At this point, i’m just repeating myself but Onley James was previously my favourite author and had been for years, so I will always read her newest books hoping that I fall in love with one of them again.
The trigger warning of this book read and I quote Trigger warning: This book contains graphic descriptions of past physical and sexual abuse as well as gratuitous violence against bad people who totally deserve it.
So please tell me why I got to chapter 14 of this book and was balling my eyes out due to how traumatized I was because I read about Ever (one of the main character) who gets graphically assaulted on page by a random person, in the present tense, there is nothing past about this scene. And it’s quite graphic and detailed and we’re in Ever’s head the entire time, feeling how much it traumatizes him. Seriously, where is the trigger warning for that? This scene triggered me so much that I was shaking and trembling for hours after I read it, which is really not cool. The fact that this wasn’t indicated everywhere is just something that should never happen to me. I can’t even tell you how traumatizing this scene was to read for me, expecially since I wasn’t warned that it would happen to begin with.
Anyway, if we talk about the rest of this book. I don’t have much to say. This follows the same formula that Onley James has used for the last 5 books that she wrote, and that formula just does not really work for me, so it also didn’t work for me in this book. Onley James wrote atleast 4 of my favourite books of all time, so it’s very tragic to me that I just came to found her books very boring and unspired. This book brought nothing new to the table, it had no new flavour or anything. It was the same old character archetypes, the same old romance that is barely on page because half of the book is taken up by a crime plot that I frankly just do not really care about. And the same side plot were all of the side characters in this series adopt like 20 kids in a row, which let me remind you that these people are psychopaths, so maybe this isn’t the best idea of all time. And I just don’t get why all of the new Onley James book imply that you have to have kids and get married to be happy, it just feels so wrong and icky to me, it seems like we’re stuck in 1980 if we’re honest.
Also, Arsen spends a lot of this book acting like he is better than Ever and knowns what Ever wants sexually more than Ever could, because Ever was asaulted before, so he can’t know when he wants to have sex, so Arsen decides to pick for him and controls that for him. Which just felt very icky to me, I did not appreciate reading about that at all. This sounds like victim blaming that would have been in books released in 2013, which is not a good look considering how toxic these books were. Plus, this just makes it sound like Arsen thinks that Ever has no agency and power, which is just not a good look for a partner to do to you and is frankly very controlling.
Also, in a previous book, Onley James was adament that two of her couples (Avi and Felix and Asa and Zane) were separated couples and would never get into a foursome, but she wrote scenes about them being in a foursome that are only available on her patreon when you pay for them, and now she keeps showing these guys as an established foursome and not the monogamous couples that they were in their previous books, which is very confusing and hard to follow if we’re honest.
Also, i’m pretty sure that this book has more cameos from other Onley James characters than scenes between Ever and Arsen, which is probably a good thing since I can’t say that I was that interested in their scenes to begin with.
This book just felt like a copy and paste of the last 5 Onley James books to me and that wasn’t a good thing for me as I didn’t really like any of them. Plus this book barely contained any sex scenes, which is the one thing that Onley James always does right, so I didn’t even that pull going for me, which is just tragic at this point.
And also, if we could please add a trigger warning for the graphic assault scene that is in the present time and on page, I would very much appreciate that, cause I really feel like thats needed!
Also I just want to add, since people have been saying that this book does not contain assault because Ever is only brutally slammed into a wall and a random guy puts his hand in Ever’s pants, without his consent. Here is the definition of assault and groping, which is a also a crime, straight from the internet: Where does groping fall under the law? Criminal groping, also known as forcing touching or fondling, is defined […] as touching the sexual or intimate body parts of a person without their consent. Groping may include non-consensual touching, squeezing, pinching, or grabbing of the private parts of another individual. There does not need to be penetration for it to be assault, this scene was clearly assault in itself.