this book is a 1.7 star at best. it’s just not good or well thought out.
don’t get me wrong, I love tropey books, but this was too much. we had the typical ‘traumatic experiences as a kid led MC to be a cop’, which is to be expected. then we had the ‘current murder of someone close leads to clues and curiosity of old unsolved murders’ and then ‘MC doesn’t feel like it’s important to tell her partner about clues therefore causing a rift’ and so many more. it was over the top, doing too much, couldn’t pick one and roll with it. Bourne smashed every single existing trope together into this story. even the ‘cop partners who slept together but decided they’re better off ass friends’.
there was also a ridiculous amount of red herrings used in this book. first we think it’s Ryan, then we suspect Ben (who’s last name is Steele?? sounds fake but I guess it’s not), then we suspect Ryan AGAIN, then it’s Alicia, then it’s the entire film crew, and finally we find out it was just Kyle. talk about lackluster and uncreative.
I want to talk about Gerry a little bit. we’re told he’s some horrible despicable person (as is the rest of Ryan’s family I guess), but on-page he’s creepy at best. he’s polite, he does nothing of note that would lead me to believe that he’s a shitbag. but, it’s emphasized heavily that he and his brothers are all disgusting people. sure, he’s creepy and a little odd. sure, the conversation of him wanting Ryan to lie to the police that he wasn’t there the night of the murder (not the one you’re thinking btw). sure, he’s seedy, but all of the shady things he supposedly does is all off page. how am I supposed to believe he’s shady when he’s a regular dude on page?
the author definitely needs to get better at writing characters. we get so many that are emphasized as important but straight up disappear. the sheriffs daughter, the entire film crew, the man cop, Nate, Ryan’s dad, Lynn’s sister??? the list goes on. why bring them up, make them so important, and then just do nothing with them. there was so much potential for Lynn to be the role model/advisor to the sheriffs daughter (because her father was also sheriff), but no. we see her at the crime scene and then she’s gone.
I have to say, the characters were so terrible. nobody had common sense. no one. Ryan was actually so stupid it hurt; why would you be completely oblivious to the fact that, when asked, your mom who is GOING THROUGH CHEMO said she didn’t clean the cabin you’ve been staying in?? why wouldn’t you be slightly concerned that someone broke in, cleaned said cabin, and could potentially be inside? especially when you are being framed for THREE murders, someone is contacting you through an unknown phone number, and your mom admitted to not being up there recently? as much as this book spouts ‘oh he has PTSD he can’t sleep blah blah’ he has zero survival instincts and is as dumb as a rock. Lynn was lacking all common sense whatsoever; why would you keep clues and secrets when you’re working a case that is close to you? why would you hide the fact that you met up with an old friend (who was arrested on suspicion of murder) because he’s been doing some investigation on his own end? for however smart I’m led to believe Lynn is, shes just not. I get that this situation would be hard to cope with, that it would make everything spin out of control, but for the love of god if you can’t handle it then say so. TJ was built up to do a two-timing thing but it just didn’t happen? his anger was implied but not shown. he was as interesting as a brick wall. there was a scene where he was near Shanna’s apartment to meet Kevin where we get told he’s going to her apartment afterward, but when the conversation ends he goes ‘now idk what to do’ and proceeds to not go to the apartment.
the most infuriating thing that this book did, ignoring all the grammar mistakes, is the constant push of Alicia’s murder and of her parents murder. we get multiple scenes that are ‘oh this is odd it connects to this 20 year old murder of my bestie/family’ and that’s it. no progress gets made in the search for their killers. we get it shoved down our throats only for literally nothing to happen. I get that it’s the first book of several following the MC, but building up the main point for 80% of the book only for the end to be ‘oh hey I have this elaborate plan to find who murdered those people but we’re not actually going to do anything in this book which pretty much forces you to read the next’. it’s a bait. I’m not baited, I will be digging for the answer to who killed these people without reading the book because I hated the characters so much.
before writing this and talking about it to a friend, I was like “yeah this book is good! the story is there, the characters are complex, yada yada” but the more I talked about it the more i realized that it wasn’t good. the so called ‘complex’ characters are really shallow and boring. they’re made to seem complex yet there’s not a single instance where I’m convinced they are. there’s too much bullshit happening, none of which gets resolved, and the characters are insanely boring. the author did way too much. nothing was resolved, I left with more questions than answers, and the only reason I kept reading was because I wanted to know if the author would end it in a good way.
an observation I had revolved around Gerry. the conversation with Ryan made me very suspicious, and I genuinely thought the author would give me whiplash with the twist that HE was the killer. what an interesting and different take on this genre. but no. it was Kyle. Gerry had two on page scenes (another reason I think it would’ve been a good twist since we don’t get to know him), clearly not enough to mean that much but just enough to have shocked me if he did it. instead of taking creative liberties and being creative with the plot, the author did the laziest thing possible.