I had seen Sanctify around here and there, almost strictly due to my involvement with other comics from The Yaoi Army. Naturally, I thought it was one of their originals, so I was surprised to find that they're only the English translators for it. My first shock was how amazing the art was. The Yaoi Army has good artists, yes, but this artist... was in another league, somehow. A cut above the rest. So to find that TYA were only translating it and distributing it in NA but not the creators was...surprising yet not shocking. It also made sense considering how differently this comic felt from the rest. This one is certainly darker, and its "yaoi" themes are far more integrated into the story itself in a manner that feels entirely natural. With yaoi (and yuri, respectively) almost always there is emphasis placed on the fact that it is indeed gay, almost like a "don't forget, we're special because we're gay!" sort of thing. I have fun with that, yes, but it definitely gives them all one specific flavor. Kind of like Taco Bell. Yeah, you can get all sorts of different things off their menu, but no matter what you get, it all tastes uniquely like Taco Bell.
But this... Sanctify treats its yaoi elements like it's nothing special, nothing unusual, it's merely one of the core parts of the story, and while the homosexual and its implications is wholly recognized, it is not focused on, panicked over, nor emphasized. I admire that greatly, and honestly, I enjoyed it far more than I ever would have imagined I would. But. Despite starting the story half for the yaoi half for the other themes, that is not my main focus here.
Lance, the exorcist, our protagonist, has seen so much hardship in his life... It really is something very unfortunate. Even more sadly, it seems that he, and the cop who seems to be unnaturally drawn to him, Gillbert, were the two oldest children involved in the case that Lance is investigating right now. I truly think that they may be the reincarnations of those two children.
It seems that in this world, you can receive the powers of exorcism from god if it was your wish in your past life. It seems to me that the sweeter one, Gilbert, made that as his dying wish, likely to avoid a tragedy like this ever again. And then the rougher one, Lucian I think?, his soul seems to have traversed hell, made a contract with a demon, and has been reborn with demonic powers fueled by hatred and rage, so that he may exact his revenge.
Though... It is very possible that the rougher boy is Lance, and that the cop Gillbert is the sweeter boy, also named Gilbert... They swore to protect each other, the rougher boy a bit more fervently than the other. Yet, in the end, they both failed to protect each other, though it does seem that they died together. Awfully enough, all thirty victims were gruesomely tortured to death in order to make the sacrifice... Oh, yes, but I left out that I have suspicions that the cop is the killer that they're all looking for. This killer in particular isn't the culprit behind the case of the thirty murders in the orphanage but rather someone is going around killing all of the men involved (and their families) responsible for that tragedy. With every chapter, my suspicions grow stronger, but I'm saddened because the more plain it becomes that the cop truly is the culprit, the more sad the story of these two becomes. Lance absolutely hates The Fallen (the spirits reborn with demonic powers and a thirst for revenge), and Gillbert seems to harbor a deep love and affection for Lance, wanting nothing but to take care of him and protect him, and he seems to admire everything Lance does. Not only that, but he's drawn to him in a way he seems to only slowly be figuring out himself, drawn especially to all of Lance's scars which carried over from his past life into this one. Likely all of the scars that one boy had to watch the other boy receive as he were tortured to death...
Lance is really beginning to open up to Gillbert too, he's even feeling blissful. I truly want that bliss to last, but if my suspicions are true... it might not. I hope that Gillbert can be saved, and I hope that the two of them can have a new chance together again, and that they won't be torn apart again in this life too. That is to say... if they truly are the reincarnations of those two boys (by now though, I'd say that's obviously true, though I still wonder which is which...)
P.S. I forgot to mention that I was reading every chapter before bed each night, and for as much as I love this series, it really did change something in me reading it so close to bed like that, and while so tired and emotionally and mentally vulnerable. I began having dreams about demons and things just in general a lot like what was depicted in this story. In the back of my mind, every day, I was a little afraid for all I've done. I've always been pretty in tune with the spirits and I have made contact with demons and other similar things before. I've also dabbled in black magic. Sacrifice is the only place where I drew the line.
Eight years of having given up my religion that I chose for myself before kindergarten, and this comic may have given me what I needed to believe again.
I am afraid of what may come find me someday before or after I die because of the things I have done, but this has also helped me to realize that what I do is real and I should take it seriously, and that there is something holy to balance everything dark, and neither began as holy nor sinful. Everything was something else before it became what it is now. Before there was light or dark, there was nothing, and yet that nothing became what it is now.
Also, I visited God's Station's website and she has really cool background music for her Sanctify art display, Ore Three Is An Orgy, Four Is Forever——Ordo Rosarius Equilibrio. It does suit it well.