This book was so unique in so many ways. The author was so creative with the plot and the characters, I've never read anything quite like it. I loved that it focused on platonic love instead of romantic. I read it in one day, I just couldn't get enough.
I really cared about the characters and found them very intriguing. They were so fleshed out and felt so real, so human. Carmel was such an interesting person, I loved getting to know the different aspects of her and her getting to know herself and her sexuality. I thought she was a great representation of asexuality and aromanticity. Remy, not so much. At first I found him quite lovable and sweet, but as the book went on, I felt less connected to him. I think there should have been more moments to show his selfless side. I think his insecurities were pointed out too often in too similar ways, but I understand that's a big part of him and it consumes him. I really liked that he owned up to his mistakes, it's unfortunately rare in modern novels. I didn't like, however, how quickly he fell for Carmel, but the author pulled it off very well, including the explanation of the reason why he caught feelings so quickly.
The friendgroup reminds me so much of Casey McQuiston, one of my favourite authors. Emma Smith, just like McQuiston, writes this beautiful friendgroups with dynamic and authentic bonds that I absolutely adore. I'm a big fan of wholesome friendships in books, I prefer them to romance, so this aspect made me love this book so much more. I loved how the characters were so individual, but also connected, like real people are. My favourite was Lily, which isn't surprising, my favourites are often side characters, though I felt a little setback during the plot twist, if I could call it that.
During the second half of the book, I began thinking it was a little underwhelming, but then the action picked up. It just wasn't the right moment that I thought the story was building up to. It felt really good how everything wrapped up, the whole story made so much sense.
I'll definitely be picking up more of Emma Smith's books, this one was great and I'm sure I'll enjoy the murder mysteries even more!