I LOVED Nate and Susie: their bond, their love. I think I get why Nate didn’t call her mom, since his mom tainted the title and even his dad didn’t live up to it. I think to him Susie was a title on its own and I never doubted the love he felt for her.
Jilly and Susie were cute too, and I loved how Jilly fell in love with Susie and those little nuggets dropped of how much she wanted to be like her.
Now the guys… I need to make it clear that I don’t have a problem with them and Susanna, my problem is with their relationship with Merit.
The reason I couldn’t give this book more than 3 stars is because the author wanted to keep the mystery for so long about who Merit was, what she did and their relationship that took away from all the MMC’s and quite frankly made them look dumb AF.
We went from POV’s about their perfect wife that was like the sun and could do no wrong - we find out Merit was a jealous bitch that always wanted to be first so they all ruined Susie’s painting in high school so their little bitch of atention whore girlfriend could win a prize.
To POV’s “ok she wasn’t perfect but we loved her - we find out Merit was a “people user”, about how they were never enough for her but did everything for her all the same (Henry built the house she wanted, Luke opened a gallery so she could sell her shitty paintings, Rey came out of retirement and ruined his body for her)
And then we find out how she actually tried to kill Jilly when she was 3 and then POV’s about how they actually wanted to leave her, Luke actually went and had a vasectomy’s in secret when Jilly was born and things like that… And I was like ???
I know the author tried to play it off like Merit was abusive, and yes she was, TO JILLY. Not them! They knew she was a bitch and they still loved her and did everything she wanted, they were her puppets and I can’t and won’t feel sorry for people that stay with shitty partners and let their child deal with the consequences of their choices! Merit was throwing a tantrum? They removed the child from her home and took her to a hotel, and kept doing it everytime their unstable spoiled wife threw a tantrum for attention.
The book begins 3 years after Merits death, and THEY KNEW she tried to hurt Jilly, we as the readers don’t, so we read about how they still wear their wedding band (there’s no scene on the book of them taking it off, and they still refer to Merit as their wife in their thoughts, even after starting a relationship with Susie), we read about how much sex they had, we read about her being an artist (Susie said her “art” hadn’t evolved since high school and even then it was a piece of shit so…) we read about how they had to be drunk and imagine Merit’s face so they could fuck other women… Does this sound about man that are angry about their wife trying to kill their child??? THEY ONLY TOOK HER PICTURES DOWN BY THE END!! They still had her clothes, art and everything in the house “in case Jilly wanted it” I’m sure she wanted to wear the clothes of the WOMAN WHO TRIED TO KILL HER!
Of course Jilly felt like she couldn’t speak! It felt like Merit was their master and they couldn’t function without her, I had to check the tags to confirm this wasn’t fantasy and there was no dark magic involved at one point, that’s how obsessed they were.
And Rey, my god, the author was so confused about how she wanted to portray him. His character didn’t make any sense, one chapter he had one personality and the next one he would be totally different. In the chapter they tell Susie what the bitch did Reyner kept saying Merit was troubled, she didn’t mean too, she had so much talent yadda yadda like he was in love with her still… in his POV it sounded like he hated the bitch. So which one is it?