It was an okay read. I didn’t really love or hate it.
Opal and Alex meet at 12 years old when Alex moves to their little dusty Texas town from Colorado.
They immediately become best friends. Both have secret underlying crushes on each other, both don’t fit in with the popular crowd and both have a lot of family issues. Opal lives with her absent mother and grandmother and never knew her dad. Alex’s older brother died, his mom abandoned him and his dad is a mean alcoholic.
This book as 53 chapters and by chapter 23 we’re still in the past. I really don’t care for books like this. We read about them when they’re 12, 14, 16, 18 and 19.
From 14 – 16 Alex gets preoccupied with the typical mean girl at school and ditches his best friend despite saying Opal is one of the only reasons he lives and hasn’t run away. Mmmk. The mean girl dumps him when he admits he’s bisexual and says some incredibly homophobic stuff.
Alex starts dating Opal after this from 16 – 19. They talk about a future but Alex is too free spirited- he really wants to just play music and travel the country. Opal has been accepted to a local college and wants to make something of herself. He keeps just making plans of touring with Opal following him around when Opal keeps trying to tell him she doesn’t want to leave her family and wants to attend college.
One day, Opal’s shitty mother says that she’s moving to Dallas and Opal needs to take a gap year instead of going to college and take care of her ailing grandmother. (WTF?) And Alex has been asked to tour with another band. She’s stuck and he’s leaving. They try long distance but of course that never works.
Alex starts to get resentful that Opal is the only one that seems to miss him in Texas and he gets mad that she’s not with him on tour or driving to see his shows (remember she’s working, taking care of her grandmother and has no car) so basically, he’s selfish. He starts drinking even though he’s dad is an alcoholic and getting WAY to close to another bandmate Alexa. Basically, after only two short months Alex barely calls Opal, drinks and pops pills, forgets her birthday and OW posts a very suggestive photo of her and Alex together. They also sing a duet together and Opal sees it on Youtube. (He maintains then and after that he never cheated and the photo was taken after he was passed out. It was the OW with her head on his shoulder while he looks asleep.)
Fast forward 5 years. Opal is in a seriously lackluster relationship (FOR A YEAR) with a guy she barely tolerates. He uses her for sex and she uses him for comfort so she’s not lonely. She is 24 with a boring, sad, unfulfilling life. She works, takes care of grandma and hangs out with Ian or Maise (her only friend).
Alex comes back to town to help his sick and ailing father. Sings at a bar and runs into Opal. They yell at each other, meet to “talk” where she accuses him of cheating on her (he did not), giving up on them (they both did) and never loving her (he says he’s loved her since he was 12). They sleep together. Yup. She cheats on her boyfriend. Alex is a recovering alcoholic and drug user and yet he still wakes up every morning and gets a beer first thing. Not cool author!
Opal tells her boyfriend she cheated. He says he knew he was always her second choice so it’s okay. Alex sees them and assumes the worst. A month goes by. Alex drinks. Opal’s pregnant. Alex wants to be together, Opal doesn’t and thinks he’ll abandon her and the baby.
The entire rest of the book 65% + is Alex trying really hard (getting a regular job, someplace to live, checking on Opal, feeding her, asking her out, blah blah blah) and Opal being super wishy washy. It’s kind of annoying. She loves him. She loves him not.
She’s also insanely jealous literally anytime another woman talks to Alex. Like once scene, she’s told him she wants to coparent and nothing else. He offers to take her to Target to baby shop. She refuses to ride in his car. She walks in and sees a brunette talking with Alex and stomps out of the store crying. He chases her and tells her that woman was asking for an autograph for her boyfriend and Opal still gives him the silent treatment and acts all uptight and jealous.
Another time, Alex has taken her to the beach to surprise her. Rented a house for the weekend. Old bandmates call to talk to him and ask him to come jam with them (Ones been in his life for years now and helped him when he was depressed and drinking), Alex says no. The OW takes the phone to say hi and Alex asks her to let his friend take the phone back. Opal is so jealous and hates OW so much she throws a massive tantrum, starts packing and cries until he takes her home early. She internally keeps thinking this is why they can’t be together, he’s not trustworthy.
Alex has done NOTHING wrong. He hasn’t talked to OW in years, never messed around with her, never cheated. Even back 5 years ago, they sang a song together (they’re performers!!) and she posted ONE photo of them that WAS NOT SEXUAL. Get a grip Opal!
For me, Opal was seriously hard character to write. At first, she’s hardworking and dedicated and wants to go to college. By 24, she’s a sour old woman with a poor me attitude. She doesn’t really TRY at anything. She works a barely minimum wage job, gave up on even online classes, lives in her childhood bedroom, was lackluster and not engaging with her boyfriend and only has one friend.
She insults everybody and everything and is SUPER sour about not going to college but….. she……chose….. not…..to. When later Alex tries to offer to move in together and help support her she’s like I’m going to have a kid Alex! I can’t go to college. Uhh LOTS of people go to college later in life much less your early 20s. Then when it comes to him talking about how good her poetry is she says she is embarrassed because she’s not a typical poetry girl. They’re usually cute, clean and organized. What the freaking frack author? First way to pigeonhole an entire group of people but clean? Poetry girls are clean?!? How fucking weird. She also uses pregnancy as an excuse for everything. Like she stops going to work then gets fired then expects everyone to be angry for her.
Like I get this is a second change romance but her breaking up with Alex, remember she dumped him, has just ruined this whole girls life and it seems like she became a bitter shrew. She doesn’t seem responsible enough to be a mother to it kind of turned me off her character and her HEA.
Basically, Opal gets preeclampsia. On bed rest. Alex bends over backwards to make her happy. They move in together. Have baby (off page). Get married and are happy 5 years later. She works and Alex is a rich songwriter.