That was terribly bad in a way that I never knew was possible. The original premise seemed interesting - your ex who ghosted you turned out to be dead and now he’s turned up in your life as a ghost - but damn the execution was not it. Reading through this book was a chore but I forced myself to finish it (in silent hopes that things would get better)
First of all there’s Emily, the most unlikable fmc I’ve ever encountered. Her constant need to keep up appearances gets exhausting quick. There’s trying to better yourself after experiencing something horrible or even traumatic, and there’s whatever the fuck she does. I don’t need to hear about how she’s gotta be on constant diets and she’s always sucking in her tummy. GIRL I’ve seen the cover art, you’re skinny and being annoying. There’s a tasteful way to address these issues in a book (insecurities and diet culture) but the author spends no time denouncing such things. Additionally, Emily is incredibly insecure about her upbringing and status. A lowly copywriter at work, didn’t go to a fancy university, or grow up with money. She talks about her home as though she was raised by trolls in a dumpster, and makes such comments in front of her supposed best friend, WHO LIVED IN THE SAME NEIGHBORHOOD. The only reason she even likes Oliver is because he’s rich and well educated.
Actually let’s talk about Oliver for a minute! He’s a douche from the beginning, and if you didn’t pick up on that immediately, I fear there’s no hope for you. In fact, her best friend Zoe as well as Andy pick up on this instantly, yet Emily continues to pursue him. He has absolutely NO redeeming qualities even before the reveal at the end of the book making him the official villain of the story. (A plot point that I absolutely hated mind you.) The fact that it took Oliver stealing her pitch for himself and being responsible for Andy’s death for her to finally stop chasing him is deeply upsetting. This man is absolute shit but none of that matters until it’s piled on top of this other stuff. I fear that Emily would’ve still been throwing herself at him otherwise.
Her entire life seems to revolve around men in the most un feminist way possible. I get it, really, she’s got daddy issues or whatever, but seriously??? She meets Andy, the sweetest guy who didn’t have any poor qualities (that we know of at least) other than the fact that he’s not rich or career driven. She treats him like crap, being hot and cold until he “ghosts” her, then she has the audacity to be heartbroken! Babe, even if he didn’t die, he still should’ve ghosted you. Anyway, after this she has her whole “new Emily” arc where she tries to be the best version of herself (which conveniently fits perfectly into the male gaze) and she all but launches herself head first at the successful new hire at work. It’s embarrassing to say the least. And finally at the end, she finds enough reason to not want Oliver and she also says goodbye to Andy, which would mean no more men in her life right? WRONG! The next thing we see is her budding new relationship (9 months in already) with Simon. Who’s Simon you might ask… I DONT FUCKING KNOW. We see him maybe 3 times, where he’s a background character in each scene, and are given no inclination that him and Emily would be a good match. They barely interact with one another the whole book. Towards the end there were a few little hints building up to the reveal that he’s got a huge crush on Emily but that’s it. Sorry, I misspoke, he’s in love with her apparently. Although why, I have no idea, given that she’s the world’s shittiest person. And even if he does love Emily, why the fuck do they end up together? It seems like she only dates him because he likes her (and got a shiny recommendation from Andy himself). But seriously why was that necessary? And if it really was important to have Emily immediately jump from man to man, then there should have been some sort of set up from before. Any small proof that they would be a good match.
If you are like me, and was interested in the premise, (dead ex coming back to haunt her and trudging up all this baggage from her past which she is forced to face head-on) do I have a recommendation for you! No One Here is Lonely by Sarah Everett has a similar story but it is 10x better. First of all, there is more diversity with the main characters. You follow a girl who is flawed (as we all are) but not a complete dickhead like Emily. Her friendship with her best friend is complex and challenging, but really nice to explore. The fmc has to come to terms with her grief in a way that feels real.
Anyway, if you haven’t already read Ghosted, maybe don’t, I sincerely think it is a waste of your time. I learned nothing from this experience other than the fact that I now hate anyone with the name Emily.