note that i was VERY uncomfortable with the sexual content BUT that’s the genre it’s in, and it’s my fault for not doing research, so i’m not leaving any stars.
a dark beauty and the beast retelling, emphasis on dark.
it was wayyyyy spicier than i expected, with a heavy emphasis on BDSM and extremely questionable consent.
there’s also a very icky power dynamic that in my opinion should not have become resolved and healthy that quickly.
however i somehow have so many good things to say about the relational aspect!
!!!!!SPOILERS BELOW!!!!!
what kept me reading was the main male character’s marked neurodivergence. he’s serving autism in a major way which i really enjoyed!
it was advertised to me as a book where a low-empathy and antisocial love interest doesn’t magically and immediately become perfect at communicating with the heroine. there’s no instant emotional bond, no immediate flood of empathy and feelings towards her, no drastic change in his morals or worldview because she’s more idealistic, etc.
it’s like grumpy/sunshine where they’re not actually trying to change each other, and the ‘grumpy’ (unenthusiastic and inexpressive autistic) person isn’t like that just because of trauma, which they heal through the power of ✨unhealthy instalove✨
as a neurodivergent person, it was really cool reading the way calliope makes intentional effort to understand him, and learns to not take it personally when his words have no tone, his wording is very abrupt, he speaks with uncomfortable honesty, etc.
but!!! she’s not a pushover!
when he says something that genuinely hurts her feelings, or when he’s not fulfilling her emotional needs, she communicates that and stands firm with her boundaries.
if she needs him to show emotional intimacy with his actions when he can’t verbalize his affection, she tells him exactly what she needs.
he also makes a conscious effort to understand her and take better care of her, even though he finds social cues and intimate conversations to be veryyyy overwhelming and frustrating.
i hadn’t seen representation like this in a long time, so i found their dynamic refreshing!