This manga has left me highly stunned, my mouth fell open more than once reading through the 15 volumes. Plenty of panels that are absolutely amazing, not only for the art itself which improved a lot since chapter 1 till the chapter 55, but for all the information, descriptions, complexity of characters and trauma representations.
Reading Nakoshi’s journey of discovering the meaning of life and what makes us human beings was mind blowing. At first I thought this would be the story of an individual who lost the connection with his life, recovering it through helping others with their own, but it wasn’t like that at all.
Nakoshi wasn’t an external element in other people’s life, it was his life, his story, his life experiences resolution through a big related chain to other people’s experiences. The Homunculus of these people were the only way Nakoshi had to face his decisions, his actions and opinions, and recover what he had lost.
I really thought Nakoshi would reach in the end the answers he was constantly searching and later on, the fulfillment of his desires about being an individual who wasn’t invisible for the people around him, after the awakening of his 6th sense. But even If he did in fact realized the true value of the interior and people’s heart, and specifically his, unfortunately his original inner desire became an unhealthy obsession for wanting what others received, and becoming what others wanted.
We could blame it on his low self-esteem since young and his insecurities not only for his looks but for his interior’s value. This leaded to him leaving behind everything related to his old life to start a new one: his appearance, his love, his family, his personality, and insecurities. As someone who was never capable of value others, nor seeing their true interiors and hearts, because he couldn’t see it in himself neither.
Nakoshi was a human being in the whole extension, able to feel regret and sorrow for others at the same time that being selfish and self centered, angered and bitter. He got his end, this time not looking for himself but someone else, desperation and madness converged in his mind, leaving nothing to rescue for him despite everything he achieved.
An ending charged with such realism that left me with a bitter taste for being accustomed to happy endings, but the end of the road was always clear since the beginning even when you as the reader, went through the story with him.
I would highly recommend reading this manga, even though I don’t think it’s for everyone.