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Dying to Survive
Ever wonder who creeps on your Fetlife or POF account, and what they do with the information? Prepare for a detailed explanation of one person’s erotic story that will make your skin crawl.
A woman is abducted and placed into a room with three other women, all of which resemble her. Confused, scared, lonely, and in constant fear, she waits. The abductor, after a few days, opens the door and explains to the women,“Tomorrow morning, at eight am, one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. If one person isn’t willing to die, everyone will die.”
Ryan Capshaw was raised at the hand of an abusive father, and grew up believing he was worthless. To prove his intelligence and self-worth to himself, he has devised a plan to abduct, torture, and murder four women - one of which decides to challenge his plan.
“Dying to Survive” takes an in-depth look at the psychological aspect of abduction, murder, and living as an adult after an abusive childhood.
Prepare for a trip that will leave you guessing, wondering, and contemplating how you would react, think, and prepare to either die, or be a survivor.
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
A woman is abducted and placed into a room with three other women, all of which resemble her. Confused, scared, lonely, and in constant fear, she waits. The abductor, after a few days, opens the door and explains to the women,“Tomorrow morning, at eight am, one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. If one person isn’t willing to die, everyone will die.”
Ryan Capshaw was raised at the hand of an abusive father, and grew up believing he was worthless. To prove his intelligence and self-worth to himself, he has devised a plan to abduct, torture, and murder four women - one of which decides to challenge his plan.
“Dying to Survive” takes an in-depth look at the psychological aspect of abduction, murder, and living as an adult after an abusive childhood.
Prepare for a trip that will leave you guessing, wondering, and contemplating how you would react, think, and prepare to either die, or be a survivor.
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
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First published February 26, 2014
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Scott Hildreth
99 books3,873 followersScott Hildreth in an international bestselling author. He has written more than fifty novels.
His preferred careers of being a hit man, serial killer, biker, military hero, mafia boss, boxer, vigilante, and tattoo artist will always be favorites, but as writing has become a full-time gig, he must live vicariously through the characters in his books who share his admiration for these professions.
He resides in Naples, Florida with his wife and children.
You can keep up with Scott’s self-published and traditionally published work here:
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His preferred careers of being a hit man, serial killer, biker, military hero, mafia boss, boxer, vigilante, and tattoo artist will always be favorites, but as writing has become a full-time gig, he must live vicariously through the characters in his books who share his admiration for these professions.
He resides in Naples, Florida with his wife and children.
You can keep up with Scott’s self-published and traditionally published work here:
Twitter: @ScottDHildreth
Face book "OFFICIAL LIKE" page - (for updates on released books and upcoming books)
www.facebook.com/ScottDHildreth
Facebook Author Page - (currently at 5,000 friend limit, but Scott invites you to come enjoy his contests, giveaways, and playful book banter) www.facebook.com/sdhildreth
Website (or to signup for Scott's newsletter) www.scotthildreth.com
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March 17, 2014
Before I start my review first I want to say
First off I want to commend Scott for not giving up. For those who do not understand what I am saying this book was
BANNED 3 times with Amazon.
Which is total horse sh*t!!!
Clearly you can read IT STATES:
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.*
Given it states this clear as day if you feel that this is not up your alley DO NOT READ IT!!! And do not punish banned or flag other authors books if it does not appeal to you.
Sorry for my RANT.
Now on to the most important part....
MY REVIEW
4.5 FABOULOUS HOLLYF#CKINSH*T TWISTED MIND F#CK STARS
Once again I am floored by Scott and his writing.
To you Scott for a job well done.
I am going to do my best to not give anything away in my review. So here I go.....
Ryan ~
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child by his father. His abuse had occurred over years. No one paid attention to what was happening to him not even his mother. But as Ryan got older he suspected his mother knew.
What would you do if you were in his position?
You think and wonder, What happens to these kids?
What will they become?
What will they turn into?
If you were in their place how do you think it would effect you once you were older?
Would you be normal?
Yes? No?
Who knows.
“Children. Pay close attention to them. They grow up to be adults. The really heinous people we see on the news? The serial killers, murderers, rapists, and complete ass-hats of society? Yeah, they were children once. And no one paid attention.”
Ryan Capshaw is definitely a very wealthy, dark, sexy and twisted man.
AND I LOVED HIM!!
Yes call me a sick twisted women. But it is true.
He is also a psychologist but never practices. Well not in the traditional way.
Ryan Capshaw kidnaps 4 women. Over a months time.
All of them look very similar.
And he places them in a room together. With rules of course.
He tells them that
"Tomorrow at precisely zero eight hundred hours one of you is going to die"
And they have to choose the order of who dies first. And every morning following that they will have to decide who is next till the last girl is left. If they do not decide then ~
ALL OF THEM DIE.
Sick?
Insane?
Well to Ryan this is a game.
The way he found these women will amaze you and make you think. Seriously think.
So let me say something about one of these girls. I am not going to go into detail of all of them just one.
Elena.
OMG! I could not stand her. CAN YOU SAY....
But can I really call her that because it is really about
RIGHT?
You will ask yourself, what would I do if I was in these girls position?
How would I decide who dies first?
Could I make a decision like that?
Just when you think you figured this book out.
BAM
You telling yourself damn I did not see that coming.
Basically you are taking a ride on the freaking crazy train and you are wondering WTH just happened.
The way Ryan talked freaked me out ( but I loved him ) because he was so calm like a psychopath in my mind would be. Insane but not insane hard to put into words. You have to read it to see what I am trying to say.
One of his captives I will not say who but she is attracted to him. From the get go.
I know your asking your self WTF? Right?
Ryan also has never been with a women. ( Sexually) EVER!
But let me tell ya what a ride that was. LOL
Once he had a taste.....DAY-UM
And then the game changes again.
And again.
I was shocked so many times reading this book. You never knew were it was going to go. And I love books that are like that. Always keeping me on my toes so to speak.
This book has sex, murder and love yes I said LOVE.
You are going to be asking yourself questions throughout the book.
One of those questions would be ~
As a human being how far will I go to SURVIVE?
I did not expect the ending.
I really did not seeing it coming and that is another reason I loved this book it was ANYTHING BUT PREDICTABLE.
I recommend this book to anyone who loves dark, twisted and mind fucked books. So braced yourself for the ride.
But remember read with a OPEN MIND.
This is not for the faint of heart.
I know a lot of people are going to not understand why I rated this book the way I did but I will have to say I understand what and were Scott was going with this book and look forward for the story to continue.
I can not wait to see what Scott comes up with next. With his new genre of SLAUGHEREROTICA.
http://www.amazon.com/BANNED-DYING-SU...
I want to take a moment and acknowledge Scott Hildreth. I have never done this in any of my reviews but this man is so diverse with his writing. He can write ANYTHING. I mean ANYTHING. I have never had an author that I have loved every one of their books. It is always a hit an miss with me. He truly is a gifted writer. There is no stopping him. I have read all of his books but one. And not because I do not want to just haven't yet. He has amazed me every time. His books and writing are never the same style always changing it up. Not many can do that. All of Scott's book that I have read have a hidden message you just have to read and understand the message. So congratulations on another hit in my book Scott. Keep it up. Looking forward to what you have in store next.
https://www.facebook.com/steph.x.reader
First off I want to commend Scott for not giving up. For those who do not understand what I am saying this book was
BANNED 3 times with Amazon.
Which is total horse sh*t!!!
Clearly you can read IT STATES:
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.*
Given it states this clear as day if you feel that this is not up your alley DO NOT READ IT!!! And do not punish banned or flag other authors books if it does not appeal to you.
Sorry for my RANT.
Now on to the most important part....
MY REVIEW
4.5 FABOULOUS HOLLYF#CKINSH*T TWISTED MIND F#CK STARS
Once again I am floored by Scott and his writing.
To you Scott for a job well done.
I am going to do my best to not give anything away in my review. So here I go.....
Ryan ~
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child by his father. His abuse had occurred over years. No one paid attention to what was happening to him not even his mother. But as Ryan got older he suspected his mother knew.
What would you do if you were in his position?
You think and wonder, What happens to these kids?
What will they become?
What will they turn into?
If you were in their place how do you think it would effect you once you were older?
Would you be normal?
Yes? No?
Who knows.
“Children. Pay close attention to them. They grow up to be adults. The really heinous people we see on the news? The serial killers, murderers, rapists, and complete ass-hats of society? Yeah, they were children once. And no one paid attention.”
