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At First Smile
Disability advocate Pen Meadows is on a mission; grab a breakfast sandwich, find her gate, and listen to her smutty audiobook. Only, the sexy, tall man in front of her at Tim Hortons may prove a worthwhile distraction. His soft Irish lilt and mix of gruff sweetness make Rowan Iverson unlike any man she’s ever met. After a brief meet/cute, and even briefer goodbye, the social media influencer ends up seated beside Rowan on a cross-country flight.
Rowan Iverson desperately wants to get back to Los Angeles without calling further attention to himself. A potentially career-ending incident at hockey’s biggest game could transform the NHL’s top defenseman into its most hated player. The last thing he wants is for his mess to trip up Pen. A mid-flight detour forces him to realize that his goal to resist her bright smile may be a game he’s already lost.
Back in the reality of their jobs and lives in Los Angeles, Pen learns that the man she’d spent one incredible night with isn’t who she thought. He’s a player and Pen doesn’t play games, especially when her heart is at stake. Can Rowan prove to Pen that he is who he wants to be…just hers?
Rowan Iverson desperately wants to get back to Los Angeles without calling further attention to himself. A potentially career-ending incident at hockey’s biggest game could transform the NHL’s top defenseman into its most hated player. The last thing he wants is for his mess to trip up Pen. A mid-flight detour forces him to realize that his goal to resist her bright smile may be a game he’s already lost.
Back in the reality of their jobs and lives in Los Angeles, Pen learns that the man she’d spent one incredible night with isn’t who she thought. He’s a player and Pen doesn’t play games, especially when her heart is at stake. Can Rowan prove to Pen that he is who he wants to be…just hers?
381 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 1, 2024
About the author
Melissa Whitney
12 books101 followersWith a name like Melissa Whitney she had two choices become a Real Housewife or a romance author. Sorry Andy Cohen, she's chose romance!
A Jane Austen fangirl, Melissa hails from Western New York, but currently lives in Southern California with her husband and rescue pugs. When she's not brewing the perfect cup of tea, hunting for a delicious pastry, or traveling with her husband, she's writing swoony and steamy romance novels.
Melissa explores themes of disability, mental health, trauma, grief/loss, and family in her emotionally heartfelt and comedic stories. She often says, "Life isn't a romcom nor a high drama. It's somewhere in-between and so are my stories." As a legally blind woman and trauma survivor, Melissa taps into her own lived experience and her masters in social work to craft thoughtful/sensitive stories that delve into deeper themes, while still offering the swoon, steam, and humor that make us fall in love with a good romance.
A Jane Austen fangirl, Melissa hails from Western New York, but currently lives in Southern California with her husband and rescue pugs. When she's not brewing the perfect cup of tea, hunting for a delicious pastry, or traveling with her husband, she's writing swoony and steamy romance novels.
Melissa explores themes of disability, mental health, trauma, grief/loss, and family in her emotionally heartfelt and comedic stories. She often says, "Life isn't a romcom nor a high drama. It's somewhere in-between and so are my stories." As a legally blind woman and trauma survivor, Melissa taps into her own lived experience and her masters in social work to craft thoughtful/sensitive stories that delve into deeper themes, while still offering the swoon, steam, and humor that make us fall in love with a good romance.
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October 8, 2024
Disability representation? SAY NO MORE!
This book was…amazing. I read it in less than a day, it was that good! The representation of a blind woman (both the author and FMC) and the struggles that are faced as a disabled person both in the public environment (day-to-day) and also privately with oneself. I always love to see more mental health and disability representation in books, and this was done so perfectly, I literally could not stop reading!
Disability advocate Pen Meadows is on a mission: grab a breakfast sandwich, find her gate, and listen to her smutty audiobook. Then she meets Rowan, a man who doesn’t just see her disability.
Rowan Iverson desperately wants to get back to Los Angeles without calling further attention to himself. A mid-flight detour makes him realize that his goal to resist her bright smile may be a game he’s already lost.
