I knew I'd love this from the beginning, because it's just so utterly weird and freaky and my brain loves that most of all. But it also really got to me emotionally at the end in a very powerful way. I didn't personally need this disclaimer, but I have a feeling a lot of people might: around 80% of this book is worldbuilding and the rest is plot (but a lot more story than that, y'know?), but it did something powerful to me that, even if this alternate world where miracles are real (which is a highly inadequate way to describe it) is familiar, it kept tilting my perspective while reading, keeping me on a moving line between this familiar and the strange. I loved being along for the ride.
I lost track of the symbolism a lot of times, but the feeling itself of reading was just such a fun ride, that I very soon stopped trying to make all the sense of it. Cause that's the point, isn't it? Trying to regiment and bureaucratize mysteries and feelings, and losing them in the process. I loved poor, depressed Jennie and felt for her deeply, especially since she didn't fit in and she craved to experience the raw mysteries at the heart of the world.
And then, of course, so much frrrreaky weirdness, gender fuckery, somewhat recognizable rituals and metaphors. I've been talking about the Founders Urinal for the past week with anyone who'd listen. I tried to explain this book to people, but I've been absolutely unable to, and isn't that just thematically relevant? Just like a miracle, it's something to be experienced, because if you hear about it, you might roll your eyes at it. I can't stop thinking about this moment when a spiritual cop (very queer / lesbian-coded) comes for a sort of investigation and is just so casually tender with her healer co-worker guy who is wearing a dress. It's not a big moment, but the image of it is burned in my head.
I'd say the big issue with this book is that it's very 'colorblind', in the sense that there's 0 talk of race, but one weird out-of-nowhere racist comment regarding Chinese food that I found baffling, somewhere around 60%, and just a few pages after it there was an ableist simile. Tough spot in the book, for sure. Other than that, the book doesn't really cover marginalization. It seems to be a queer-norm world, where women are casually mentioned to have girlfriends and at some point some men kiss. I don't know how focusing on issues of marginalization would have changed the book (it's definitely a commentary on the allegedly post-feminist, post-racist era, but not in very clear terms), but I can't wait to discuss this at book club.
Also, can't believe I managed to finish this the day before book club, it's been so long since that's happened. Super excited to read the next book and anything I can find by Pollack.