Ryan Capshaw is definitely a very wealthy, dark, sexy and twisted man.
AND I LOVED HIM!!
Yes call me a sick twisted women. But it is true.
He is also a psychologist but never practices. Well not in the traditional way.
Ryan Capshaw kidnaps 4 women. Over a months time.
All of them look very similar.
And he places them in a room together. With rules of course.
He tells them that
"Tomorrow at precisely zero eight hundred hours one of you is going to die"
And they have to choose the order of who dies first. And every morning following that they will have to decide who is next till the last girl is left. If they do not decide then ~
ALL OF THEM DIE.
Sick?
Insane?
Well to Ryan this is a game.
The way he found these women will amaze you and make you think. Seriously think.
So let me say something about one of these girls. I am not going to go into detail of all of them just one.
Elena.
OMG! I could not stand her. CAN YOU SAY....
But can I really call her that because it is really about
RIGHT?
You will ask yourself, what would I do if I was in these girls position?
How would I decide who dies first?
Could I make a decision like that?
Just when you think you figured this book out.
BAM
You telling yourself damn I did not see that coming.
Basically you are taking a ride on the freaking crazy train and you are wondering WTH just happened.
The way Ryan talked freaked me out ( but I loved him ) because he was so calm like a psychopath in my mind would be. Insane but not insane hard to put into words. You have to read it to see what I am trying to say.
One of his captives I will not say who but she is attracted to him. From the get go.
I know your asking your self WTF? Right?
Ryan also has never been with a women. ( Sexually) EVER!
But let me tell ya what a ride that was. LOL
Once he had a taste.....DAY-UM
And then the game changes again.
And again.
I was shocked so many times reading this book. You never knew were it was going to go. And I love books that are like that. Always keeping me on my toes so to speak.
This book has sex, murder and love yes I said LOVE.
You are going to be asking yourself questions throughout the book.
One of those questions would be ~
As a human being how far will I go to SURVIVE?
I did not expect the ending.
I really did not seeing it coming and that is another reason I loved this book it was ANYTHING BUT PREDICTABLE.
I recommend this book to anyone who loves dark, twisted and mind fucked books. So braced yourself for the ride.
But remember read with a OPEN MIND.
This is not for the faint of heart.
I know a lot of people are going to not understand why I rated this book the way I did but I will have to say I understand what and were Scott was going with this book and look forward for the story to continue.
I can not wait to see what Scott comes up with next. With his new genre of SLAUGHEREROTICA.
http://www.amazon.com/BANNED-DYING-SU...
I want to take a moment and acknowledge Scott Hildreth. I have never done this in any of my reviews but this man is so diverse with his writing. He can write ANYTHING. I mean ANYTHING. I have never had an author that I have loved every one of their books. It is always a hit an miss with me. He truly is a gifted writer. There is no stopping him. I have read all of his books but one. And not because I do not want to just haven't yet. He has amazed me every time. His books and writing are never the same style always changing it up. Not many can do that. All of Scott's book that I have read have a hidden message you just have to read and understand the message. So congratulations on another hit in my book Scott. Keep it up. Looking forward to what you have in store next.
https://www.facebook.com/steph.x.reader
March 1, 2014
So, what do you do when your book is removed from Amazon for the contenta being controversial? You republish it without change. Here is the unedited version, after republish. Same review.
Varying from his typical approach, the author has written this erotic, dark, suspenseful thriller away from his first person norm. We all know, first person perspective doesn't work well when people are MURDERED.
One word describes this book:HOLYFUCKINGSHIT.
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child. Now an adult, Ryan lives the life of a wealthy loner. After devising a plan to abduct, torture and murder four women, he puts his plan into action.After placing all four women into a concrete cell that he has constructed in his basement, he opens the door and gives them the following instruction, "tomorrow morning at 8am one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. Have a good night see you at 8am.
"The twisting, turning plot that follows, isn't what anyone that reads this book would expect.And the sex? Oh my fucking God. Rape? Yes. Double penetration? Yes. Consensual sex? Not so much.This book redefines what an erotic dark thriller needs to be.And the ending?
One word. OUTFUCKINGSTANDING.
Varying from his typical approach, the author has written this erotic, dark, suspenseful thriller away from his first person norm. We all know, first person perspective doesn't work well when people are MURDERED.
One word describes this book:HOLYFUCKINGSHIT.
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child. Now an adult, Ryan lives the life of a wealthy loner. After devising a plan to abduct, torture and murder four women, he puts his plan into action.After placing all four women into a concrete cell that he has constructed in his basement, he opens the door and gives them the following instruction, "tomorrow morning at 8am one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. Have a good night see you at 8am.
"The twisting, turning plot that follows, isn't what anyone that reads this book would expect.And the sex? Oh my fucking God. Rape? Yes. Double penetration? Yes. Consensual sex? Not so much.This book redefines what an erotic dark thriller needs to be.And the ending?
One word. OUTFUCKINGSTANDING.
March 4, 2014
Its back!!!
http://www.amazon.com/BANNED-DYING-SU...
I am going to review as best I can without giving much away. But just in case….this review has been hidden due to unforeseen spoilers
My Rating:
I struggled with what to give the book.
I am stuck between 3 and 4 stars.
So. 3.5 Stars. That's my final rating.
These are MY thoughts and MY opinions.
If you disagree….well you know where you can go.
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.*
Ryan Capshaw. He is handsome man. A man of self-made wealth. A psychologist who is smart as a fucking whip. But He is also a man suffering from childhood abuse. And. A man with so many issues and who is so twisted in the head that it may just freak you out how normal he seems.
His game? Well....he ain't in it only for the money. He's in it for the thrill just as much. And fucking with women’s' heads.
What to say…
How do I formulate my thoughts into a review for this?
I think some of my thoughts are still kind of tied up and trying to catch up with the turns this story took.
I enjoy dark books. The more twisted and fucked up…the better.
Dark erotica….yes please.
Slaughterotica.....Pretty please.
But.....This one in that category FOR ME didn't quite hit the mark fully.
What I LOVED about the book
This book. It was different.
It had a different dark element to it.
Not the typical “I kidnapped you. You do what I say when I say. I fuck you however and whenever I want. And. Then you fall in love with me.” No. Not in ANY way.
Head games. A mind fuck.
And seriously unexpected twists. No. Really. I could not have seen that coming from a mile away with the buildup that was written.
What I struggled with
I think in the beginning of the book I had a hard time with Ryan. He was too proper. But I guess that makes a good psycho. It’s always the polite ones you never see coming isn’t it? But. As the story went on, we learn who Ryan is. What he has inside of him that makes him…him. I think learning that had me feeling compassion for Ryan. He had me feeling sorry for him.
Had me thinking “Well fuck. Can he really help it?”
I didn’t like Meghan. At all. Not on bit.
I can’t ever imagine being in the situation she faced. But. I also can’t fathom how a mother would fantasize about what it would be like to be sexually dominated by her captor. How a mother could rarely give a thought to her child left behind. All I know is I would be in a ball in the corner trying to hide from everyone if I was in Meghan’s position. I do understand though that people react differently in different situations. And occurrences in people’s lives and past also determine how the act in different situations. So. I get that it was just Meghan. Reacting. But still…I didn’t like her. I was kind of happy with her storyline.....
I struggled with the first 60% of the book. The buildup was...well...it took too long for me. I do feel there needs to be buildup. The story needs to unfold a certain way. But. I also like fast paced reads.
The last 40% of the book though….HOLY. SHIT. My. Gawd.
I couldn't have guessed. Nope. I was literally sitting there thinking. "What the fuck just happened?!"
I reread to make sure I read it right. HAHA! Good lord. It took off from that point. There were different twists that took the story to a whole nother level in my opinion.
The end....yea this sums up what I felt...I definetly look forward to book 2. But.
Fuck it. They're all going to die anyways...right?
Scott.
Brav-ooooo. Thank you for writing this. This book. It shows your versatility as a writer. You are an amazing author...regardless if this was a 5 star read for me or not.
You fucking rock.
You could probably write a "How to Poop in Public" book and I would still run and read it as soon as it was available. You tell a story that always in some little way has meaning and makes a point (yes...even in Slaughterotica...there was something...kind of).
You always make people feel what they are reading.
I really feel bad for the people feeling with this book right now…you crazy mofo.
Thank you for putting up with the bullshit that has come along with this book. You are a fighter. And we will follow you and your books....to hell and back.
