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192 pages, Paperback
Published March 4, 2025
I will always be there.
When the silence is exhumed.
When the photographs are examined
I will be pictured smiling
among siblings, parents,
nieces and nephews.
In the background of the photographs:
the hazy smoke of barbecue,
a checkered red and white tablecloth
laden with blackened chicken,
glistening ribs, paper plates,
bottles of beer and pop.
In the photos,
the smallest children
are always held by their parents.
My arms are always empty, or around
the shoulders of unsuspecting aunts
expecting to throw rice at me someday.
Or picture tinsel, candles,
ornamented imitation trees,
or another table, this one
set for Thanksgiving,
a turkey steaming the lens.
My arms are empty
in those photos, too,
so empty they would break
around a lover.
I am always there
for the critical emergencies,
graduations,
the middle of the night.
I am the invisible son.
In the family photographs
nothing appears out of character.
I smile as I serve my duty
I have been in the bathroom weeping
as silently as I could.
I don’t want to alarm
the other young men.
It wasn’t always this way.
I used to grin.
I used to dance.
The streets weren’t always
sick with blood,
sick with drugs.
My life seems to be
marked down
for quick removal
from the shelf.
When I stand
on the front lines now,
cussing the lack of truth,
the absence of willful change
and strategic coalitions,
I realize sewing quilts
will not bring you back
nor save us.
It’s too soon
to make monuments
for all we are losing,
for the lack of truth
as to why we are dying,
who wants us dead,
what purpose does it serve?
Why is the world always easier to fix
than our own homes?
Trying not to think of you
yet your face colors
every contour
of my mind.
And every way I turn
inside of a minute
I collide
with your laughter.
I am wind,
and you
are chimes.