1.5⭐️
For whatever reason, I decided to finish this after originally dnf’ing this a week ago and what a mistake that was. Where do I start?
We follow Maame, the titular MC, who also goes by Maddie and who has a lot on her plate dealing with a dad with Parkinson’s disease, an absentee mom, a workplace that doesn’t appreciate her, and feeling like she’s missing out on all the great experiences everyone else her age is experiencing (relationships, socializing, sex).
Maddie was obnoxiously naive, ignorant, and annoying.
To start off, we’re supposed to believe Maddie is 25 years old when she thinks and behaves like a 15 year old. So much so, that this book read more like a YA contemporary than an adult literary book. And it’s not just bc Maddie has less life experience in terms of socializing and dating, it’s the childish way she thinks about things. A good chunk of the book is, I kid you not, Maddie literally just google searching any problem she is currently experiencing.
Here is just a short list of the things the MC enlists google to answer:
Where do you wear a yellow suit to?
Should You Knock on the Door of A New Flatmate
How to Prepare for a First Date
Is Pre-Date Exhaustion a thing
Does a Third Date Mean Sex
How to lose your virginity
What’s It Like Dating Someone Bisexual
That is not even all the things that they googled.
I mean did the author thinks this was cute or charming? Perhaps it could’ve been if it was just once, twice, or thrice and the questions weren’t so basic or obnoxious, but no.
Again there’s nothing wrong with Maddie being inexperienced in life but there’s a way to depict someone who grew up very sheltered and lacks experience but the author infantilized Maddie to the point where Maddie was clueless about things that you don’t need much experience to know, moreso just common sense. Her internal monologue also consisted of stuff like “DTF, I think that means down to fuck but I’ll google that later.” 1) Here we go again with the google shit. 2) These comments are accompanied by repeated proclamations of how Maddie never drinks, smokes weed, dates, socializes period so saying stuff like this in addition to what we already know about Maddie’s lack of social experiences is doing too much.
Onto the writing, which like the rest of the book is not good. First of all, the actual prose is way too casual for my taste. It is conversational. It is basic. It is emotionless. Especially the first 50%. It does not read like the prose of a published book, especially anything being shelved as literary, and it reminded me of the prose of the indie kindle unlimited books I used to read. But at least those were fun. The author was also doing this thing in the beginning where the 4th wall was occasionally broken. Maddie’s internal monologue would read:
I read a book, apply for jobs, then write. Don’t roll your eyes, please. I know it seems almost everyone wants to write something, but I used to write a lot at school.
Here, Maddie is telling the reader not to roll their eyes. Why break the fourth wall just to tell me that? Thankfully, this was a random thing I noticed that doesn’t continue throughout the book, but speaks to the random inconsistencies found in the book.
Maddie also embarks on a series of relationships throughout the book, and the only thing of note to say about it is that, unsurprisingly, Maddie has some pretty ignorant things to say about sexuality, bisexuality, and even lesbians. While on a dating app, Maddie looks through the profile of Alex, someone she’s interested in, and learns he’s bisexual. The first thing she thinks verbatim is:
Bisexual? Does that mean he’s only dating women right now? What happens when he prefers men again? Is that how it works? Can I ask him? Probably not.
This is soon followed up by more thoughts and conversations that make me uncomfy, more overall ignorance, lack of empathy, and just knowledge of how to behave like a decent human being by Maddie.
She literally picks up her phone one day and asks one of her closest friends “Why are you a lesbian and not bisexual?” Like, why would you ask someone that….
Less important is Maddie’s lack of experiences, and much more noteworthy is her lack of maturity.
I picked this up expecting a literary family drama starring a young Ghanaian MC, but all I got was kindle unlimited prose, biphobia, and google searches like: Should You Knock on the Door of A New Flatmate. A shame, truly.
Original DNF review:
DNF @ 10%.
This is a slice of life story following our 25 year old protagonist who has taken on the burden of caring for her Dad who has Parkinson’s. Unfortunately this book is just too mundane to me. I’m not sure what I was expecting here, a family drama or something more literary but this is more-so contemporary coming of age in your 20s fiction, which has an audience, but just isn’t for me.