(check out her shirt....FCKH8...uhm yes...to you haters)
*I would like to point out one thing on a serious note. It’s super important in my opinion. Childhood abuse is something not to be taken lightly.
Like Scott states, "Children. Pay close attention to them. They grow up to be adults...and not always decent adults...." Ryan is a prime example of a man that seems kind and decent. You don't what lurks behind the eyes of a person who has suffered as a child at the hands of an abuser.*
END SERIOUS NOTE
http://www.amazon.com/BANNED-DYING-SU...
I am going to review as best I can without giving much away. But just in case….this review has been hidden due to unforeseen spoilers
My Rating:
I struggled with what to give the book.
I am stuck between 3 and 4 stars.
So. 3.5 Stars. That's my final rating.
These are MY thoughts and MY opinions.
If you disagree….well you know where you can go.
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.*
Ryan Capshaw. He is handsome man. A man of self-made wealth. A psychologist who is smart as a fucking whip. But He is also a man suffering from childhood abuse. And. A man with so many issues and who is so twisted in the head that it may just freak you out how normal he seems.
His game? Well....he ain't in it only for the money. He's in it for the thrill just as much. And fucking with women’s' heads.
What to say…
How do I formulate my thoughts into a review for this?
I think some of my thoughts are still kind of tied up and trying to catch up with the turns this story took.
I enjoy dark books. The more twisted and fucked up…the better.
Dark erotica….yes please.
Slaughterotica.....Pretty please.
But.....This one in that category FOR ME didn't quite hit the mark fully.
What I LOVED about the book
This book. It was different.
It had a different dark element to it.
Not the typical “I kidnapped you. You do what I say when I say. I fuck you however and whenever I want. And. Then you fall in love with me.” No. Not in ANY way.
Head games. A mind fuck.
And seriously unexpected twists. No. Really. I could not have seen that coming from a mile away with the buildup that was written.
What I struggled with
I think in the beginning of the book I had a hard time with Ryan. He was too proper. But I guess that makes a good psycho. It’s always the polite ones you never see coming isn’t it? But. As the story went on, we learn who Ryan is. What he has inside of him that makes him…him. I think learning that had me feeling compassion for Ryan. He had me feeling sorry for him.
Had me thinking “Well fuck. Can he really help it?”
I didn’t like Meghan. At all. Not on bit.
I can’t ever imagine being in the situation she faced. But. I also can’t fathom how a mother would fantasize about what it would be like to be sexually dominated by her captor. How a mother could rarely give a thought to her child left behind. All I know is I would be in a ball in the corner trying to hide from everyone if I was in Meghan’s position. I do understand though that people react differently in different situations. And occurrences in people’s lives and past also determine how the act in different situations. So. I get that it was just Meghan. Reacting. But still…I didn’t like her. I was kind of happy with her storyline.....
I struggled with the first 60% of the book. The buildup was...well...it took too long for me. I do feel there needs to be buildup. The story needs to unfold a certain way. But. I also like fast paced reads.
The last 40% of the book though….HOLY. SHIT. My. Gawd.
I couldn't have guessed. Nope. I was literally sitting there thinking. "What the fuck just happened?!"
I reread to make sure I read it right. HAHA! Good lord. It took off from that point. There were different twists that took the story to a whole nother level in my opinion.
The end....yea this sums up what I felt...I definetly look forward to book 2. But.
Fuck it. They're all going to die anyways...right?
Scott.
Brav-ooooo. Thank you for writing this. This book. It shows your versatility as a writer. You are an amazing author...regardless if this was a 5 star read for me or not.
You fucking rock.
You could probably write a "How to Poop in Public" book and I would still run and read it as soon as it was available. You tell a story that always in some little way has meaning and makes a point (yes...even in Slaughterotica...there was something...kind of).
You always make people feel what they are reading.
I really feel bad for the people feeling with this book right now…you crazy mofo.
Thank you for putting up with the bullshit that has come along with this book. You are a fighter. And we will follow you and your books....to hell and back.
(check out her shirt....FCKH8...uhm yes...to you haters)
*I would like to point out one thing on a serious note. It’s super important in my opinion. Childhood abuse is something not to be taken lightly.
Like Scott states, "Children. Pay close attention to them. They grow up to be adults...and not always decent adults...." Ryan is a prime example of a man that seems kind and decent. You don't what lurks behind the eyes of a person who has suffered as a child at the hands of an abuser.*
END SERIOUS NOTE
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
March 7, 2014
This review is for Dying to Survive and/or Plenty of Fish.
Varying from his typical approach, the author has written this erotic, dark, suspenseful thriller away from his first person norm. We all know, first person perspective doesn't work well when people are MURDERED.
One word describes this book:
HOLYFUCKINGSHIT.
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child. Now an adult, Ryan lives the life of a wealthy loner. After devising a plan to abduct, torture and murder four women, he puts his plan into action.
After placing all four women into a concrete cell that he has constructed in his basement, he opens the door and gives them the following instruction, "tomorrow morning at 8am one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. Have a good night see you at 8am."
The twisting, turning plot that follows, isn't what anyone that reads this book would expect.
And the sex? Oh my fucking God. Rape? Yes. Double penetration? Yes. Consensual sex? Not so much.
This book redefines what an erotic dark thriller needs to be.
And the ending? One word. OUTFUCKINGSTANDING.
Varying from his typical approach, the author has written this erotic, dark, suspenseful thriller away from his first person norm. We all know, first person perspective doesn't work well when people are MURDERED.
One word describes this book:
HOLYFUCKINGSHIT.
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child. Now an adult, Ryan lives the life of a wealthy loner. After devising a plan to abduct, torture and murder four women, he puts his plan into action.
After placing all four women into a concrete cell that he has constructed in his basement, he opens the door and gives them the following instruction, "tomorrow morning at 8am one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. Have a good night see you at 8am."
The twisting, turning plot that follows, isn't what anyone that reads this book would expect.
And the sex? Oh my fucking God. Rape? Yes. Double penetration? Yes. Consensual sex? Not so much.
This book redefines what an erotic dark thriller needs to be.
And the ending? One word. OUTFUCKINGSTANDING.
March 11, 2014
Buddy Read with my babes Lela and Vedrana!!!
3* DISTURBING STARS!
I realy don't know how to rate this book...
I loved some parts and hated the other and I was shocked,shocked on some crazy ass shit that my mind can't put it all together right now so I will change my rating as my mood swings collect!
Nope,book wasn't what I expected.
First,I expected some crazy ass shit with rivers of blood like in some Tarantino movie...and get a mindfuck!
The book is pure playing with nerves and mind.
When I started reading I was like
"I don't know why they even bother to banned it,I've read worst than this" ,and then at the second part...well...
I admitt,book is wierd and disturbing and sick and twisted that on some point I was banging my head on my reader and asking myself "What in the God's name did I just read!!!!?"
So,Ryan is sick and twisted,but polite abductor!
He was abused as a kid and now he loves to play mindfuck with random women...buhuhu...do I feel sorry for him!?
HELL NO TO THE NO!!!
I hated the children(Megan)part!!!!
Hate is a mild word for rage that I felt!
It's beyond every resonable person to tolerate something like that!
So I see how she could be atracted to Ryan...but not in the million years expected what he did to her...
And that ending...
Nope,no no no!!!
3* DISTURBING STARS!
I realy don't know how to rate this book...
I loved some parts and hated the other and I was shocked,shocked on some crazy ass shit that my mind can't put it all together right now so I will change my rating as my mood swings collect!
Nope,book wasn't what I expected.
First,I expected some crazy ass shit with rivers of blood like in some Tarantino movie...and get a mindfuck!
The book is pure playing with nerves and mind.
When I started reading I was like
"I don't know why they even bother to banned it,I've read worst than this" ,and then at the second part...well...
I admitt,book is wierd and disturbing and sick and twisted that on some point I was banging my head on my reader and asking myself "What in the God's name did I just read!!!!?"
So,Ryan is sick and twisted,but polite abductor!
He was abused as a kid and now he loves to play mindfuck with random women...buhuhu...do I feel sorry for him!?
HELL NO TO THE NO!!!
I hated the children(Megan)part!!!!
Hate is a mild word for rage that I felt!
It's beyond every resonable person to tolerate something like that!
So I see how she could be atracted to Ryan...but not in the million years expected what he did to her...
And that ending...
Nope,no no no!!!
