I have to be honest when I say I could not make it past the half way point in this book.
This book is explicitly marketed as containing Christian\Biblical themes. To be frank, I could not find them.
I understand that dark things happen in life, and I am not saying Christian literature should whitewash this. The Bible certainly doesn’t. But the first few chapters felt excessive to me, in terms of graphic descriptions of death, horrific nightmares, blood, etc. that I quickly began skimming.
If the purpose had been to parallel a real life event, it might have been more tolerable. I’ve read some pretty disturbing WW2 fiction, but the purpose of said work is to shed light on actual atrocities, whether the actual characters and exact situations existed or not. It feels purposeful, aiming to empathize with and bluntly tell the stories of those who endured such pain.
In this book, there was no productive commentary on the human condition, the nature of good and evil, our society, or really any commentary on anything at all. It was just Kayhlieh, the point of view character, experiencing and witnessing horror after horror, all while being occasionally comforted by the character of Grant.
This brings me to my next point, the character of Dean and the love triangle that follows between him, Kayhlieh, and Grant.
Dean feels like a character entirely made for a young female audience’s enjoyment. Dark, brooding, aggressively protective, a dark past, starts off cold and distant but quickly comforts the main female character in his arms, etc. A perfect man that could never exist, with some sharp edges and traumas masquerading as ‘flaws’ that really only serve to make him more charming and sympathetic, if we’re being realistic.
Eventually, a little while before the point I felt I should stop reading, the three characters all meet, and a heated exchange happens between Dean and Grant, where if we boil it down, they are essentially fighting over Kayhlieh.
Both Grant and Dean, but especially Dean, were images of Baal. Characters without any unlikeable traits or consistent flaws to match their strengths. Kayhlieh isn’t shown to have any real character flaws either, just tons of intense trauma the plot inflicts on her in the early chapters. Her point of view isn’t irritating to read, but it doesn’t delve into any core aspects of her personality either. I’m pressed to find anything distinguishing about her. You could argue her dislike of the character Mackenzie is a flaw, but you can hardly blame her for it at all, with how Mackenzie acts, and besides that, it’s not a major focus in the plot.
If this were a book that made no claims of being associated with God, I wouldn’t have any issues with it. The prose flows, the plot and dialogue feel naturally paced, the physical descriptions of characters and settings are vivid and clear, it was ‘clean’ as promised. But since it’s specifically targeted at young Christians, I don’t feel right about it.
It felt mostly like addicting, romantic wish fulfilment, and the, albeit unintentional, glorification of darkness. I believe I can see it because I’ve certainly done it myself, wallow around in darkness, cruelty, despair. It’s intoxicating and easy to fall into. Believe me, I know.
I didn’t feel edified at any point during reading, or even intellectually stimulated. Just because there is no sexual content on the page and the characters don’t swear doesn’t make something a wholesome Christian read. Making things dark does not make it deeper or more mature. A dystopian backdrop for an indulgent ‘love’ story does not give it more substance than if it was set in an average high school. This sort of content, especially as the main focus in the plot, is just Baal and Ashtoreth worship. It almost felt like it might as well have had smutty content and swearing, because it would at least then be hot or cold.
Revelation 3:15-16 NKJV
“I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of My mouth.”
This book was lukewarm. Not committing to being worldly and sinful, nor to being wholesome and Christian.