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10 pages, Audible Audio
First published September 13, 2018



She’d always been my girl. It didn’t matter who she was with or how long we were separated by time or distance, Ava would always be mine. I knew in my heart that nobody could ever love her the way I do. It simply wasn’t possible.
Ava Christensen had been the best thing in my life but I ruined us.
I didn’t want to be broken anymore. I didn’t want her to be left to pick up the pieces. She deserved better than that.
Maybe you couldn’t choose the person you fell in love with. Over the years, I’d tried so many times to steel my heart against Connor, but he always came in like a wrecking ball. He knocked down all the walls, destroyed the foundation, and left me with the rubble. Our brand of love would never made an after-school special. It was ugly and gritty and soul-destroying. Connor and I…there had been so many obstacles in our way.
But for a while, our love had been beautiful, and it had been everything.
How could you hate someone and love them at the same time?
How many times could I let him break my heart? At nineteen, he destroyed me. At twenty-four, I was still picking up the pieces.
“When I lost you, I not only lost a boyfriend, I lost my best friend.”
He closed his eyes. “Ava…”
“I’ve missed you,” I said, being more honest than I’d been in a long time. “So much.”
My heart has been broken by you so many times…so many times, Connor.”
I pulled her into my arms and held her. She leaned into me, her cheek pressed against my chest. “Baby, please…I’ll do whatever it takes to make this work. Anything.”
“Anything?” she asked, her voice muffled.
“Anything that doesn’t require letting you go. Because I don’t know how to do that. I’ve never found a way.”