December 4, 2024
4.7 ⭐️.
this was … complete insanity, so much just happened in this book that im literally left speechless, & i definitely wasnt expecting that ending lol but i actually really liked this
this was … complete insanity, so much just happened in this book that im literally left speechless, & i definitely wasnt expecting that ending lol but i actually really liked this
March 14, 2014
3.5 Stars
Ryan has had a crap childhood, mentally abused by his father. He grows up desperate to be successful and rich.
With reason unknown at this point, he selects women that look the same and kidnaps them one by one.
You see it's a game
Part of the game is they have to chose between themselves who will die first.....
My thoughts
I think this a quite a clever story. The author has made it different and by adding twists along the way, your sure this will happen and it goes totally in a different direction.
Its more psychological than anything. I had no idea where it was going to go and I like that.
Ryan was a strange guy, but smart and very hard to work out. One minute you feel sorry for him and then a chapter later its WTF are you doing.
I do have unanswered questions which is reflected in my rating. But it was an interesting read.
Ryan has had a crap childhood, mentally abused by his father. He grows up desperate to be successful and rich.
With reason unknown at this point, he selects women that look the same and kidnaps them one by one.
You see it's a game
Part of the game is they have to chose between themselves who will die first.....
My thoughts
I think this a quite a clever story. The author has made it different and by adding twists along the way, your sure this will happen and it goes totally in a different direction.
Its more psychological than anything. I had no idea where it was going to go and I like that.
Ryan was a strange guy, but smart and very hard to work out. One minute you feel sorry for him and then a chapter later its WTF are you doing.
I do have unanswered questions which is reflected in my rating. But it was an interesting read.
February 27, 2014
Dying To Survive
WOW WOW WOW! My head is still whirling from this one! I LOVED it!!
Scott Hildreth absolutely floored me with this book! I would give it 10 stars if I could!
Ryan Capshaw is definitely a different kind of man. He is dark, sexy and twisted. I loved him! People are going to either love him, hate him or scratch their heads. I read this book in one sitting, since I could not put it down. It will definitely leave you thinking. I don't want to give spoilers but i will say it does NOT end like you think it will. It was a dark and twisted mind ride for sure. My favorite KIND of book! I cannot wait to see what Scott Hildreth comes up with next in his NEW genre of slaughterotica! ;)
WOW WOW WOW! My head is still whirling from this one! I LOVED it!!
Scott Hildreth absolutely floored me with this book! I would give it 10 stars if I could!
Ryan Capshaw is definitely a different kind of man. He is dark, sexy and twisted. I loved him! People are going to either love him, hate him or scratch their heads. I read this book in one sitting, since I could not put it down. It will definitely leave you thinking. I don't want to give spoilers but i will say it does NOT end like you think it will. It was a dark and twisted mind ride for sure. My favorite KIND of book! I cannot wait to see what Scott Hildreth comes up with next in his NEW genre of slaughterotica! ;)
March 3, 2014
Let me state by saying that this was an intense read from beginning to end. At first I needed a couple of breaks, but then I just flew though it. This was an amazing book! Talk about having your mind blown. I did not see that ending coming at all and I'm rarely ever surprised by an ending. I wish I could give more details, but it would ruin all the fun. It is a must read!!! If your into hot sex scenes and psychological thrill then this book is the perfect mix!
March 8, 2014
”To the depths of Hell.”
A dark read I could finally sink my teeth into.
Currently on Amazon under the titles:
Plenty of Fish
NO BUTTERFLIES OR RAINBOWS
This seems to because of Amazon banning the book
Genre: Genre? Just 'Dark' fiction I think. I wouldn't call it an erotica, for me an erotica means the book revolves around sex, this does not, though it had erotic parts. There was far more mindfuckery and horror.
Cover: 2/10
Writing: 8/10
Heroine: 9/10
Hero: 8/10
Hotness: 5/10
Romance: 4/10
Dark: 9/10
Ending: 9/10
Extra book Details: Dual POV. Approx 220 pages.
At first, I thought 'Oh jeez, Ryan is just another rich sadist, yadda yadda...'
'It had been nearly eight days since he last abducted a woman, and a newly chosen victim would be needed for the game he intended to play.'
Then I was like 'Wait! What?'
'But you must excuse me. I have women to torture. For profit'
Profit??? Huh?
'The thought of someone willingly forfeiting their life was fulfilling to him. The real question was who?'
'He began to perform the mathematical calculations in his head regarding one of the women actually choosing death over dismemberment.'
OH MY GOD!
This guy is a nut job! A freaking clever nut job! Who likes to profit from torturing women! Who all look like the coffee shop worker that he pines after!
! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Oh, yeah, so, I overdid it with the exclamation marks, but seriously, this is not what I expected. The whole book had a load of turns that I didn't expect. Sometimes I thought Ryan was evil, other times not, sometimes I thought the one woman was true heroine, then the other one. Why was he doing this?
It was freaking great and so incredibly weird!
Ami, well, she was a breath of fresh air. I loved her, she was absolutely crazy and incredibly bossy.
I really wish I saw A LOT more of her. She was not in the book as much as I would have liked, the things she would say was hilarious too.
'No sudden movements or it's gonna get as messy as a shit sandwich.'
Oh and Ami likes quite a bit of this. She's pretty much a nymphomaniac.
In fact there was a lot of funny moments for me, Ryan bitching about pineapple in cottage cheese, Ami stepping in guts... It was a welcome surprise.
All the characters were severely messed up to extremes. I didn't care if it was unrealistic at times. I wouldn't have liked it so much if they were normal with a side of crazy. Just give me the bat-shit kind.
Oh and I never heard the term 'fuck bubbles' before, now I will definitely try and use that.
Right, be warned there are HEAVY scenes of child abuse, violence, breath-play, rape, murdering of innocents and torture.
Enjoy!
March 5, 2014
I am not impressed with this book, disappointed with it actually. There was so much hype about it and how it was banned twice and I have no idea why.
Could it be that it was in the wrong genre of books? Probably should of been the murder/mystery section not dark erotic. It surely wasn't any typical BDSM that I have read and to be honest I read maybe one scene that would be considered that and it was borderline rape vs BDSM. I didn't feel that the story went with the synopsis for long. I was expecting the whole book to be about the 4 women and how they would all be killed off throughout the whole book. Would they survive long enough to attack their abductor? Could they change his game plan? In a way, that kind of happened.
Torture? Yes, but not even close to what I thought there would be or could have been. Maybe all the other authors who have written true dark erotic books (IMO) have topped the charts for me, so this one fell short.
I think that the story could have been much much better.
Disappointed reader. I may add more, but this is good for now.
Could it be that it was in the wrong genre of books? Probably should of been the murder/mystery section not dark erotic. It surely wasn't any typical BDSM that I have read and to be honest I read maybe one scene that would be considered that and it was borderline rape vs BDSM. I didn't feel that the story went with the synopsis for long. I was expecting the whole book to be about the 4 women and how they would all be killed off throughout the whole book. Would they survive long enough to attack their abductor? Could they change his game plan? In a way, that kind of happened.
Torture? Yes, but not even close to what I thought there would be or could have been. Maybe all the other authors who have written true dark erotic books (IMO) have topped the charts for me, so this one fell short.
I think that the story could have been much much better.
Disappointed reader. I may add more, but this is good for now.
February 28, 2014
Holy hot erotic twisted mind bending journey! Sweet Jesus Dying to Survive is fan-freaking-tastic, baby! It left me speechless and breathless and I don't even want to talk about the state it left my panties in. I'll do a full review in a few, but I had to stop in and just rave about this sordid crazy twisted tale.
To. Die. For. Xxxooo NLC
To. Die. For. Xxxooo NLC
March 15, 2014
ugh..ya know how u feel when u watch a show and u think "i just lost a couple hours ill never get back!" thats how I felt abt this book. I finished bc im not a quitter but this shouldve been a dnf. just didnt do it for me. if ur looking for a dark, erotic read....look up "tears of tess." I really hate reviewing like this :(
March 2, 2014
Well, fuck! I was a little afraid to pick this book up because I knew it was going to fuck with my head. Yeah, uh, it definitely did.
I'll preface this with a few things...
I'm a single mom
I've used online dating sites
I'm 5'10"
And... I'm brunette
When you read the book (and you definitely need to) all of those things will make sense. It freaked me the FUCK out! I literally shivered on multiple occasions!
Regardless of my hesitation, I went there and I loved every nail biting second of it! I love that Scott writes books that are unlike anything else out there! Scott Hildreth is BOSS!
