 15 years, and even though they love each other very much, but with Heidi’s intimacy issues, there is distance between them. Heidi never shared the trauma that happened to her when she was 12 years old. That event causes her issues, and as a result, Ann feels out of touch with Heidi and insecure. As a result of the distance, they have decided that to stay together, they entered an open relationship.
Ann and Lily meet at the hospital where they both work. Lila is a big flirt and starts flirting right away with Ann. Ann loves that Lila is so open and carefree, poly and not looking for a relationship due to her trauma. Ann and Lila get together, and Ann’s needs are met & because Ann has a partner, Lila doesn’t feel threatened to enter into an affair with her.
One day, Heidi came to the hospital to have lunch with Ann. Lila saw her there and was immediately drawn to her and wants to know more about her. Heidi being in the frame of mind she’s in, she is shy and retreats from talking to Lila. This intrigues Lila even more.
Lila meets Heidi again in the grocery store and again Heidi withdraws from here. As the story progresses, Heidi opens and tells Lila about her trauma when Lila voices her own trauma. To make things more interesting, Lila doesn’t know that Heidi is Ann’s partner and Ann doesn’t know that Heidi is seeing Lila.
They discover their connection when Heidi invites Lila to go away her and Ann to Indigo. Heidi feels that Lila just may be the one to help her find what she’s been missing.
It’s a long and painful albeit worthwhile journey as they navigate their relationship, face their demons, and prove to each other that they are wanted and loved.
I received an ARC of this book in return for an honest review.
July 22, 2022
This was not really in my comfort zone, but the women pulled me in. There are traumas mentioned in the book, but not in detail and in the characters’ past. It’s more alluded to than described although I definitely knew what happened to the characters in their pasts.
Heidi and Ann have been in a loving relationship for almost 16 years, they deeply love each other, and they’re having problems. The reasons for their difficulties become clear as the story unfolds. Lila is someone who works in the hospital where Ann works, but as a shipping clerk while Ann is a nurse. Heidi is a social worker, which unfortunately triggers her once in a while with certain clients.
Heidi and Ann desperately love each other but can’t seem to get through to the other, so they’re both miserable, wondering what will happen in their relationship. Because Ann needs more physical connection than Heidi can or is willing to provide, she suggests an open relationship. Lila and Ann start seeing on each other which Heidi accepted but still doesn’t like that much. I have to say after reading the blurb I wondered how the poly part of the relationship comes in, besides Ann getting sex elsewhere. I also wondered how it would be handled.
The connections between the three women were very well thought out. The turning points kind of crept on me. Lila felt like a therapist to me for much of the book, instead of who she turned out to be as a person. No one know who’s dating whom until there’s a shocking revelation, well, shocking to the characters. Eventually, they end up at Indigo and try to figure things out. It was a very personal exploration of relationships and trauma, and how the trauma in our pasts can be handled.
Heidi and Ann have been in a loving relationship for almost 16 years, they deeply love each other, and they’re having problems. The reasons for their difficulties become clear as the story unfolds. Lila is someone who works in the hospital where Ann works, but as a shipping clerk while Ann is a nurse. Heidi is a social worker, which unfortunately triggers her once in a while with certain clients.
Heidi and Ann desperately love each other but can’t seem to get through to the other, so they’re both miserable, wondering what will happen in their relationship. Because Ann needs more physical connection than Heidi can or is willing to provide, she suggests an open relationship. Lila and Ann start seeing on each other which Heidi accepted but still doesn’t like that much. I have to say after reading the blurb I wondered how the poly part of the relationship comes in, besides Ann getting sex elsewhere. I also wondered how it would be handled.
The connections between the three women were very well thought out. The turning points kind of crept on me. Lila felt like a therapist to me for much of the book, instead of who she turned out to be as a person. No one know who’s dating whom until there’s a shocking revelation, well, shocking to the characters. Eventually, they end up at Indigo and try to figure things out. It was a very personal exploration of relationships and trauma, and how the trauma in our pasts can be handled.
August 3, 2022
Well, the author did mention in her description that she would address deep trauma in this book. Her last two sentences really do sum up how she accomplishes that:
‘Be prepared for abuse triggers, but also to see the beauty of fighting for what we deserve. A life full of love and safety.’
The relationship (communication?) issues between Ann and Heidi were set up right away yet slowly, then readers get introduced to Lila soon thereafter. The timing was just right so we can see the dynamics of the new addition unfold before our eyes.
An impromptu sharing of past trauma happened so organically and with an explanation as to why this information was brought up:
‘…but maybe it would help Heidi [a social worker] to see the impact she made on all those kids that walked through her door.’
I appreciate how the author includes conversations about various situations such as therapy, foster care, bio- & step-parents, sensitivity to boundaries, etc. The various situations and coping mechanisms are all too common. The author was very realistic yet gentle in her portrayal of trauma’s aftermath and the toll it takes when trying to move on with life. She did a great job with including several examples of responsible communication.
Okay, so no more attempts at not spoiling. I enjoyed the book, the writing style, the representation, and the topic itself in general. Even though book #3 was easy to pick up without having read the previous two, I would read those even after having finished this. AND the next two…
I recommend this as a self-help book as well as a guide to help our loved ones.
‘Be prepared for abuse triggers, but also to see the beauty of fighting for what we deserve. A life full of love and safety.’
The relationship (communication?) issues between Ann and Heidi were set up right away yet slowly, then readers get introduced to Lila soon thereafter. The timing was just right so we can see the dynamics of the new addition unfold before our eyes.