Pen learns that the man she’d spent one incredible night with isn’t who she thought he was. He’s a player, and Pen doesn’t play games, especially when her heart is at stake. Can Rowan prove to Pen that he is who he wants to be…just hers?
I loved Pen and Rowan’s relationship. Sports romances are hilarious, and this did not disappoint. I could not stopp giggling, kicking my feet, or groaning (mostly at Rowan) throughout the book, and I was super invested in the relationship from the very first moment. The happy ending was a true happy ending, one that didn’t disappoint, and was a perfect way to end the story. Highly, HIGHLY recommend this read, especially if you need something to make your day a bit brighter!
Favorite quotes:
- “Good lord, perhaps I need to cut down on my dirty audiobooks”
- “Can someone be both adorable and fucking sexy as hell all at the same time?”
- “Gotta save those fucks for when I truly need them”
- “I never had a desire to be possessed or claimed by anyone”
- “You’re my man and I’m your girl”
- “In the darkness, I see so much but feel even more”
- “You’re a tenacious little bit of a pain in the ass, aren’t you?”
- “He stalked her like she was a trophy to possess rather than a queen to earn the privilege to be in the presence of”
- “Aunt Bea used to say good men with fuck or feed you, but great men will do both”
- “Love at first sight is a myth to sell romance novels, but your smile made me rethink everything”
This book was…amazing. I read it in less than a day, it was that good! The representation of a blind woman (both the author and FMC) and the struggles that are faced as a disabled person both in the public environment (day-to-day) and also privately with oneself. I always love to see more mental health and disability representation in books, and this was done so perfectly, I literally could not stop reading!
Disability advocate Pen Meadows is on a mission: grab a breakfast sandwich, find her gate, and listen to her smutty audiobook. Then she meets Rowan, a man who doesn’t just see her disability.
Rowan Iverson desperately wants to get back to Los Angeles without calling further attention to himself. A mid-flight detour makes him realize that his goal to resist her bright smile may be a game he’s already lost.
Pen learns that the man she’d spent one incredible night with isn’t who she thought he was. He’s a player, and Pen doesn’t play games, especially when her heart is at stake. Can Rowan prove to Pen that he is who he wants to be…just hers?
I loved Pen and Rowan’s relationship. Sports romances are hilarious, and this did not disappoint. I could not stopp giggling, kicking my feet, or groaning (mostly at Rowan) throughout the book, and I was super invested in the relationship from the very first moment. The happy ending was a true happy ending, one that didn’t disappoint, and was a perfect way to end the story. Highly, HIGHLY recommend this read, especially if you need something to make your day a bit brighter!
Favorite quotes:
- “Good lord, perhaps I need to cut down on my dirty audiobooks”
- “Can someone be both adorable and fucking sexy as hell all at the same time?”
- “Gotta save those fucks for when I truly need them”
- “I never had a desire to be possessed or claimed by anyone”
- “You’re my man and I’m your girl”
- “In the darkness, I see so much but feel even more”
- “You’re a tenacious little bit of a pain in the ass, aren’t you?”
- “He stalked her like she was a trophy to possess rather than a queen to earn the privilege to be in the presence of”
- “Aunt Bea used to say good men with fuck or feed you, but great men will do both”
- “Love at first sight is a myth to sell romance novels, but your smile made me rethink everything”
July 9, 2025
“It’s important to hold on to the things that keep us close to the people we love.”
This follows Penelope, who has always been seen as fragile by most people due to her disability. However, she enjoys proving to the world and her social media following that she can do anything. Just before catching a flight, she decides to help a stranger in line who didn’t have cash for food and drinks. This chance encounter changes everything and takes them on an unforgettable adventure.
I enjoyed this book and the representation of someone who is partially blind. It had a very insta-love and love-at-first-sight feel, but I didn’t mind it at all. Sometimes I don't enjoy those tropes, as I prefer the slow burn, but this was such a cute and beautiful read. Rowan, who has been dealing with bad press lately, falls hard and fast for Penelope. He loves how extraordinary she is and how different she is from everyone else. These two are meant to be together, and I loved reading their story. Also, Jojo and Gillian need a book immediately!