Ryan Capshaw is something else. He's one of those guys you don't want to meet on the street because he's gorgeous, wealthy, polite and completely FUCKED in the head! Did I mention he has a psychology degree?!?!
Don't even get me started on Ami! That bitch is cray-cray too and I didn't even see it coming!
If you can handle dark, sadistic mind fuckery with lots of HOT sex scenes then you will not be able to put this book down!
I'll preface this with a few things...
I'm a single mom
I've used online dating sites
I'm 5'10"
And... I'm brunette
When you read the book (and you definitely need to) all of those things will make sense. It freaked me the FUCK out! I literally shivered on multiple occasions!
Regardless of my hesitation, I went there and I loved every nail biting second of it! I love that Scott writes books that are unlike anything else out there! Scott Hildreth is BOSS!
Ryan Capshaw is something else. He's one of those guys you don't want to meet on the street because he's gorgeous, wealthy, polite and completely FUCKED in the head! Did I mention he has a psychology degree?!?!
Don't even get me started on Ami! That bitch is cray-cray too and I didn't even see it coming!
If you can handle dark, sadistic mind fuckery with lots of HOT sex scenes then you will not be able to put this book down!
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
March 7, 2014
I read this as the original title, Dying To Survive!
Once again Scott has written a 5* book! This had me hooked from the very start and I found it very hard to put down until I had finished!
Ryan clearly has some issues, all resulting from childhood and the abuse he suffered from his father! I don't want to spoil it but for me it made it hard to see Ryan as 'evil' considering what he went through when he was a child! Don't get me wrong some of the things he did were pretty terrible but I still found myself sympathising with him at times rather than hating him!
The story was great, completely different to anything I've read before, which is the usual MO for Scott's books anyway! Another reason why I love them!
You meet several different characters in this book, some stronger than others! There are some very HOT panty melting scenes in it as well as some not so nice ones but in no way did I find it scary like I thought I would do!
I'd highly recommend this book, it did not end like I expected at all which was again another twist added to it! Loved it!!!
Once again Scott has written a 5* book! This had me hooked from the very start and I found it very hard to put down until I had finished!
Ryan clearly has some issues, all resulting from childhood and the abuse he suffered from his father! I don't want to spoil it but for me it made it hard to see Ryan as 'evil' considering what he went through when he was a child! Don't get me wrong some of the things he did were pretty terrible but I still found myself sympathising with him at times rather than hating him!
The story was great, completely different to anything I've read before, which is the usual MO for Scott's books anyway! Another reason why I love them!
You meet several different characters in this book, some stronger than others! There are some very HOT panty melting scenes in it as well as some not so nice ones but in no way did I find it scary like I thought I would do!
I'd highly recommend this book, it did not end like I expected at all which was again another twist added to it! Loved it!!!
August 25, 2015
2.5 -3.0 what the Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo⭐️⭐️⭐️
This book had me glued. I was intrigued, trying to figuring out the why, and what's going to happen. Unfortunately, by the time it was over I had one thought.
I literally laughed out loud. I mean I was in denial that it actually ended and that was the story.
I guess this book has been banned 3 times on Amazon, not really sure why...it wasn't half as bad as some others.
There is kidnapping, a twisted game, abuse and a lot of
I'm not sure if I'd recommend this book, because right now my thoughts are
That's my opinion, do as you please.
This book had me glued. I was intrigued, trying to figuring out the why, and what's going to happen. Unfortunately, by the time it was over I had one thought.
I literally laughed out loud. I mean I was in denial that it actually ended and that was the story.
I guess this book has been banned 3 times on Amazon, not really sure why...it wasn't half as bad as some others.
There is kidnapping, a twisted game, abuse and a lot of
I'm not sure if I'd recommend this book, because right now my thoughts are
That's my opinion, do as you please.
March 13, 2014
Dying To Survive aka Plenty of Fish aka No Butterflies or Rainbows
By: (Scott) S.D. Hildreth
5/5 stars
I bought this book under the original title, Dying to Survive, but it doesn’t matter the title that you buy it under, the content is the same. This is Dark Erotica & the author gives a good warning including slaughterotica (my new favorite Hildreth term). Pay attention to it! This book doesn’t have a traditional HEA, not all of the characters get and HEA or HFN. But, to lovers of the dark, there is pretty much a type of HEA.
Wow, at the end of this book, your head will be spinning. You will be left thinking WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT?! At one point your mouth will just open and close like a damn guppy because your brain is still in process mode. So here is the review… after I’ve finally recovered from mush brain.
Ryan Capshaw is a handsome, successful, enigmatic man. But he doesn’t see any of that due to years of psychological abuse, as a child, at the hands of his father. Ryan has a doctorate in psychology (means: he is very smart & is able to give a clinically educated view to thoughts & feelings that happen throughout the book) but he doesn’t practice psychology. He’s a self-made millionaire through investments in stocks and real estate.
To prove that he is intelligent and that his life does hold worth; he devises a plan to abduct, torture (using various methods) and murder a group of 4 women, who all look like each other. There may be just one little kink in his well-laid plans. Meaghan. She challenges him some of it is because she is attracted to him and some of it is because she has a child that she wants to go home to.
Ryan begins to realize his self-worth and that brings about a new wave of confidence, another thing that his father stole from him. He starts making changes in his life. Don’t assume that all of these changes are for the good. Meaghan realizes that her desires don’t make her weird, and that there are people like her as well.
There is also Ami, the coffee shop barista, who likes wild, hot sex…and she does get it in this book…quite fully & graphically. I like that she’s unapologetic about getting what she wants. I seriously get tired of those female virginal characters, give me a real woman!
This psychological, erotic thriller will take you places that have you questioning your own sanity. You’ll think you have it figured out then there’s a twist and another turn! It’s like that Alice in Wonderland quote: “I knew who I was when I woke up this morning, but I’ve changed a few times since then.”
By: (Scott) S.D. Hildreth
5/5 stars
I bought this book under the original title, Dying to Survive, but it doesn’t matter the title that you buy it under, the content is the same. This is Dark Erotica & the author gives a good warning including slaughterotica (my new favorite Hildreth term). Pay attention to it! This book doesn’t have a traditional HEA, not all of the characters get and HEA or HFN. But, to lovers of the dark, there is pretty much a type of HEA.
Wow, at the end of this book, your head will be spinning. You will be left thinking WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT?! At one point your mouth will just open and close like a damn guppy because your brain is still in process mode. So here is the review… after I’ve finally recovered from mush brain.
Ryan Capshaw is a handsome, successful, enigmatic man. But he doesn’t see any of that due to years of psychological abuse, as a child, at the hands of his father. Ryan has a doctorate in psychology (means: he is very smart & is able to give a clinically educated view to thoughts & feelings that happen throughout the book) but he doesn’t practice psychology. He’s a self-made millionaire through investments in stocks and real estate.
To prove that he is intelligent and that his life does hold worth; he devises a plan to abduct, torture (using various methods) and murder a group of 4 women, who all look like each other. There may be just one little kink in his well-laid plans. Meaghan. She challenges him some of it is because she is attracted to him and some of it is because she has a child that she wants to go home to.
Ryan begins to realize his self-worth and that brings about a new wave of confidence, another thing that his father stole from him. He starts making changes in his life. Don’t assume that all of these changes are for the good. Meaghan realizes that her desires don’t make her weird, and that there are people like her as well.
There is also Ami, the coffee shop barista, who likes wild, hot sex…and she does get it in this book…quite fully & graphically. I like that she’s unapologetic about getting what she wants. I seriously get tired of those female virginal characters, give me a real woman!
This psychological, erotic thriller will take you places that have you questioning your own sanity. You’ll think you have it figured out then there’s a twist and another turn! It’s like that Alice in Wonderland quote: “I knew who I was when I woke up this morning, but I’ve changed a few times since then.”
March 13, 2014
I tried to buy Scott Hildreth's book "Dying to Survive" just over a week or so ago, but before I 1-clicked it, it had already been removed by Amazon... Luckily for me, when I checked the next day, it had returned like a Phoenix out of the ashes, this time under the title "BANNED: Dying to Survive". Since then, it has undergone 2 more title and cover changes and is now known as either "Plenty of Fish" or "No Butterflies or Rainbows"... It will always be known to me as "Dying to Survive" though.
