The 40-day fast of Jesus Christ in the desert brilliantly re-imagined and dramatized. Here, he wasn’t alone. There were 4 others: 3 men and a woman also went there, occupied a cave each to fast for 40 days. He wasn’t a Christ yet then, just someone from Galilee, and the others (including another woman, pregnant, with her wily, abusive merchant-husband who was dying at the start of the story but was somehow miraculously cured by Jesus when the latter came to their tent and stole a pouch of water) nicknamed him Gally.
The five went there to fast for various reasons (one had cancer and wanted to be cured, the woman because she was barren and wanted to have a child because her husband is about to divorce her, etc.). Gally’s reason? To get rid of sin, to put him at god’s right hand. His was a brave, total fast: no food AND no water. In 30 days he was dead, completely naked, all skin and bones.
But the evil merchant, recipient of Gally’s miraculous healing, not only was able to seemingly make everything right for everyone, but also to sort of resurrect Gally and make him divine . And likewise to make a profitable business out of it.
Now if I’m gonna fast for 40 days I’d definitely just do it partly: I’ll not eat, but I’d have plenty of water with me (not energy drinks, or even beer, because that would be cheating). Science says that without food I can stay alive for 2 to 3 months, so 40 days would be doable. But without food and water, an average person would pass out in 25 days and die in 30 (like Gally, though he was conscious—or delirious to be precise—on his last day).
It would help if I could have a lot of books to read. Or maybe a chess set and some chess games to analyse. Here Gally, on the 4th day of his fast, managed to create a board game and played against himself. While playing, he reached an epiphany: that the spiritual life is much like a game between two players, one real and suffering, and the other absent and imaginary—
“When he had finished writing out the word for god, laying claim to every stone and any flat face of clay which had room enough for lettering, he chose something simpler to occupy his mind. He took up his pointed writing rock and scratched a basket of three circles in the sun-dried floor, just inside his cave, and cut the circles into quarters with a cross. It was a rough grid on which to play the mill-game. This was how bad boys avoided temple lessons, hiding in the medlar trees, and playing on the mill-board for prizes of dried grapes, with sacrilegious forfeits for the ones that lost: put grass snakes in the priest’s side room; steal walnuts from the temple tree; rap on his door and run…And this was how old men killed time until the time killed them, sitting with their backs arched in the shade, above a mill-game board, waiting for their girls to serve a meal or for the mood to send them home. Jesus searched for tiny stones to act as counters—six blacking-brown, six white or grey—and spent the day as best he could in opposition to himself, testing all the blocked and ambushed routes around the grid. He’d never been much good at the mill-game when he was young. He had not practised. He’d prayed instead. He could not see the point of games.
“Now he had all the practice that he wanted. He could enjoy the dodging conflict of the little stones, the way they tussled for the cross-roads of the board, and did their best to flee the outer ring and hold the centre ground. There was another sermon there, he thought. Outside the temple gates on market day, raised on a cart. The mill-game as a symbol of the world, with god its inner circle and the stones as pilgrims hunting for the centre of the cross. It was a holy game.
“He could, therefore, persuade himself not to mind the guilty times when he abandoned prayers, when he lost heart in the repetition of the scriptures. Instead, he contested with himself in the mill-game and played both parts, the winner and the loser. Indeed, it seemed the game itself was a sort of prayer, with just one supplicant and no one to respond except himself. The mill-game worshipper, alone in quarantine, could not presume the company of god. Nor could the man at prayer. Both of them had to play both roles, and be in opposition to themselves and make all moves, and lose and win in equal part. God would not show himself. He would not sit cross-legged on the far side of the board, replying to each move of Jesus’s with his own stratagems, drawing in his breath when he seemed bettered, crying out when he had Jesus trapped, dispensing charity and hope and forfeits when he had placed the final stone inside the cross. He would not simply run up like a dog whenever Jesus prayed.
“It was no comfort, knowing that the winner was the loser too. Jesus could not sleep, even though he had relented in his disciplines and allowed himself to lie naked and depleted on the ground, out of the draught, his shoulder as a pillow. His skin became as cold as clay. Where were the camel and the thorn? He rolled into a ball, his knees pulled up towards his chin, his thin arms clasped around his shins, his backbone bumpy like a rabbit’s gut. It was the fourth night of his quarantine, and he was weak.”
The author has a powerful imagination and a way with words. He had even able to conjure the past when the world had not been inflicted yet with the pestilence that was humanity, and the future when this blissful state shall be restored by a cataclysmic storm:
“…This was the way the world had been before mankind, the childhood of the earth when it was innocent and undisturbed. This way the way the world would be when all mankind had gone, when the cleansing wind of prophecy had swept all sins and virtues from the earth and the wilderness was strewn with fallen and abandoned faiths.”