If you love:
🔹Sports (Hockey)
🔹Meet Cute
🔹Age Gap (6yrs)
🔹Hidden Identity
🔹Mutual Pining
🔹 Perfect Amount Of Spice
Genre/Type: Romance 18+
APK: Kindle ARC
Pages: 382
Rating: 🌟🌟🌟🌟
Spice: 🌶️🌶
Series or Stand Alone: Stand Alone
Tropes or Themes: Sports (Hockey), Meet Cute, Age Gap (6yrs), Hidden Identity, Love At First, Sight, Mutual Pining, Full Circle Moment, Visually Impared Rep, Stalking, Medical Content, Family Drama, Cursing, Sexual Content, Dirty Talk and Praise.
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This follows Penelope, who has always been seen as fragile by most people due to her disability. However, she enjoys proving to the world and her social media following that she can do anything. Just before catching a flight, she decides to help a stranger in line who didn’t have cash for food and drinks. This chance encounter changes everything and takes them on an unforgettable adventure.
I enjoyed this book and the representation of someone who is partially blind. It had a very insta-love and love-at-first-sight feel, but I didn’t mind it at all. Sometimes I don't enjoy those tropes, as I prefer the slow burn, but this was such a cute and beautiful read. Rowan, who has been dealing with bad press lately, falls hard and fast for Penelope. He loves how extraordinary she is and how different she is from everyone else. These two are meant to be together, and I loved reading their story. Also, Jojo and Gillian need a book immediately!
If you love:
🔹Sports (Hockey)
🔹Meet Cute
🔹Age Gap (6yrs)
🔹Hidden Identity
🔹Mutual Pining
🔹 Perfect Amount Of Spice
Genre/Type: Romance 18+
APK: Kindle ARC
Pages: 382
Rating: 🌟🌟🌟🌟
Spice: 🌶️🌶
Series or Stand Alone: Stand Alone
Tropes or Themes: Sports (Hockey), Meet Cute, Age Gap (6yrs), Hidden Identity, Love At First, Sight, Mutual Pining, Full Circle Moment, Visually Impared Rep, Stalking, Medical Content, Family Drama, Cursing, Sexual Content, Dirty Talk and Praise.
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October 13, 2024
What a wonderful rendition of what some one who is blind might go through on a daily basis as well as a relationship with some one who is legally blind
July 16, 2025
I really struggled with this book. I love the disability rep featured in this book! I especially love that it’s an “own voice” representation. We need more of that in all literature, but especially romance!
However, I really found the characters to be lacking depth, especially the MMC. The almost the entire book his entire personality is “big grumpy smitten man.” We all love a big grumpy smitten man, but that’s ALL he was. We finally got some depth with the conversation with his brother, but before that he just fell flat to me.
The instalove is STRONG with this one. It’s not my favorite trope and needs to be done really well for me to find it believable. Not the case here.
The FMC had a real big chip on her shoulder regarding her independence. I’m glad that in the end she recognized it but anytime the man who loved her and who she loved would try to help her (like an any partner would) she overreacted. I find this trope annoying in an able bodied FMC (the hyper independence) and it was also annoying in this case. Especially when the scenario is repeated over and over again.
A few editing issues - the use of “Old Fashion” instead of the correct term “Old Fashioned” made me twitch. If you aren’t super familiar with a topic or 100% sure about the name of something, please google it!
2.5 stars (rounded up to 3 for GR purposes) for the unique disability rep and the relationships with the side characters. However the main romance fell super flat for me.
However, I really found the characters to be lacking depth, especially the MMC. The almost the entire book his entire personality is “big grumpy smitten man.” We all love a big grumpy smitten man, but that’s ALL he was. We finally got some depth with the conversation with his brother, but before that he just fell flat to me.