An impromptu sharing of past trauma happened so organically and with an explanation as to why this information was brought up:
‘…but maybe it would help Heidi [a social worker] to see the impact she made on all those kids that walked through her door.’
I appreciate how the author includes conversations about various situations such as therapy, foster care, bio- & step-parents, sensitivity to boundaries, etc. The various situations and coping mechanisms are all too common. The author was very realistic yet gentle in her portrayal of trauma’s aftermath and the toll it takes when trying to move on with life. She did a great job with including several examples of responsible communication.
Okay, so no more attempts at not spoiling. I enjoyed the book, the writing style, the representation, and the topic itself in general. Even though book #3 was easy to pick up without having read the previous two, I would read those even after having finished this. AND the next two…
I recommend this as a self-help book as well as a guide to help our loved ones.
January 3, 2025
This book is hard to read, especially the first one third, it is depressing and bleak. I wonder why the couple (Heidi and Ann) staying together for 16 years and yet have such a difficult time communicating. As the introduction of the third MC, the much younger woman Lila, who is dating both and who has changed both women's life for better, the story gets more interesting and we learnt the painful past of Heidi and Lila and understand their mental breakdowns and their problems with relationship. This book deals with such series issues such as childhood sexual abuse, it is raw and painful to read, but then the author showed us the incredible strength of the women dealing with the trauma and on the way to healing and recovery. The ending is mildly happy, but it gives us hope that these three women will be much happier together.
August 27, 2024
I still don’t get how Ann and Heidi are together in the first place or how they stay together for almost 16 years but I’m just gonna ignore that cuz Lila is a freaking angel. Her relationships with them separately are just so much better than their own relationship.
Also can all three of them get therapy?? Please, individually, as couples, and all three together. I was so stressed out because of how broken Ann’s and Heidi’s relationship is due to their traumas and issues. Bless Lila for being the best. And I’m glad Anna and Heidi both acknowledged how valuable Lila is.
Also can all three of them get therapy?? Please, individually, as couples, and all three together. I was so stressed out because of how broken Ann’s and Heidi’s relationship is due to their traumas and issues. Bless Lila for being the best. And I’m glad Anna and Heidi both acknowledged how valuable Lila is.
October 19, 2022
Loving this series.
Wow. This book had me all in my feelings. A lot of anxiety along with the warm and fuzzies. Anxiety because in my experience, situations like this usually end with someone being hurt. I like each book a little more than the ones before. I can't wait to get to the next book.
Wow. This book had me all in my feelings. A lot of anxiety along with the warm and fuzzies. Anxiety because in my experience, situations like this usually end with someone being hurt. I like each book a little more than the ones before. I can't wait to get to the next book.
November 15, 2022
This is an emotionally charged book. This is the first book i read from the Indigo series, and i loved it. Every character in this story has got trauma of some sorts they are working through. I believe the way Adrian portrays her characters is awesome because as i went on i began to really connect with each character and i understood their struggle. It was quite a ride.
August 14, 2022
A difficult read but worth it
Each of the characters have their own pain and it's hard to read without bringing that into yourself. But the three of them make each better sum greater than the whole and all that.
And as a poly lesbian in Kansas, wow I want this life
Each of the characters have their own pain and it's hard to read without bringing that into yourself. But the three of them make each better sum greater than the whole and all that.
And as a poly lesbian in Kansas, wow I want this life
August 15, 2022
Powerful story
A very powerful story about 3 different characters on the surface but with so much tragic and abuse in their lives. Erotic scenes with plenty of emotions and feelings plus interesting dialogues. The characters are fully dimensional and powerful. Excellent book
A very powerful story about 3 different characters on the surface but with so much tragic and abuse in their lives. Erotic scenes with plenty of emotions and feelings plus interesting dialogues. The characters are fully dimensional and powerful. Excellent book
October 2, 2022
three way highway
I was intrigued by the complexity of each character & a little sad there was so little of Eli in the picture. Too many typographical & grammatical errors to mention. That’s annoying & slows down reading.
I was intrigued by the complexity of each character & a little sad there was so little of Eli in the picture. Too many typographical & grammatical errors to mention. That’s annoying & slows down reading.
September 24, 2023
Slow start great ending
The first half of the book was hard to get through for me. It felt slow and depressing although it was meant to be that way I think. Without the first half you wouldn’t be able to appreciate the second half and enjoy that piece as much.
The first half of the book was hard to get through for me. It felt slow and depressing although it was meant to be that way I think. Without the first half you wouldn’t be able to appreciate the second half and enjoy that piece as much.
June 8, 2024
quite good with surprising depth and some tough relationship issues that hit close to home - not the hot threesome story I expected :’)
bonus points for great narration, Quinn Riley is always wonderful
bonus points for great narration, Quinn Riley is always wonderful
February 7, 2023
This was the most interesting in the series, and it stuck with me for a while after. There were a lot of things the characters felt that I could relate to. I'll probably read this one a second time.
December 20, 2024
Did it take anyone as long as it did for me to realize this was a healthy open relationship for Ann and Heidi? The side stories were nice, and I was just as shocked as you when I found out this was probably something they really wanted. I feel for Lila though. It seems like a cluster. I sort of liked watching the many facets of Lila and how she adapted to these relationships. It was a great story to read. If I were to decide on reading again for the first time, I would. It would not be the first story that I would listen to twice. I enjoy Quinn's voice, and does a great job for this entire Indigo Series. The disconnect is REAL and I could really connect with that – missing what the partner really needs in that time of their life, and being in tune to what they really desire. nicely written, especially around trauma.
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