I'm not going to go into the plot, because you can check out the synopsis yourself! What I am going to go into is my emotions & thoughts, while reading it! A simple one word description for it would be "Wow!" ... Scott has taken me on an intelligent, mindfucking, emotional ride and I loved it! It kind of reminded me of those old fairground ghost house rides... You know, the ones where you sit in the rickety car, and it jolts you along, suddenly stopping, then spinning you around to reveal something macabre & frightening... By the end, you are relieved but thinking wtf just happened, as your slightly shaky legs step back onto solid ground again. Kudos to Scott, because not a lot of books recently surprise me!
The storyline is well written, insightful, and takes you on twists and turns that will keep you reeling... The characters have so many layers, keeping you on your toes the entire time! You will be scared, curious, sympathetic, disgusted and turned on! It was a roller coaster of emotions... This is the first book I've read of Scott Hildreth's , but if this is a reflection of his other work... Sign me up for the season pass!
It's not a romance, it's not pretty, there is no traditional HEA ... It's dark, tortured, raw... Am I glad I read it? Hell yes!
I'm not going to go into the plot, because you can check out the synopsis yourself! What I am going to go into is my emotions & thoughts, while reading it! A simple one word description for it would be "Wow!" ... Scott has taken me on an intelligent, mindfucking, emotional ride and I loved it! It kind of reminded me of those old fairground ghost house rides... You know, the ones where you sit in the rickety car, and it jolts you along, suddenly stopping, then spinning you around to reveal something macabre & frightening... By the end, you are relieved but thinking wtf just happened, as your slightly shaky legs step back onto solid ground again. Kudos to Scott, because not a lot of books recently surprise me!
The storyline is well written, insightful, and takes you on twists and turns that will keep you reeling... The characters have so many layers, keeping you on your toes the entire time! You will be scared, curious, sympathetic, disgusted and turned on! It was a roller coaster of emotions... This is the first book I've read of Scott Hildreth's , but if this is a reflection of his other work... Sign me up for the season pass!
It's not a romance, it's not pretty, there is no traditional HEA ... It's dark, tortured, raw... Am I glad I read it? Hell yes!
March 8, 2014
I followed the hype on this book and was sadly let down. The content was not even my issue here. It could have been a really good thriller/mindf**k if the author had put more detail and taken out some of the parts that I personally found pointless. I think the book was supposed to trick my brain and cause me to say 'Oh my God' but it didn't. It was a fast paced book. It jumped around alot. The parts that were supposed to seem 'dark' just seemed gross to me. It was almost like watching a cheaper version of the movie 'Saw' only with less plot, less mindfu**ery, and less blood. Their are graphic sexual scenes so I don't suggest this book if rape, rough sex, and murder is not your thing. I hated the character Elena. I hated the male lead Ryan. This book just didn't do it for me. While I've read the authors other work as well. I find his previous work way more enjoyable. Now I must say this book has been posted and taken down several times by Amazon and I will say its not right. Nothing I read in this book is any worse than some of the other books Ive come in contact with. So I'm sorry that this has happened. Once again I will say. The book has great reviews so don't let my opinion stop you from trying it out. Just because it wasn't my cup of tea doesn't mean that it won't be yours.
January 28, 2016
Absolutely the craziest friggin erotica EVER!!
Thoroughly enjoyed it, nothing is as you'd expect it to be, it's a hell of a ride - and it's completely fucked up! Scott has become the Stephen King of erotica for this story.
Considering it gave me a nightmare where I was being chased as I escaped Ryan's basement (which weirdly came out into the steel mill from the movie Flashdance and my Ryan was Nick Hurley the owner of the mill in the movie) you'd think I'd have been okay, but NO!! I was honestly woken by my other half because he said I was screaming!!! ...this is one scary ass book!
I probably shouldn't have enjoyed it as much as I did!!
The ending was nuts too - I did not see that coming!!!
(no spoilers - you'll know exactly what I mean if you read it!!)
There is nothing that Scott Hildreth can't write - the man's a genius IMO - I'm intent on working my way through all his books : )
July 17, 2016
Well I did read the warnings and even so, I was able to buy this before Amazon removed it yet again. Now, that being said...I am not fan-girl gushing over this one at all, because frankly it was not as shocking and controversial as all the hype led me to believe.
Sure, it is twisted and dark and crazy...like the kidnapper Ryan is seriously nuts and although we do get a sort of "reason" for it (being some abusive things that happened when he was a little boy) I have read worse. Also, his last victim had way more done to her in her childhood to mess her mind up and she is less of a threat to anyone...in fact, without spoiling anything, I would have expected her to be the lone survivor in all this mess.
Ryan's actions after the kidnapping and further into the book when he "takes care" of one of the abusers made me feel like he redeemed himself somewhat...but then holy hell, the story is taken into another direction that I did not see coming. All I can say is "be careful what you wish for" or fantasize about...because sometimes the reality can be a nightmare and not at all what you wanted.
**** 3.5 **** "slaughter house erotica" stars
Sure, it is twisted and dark and crazy...like the kidnapper Ryan is seriously nuts and although we do get a sort of "reason" for it (being some abusive things that happened when he was a little boy) I have read worse. Also, his last victim had way more done to her in her childhood to mess her mind up and she is less of a threat to anyone...in fact, without spoiling anything, I would have expected her to be the lone survivor in all this mess.
Ryan's actions after the kidnapping and further into the book when he "takes care" of one of the abusers made me feel like he redeemed himself somewhat...but then holy hell, the story is taken into another direction that I did not see coming. All I can say is "be careful what you wish for" or fantasize about...because sometimes the reality can be a nightmare and not at all what you wanted.
**** 3.5 **** "slaughter house erotica" stars
March 7, 2014
Varying from his typical approach, the author has written this erotic, dark, suspenseful thriller away from his first person norm. We all know, first person perspective doesn't work well when people are MURDERED.
One word describes this book:
HOLYFUCKINGSHIT.
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child. Now an adult, Ryan lives the life of a wealthy loner. After devising a plan to abduct, torture and murder four women, he puts his plan into action.
After placing all four women into a concrete cell that he has constructed in his basement, he opens the door and gives them the following instruction, "tomorrow morning at 8am one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. Have a good night see you at 8am."
The twisting, turning plot that follows, isn't what anyone that reads this book would expect.
And the sex? Oh my fucking God. Rape? Yes. Double penetration? Yes. Consensual sex? Not so much.
This book redefines what an erotic dark thriller needs to be.
And the ending? One word. OUTFUCKINGSTANDING.
One word describes this book:
HOLYFUCKINGSHIT.
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child. Now an adult, Ryan lives the life of a wealthy loner. After devising a plan to abduct, torture and murder four women, he puts his plan into action.
After placing all four women into a concrete cell that he has constructed in his basement, he opens the door and gives them the following instruction, "tomorrow morning at 8am one of you will forfeit your life to save the other three. Have a good night see you at 8am."
The twisting, turning plot that follows, isn't what anyone that reads this book would expect.
And the sex? Oh my fucking God. Rape? Yes. Double penetration? Yes. Consensual sex? Not so much.
This book redefines what an erotic dark thriller needs to be.
And the ending? One word. OUTFUCKINGSTANDING.
September 10, 2016
What a different kind of writing!
Scott Hildreth never ceases to amaze me. This is definitely darker than some of his other books I have read. What hasn't changed is that thrilling edge of your seat ride he takes you on with EVERY SINGLE CHAPTER you read! I was going to wait to read this after his other recent debut but hearing that this was banned and then un-banned. I wanted to see what all the hoopla was. OMG this is not only dark erotica but seriously psychologically dark as well. Holy cow from start to finish the armchair psychologist in me questions myself and this asks "and how did that make you feel?" Like duh? Never will I look at a stranger the same way again. Or answer my front door in the late evening to a utility worker. Many kudos to Hildreth. . . I cannot wait to see what comes off his sick twisted yet creative fingers next!! Mad Props for your mad skills.
Scott Hildreth never ceases to amaze me. This is definitely darker than some of his other books I have read. What hasn't changed is that thrilling edge of your seat ride he takes you on with EVERY SINGLE CHAPTER you read! I was going to wait to read this after his other recent debut but hearing that this was banned and then un-banned. I wanted to see what all the hoopla was. OMG this is not only dark erotica but seriously psychologically dark as well. Holy cow from start to finish the armchair psychologist in me questions myself and this asks "and how did that make you feel?" Like duh? Never will I look at a stranger the same way again. Or answer my front door in the late evening to a utility worker. Many kudos to Hildreth. . . I cannot wait to see what comes off his sick twisted yet creative fingers next!! Mad Props for your mad skills.