The instalove is STRONG with this one. It’s not my favorite trope and needs to be done really well for me to find it believable. Not the case here.
The FMC had a real big chip on her shoulder regarding her independence. I’m glad that in the end she recognized it but anytime the man who loved her and who she loved would try to help her (like an any partner would) she overreacted. I find this trope annoying in an able bodied FMC (the hyper independence) and it was also annoying in this case. Especially when the scenario is repeated over and over again.
A few editing issues - the use of “Old Fashion” instead of the correct term “Old Fashioned” made me twitch. If you aren’t super familiar with a topic or 100% sure about the name of something, please google it!
2.5 stars (rounded up to 3 for GR purposes) for the unique disability rep and the relationships with the side characters. However the main romance fell super flat for me.
November 9, 2025
Dnf the audiobook at 85% because something about it isn't working for me. I think it's the voices but also the writing? I don't know if I glossed over it when I was reading the ebook but I just struggling.
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Ebook review 10/5/24
4.25 ⭐
1.5 🌶️
Tropes: Instant attraction, blind FMC, hockey player MMC, disability rep
Traveling from Buffalo to LA, Rowan and Pen meet in line for tea at the airport and they are both instantly attracted to each other. When an unexpected landing in Michigan allows them 35 hours to explore their connection, neither wants it to end. However, Rowan is famous and ends up being mobbed by reporters when they land in LA only to ditch Pen in an effort to save her from that kind of life. Except they can’t seem to stay away from each other.
Overall I really enjoyed Rowan and Pen’s story, it’s sweet, spicy and oh so swoony. It’s also very well written- I found myself sucked in and invested in the characters right away. The characters are wonderfully complex and endearing and I loved the redemption arc, although I expected more buildup to it. And that ending 😍😍 So adorable.
My only complaint is the confrontation at the auction- it was a little weird and rushed, and came across as an afterthought.
Highly recommend this book, and I’m looking forward to reading more books by this author.
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Ebook review 10/5/24
4.25 ⭐
1.5 🌶️
Tropes: Instant attraction, blind FMC, hockey player MMC, disability rep
Traveling from Buffalo to LA, Rowan and Pen meet in line for tea at the airport and they are both instantly attracted to each other. When an unexpected landing in Michigan allows them 35 hours to explore their connection, neither wants it to end. However, Rowan is famous and ends up being mobbed by reporters when they land in LA only to ditch Pen in an effort to save her from that kind of life. Except they can’t seem to stay away from each other.
Overall I really enjoyed Rowan and Pen’s story, it’s sweet, spicy and oh so swoony. It’s also very well written- I found myself sucked in and invested in the characters right away. The characters are wonderfully complex and endearing and I loved the redemption arc, although I expected more buildup to it. And that ending 😍😍 So adorable.
My only complaint is the confrontation at the auction- it was a little weird and rushed, and came across as an afterthought.
Highly recommend this book, and I’m looking forward to reading more books by this author.
October 4, 2024
This book was such a pleasure to read, I finished it in just 2 days. I thought both characters were well-written and relatable. Knowing the author was legally blind made the character of Pen all the more amazing. It made me much more aware of the challenges faced by a legally blind person and no I admit I did not know the definition of this until reading this book so I felt educated as well as entertained.
Pen had the most amazing attitude and strong personality, shining brightly throughout the book.
She took the time to talk to people, educate them, and help them understand her, as well as navigate through a world that is slow to adapt to her needs. I could feel her frustration at times and also her fear surrounding her ex and his attitude. But her interactions with and attraction to Rowan were zinging off the charts.
I loved how the connection was there almost right away, she could trust him to be there for her. He did struggle a little with wanting to talk for her but learnt very fast that Pen needed none of that from him. She struggled with letting him support her, so used to managing everything on her own that it was hard to let someone help her, not because she couldn’t do it alone but because she shouldn’t have to do it alone. This book was a good example of the fine line between support and pity.
