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This is my first time reading Denise Williams, and I am sad to say this was a major miss for me. Sybil is one of the most unlikable FMCs I've read in a very long time, and I was hoping to relate to her. We're both Black, plus-sized, and the youngest sibling who is underestimated and invalidated by family members. However, Sybil was impulsive, selfish (chronically late, which is selfish), and extremely crude. I'm not a saint and I swear quite a bit, but Sybil's sense of humor very much gave "Deadpool is my favorite movie of all time." in that it was very immature, poorly-timed, and seemed to serve as a wall she erected between herself and others to keep them from getting to know her particularly well. She was also a little bit of a bum and never took accountability for how all of these things made her experience the consequences of her actions, instead falling into a "womp, womp, I guess my family is right and I AM a loser" headspace that got old very quickly. I was thrown off by the sudden assertion that her behavior was explained by a diagnosis at the end of the novel; it felt very clunky. I'm also noticing a trend where Black characters are being written in a way that Blackness doesn't impact their day-to-day, and I'm not saying Sybil needed to get pulled over by the cops, but I'm also not sure why Black characters are suddenly being written this way.
Kieran was a mean stick in the mud with a stick up his butt who stressed every moment of every single day and spoke to Sybil absolutely crazy at times. I didn't find him likable, believable as a love interest, or supportive of Sybil in any way. He was very much just floundering around his life and blaming everyone and his circumstances for why he couldn't return to medical school, but he ultimately didn't seem like he ever wanted to take that path seriously in the first place. His grandfather and the grandfather's best friend were my favorite characters in this story, hands-down!
The overall narrative wasn't super compelling. The lottery aspect was decentered then recentered at very odd moments, the donut shop was a very uninteresting background to most of the scenes, and the side characters seemed to only exist to give the narrative something to hold onto. None of the characters are described particularly well in a way that makes it easy to imagine what they look like or what behaviors are common for them to display, so I overall felt quite disconnected from literally all of the characters as well. Sybil's mother was cruel but it's presented as her being caring; since she was underdeveloped she felt very sinister at times and I ended up feeling anxious whenever she was in a scene.
This just wasn't for me. While some of the moments were cute and the overall writing in terms grammar, syntax, etc. is digestible and accessible, I didn't care for the writing style, the characters, or the plot. Also, as a personal aside, I *really* want authors to stop mentioning Elon Musk/Tesla and Taylor Swift in their books omg.
2.5 ⭐️s
2 🌶️
🚨 Pub Date: 3/25/25