March 2, 2014
Be prepare to get your mind messed with...Even from the dedication of this book you will think on the consequences of your behavior. You will be at the edge of the seat trying to guess what will happen next. In all honesty- I was mad as hell to read all the things that happened to the characters to get them to the point that they where. And of course that is the intention of the author so people can comprehend what is happening. This book surprised me and I was not always happy about the turns it took, but it was definitely different from anything I've read. It made me challenge myself, got my mind all jumbled up, I had to go a day with a book hangover because I fought with the results of the story. I'm not used to this, and I'm not saying I loved it but I recognize how good a book can be if it gets my emotions like that.
March 12, 2014
I just finished this book, and I am still reeling from it. I still can't figure out why this book was banned on Amazon, but whatever. As far as the story, It was very interesting to say the least. This book took so many twist and turns I couldn't even see straight afterward. Every time I thought I figured out what was going to happen next, I was wrong. Oh Ryan how I despise you and find myself attracted to you all in the same breath. This book left me with my head spinning and totally speechless. Kudos to the writer for writing an amazing book that kept me anticipating every page and staying up all night to finish it!
March 5, 2014
Here we go...
Last night I tossed and turned all night trying to figure out what to say. Let me tell you, this book has got me so twisted, I'm hoping I can somehow make sense of it. I've read a couple of Scott's books and love them all but this one is totally f$%^*#% mind blowing! For an author to question your emotions for the first time is pure genius. Lesson learned...never bully anyone, don't be so trusting with strangers and be cautious with what you post on the internet. For a first timer to dark erotica, I'm no longer a virgin...that cherry has been popped! I'll be thinking about this book for quite some time. AMAZING!!!
Last night I tossed and turned all night trying to figure out what to say. Let me tell you, this book has got me so twisted, I'm hoping I can somehow make sense of it. I've read a couple of Scott's books and love them all but this one is totally f$%^*#% mind blowing! For an author to question your emotions for the first time is pure genius. Lesson learned...never bully anyone, don't be so trusting with strangers and be cautious with what you post on the internet. For a first timer to dark erotica, I'm no longer a virgin...that cherry has been popped! I'll be thinking about this book for quite some time. AMAZING!!!
March 4, 2014
Wow..just wow! This story takes you on a journey you never thought was coming, you are left with a wtf was that, that just happened. I am still trying to figure it all out and maybe I will add to this review later but right now I am speechless! Which in turn means to me that the writer is fantastic to make me have the feelings I do towards this book! :)
August 26, 2016
Before I start my review first I want to say
First off I want to commend Scott for not giving up. For those who do not understand what I am saying this book was
BANNED 3 times with Amazon.
Which is total horse sh*t!!!
Clearly you can read IT STATES:
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.*
Given it states this clear as day if you feel that this is not up your alley DO NOT READ IT!!! And do not punish banned or flag other authors books if it does not appeal to you.
Sorry for my RANT.
Now on to the most important part....
MY REVIEW
4 FABOULOUS HOLLYF#CKINSH*T TWISTED MIND F#CK STARS
Once again I am floored by Scott and his writing.
To you Scott for a job well done.
I am going to do my best to not give anything away in my review. So here I go.....
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child by his father. His abuse had occurred over years. No one paid attention to what was happening to him not even his mother. But as Ryan got older he suspected his mother knew.
What would you do if you were in his position?
You think and wonder, What happens to these kids?
What will they become?
What will they turn into?
If you were in their place how do you think it would effect you once you were older?
Would you be normal?
Yes? No?
Who knows.
“Children. Pay close attention to them. They grow up to be adults. The really heinous people we see on the news? The serial killers, murderers, rapists, and complete ass-hats of society? Yeah, they were children once. And no one paid attention.”
Ryan Capshaw is definitely a very wealthy, dark, sexy and twisted man.
AND I LOVED HIM!!
Yes call me a sick twisted women. But it is true.
He is also a psychologist but never practices. Well not in the traditional way.
Ryan Capshaw kidnaps 4 women. Over a months time.
All of them look very similar.
And he places them in a room together. With rules of course.
He tells them that
"Tomorrow at precisely zero eight hundred hours one of you is going to die"
And they have to choose the order of who dies first. And every morning following that they will have to decide who is next till the last girl is left. If they do not decide then ~
ALL OF THEM DIE.
Sick?
Insane?
Well to Ryan this is a game.
The way he found these women will amaze you and make you think. Seriously think.
So let me say something about one of these girls. I am not going to go into detail of all of them just one.
Elena.
OMG! I could not stand her. CAN YOU SAY....
But can I really call her that because it is really about
RIGHT?
You will ask yourself, what would I do if I was in these girls position?
How would I decide who dies first?
Could I make a decision like that?
Just when you think you figured this book out.
BAM
You telling yourself damn I did not see that coming.
Basically you are taking a ride on the freaking crazy train and you are wondering WTH just happened.
The way Ryan talked freaked me out ( but I loved him ) because he was so calm like a psychopath in my mind would be. Insane but not insane hard to put into words. You have to read it to see what I am trying to say.
One of his captives I will not say who but she is attracted to him. From the get go.
I know your asking your self WTF? Right?
Ryan also has never been with a women. ( Sexually) EVER!
But let me tell ya what a ride that was. LOL
Once he had a taste.....DAY-UM
And then the game changes again.
And again.
I was shocked so many times reading this book. You never knew were it was going to go. And I love books that are like that. Always keeping me on my toes so to speak.
This book has sex, murder and love yes I said LOVE.
You are going to be asking yourself questions throughout the book.
One of those questions would be ~
As a human being how far will I go to SURVIVE?
I did not expect the ending.
I really did not seeing it coming and that is another reason I loved this book it was ANYTHING BUT PREDICTABLE.
I recommend this book to anyone who loves dark, twisted and mind fucked books. So braced yourself for the ride.
But remember read with a OPEN MIND.
This is not for the faint of heart.
I know a lot of people are going to not understand why I rated this book the way I did but I will have to say I understand what and were Scott was going with this book and look forward for the story to continue.
I can not wait to see what Scott comes up with next. With his new genre of SLAUGHEREROTICA.
http://www.amazon.com/BANNED-DYING-SU...
I want to take a moment and acknowledge Scott Hildreth. I have never done this in any of my reviews but this man is so diverse with his writing. He can write ANYTHING. I mean ANYTHING. I have never had an author that I have loved every one of their books. It is always a hit an miss with me. He truly is a gifted writer. There is no stopping him. I have read all of his books but one. And not because I do not want to just haven't yet. He has amazed me every time. His books and writing are never the same style always changing it up. Not many can do that. All of Scott's book that I have read have a hidden message you just have to read and understand the message. So congratulations on another hit in my book Scott. Keep it up. Looking forward to what you have in store next.
https://www.facebook.com/steph.x.reader
First off I want to commend Scott for not giving up. For those who do not understand what I am saying this book was
BANNED 3 times with Amazon.
Which is total horse sh*t!!!
Clearly you can read IT STATES:
*CAUTION* This book has scenes describing the abduction, rape, murder, and torture of living people. Additionally, there are graphic scenes of sex, not all of which is consensual. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.*
Given it states this clear as day if you feel that this is not up your alley DO NOT READ IT!!! And do not punish banned or flag other authors books if it does not appeal to you.
Sorry for my RANT.
Now on to the most important part....
MY REVIEW
4 FABOULOUS HOLLYF#CKINSH*T TWISTED MIND F#CK STARS
Once again I am floored by Scott and his writing.
To you Scott for a job well done.
I am going to do my best to not give anything away in my review. So here I go.....
Ryan Capshaw was abused as a child by his father. His abuse had occurred over years. No one paid attention to what was happening to him not even his mother. But as Ryan got older he suspected his mother knew.
What would you do if you were in his position?
You think and wonder, What happens to these kids?
What will they become?
What will they turn into?
If you were in their place how do you think it would effect you once you were older?
Would you be normal?
Yes? No?
Who knows.
“Children. Pay close attention to them. They grow up to be adults. The really heinous people we see on the news? The serial killers, murderers, rapists, and complete ass-hats of society? Yeah, they were children once. And no one paid attention.”
Ryan Capshaw is definitely a very wealthy, dark, sexy and twisted man.
AND I LOVED HIM!!
Yes call me a sick twisted women. But it is true.