Rowan was adorable, at no time was he ever the scoundrel the media had portrayed him as. Everything he did, the good and the bad was always from the right place, his heart. He had issues, particularly with his oldest brother Gillian but I’m glad things were worked out between them.
I also adored Pen’s best friends Trina and Jojo who were the perfect tag team for Pen and Rowan. Also Greg and Sasha, and both Rowan’s brothers, the aforementioned grump Gillian and the sweet romance writer Finn. I hope we get more of their stories.
Pen had the most amazing attitude and strong personality, shining brightly throughout the book.
She took the time to talk to people, educate them, and help them understand her, as well as navigate through a world that is slow to adapt to her needs. I could feel her frustration at times and also her fear surrounding her ex and his attitude. But her interactions with and attraction to Rowan were zinging off the charts.
I loved how the connection was there almost right away, she could trust him to be there for her. He did struggle a little with wanting to talk for her but learnt very fast that Pen needed none of that from him. She struggled with letting him support her, so used to managing everything on her own that it was hard to let someone help her, not because she couldn’t do it alone but because she shouldn’t have to do it alone. This book was a good example of the fine line between support and pity.
Rowan was adorable, at no time was he ever the scoundrel the media had portrayed him as. Everything he did, the good and the bad was always from the right place, his heart. He had issues, particularly with his oldest brother Gillian but I’m glad things were worked out between them.
I also adored Pen’s best friends Trina and Jojo who were the perfect tag team for Pen and Rowan. Also Greg and Sasha, and both Rowan’s brothers, the aforementioned grump Gillian and the sweet romance writer Finn. I hope we get more of their stories.
December 16, 2024
I absolutely loved this spicy, dual POV hockey romance between Penelope, a legally blind disability advocate and influencer and Rowan, the hot, grumpy hockey player she runs into at an airport Tim Hortons. The #ownvoices disability rep in this book was TOP notch!!! Some of the best in a romance I've read in a good long while. Penelope has a complicated relationship with her ableist mother and goes out of her way to educate people on what life being legally blind and using a mobility aid cane is like. The meet-cute between her and Rowan was adorable and I loved seeing their relationship take off. Great on audio and highly recommended especially for fans of authors like Chloe Liese! Bonus, Rowan has two brothers - one is a historical romance author and the other is a romance audiobook narrator!! I can't wait to see if we get their stories next!!
September 26, 2024
In this meet-cute romance, Melissa Whitney has created two of the most loveable characters! Pen Meadows is a blind disability advocate who meets Rowan Iverson, NHL’s top defenseman, on a cross-country flight. From the get-go, these two have chemistry!
I loved that this book gave the reader an insight into what it’s like, to not only be blind but also how empowering living with a disability can be! I think Melissa wrote Pen so beautifully that it was hard not to love her. As a hockey fan, I love meet cute hockey romances, and this checked all the boxes for me! I love how Rowan was so smitten for Pen from the start and getting to see how their relationship flourished through everything!
Hats off to you, Melissa Whitney!
I loved that this book gave the reader an insight into what it’s like, to not only be blind but also how empowering living with a disability can be! I think Melissa wrote Pen so beautifully that it was hard not to love her. As a hockey fan, I love meet cute hockey romances, and this checked all the boxes for me! I love how Rowan was so smitten for Pen from the start and getting to see how their relationship flourished through everything!
Hats off to you, Melissa Whitney!
January 30, 2025
This was funny, sweet, steamy, and heartfelt! I was hooked one chapter! The meet-cute had me blushing and giggling at the adorableness and the continuing forced proximity was perfect. I loved how it was a quick burn for both Pen and Rowan — they hit it off so well and their fun, easy going banter was such a good dynamic!
The author did a great job mixing a sweet romcom with spicy moments and emotional/heartfelt & hard discussions.
Overall — highly recommend this romance for everyone!!!
Tropes/CW:
• legally blind fmc (author’s own voice)
• bad boy hockey player mmc
• hot dog dad
• meet-cute
• fun girl friend group
• forced proximity
• romcom
• quick burn
• ableism (internalized & external)
• family drama
The author did a great job mixing a sweet romcom with spicy moments and emotional/heartfelt & hard discussions.
