I finally finished this book after falling asleep midway through almost every chapter! This is the second book in my life that I legitimately was going to DNF if I hadn’t bought it and committed to reading it for book club as part of my year of “reading things I would’ve never read otherwise”. But there is so much I disliked. It unfortunately is one of the worst books I’ve ever read, which was sad because love stories with power imbalances are my favorite. I apologize in advance because I’m aware my review is going to be bad and all over the place, quite like the story.
Let’s start with the misogyny, internalized and blatant. Not only from our female protagonist. The male protagonist and both their mothers all express highly misogynistic views at multiple points throughout the book. To name a few: Natasha is called a siren who “lures men into their undoing” in page 62 and is shamed for her choice in clothing. (I am attaching a small paragraph about this at the end of my review because it pissed me off). In page 94, we hear Aidan’s mom “raised him better” than to have a sex life or be romantically/sexually involved with actresses and models who they also shame but then it’s all ok when he explains he was using them to distract from his relationship with Haley (regardless of it being a lie… double standards much!?). In page 252, Haley worries she will end up an “old maid” for being in her 30s and unmarried (in 2024!?!?).
It’s the stereotypical “pick me” archetype: she is “better than other girls” because she is “pure”, eats pizza instead of salad (and never gains weight), prefers converse sneakers over heels and cardigans over revealing clothes. She loves coffee with tons of creamer and is a swiftie. She’s not like other girls!!! (Sarcasm, in case it’s not clear enough).
One of the main reasons that are given as to why Haley is “special” is her lack of sexual experience and low body count. As someone who identifies as demisexual (and maybe TMI but having very few intimate partners) I would never criticize or put anyone down for having different opinions about sex than I do, nor would I shame them for choosing to engage in sexual activity however they see fit, no matter the gender. It is disappointing to see such clear slut shaming in books released in 2024.
Every couple of pages we read how little Haley thinks of herself. It’s a constant pity party, despite the book actually acknowledging that she fulfills societal expectations of beauty. And I’m all for unlikeable characters and of course low self esteem can happen to anyone, but I would want it to be well written. It was not. We find out the reasons to her insecurities but they’re very surface level and extremely repetitive. All characters across the board are hardly developed.
The romantic connection also lacked depth. An acquaintance described their love as juvenile and it’s the best way to express the feelings they have for each other. It all sounds like two 14 year olds falling in love. But they’re in their 30s. Their lack of emotional awareness, maturity, communication skills, etc. doesn’t create the kind of conflict that pulls you in but rather has you cringe.
And the whole thing reads like fan fiction, both the content and the structure. Natasha Davis left Aidan for Isaac Sommers, her costar in a vampire show. As in Nina Dobrev and Ian Somerhalder from The Vampire Diaries? It’s as if I wrote a book about a mom and daughter duo and named them Morelei and Mory Milmore and calling it “The Milmore Young Women”. Lol.
I already described the book as repetitive but it also applies to the actual writing. One of the many examples is in page 263: a string of sentences start with the phrase “in a way”, followed by starting another string of sentences with the phrase “a man who”. I usually don’t mind some purple prose, and even prefer very detailed descriptions, but in this case it was just boring and bland.
I need to give this its own paragraph, from page 167: “This whole night has been torture not being able to throw an afghan blanket over this total babe of a woman and tell the rest of the world to back off-she is all mine. No one else should look at her like I am looking at her…” (I honestly don’t mind a dark romance that explores objectification and other kinks but that is not what this story was. Please refer to the quote I mentioned I would attach to the end of my review.)
Finally, what’s up with the assaults addressed so casually!? First, Haley’s best friend kisses Aidan without his consent. They brush it off cause she’s so quirky and intense. And then Natasha does the same to Aidan and he gets dumped for it. And, as if the pain of being dumped after being assaulted wasn’t enough, HALEY REQUIRES HIM TO MAKE IT UP TO HER!? Yes, he should’ve set a boundary (and he was aware of it and apologized) but the matter was dealt with in such an immature and even victim blame-y way. This is a complicated issue that had so much potential to bring depth to the story and touch on, for example, the lack of support men get after going through abuse but of course it wasn’t developed. The ending felt painfully long but simultaneously rushed.
(Revealing clothes don't sexualize you, in the same way that modest clothes don't desexualize you. Patriarchy sexualizes you. Misogyny sexualizes you. Sexism sexualizes you. They just blame it on your clothes to blame YOU for THEIR sexualization of you, and to control what you're wearing. The mini-skirt is not the cause of sexualization, and the hijab hasn't stopped it. Wear whatever you f—-ing want, but don't ever wear the burden of oppression. The systemic sexualization of women is never about the clothes. Never was. Never will be. -Farida D)