4.5 Stars
This was one exquisitely written, emotionally-charged love story, effortlessly and poignantly exploring themes of social anxiety, belonging, disability, bisexuality, and the (all too relatable) challenges of making new friendships in adulthood.
Jesse is an ex-firefighter, dealing none-too-well in the aftermath of a car accident that ruined his career and resulted in chronic pain issues that leave him with a limp and a fair bit directionless in life. He’s isolated himself away from his support network, made worse by the ailing mental health of his beloved grandfather who raised him. But, his most amicable ex and childhood bestie George is determined to get him back out into the world, urging Jesse to enter a local university study centred around lonely millennials making friendships as adults—to which Jesse unenthusiastically agrees.
Also entering the study is Lulu. She works at the university as a professor, having recently moved back home with her parents after an overseas tenure ended in heartbreak and betrayal of the worst kind. Her parents are great, but Lulu struggles to fit in at work, seeing the new study as an opportunity to put herself out there—as scary as that sounds to her social anxiety—desperately wanting to form lasting connections with colleagues and new friends alike, and hopefully finding a place and community in which she finally feels accepted.
There was so much emotional complexity to these characters and their mental health and physical health issues, that I was bowled over by the way I felt in response to reading about their intricate feelings and insecurities, as well as their longing to be accepted and loved for who they were, flaws and all. It was all very relatable to me, as someone with a lifetime of anxiety issues and a decade into my own chronic illness battle, so reading Lulu and Jesse’s experiences, represented so authentically and accurately, really did a number on my heart and mind (in the best way possible).
Their emotional connection was also just divine. I loved how intimate and tender their bond grew, from tentative new friends, to secretive friends-with-benefits, to absolute awe and adoration for one another and proud of it. They were opposites in a lot of ways—grumpy x sunshine vibes for the win—but the way they helped each other grow and feel seen, with no expectations beyond wishing each other the best in life, was lovely to see. It’s also been a hot minute since I’ve read an M/F couple with a bisexual hero, and that element of the story was wonderfully portrayed and resonantly explored, too.
Reading this story and spending time with these characters made my heart fuller. I loved the representation, in all its forms, adoring the friends-to-lovers premise, the hurt-comfort themes, and how the ingenious study brought these two lonely souls out into the light, where they could safely find lasting connections in friendships, as well as love, while inspiring both of them with a desperate kick of renewed self-worth and self-love. It was a beautiful story indeed.
And that cover, though!?! Hands down my favourite cover art of 2024, no competition.