4⭐️
"The sole reason for my existence is to know you. In this life, in the next...it doesn't matter."
This was so messy, chaotic, and toxic...and I loved it. I've been reading quite a few second-chance romances lately and it's safe to say that this was not a disappointment.
I really enjoyed the characters in this book. We go through a linear timeline of when Alina, the FMC, is a child and encounters her first love and, well, everything to when she's in her late 20's. Even from the very beginning she was such a light in a dark world. She is battling against so many things between friendship, love, and family and it shows throughout the book just how STRONG this woman is. Chase is along that same wavelength. As a child, he was super immature and made many mistakes. But going through his life into his late 20's as well was such a journey. I have never, EVER read of a man that loved as fiercely as he did with Alina.
I'll live the rest of my life crazy, as long as I get to be crazy for her.
This book I would say is 99% character driven, so the plot is basically going through Chase and Alina's lives and their hardships. I'm not gonna lie, the beginning of the book wasn't my favorite. I think that was because of the way that Chase was treating Alina when they were teenagers. Their relationship was so toxic and it was hard to root for them...
Then I thought to myself..."Aeryn, you didn't care for it because the same thing happened to YOU when you were a teenager, except you never got your happy ending like they did." And it struck. Hard. In real life, I was Alina as she was in this book. I related to her relationship and family struggles just as she had gone through. The things Alina and Chase went through were raw and real. Yes, the beginning could be a bit annoying cause you're sitting there screaming OH MY GOD WOULD YOU JUST ACT LIKE AN ADULT? Then you realize these are children falling in love and making mistakes just as we had when we were younger.
Overall, this really gave Joey and Aoife vibes from Boys of Tommen. The struggle of addiction and love and family were very very similar and I think that's another reason why I liked it so much. While writing this review, I realize that a lot of people aren't going to like this as I did. They'll interpret the toxic relationship and family issues their own way and THAT'S OKAY! The relatability to Alina really shaped how I viewed this book so please keep in mind this book will not be for everyone as it was for me!! 💙
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I'm currently on a romance kick since I'm in the middle of way too many fantasy books 😭💙✨