2.5 ⭐️ I’m the opposite of WHET…
WHAT TO EXPECT:
✨ college sports romance
✨ Stanford university
✨ she's a diver newly recovered from an injury
✨ he's an Olympic swimmer from Sweden
✨ neither really let people in
✨ insta-lust
✨ friend's ex boyfriend
✨ "it's just sex"
✨ 4/5 🌶️
✨ kinks - power dynamic, light dom/sub, orgasm denial, public sex
✨ ex drama / love triangle
✨ STEM elements (both MCs want to be doctors)
✨ HEA
✨ single POV
✨ Dr. Carlsen and Olive Smith cameos
✨ TW: PTSD from traumatic injury, trauma from controlling dad, death of parent (past)
My Thoughts:
Is it a bad story? No.
Do I get why people like it? Yes.
But it was not for me, even though I read the book in 6 hours.
So why didn't I like it?
I don’t love college sports romance. I know this about myself and wasn't planning on reading this book. But everyone, I mean EVERYONE, was saying how this is Ali's best book yet, so I was hoping Deep End would be the exception. Unfortunately, I was wrong. I truly just do not care about the sport aspect of the story and would skim some of the practice and competition scene.
Most importantly, I fucking hate ex drama and love triangles! And while this isn’t a traditional love triangle, it still is one.
Let me explain. Scarlett is on the diving team and has a friendly relationship with the captain, Pen. Pen is dating Lukas, who is on the swim team. These two have been dating since they were 15 years old. Scarlett finds herself in a conversation with Pen about how Lukas is into BDSM but she's not into, so Scarlett confides to Pen that she also is into BDSM and if she has questions about it she can always ask her. Well, Pen and Lukas amicably break up. And at a party Pen drunkly tells Lukas and Scarlett that they should fuck since they are both kinky. Long story short, they do. Pen knows but to her it's just sex, and she thinks she and Lukas will find their way back to each other. But of course, Lukas and Scarlett catch feelings. So the love triangle and ex drama ensues.
I just hated that even though Pen and Lukas are broken up, she's still calling him her bestie and he makes himself so available to her. There's zero boundaries between them. He answers every text/call and drops everything to help her. But it's always at a time when Scarlett is with him, so when he takes off, it feels like he's choosing Pen even though it is clear he only has a friendship with Pen. And every time Scarlett and Lukas would make progress as a couple, she's unknowingly insert herself between them, so Scarlett would feel guilty for being in the way at all and would pull away. Also, Pen's behavior throughout the story irked me. She's not a bad person, but she's so self-centered.
Also, I found it weird as hell that Lukas tells Scarlett that he “asked for her” whenever he and Pen were having threesomes with people. Scarlett had a boyfriend so Pen never asked. But he says this as some sort of declaration that he’s always been interested in her. Like, I’m sorry, am I supposed to find that romantic? How sweet that he wanted to fuck her in a threesome with his ex girlfriend. I get it but also, just further annoys me that Lukas and Pen felt so obligated to each other they would rather invite people they were interested into their sex lives vs just breaking up and pursuing others.
The lack of communication / denial of feelings / omitting truth between Scarlett and Lukas was so frustrating it made me want to pull my hair out. While they communicated their sexual desires, it all ended the second they left the bedroom. In the beginning, there were a few times when they wouldn't speak to each other after a night together. I'm talking weeks. WEEKS! Sometimes it would be because they were traveling for competitions, but more than not, they were at school together and just . . . idk ignored each other? The first time Lukas ghosts her, he does apologize, but Scarlett forgives him wayyyyy too quickly. And later you find out he's been basically in love with her since the beginning and just giving her space because she "wasn't ready" or some bullshit excuse. Meanwhile, we know during these moments of zero communication, she was struggling and wanted to talk to him.
And then there's the problematic scene where Lukas is angry that Scarlett doesn't understand why he wants to fuck her. He takes his anger out on her by fucking her hard (with her consent). But his reason for being angry is stupid. Lukas legit has not given Scarlett any verbal confirmation as to his intentions besides sex with her. So why would she know he has big feelings for her already? She's not a mind reader for fuck's sake.
The amount of times Scarlett cried during sex and how quickly and how often she came was so bizarre. You might think I'm overexaggerating but Scarlett seriously cries every time they have sex. Sometimes it's because she's emotional, other times it's because he fucks her without much prep so she's got tears in her eyes. But don't worry, Lukas is ALWAYS there to lick up her tears. No lie.
And then, there's the fact that Scarlett cums 3+ times during every sex scene. I mean, pop off, but are you kidding? It got the the point where it was just so unbelievable. He would just touch her and she would explode. 🙄
While there’s some kink, it’s pretty damn light compared to what I expected from everyone else’s reviews. I didn't mind what they did. Some of it was hot. But I also wasn't impressed considering everyone was saying this was Ali Hazelwood's best smut yet. I definitely think it has the most smut, but is it the best? No.
Not as important of a note but still, the amount of times the EM dash, parenthesis, and ellipses are used annoyed me. How is this not cut during editing?
I don't know guys, this really was a miss for me. Sadly I haven't enjoyed the last three Ali Hazelwood books so I might just have to throw the towel in. Love, Theoretically is still my favorite. PS: Beautiful paperback. Love the art and sprayed edges.