This book really grew on me. It took me a couple of tries to get into because I wasn’t in the right mood for it at first, but after the first couple of chapters, I really got into the story and became invested in Sal’s journey.
Sal is trying to stay clean and build a new life for himself out of jail, where he spent 5 years. He works 2 jobs as a janitor 7 nights a week to save money for an apartment for him and his younger brother, who is also serving time in jail for the same thing as Sal but with a slightly longer sentence. Sal knows he isn’t free from his gang, but he’s laying low. He wants to stay out of trouble and be in a position to help his brother stay out of trouble, too.
He ends up living with Vanessa, her daughter, and her grandmother. He knew them from the neighborhood growing up but he got involved with the gang at a young age, whereas Vanessa was a “good girl” who worked hard in school. Sal crushed on her from afar, and everyone was surprised when Vanessa got involved with another gang member from the neighborhood. She got pregnant just as she was applying for college, so she stayed. Since the book is told from Sal’s POV, I felt like she was the less developed character, but that’s kind of inevitable with a single POV book. But we come to understand her as Sal learns more about her and falls in love, which he definitely wasn’t looking for.
When her grandmother offers the garage to Sal for $200 if he agrees to clean it out, Vanessa is wary. She’s a single mom with a good job trying to make a better life for her family, and she has no interest in being involved with anyone associated with the gang; even though there is no sign that Sal is still involved, she grew up in the neighborhood and knows that you don’t just leave a gang, even if you stayed loyal and did time in jail. But she quickly sees that Sal is also trying to make a better life for himself and that he’s a good person—a better person than he gives himself credit for.
As I mentioned above, book is told entirely from Sal’s perspective in first person POV. I rarely read books from the hero’s POV, and it’s a risky move. Hopkins pulled it off. Not just his voice, but his identity as well. A lot of books dealing with a Mexican-American gangster who just got out of prison would be a mess of stereotypes, but this felt authentic to me as a reader; not that I have any authority on any of these identities, but the author convinced me with the setting and world-building.
Unlike a lot of romances that touch on gangs, this book isn’t meant to be suspenseful or action-packed. That’s perhaps why I enjoyed it so much; I wasn’t expecting a character study, and that’s what I got. Sal is dealing with anxiety, self-harm, and the fear that he’ll get sucked back into life in the gang just as he’s figuring his life out. It was hard to believe sometimes that Sal was only 24, but it felt realistic that he’d have to grow up fast as someone who grew up with a legacy in this gang and as a young member himself.
The interest Sal develops in brewing was a nice addition. At first I couldn’t make the connection, but it was interesting and different. In prison, Sal kept himself out of trouble with routine. He is detail-oriented, very clean, and organized, which is why being a janitor felt like a good fit to him when he needed a job and couldn’t get hired with his criminal record. As a perk, he can use the gym for free, and he is almost obsessive about his exercise regimen, something else he learned in jail. Sal doesn’t think of himself as being that smart because there is a lot he doesn’t know, but everyone else can see he’s sharp. He has a great memory, and he soaks in new information like a sponge. When he befriends a local brewer, he realizes there are similarities between them, and he is surprised by how much he takes to the brewing process, always wanting to learn more.
This book may well not work for everyone, but I really enjoyed it and it was deeper than I expected it to be. This was my first book by this author, but it won’t be my last.