4.5 stars rounded up
This volume takes everything from volume one and amplifies it; it’s more emotional, more ruthless, and more toxic than before.
In volume one, my heart hurt for He Yu and his isolation. Here, my heart broke. We’re inside his mind as he makes painful discoveries of the past, and as his self-loathing and loneliness transform him into the very thing everyone always feared he would become. He has moments of lucidity in his breakdown, but rather than halting his downward spiral, those moments seal his determination to destroy himself and Xie Qingcheng, whom he blames for his shattered reality. It’s devastating, and while what He Yu does to Xie Qingcheng is indisputably awful, the author allows us to understand him even while never condoning his actions.
As for Xie Qingcheng, he becomes single-minded in his quest to find answers regarding his parents’ deaths. And when He Yu is the only one willing to help him, he starts to see the pain behind He Yu’s façade. It leads him to want to offer empathy to He Yu and to start over, but after Xie Qingcheng’s past actions come back to haunt him, it’s tragically too late.
There is a major act of sexual violence in this book, and while avoiding spoilers, I can say it is both explicit and lengthy. It’s painful to read and not just for the reasons you’d expect, as it sadly is true to these characters and this story. I can see many people dropping this series after this volume, so if this is something that might compromise your own well-being, please be aware before diving in.
How the two of them will come back from this is beyond me, but I trust the author can bring them there.
As for the author, she continues with her sharp societal critiques. Xie Qingcheng’s own medical philosophy is a huge part of the story, and allows for even further exploration of the way mental illness is seen and treated. Toxic masculinity is also ruthlessly called out here. Both leads have harmful views on “what it means to be a man”, and the author herself mocks the absurdity of both it and their homophobia within the text. This is true for both leads, but especially for Xie Qingcheng, as his need to maintain control at all costs contributes to the many horrors at the end. Yet even with her mockery, and often darkly humorous takes on their behavior, the author skillfully leaves room for empathy.
The overall plot takes a few steps forward here as well with a twist regarding one of the “players” that adds even more pain to He Yu’s suffering. It’s still a bit jarring to read the sci-fi and conspiracy elements, but as the story is still being set up, I’m sure it will integrate better in future volumes.
I wish I didn’t have to wait until October for the next volume. While there isn’t a cliffhanger here, it certainly is not a satisfying closure, though I doubt it was supposed to be.
Overall, I am committed to this series long-term and think it has a lot to offer both psychologically and (eventually) in its elements of a very dark romance.