❝𝒂 𝒃𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒌 𝒑𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒔, 𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒆𝒅𝒈𝒆𝒔, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒆𝒓 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒔, 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕’𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊 𝒂𝒎. 𝒊 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒖𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆, 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒊𝒏 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒆𝒓, 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒆𝒇𝒕 𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒘𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒕.❞
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❥ 𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒓:
even though i gave this book 3 stars, this is going to be a rant. (still doubting if it’s 2 or 3 stars tbh)
if you love everything about this book, or if you don’t want any
spoilers
, i highly advice you to just scroll along and not read this.
i'm spoiling the whole thing including the epilogue so..
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❥ 𝒎𝒚 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆:
when i started this book, i absolutely adored it. i really thought i found a hidden gem, my new fav couple, the whole shebang - you get it. and for the first half of the book, that is exactly what happened. Darby and Trick are not the usual couple. when they meet, they don’t have an immediate connection. Darby is however immediately impressed. she can’t get over how hot Trick is. when she finds out Trick has a boyfriend, she decided to stay friends.
so i guess this is a ’we don’t really vibe to friends to lovers’ book.
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this is where the rant starts, because i’m upset that something that starts out great, ends so bad.
this is also where the spoilers start.
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like i said, the first 50% was great. Darby is growing as a person, standing up for herself, making choices that benefit her instead of everyone around her. Trick seems like a bad boy but is really nice if you knock that big wall down.
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❥ 𝒔𝒐 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒈𝒐 𝒘𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈:
the second half of the book, they’re married. and 𝗘𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗬𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗦
Darby becomes the worlds biggest pushover.
for example:
⁀➷ she moves to a different country and leaves her grandma, house, all her belongings and her job behind just because Trick decided so.
⁀➷ she never wanted a tattoo, but Trick drove her to a shop so now she has one.
there are a lot of examples but i think this paints the picture well enough..
Trick does so many things that are close to ‘the line’. i guess he’s not crossing it, depending on where your line is.. but he just does stuff that isn’t nice and i wonder why, when he claims he’s with the love of his life. he makes Darby very insecure with his behavior, which is obviously an issue she’s got to work on herself.. but in the beginning he seemed accommodating to her, try to make her feel safe and build something together, and now he seems to just not care. it also doesn’t matter angry Darby gets, because 5 seconds later she forgot because he’s just that hot.
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❥ 𝑻𝒓𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒔’ 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒕:
there was also a side plot where Trick doesn’t remember a part of his past. bits and pieces come back to him throughout the book, and obviously it’s not good. fun fact: he lies about it all to Darby even though it is a massive secret that involves her as well.
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❥ 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒅𝒖𝒑 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑:
in the beginning everything was fine. we got to know them, it wasn’t an instant connection and it developed in a nice pace. However, when they got to the part where they admitted they were in love they did overdo it A LOT. where the beginning was mostly was cute and nice (even though they had there crazy moments as well), it now just seems toxic.
it also got veryyy repetitive; the whole story was basically:
sex, jealousy, sex, toxicity, sex, sexual comments, sex, lusting over partner, sex, arguments and fights, sex, repeat.
not to mention i don’t ever want to hear about trick’s lip twitch again.
i checked, the lip twitch is mentioned 35 times!
that’s a lot of twitching. i don’t care how sexy it is, you don’t need to bring it up that many times. at some point i got worried he had some nerve damage or something.
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❥ 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒏𝒈:
honestly, it was messy. not to repeat myself a million times, but the beginning the pacing was fine. romance was building, relationships were forming, you get the picture. but then at the halfway point, i felt like the romance part was done? we kind of got to the ‘end game’ point already and there was half a book left.
the whole ‘Trick-past situation’ was nowhere near done though.. it felt like the main story line was finished first, the subplot was written later and instead of intertwining them, they were put back to back. meaning with had half a book left, where we just had to suffer through their toxic horrible marriage.
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❥ 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒑𝒊𝒍𝒐𝒈𝒖𝒆:
another part of Tricks’ life i didn’t talk about yet, is that he was an orphan. when he was 15 years old, he lost both his parents and he had to find his own way.
BUT… ⁂ 𝚍𝚛𝚞𝚖𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 ⁂ 🥁
his parents are alive! 💀 like?? wtf.
now you probably think: they must have an insanely good reason to leave their 15 year old child to the streets to figure out life on his own right? RIGHT?
okay so.. his mom got really sick so his dad decided to get her back to her parents to get better. and at the ripe age of 15 years old, they thought he would be totally fine on his own because he was always so smart and creative.
first of all: that’s insane, you’re the worst parents ever. but also, why not tell him anything? he thought you were both dead, you freaking monsters.
anyway everyone in this book was totally fine with what happened and were just happy they were back and it was like an ‘emotional reunion’. not a single person asked wtf was wrong with them 🙄
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𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒚 𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌!
writing this whole thing out makes me think if 3 stars isn’t a bit high..
but oh well, i enjoyed the beginning and i’m feeling generous today. 🫶🏼
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❥ 𝒒𝒖𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒔:
❛𝘪 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘣.
𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘷𝘦 𝘤𝘭𝘢𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵, 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶?❜
❛𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴.❜
❛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘪 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘪𝘳, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘶𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦, 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘦’𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭. 𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘥𝘴. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 … 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴❜
❛𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳. 𝘪 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘮, 𝘯𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘪 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘴𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦: 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘮.❜