Caution: contains some spoilers
This adorable YA sapphic romance stars Nav, a girl who is out and proud, a little rough and messy around the edges, and a major flirt. Nav doesn;t do relationships, but she does give really good advice, especially for her bi best friend Hallie. Hallie is known to pursue the bad boys and complicated girls, so when Nav is approached by the shy and adorably awkward Gia, who is interested in dating Hallie, Nav agrees to give her lessons in romance so that Halllie can finally date one of the good ones.
But what Nav comes to find out is that Gia is not just painfully awkward, but she is so anxious that she can’t even talk to most people. Even though Gia can’t order for herself, can’t begin to even talk about her crush on Hallie, and basically feels anxious everywhere she goes, she somehow starts to feel comfortable around Nav. Nav listens and respects her boundaries, pushes her out of her comfort zone, challenges her fears, lays in her lap while she plays video games, and even goes over to her house and takes care of her when she is sick. And not to mention her therapy dog absolutely loves her and nobody has ever gotten that close to Gia especially after knowing about her anxiety. The more time Nav spends with Gia, the more she starts to realize that maybe she doesn’t know as much about love as she thought and maybe she is worthy of more than just a one night stand.
I absolutely loved following Nav on her journey of love and how amazingly patient and understanding she was with Gia. Nav’s arc from typical confident flirt to unselfishly putting Gia’s feelings above her own was so well developed and heartfelt. Nav’s reasons for wanting to attend camp with Hallie aligned well with her struggle not to feel left behind or abandoned by someone who meant alot to her. I definitely admired that at such a young age Nav was able to adapt to Gia’s anxiety so well and not try and fix her but rather work on ways for Gia to improve her life even with her anxiety. Nav’s up and down relationship with her dad felt extremely real and progressed beautifully, especially the fact that they were both going to therapy and working on becoming better for each other despite their past trauma. I think Gia and Nav were so good together because they both in a way were able to see the best in each other and help one another get through their own kind of grief and hurt.
Gia was just so cute and adorable, just like her therapy corgi Jordan. As someone who also struggles with anxiety I really appreciated how well her anxiety journey was handled. It was made all the sweeter that Nav seemed to immediately know what she needed and what her triggers were, especially when she was getting overwhelmed or uncomfortable. Nav didn't push or force her to do anything but rather guided her and encouraged her to see things from a different perspective and trust herself. Seeing her slowly break out of her shell and begin to let Nav in was truly remarkable and so heartwarming. It completely broke my heart hearing how her family had treated her and her anxiety and how it forced her and her mom to move away. I really loved Gia’s mom though even though I think she shouldn’t have left Gia alone so much, she was so sweet and you could tell how grateful and appreciative she was of Nav being able to be such a great person for Gia. As a couple, Nav and Gia were just so darn cute together you couldn’t help but root for them. Even though of course I wish they had kissed and realized their feelings a lot sooner, it fit the storyline well, especially with not rushing Gia into an unrealistic situation.
In terms of side characters, I think they were all well written and given the right amount of depth and backstory needed to feel connected to them. Hallie’s character was especially interesting, given her disaster relationship history, and the closeness of her and Nav. The only thing I would have liked to know more about was how Hallie’s mom was apparently best friends with Nav’s mom but it didn't seem like she did much to try and talk Nav’s mom out of leaving them. You could definitely relate to Hallie and Nav’s friendship and how even though you can fight with the ones you love, you can still overcome it and be there for one another. I also appreciated how they were both queer and how well their families accepted them. Again, the side plot with Nav and her father navigating their grief together and learning how to love and respect each other again was extremely special and added a lot of emotional depth to the story.
Overall, for a YA, this story shocked me with its amazing mental health and anxiety representation, tremendous amount of character development, and of course, the inspiring romance between a girl struggling to live the life she desperately seeks, and one who declared herself a romance expert and yet, never realized how someone could fall in love with her.
Thank you NetGalley for the early digital copy for review.