hello hello my dear ellynators (copying jane and giving y'all a name).🤭I read this, not only because im a whore for new releases, but also because it is advertised to be very “John Tucker must die”-retelling/vibes (which it is) and I LOVEEEEE that movie with a burning passion❤️🔥idk something about girls uniting to take down disgusting men is so empowering to me!🥺
this book was... NOT bad. I truly enjoyed some things, but obviously not enough to give it more than two stars...... I wanna dig in and explain how I felt about this book and why I rated it the way I did!🤫
WRITING
MHMMMMM... idk what to say cause frankly the writing felt sort of flat to me??? I was bored in the beginning, than got hooked at about 30% in and was bored again when we reached about 60%... I felt like the conversations and action were quite repetitive and I just couldn't get that hooked to the story.🥴
what i admire about the writing (or more so message) about this book, was how Reyes showed, how important consent is when doing the nasty / when doing anything at all! the topics tackled in this are very relevant and I love how it was incorporated in this story. (if you read this please check the trigger warnings beforehand)
PLOT
this is where I struggled.😞
as I said before, "John Tucker must die" might be one of my favourite movies ever, because I loved the dynamic between the characters and the girls teaming up to take down a man.
I loved the idea of this book, especially because it isn't just a retelling of the movie, but also calls out rapists and the effect they have on people. I also "liked" how the rape was excused as "its not like she can say no", meaning the selective mutism of the mc sort of "blocked" her from talking and saying she doesn't want to sleep with him. Consent is very necessary, and just because she doesn't say the words, does not mean she wanted it! The person she slept with was aware of it, which is why he kind of bragged about her not even being able to refuse him. 🙄😞
HOWEVER, while the core idea of this plot was what rlly got me to read, I must say I was kind of dissatisfied with the development of it.... the beginning was quite slow and it took about 30% to "assemble" the group, but I didn't loose hope then yet! I got hooked right when they met and truly believed id love this book... sadly, as I said about the writing, the plot felt flat to me and the "revenge arc" didn't last as long as I excepted. Other stuff, as the dance competition, happened instead, which obviously added to the romance?😅
I also felt like the parents side plot and their struggles didn't add much to the story... like I know it was there to add to Arianas character and her problems, but I feel like the r*pe was already enough to deal with and the parents side plot was just kinda unnecessary and took away a lot of pages that could've been spent on foccussing on how Ariana felt about what happened to her and how she feels about it...🫠
CHARACTERS
okay props to the diverse friend group! not only did they have various ethnicities, but there were also characters struggling with certain disabilities. The main character, a neurodivergent (autistic) girl, that struggles with selective mutism! Ive read books with autistic mcs before, but I never read about selective mutism, and I fear I didn't even know that much about it... im glad the author incorporated this into the story, since not many books do that and it is a struggle a lot of people have to live with on the daily!
While there was so much about Ariana and her struggles, I just couldn't get connected to the other characters, since it felt like I barely got to know them (not even the love interest). I feel like I learned more about Arianas parents and their feelings, than about the friends... While I did like how occasionally we got to see a bit about them, like Angel being neurodivergent aswell, and Jasmine being worried about how others would feel about her and Luis, I just felt like I didn't learn enough about them to form any opinion on them, if that makes sense... like they were sort of... just there?☹️
RELATIONSHIPS
okay first of, the people that know me also know found family is my all time favourite trope. I started this expecting that, and it DID give me that. A friend group, so different from each other, sharing one "common enemy" and bonding through their individual experiences with him! I wished we could've seen more of the individual relationships in the group and their development...
I loved Ariana and Angel bonding over how they're both neurodivergent, but I just wished I saw this kind of bonding between the other relationships too..😞
I did really like how supportive and understanding everyone was about Arianas disorder! for example, Angel giving her a fidget spinner and making sure she knows its okay to be stimulating, or Shawni always having paper and pen ready, so Ariana can participate in conversations and feels included!😭
I just wish the individual relationships were explored more idk...
I also didn't feel much attachment about the main ship, Shawni and Ariana. I can't really tell what the reason behind this is, but maybe I just didn't like the romance subplot kind of taking over the main "revenge" plot and therefore didn't even give Ariana the break to figure out who she is for herself, before jumping right back into the next romance (don't get me wrong, I believe Shawni is right for her, but maybe not at this time, as Ariana is still "healing/processing" what happened with Luis and her).🤫
FINAL WORDS
I don't really know what to say... like I LOVE the idea of this book, but I just couldn't get attached and everything felt flat to me... I feel like I won't even remember the names of the characters in this book by the end of the year, which shows my attachment to them...😭😭
Its not a bad book overall, like I don't hate it, I was just very bored reading this, but I do think others might enjoy this a lot more than I did!😙🫶🏽