Overall — highly recommend this romance for everyone!!!
Tropes/CW:
• legally blind fmc (author’s own voice)
• bad boy hockey player mmc
• hot dog dad
• meet-cute
• fun girl friend group
• forced proximity
• romcom
• quick burn
• ableism (internalized & external)
• family drama
January 11, 2026
Content warnings: ableism, animal attack, physical injury, stalking, toxic relationship, death of a parent (in the past), plane emergency
This was an extremely charming romance between a hockey player with a bad reputation and a legally blond blogger who meet at an airport Tim Horton's. I really liked the way this talks about vision loss and the variety of ways that people treat Pen when they see her using a cane is well done (perhaps not surprising given that it's an own voices story).
This gave me the implication that things were being set up for a trilogy involving Rowan's brothers and Pen's best friends but that seems not to be the case (slightly bummed, tbh - those dynamics were fun too!). The secondary characters were delightful and the whole thing was a lot of fun.
This was an extremely charming romance between a hockey player with a bad reputation and a legally blond blogger who meet at an airport Tim Horton's. I really liked the way this talks about vision loss and the variety of ways that people treat Pen when they see her using a cane is well done (perhaps not surprising given that it's an own voices story).
This gave me the implication that things were being set up for a trilogy involving Rowan's brothers and Pen's best friends but that seems not to be the case (slightly bummed, tbh - those dynamics were fun too!). The secondary characters were delightful and the whole thing was a lot of fun.
September 30, 2024
This was a sweet romance between Penelope and Aiden. They have an adorable meet cute at the airport; the first thing she sees is his big wide smile, thus the title! What I love about this book is the diverse representation! Penelope is legally blind, but that doesn't mean she can't see. There is so much thought and detail that goes into educating the reader, but it also blends well into the story. It was a bit too heavy on the "insta-loviness" and borderline love bombing for my taste. But it was a cute fluffy story that will make you feel good!
3.25☆
Tags:
-meet cute
-he falls first
-insta-love
-disability rep
Spice: 1.5/5
First person/Dual POV
3.25☆
Tags:
-meet cute
-he falls first
-insta-love
-disability rep
Spice: 1.5/5
First person/Dual POV
December 31, 2024
I loved this book!
From start to finish, I instantly fell in love with the main characters and how their chemistry seemed to jump off the page.
This author did an amazing job of storytelling, blending romance and sports together with such a great representation for disability that I want to reread this book again and again.
It has become on of my favorites for this year!
From start to finish, I instantly fell in love with the main characters and how their chemistry seemed to jump off the page.
This author did an amazing job of storytelling, blending romance and sports together with such a great representation for disability that I want to reread this book again and again.
It has become on of my favorites for this year!
March 28, 2026
Enjoyable Contemporary Romance
This was an enjoyable read featuring a hockey player MMC and a vision impaired FMC. The author seems to be setting up books for each of the MMC’s brothers and the FMC’s besties. I’m hoping those stories will be out soon.
This was an enjoyable read featuring a hockey player MMC and a vision impaired FMC. The author seems to be setting up books for each of the MMC’s brothers and the FMC’s besties. I’m hoping those stories will be out soon.
August 8, 2025
I hate writing bad reviews. This book just didn’t hit for me.
The Pros
* Pen was a great character. She was well developed.
* I learned a lot about legal blindness.
The Cons
* This book is being advertised as a romcom. Whereas it's not depressing, its not particularly funny either. A "sassy" character in a book does not make it a romcom.
* Rowan felt shallow to me. He seemed to have a lot going on: his "bad boy" hockey persona, guilt over his father's death, and sibling issues. I think the author bit off more than they could chew with him and he came out a bit flat even though he had a lot going on.
