(1.5)
well! okay! thanks to edelwiess for this arc because i sure read the words it provided!
there will be spoilers below this line and i really thought i was going to have to write a disclaimer explaining why i didn't like this until i read the last chapter. the whole time i read this i was like "do i just not like this because i'm reading it right after legendborn and bloodmarked" and the answer could've been yes until i got to the end! now i'm confident don't like it for real reasons!
i truly wanted to like this. fae stuff is the one subgenre in fantasy that i've never really enjoyed (mainly because the most popular series are painfully white and i can't stand SJM for like 7628374 reasons), so i figured i would take a stab at this since the protagonist is a black woman with two black love interests. my mistake! i should not have done that! (i will give faebound a chance but that's IT)
i feel the same way about lore as i do about violet from fourth wing: i would love to like them because they're women and as one i'm very biased, but there is nothing of substance about them for me to care about while they go through whatever the book makes them go through. yes, lore and her people have been subjugated for thousands of years apparently, but the worldbuilding around that (and everything else) was so hollow that when she talked about it i felt next to nothing. the first half of the book moves so slowly and lore's motivations appear on a whim and feel incredibly flimsy because she's so out of her depth. when things finally start to happen everything is still a huge drag, and nothing of interest happens until 60% of the way through the book when we finally meet other characters that matter to the plot.
i also have a huge issue with how the love triangle is advertised vs. how it plays out. if the marketing copy for a book says it has a "swoony enemies-to-lovers triangle", i better be getting what i'm (not) paying for. let's start with asher since he gets the vast majority of lore's and the narrative's attention. how the fuck are they enemies? is it because asher is fae, and therefore inherently the enemy of all humans, including lore? nothing about their interactions is truly antagonistic until the absolutely batshit ridiculous reveal (which we will get to) at the end of the book. he's nice to her the first time they meet and continues to be the entire rest of the book. he also has no direct competition for her affection until finn shows up 200+ pages into this 352-page book. enemies-to-lovers has always irked me as a trope because people just throw it at any relationship where two people don't like each other, and that doesn't even apply here and therefore makes that advertisement an even worse sin. lore and asher can't be called rivals because they harbor no ill will towards each other for the entire book(until the VERY END). it's ridiculous and boring and i wish she would stop talking about how much she wants to eat his lower lip. maybe if that was described differently each time it was mentioned i wouldn't care, but it's not so i noticed it and now i hate it!
now we have to talk about the other half of the alleged triangle, finn. if both love interests of a love triangle (which is really a V because there aren't any clear vibes between finn and asher here), they both need to exist in the story at least a third of the way in. this is one of the reasons i could not stand wings of ebony, and it made me start thinking i was lie to halfway through this book. when finn does appear, it's not like he's a viable candidate for the whole enemies-to-lovers thing either. sure, he doesn't like lore, but how the fuck does that make them enemies? we cannot keep using trope branding like this. finn only becomes a viable love interest because the last chapter of this book reveals that asher is actually a completely different and evil person in disguise the entire time! lying about your identity like that is a sexual consent nightmare in my eyes and gave me a gigantic ick about the whole asher/lore scene, and i'm going to say this without a lot of nuance but it also means that there was a lot of wasted time in this book. why would finn's relationship with lore be left so undeveloped when asher is going to be taken off the table like that? i will maintain that all love triangles should close out with the gay ending or polyamory, and i couldn't even wish for that here because even if asher wasn't revealed to suck at the end, he and finn are the only two people who could possibly fit the enemies-to-lovers trope and they barely even speak.
onto the book as a whole: there is a huge pacing issue with chapter, and i'm not usually one to advocate for books to be longer, but it seems like this could've done with 300 extra pages instead of a TO BE CONTINUED ending. sometimes a series of books only needs to be one book, and that is okay. like i said earlier, the worldbuilding is haphazard at best, and while i'm more than willing to repeat that fae fantasy isn't something i'm into, good worldbuilding will always override that. i was just so bored for so long with this and only ended up sticking around because i felt myself liking things less and less and had to see that feeling through.
i have no idea why this is going to be marketed as an adult book when it is clearly young adult aside from the sex scene—something that could have easily been edited to be appropriate for young adult audiences! overall, everything felt so disorganized and disconnected, and the foreshadowing was so heavy-handed that it didn't even read as foreshadowing like it was supposed to.
my final complaint is that there's a scene where a child of tooth-losing age talks about their family horse in a way that only an old person would, and that was weird to me, but whatever. the fact that i was nitpicking things that early on was a bad sign, and this book went from a 3.5 i would be willing to round up to a 1.5 that isn't bad enough to round down. i'm sure someone will love this, i know they do because i've seen the other reviews, but it does not belong in the adult fantasy category, and if it was YA i would probably have handed it a 3-star rating and gone on my way. do not believe that this is enemies-to-lovers, it is nothing of the sort. i hate that i didn't like this but that's just how shit goes i guess!