He is also a psychologist but never practices. Well not in the traditional way.
Ryan Capshaw kidnaps 4 women. Over a months time.
All of them look very similar.
And he places them in a room together. With rules of course.
He tells them that
"Tomorrow at precisely zero eight hundred hours one of you is going to die"
And they have to choose the order of who dies first. And every morning following that they will have to decide who is next till the last girl is left. If they do not decide then ~
ALL OF THEM DIE.
Sick?
Insane?
Well to Ryan this is a game.
The way he found these women will amaze you and make you think. Seriously think.
So let me say something about one of these girls. I am not going to go into detail of all of them just one.
Elena.
OMG! I could not stand her. CAN YOU SAY....
But can I really call her that because it is really about
RIGHT?
You will ask yourself, what would I do if I was in these girls position?
How would I decide who dies first?
Could I make a decision like that?
Just when you think you figured this book out.
BAM
You telling yourself damn I did not see that coming.
Basically you are taking a ride on the freaking crazy train and you are wondering WTH just happened.
The way Ryan talked freaked me out ( but I loved him ) because he was so calm like a psychopath in my mind would be. Insane but not insane hard to put into words. You have to read it to see what I am trying to say.
One of his captives I will not say who but she is attracted to him. From the get go.
I know your asking your self WTF? Right?
Ryan also has never been with a women. ( Sexually) EVER!
But let me tell ya what a ride that was. LOL
Once he had a taste.....DAY-UM
And then the game changes again.
And again.
I was shocked so many times reading this book. You never knew were it was going to go. And I love books that are like that. Always keeping me on my toes so to speak.
This book has sex, murder and love yes I said LOVE.
You are going to be asking yourself questions throughout the book.
One of those questions would be ~
As a human being how far will I go to SURVIVE?
I did not expect the ending.
I really did not seeing it coming and that is another reason I loved this book it was ANYTHING BUT PREDICTABLE.
I recommend this book to anyone who loves dark, twisted and mind fucked books. So braced yourself for the ride.
But remember read with a OPEN MIND.
This is not for the faint of heart.
I know a lot of people are going to not understand why I rated this book the way I did but I will have to say I understand what and were Scott was going with this book and look forward for the story to continue.
I can not wait to see what Scott comes up with next. With his new genre of SLAUGHEREROTICA.
http://www.amazon.com/BANNED-DYING-SU...
I want to take a moment and acknowledge Scott Hildreth. I have never done this in any of my reviews but this man is so diverse with his writing. He can write ANYTHING. I mean ANYTHING. I have never had an author that I have loved every one of their books. It is always a hit an miss with me. He truly is a gifted writer. There is no stopping him. I have read all of his books but one. And not because I do not want to just haven't yet. He has amazed me every time. His books and writing are never the same style always changing it up. Not many can do that. All of Scott's book that I have read have a hidden message you just have to read and understand the message. So congratulations on another hit in my book Scott. Keep it up. Looking forward to what you have in store next.
https://www.facebook.com/steph.x.reader
March 8, 2014
”To the depths of Hell.”
A dark read I could finally sink my teeth into.
Currently on Amazon under the titles:
Plenty of Fish
NO BUTTERFLIES OR RAINBOWS
Same book as 'Dying to Survive'
This seems to because of Amazon banning the book
Genre: Genre? Just 'Dark' fiction I think. I wouldn't call it an erotica, for me an erotica means the book revolves around sex, this does not, though it had erotic parts. There was far more mindfuckery and horror.
Cover: 2/10
Writing: 8/10
Heroine: 9/10
Hero: 8/10
Hotness: 5/10
Romance: 4/10
Dark: 9/10
Ending: 9/10
Extra book Details: Dual POV. Approx 220 pages.
At first, I thought 'Oh jeez, Ryan is just another rich sadist, yadda yadda...'
'It had been nearly eight days since he last abducted a woman, and a newly chosen victim would be needed for the game he intended to play.'
Then I was like 'Wait! What?'
'But you must excuse me. I have women to torture. For profit'
Profit??? Huh?
'The thought of someone willingly forfeiting their life was fulfilling to him. The real question was who?'
'He began to perform the mathematical calculations in his head regarding one of the women actually choosing death over dismemberment.'
OH MY GOD!
This guy is a nut job! A freaking clever nut job! Who likes to profit from torturing women! Who all look like the coffee shop worker that he pines after!
! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Oh, yeah, so, I overdid it with the exclamation marks, but seriously, this is not what I expected. The whole book had a load of turns that I didn't expect. Sometimes I thought Ryan was evil, other times not, sometimes I thought the one woman was true heroine, then the other one. Why was he doing this?
It was freaking great and so incredibly weird!
Ami, well, she was a breath of fresh air. I loved her, she was absolutely crazy and incredibly bossy.
I really wish I saw A LOT more of her. She was not in the book as much as I would have liked, the things she would say was hilarious too.
'No sudden movements or it's gonna get as messy as a shit sandwich.'
Oh and Ami likes quite a bit of this. She's pretty much a nymphomaniac.
In fact there was a lot of funny moments for me, Ryan bitching about pineapple in cottage cheese, Ami stepping in guts... It was a welcome surprise.
All the characters were severely messed up to extremes. I didn't care if it was unrealistic at times. I wouldn't have liked it so much if they were normal with a side of crazy. Just give me the bat-shit kind.
Oh and I never heard the term 'fuck bubbles' before, now I will definitely try and use that.
Right, be warned there are HEAVY scenes of child abuse, violence, breath-play, rape, murdering of innocents and torture.
Enjoy!
March 27, 2014
Ok...deep breath...three 5* reviews on here for this book by the author?? Really?? I get that you love your book Mr Hildreth, but three reviews? Moving on...
This book has been banned, several times, by Amazon. I have no idea why. Personally I think it was listed in the wrong genre because this was not dark erotica. You cannot just write a book and throw a couple of sex scenes in it and say it's dark erotica. There's a bit more to the genre than that! Another, recently, banned book did exactly the same thing and when I spoke to the author, she said she thought because her book had sex in it then it had to go in the erotica genre!! So my first problem with this book, is that it should be listed in the psychological thriller genre, and authors really need to learn what constitutes the different genres.
And now things really go downhill.....expecting to read a dark erotic novel and finding out it wasn't going to be one, got my goat straight away. It annoyed me. I thought oh here we go again and all the terrible clichés about bandwagons flooded my brain.
The blurb of the book suggested an entirely different story to what was presented in the book.
I didn't like the writing style, it was too wordy, too stilted, too pretentious.
The editing...well actually I don't think there was any editing.
If the author's intention was to shock then I have to say he did manage to shock me, but not in the way I'm sure he intended. I was shocked by the poor writing skills, the poorly executed story, the lack of character development and just generally the indecisiveness of the author.
There are far better dark erotic books out there, I've read some corkers that will tantalise, titillate and terrorise you. Books that make you feel dirty for reading them, for intruding into the lives of the characters.
This book was none of this. This book fell way short of the mark of being good erotica or a good thriller or to put it plainly, a good book. Shame really because the blurb sounded promising!
This book has been banned, several times, by Amazon. I have no idea why. Personally I think it was listed in the wrong genre because this was not dark erotica. You cannot just write a book and throw a couple of sex scenes in it and say it's dark erotica. There's a bit more to the genre than that! Another, recently, banned book did exactly the same thing and when I spoke to the author, she said she thought because her book had sex in it then it had to go in the erotica genre!! So my first problem with this book, is that it should be listed in the psychological thriller genre, and authors really need to learn what constitutes the different genres.
And now things really go downhill.....expecting to read a dark erotic novel and finding out it wasn't going to be one, got my goat straight away. It annoyed me. I thought oh here we go again and all the terrible clichés about bandwagons flooded my brain.
The blurb of the book suggested an entirely different story to what was presented in the book.
I didn't like the writing style, it was too wordy, too stilted, too pretentious.
The editing...well actually I don't think there was any editing.
If the author's intention was to shock then I have to say he did manage to shock me, but not in the way I'm sure he intended. I was shocked by the poor writing skills, the poorly executed story, the lack of character development and just generally the indecisiveness of the author.
There are far better dark erotic books out there, I've read some corkers that will tantalise, titillate and terrorise you. Books that make you feel dirty for reading them, for intruding into the lives of the characters.
This book was none of this. This book fell way short of the mark of being good erotica or a good thriller or to put it plainly, a good book. Shame really because the blurb sounded promising!
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