* What was the plot? What were these two trying to accomplish? I guess Rowan getting over his bad boy image and Pen getting the promotion at work and people to see she was more than just a legally blind person? And trying to do these things while in a new relationship? As such, the book was boring to me and I struggled to finish it.
* Too many things, yet not enough depth. We've got a near-plane crash, a stalker ex, a shitty mom, a dog attack, celebrity lifestyle issues all in one book, and I still felt unsatisfied due to the lack of plot and tension. Even the third act breakup was more like a third act tiff.
I am glad to see a majority of other reviewers on here had the opposite experience from me with this book.
The Pros
* Pen was a great character. She was well developed.
* I learned a lot about legal blindness.
The Cons
* This book is being advertised as a romcom. Whereas it's not depressing, its not particularly funny either. A "sassy" character in a book does not make it a romcom.
* Rowan felt shallow to me. He seemed to have a lot going on: his "bad boy" hockey persona, guilt over his father's death, and sibling issues. I think the author bit off more than they could chew with him and he came out a bit flat even though he had a lot going on.
* What was the plot? What were these two trying to accomplish? I guess Rowan getting over his bad boy image and Pen getting the promotion at work and people to see she was more than just a legally blind person? And trying to do these things while in a new relationship? As such, the book was boring to me and I struggled to finish it.
* Too many things, yet not enough depth. We've got a near-plane crash, a stalker ex, a shitty mom, a dog attack, celebrity lifestyle issues all in one book, and I still felt unsatisfied due to the lack of plot and tension. Even the third act breakup was more like a third act tiff.
I am glad to see a majority of other reviewers on here had the opposite experience from me with this book.
October 6, 2025
This book has it all! Romance, airplane trauma bonding, curvy girls, hockey dudes, a goodest doggo, and a bunch of disability advocacy.
It doesn’t matter your type of disability, the things Pen goes through almost every single disabled person can relate to. From the infantilism to the accessibility barriers to others believing her incapable due to her disability. This book is an incredible view on the barriers disabled people go through in their lives and how an inter-abled relationship can work.
My one and only negative is that I don’t personally agree with Pen’s Aunt Bea’s take on always being an advocate. The public is not entitled to your personal information, if you WANT to educate, then that’s incredible, but if you don’t, that’s also perfectly fine.
If you’re interested in hot hockey players, sexy advocates, incredible representation and overcoming ableism this book is for you!!
It doesn’t matter your type of disability, the things Pen goes through almost every single disabled person can relate to. From the infantilism to the accessibility barriers to others believing her incapable due to her disability. This book is an incredible view on the barriers disabled people go through in their lives and how an inter-abled relationship can work.
My one and only negative is that I don’t personally agree with Pen’s Aunt Bea’s take on always being an advocate. The public is not entitled to your personal information, if you WANT to educate, then that’s incredible, but if you don’t, that’s also perfectly fine.
If you’re interested in hot hockey players, sexy advocates, incredible representation and overcoming ableism this book is for you!!
October 9, 2024
"At First Smile" by Melissa Whitney is a wonderfully refreshing and heartwarming romance that captures the authentic challenges and joys of living with a disability, all while balancing humor, passion, and emotional complexity. As someone who advocates for disability representation, I found Pen Meadows to be an empowering and relatable character. Her unapologetic confidence and drive to live life on her own terms are beautifully written, and her role as a disability advocate adds meaningful depth to the narrative.
The story begins with a light-hearted meet-cute at an airport, where Pen’s mission to grab breakfast and enjoy her smutty audiobook is hilariously interrupted by Rowan Iverson, a towering, brooding NHL player with a soft Irish accent. From their first encounter, the chemistry between them is undeniable. Their brief but electric connection on a cross-country flight is filled with banter and subtle tension, setting the stage for what could be just another fleeting romance. But what I loved about this book is how the story evolves into something much more than just attraction.
