"Because loving someone was worth the risk. We didn’t know our days and we couldn’t control our histories. But we had here. We had now."
This was a 10/5 for me. I literally just finished the book and I’m feeling all the things, so I wanted to write this now. Some books can’t be mulled over. Some books can only be felt. This book was exactly that for me, so much that it’s hard to describe it.
I love AL Jackson’s writing style. I love that it’s almost as if you’re reading someone’s diary, or seeing someone’s thoughts on paper. There’s nothing quite like it. It pulled me in from the first paragraph.
"I’d known after Trent Lawson I would never be the same. What I hadn’t expected was for him to write himself on my soul. For him to become the beat of my heart and the blood in my veins."
Trent is freaking EVERYTHING! I can’t begin to tell you how much I loved him as a character, as a man, as a father. Yes, he has his demons, and yes, his past is full of heart-wrenching moments. And yes, of course, the man is hotter than hell, and he’s guarded and growly, which makes him even more perfect. But what’s really perfect about him is his heart, and how big and wonderful it really is.
"A woman who is a treasure. So kind strangers can’t help but smile when she walks into a room, so gorgeous she still nearly drops me to my knees every time I see her. A woman who steals every single one of my breaths."
Eden is so sweet, so gracious, so perfect. So good you’d think she and Trent could never, would never, fit in. But there’s this strength about her, the kind of strength you get when you’ve been through your own personal hell. And that strength shines the brightest in this story, and brings everything together.
Let me say that I loved the way Ms. Jackson described her eyes, autumn eyes, like the colors of autumn blended into one. So poetic, and yet so detailed.
"He deserves someone who will see him for who he really is, Eden. Not for what he’s done."
A family situation leads Eden to Trent’s bar to ask for a job. Then and there, you can see the chemistry between them. And you can see them running away from it, like it’s a fire that can really incinerate them both. When it turns out Eden is his son’s kindergarten teacher, it’s almost like there’s something pushing them together. Like it’s meant to be.
You want them to be together. You can see it, clear as day, that they're not opposites, light and day, but perfect for each other.
"And I didn’t care if I fell into his darkness. Just as long as he met me there."
It was hard to see the flashbacks of Trent’s past, but necessary to fully understand who he is. It was heartbreaking to see him think he’s undeserving of anything good or forgiveness, and seeing that he deserves the world. Or at least a shot of happiness, of some light seeping through the cracks.
"I think he would burn the world to the ground for me."
I loved this all-encompassing love, like they can’t live without each other, even when they’re still fighting it. It’s so obvious, so present, so... just there. The love between Trent and his brothers, and his son. The love between Eden and her father. It felt like everything that was added to this story had a purpose.
The suspense only adds to it all, and takes nothing away from the love story going on.
"I want to be right."
"You’re everything."
He exhaled. "You and me?"
"Forever," I answered.
Trent’s heart was dead. Eden’s heart was numb. Turns out they both needed to be given a reason to live, to love, to exist. That reason was each other.
Perfect.