Rowan, who is grappling with the fallout from a career-threatening incident in the NHL, is a layered character. He’s not just a typical sports hero. His vulnerability, particularly in trying to avoid more scrutiny in the media, makes him someone who’s easier to empathize with. As a reader with a disability, I appreciated how Pen’s strength and independence weren’t diminished just because she met a love interest. Instead, she remains true to herself, never compromising her values or the work she’s passionate about. The way she advocates for herself and others, especially in a world that often sidelines people with disabilities, resonated deeply with me.
The book also takes care to explore the intersection of public life and personal identity. Pen’s work as a social media influencer, coupled with Rowan’s high-profile sports career, creates tension, especially when Pen realizes Rowan isn’t just the guy she met on the plane—he’s a hockey star with a messy reputation. For someone like Pen, who doesn’t play games and guards her heart, this creates a compelling conflict. But it’s Rowan’s journey of proving that he can be more than the persona shaped by the media that makes the romance so rewarding.
Melissa Whitney’s storytelling shines with a perfect mix of lighthearted moments, serious themes, and swoon-worthy romance. I particularly appreciated how the story never leaned on Pen’s disability as a plot device. Instead, it’s simply part of who she is, much like any other characteristic. The disability representation feels real and nuanced, and it’s woven into the story in a way that highlights Pen’s strength and individuality.
For anyone looking for a romance that’s not only fun but also embraces meaningful representation, "At First Smile" is a must-read. Whitney has created characters who are not just engaging but also reflective of real-life challenges, making this book both heartwarming and empowering for readers like myself who appreciate seeing strong, dynamic, and fully developed characters with disabilities.
The story begins with a light-hearted meet-cute at an airport, where Pen’s mission to grab breakfast and enjoy her smutty audiobook is hilariously interrupted by Rowan Iverson, a towering, brooding NHL player with a soft Irish accent. From their first encounter, the chemistry between them is undeniable. Their brief but electric connection on a cross-country flight is filled with banter and subtle tension, setting the stage for what could be just another fleeting romance. But what I loved about this book is how the story evolves into something much more than just attraction.
Rowan, who is grappling with the fallout from a career-threatening incident in the NHL, is a layered character. He’s not just a typical sports hero. His vulnerability, particularly in trying to avoid more scrutiny in the media, makes him someone who’s easier to empathize with. As a reader with a disability, I appreciated how Pen’s strength and independence weren’t diminished just because she met a love interest. Instead, she remains true to herself, never compromising her values or the work she’s passionate about. The way she advocates for herself and others, especially in a world that often sidelines people with disabilities, resonated deeply with me.
The book also takes care to explore the intersection of public life and personal identity. Pen’s work as a social media influencer, coupled with Rowan’s high-profile sports career, creates tension, especially when Pen realizes Rowan isn’t just the guy she met on the plane—he’s a hockey star with a messy reputation. For someone like Pen, who doesn’t play games and guards her heart, this creates a compelling conflict. But it’s Rowan’s journey of proving that he can be more than the persona shaped by the media that makes the romance so rewarding.
Melissa Whitney’s storytelling shines with a perfect mix of lighthearted moments, serious themes, and swoon-worthy romance. I particularly appreciated how the story never leaned on Pen’s disability as a plot device. Instead, it’s simply part of who she is, much like any other characteristic. The disability representation feels real and nuanced, and it’s woven into the story in a way that highlights Pen’s strength and individuality.
For anyone looking for a romance that’s not only fun but also embraces meaningful representation, "At First Smile" is a must-read. Whitney has created characters who are not just engaging but also reflective of real-life challenges, making this book both heartwarming and empowering for readers like myself who appreciate seeing strong, dynamic, and fully developed characters with disabilities.
September 29, 2024
𝐎𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐑𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠: 5.0 /5.0
𝐒𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐞: 3 /5
“𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒅𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒐𝒍𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒕. 𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆—𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒏—𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒔 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒆. 𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒉𝒐𝒘, 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒆. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒎𝒆.”
I cannot begin to tell you how much I enjoyed reading 𝐀𝐭 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐒𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 by 𝑴𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒂 𝑾𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒏𝒆𝒚. It was so good and is a definite 𝟓 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝! ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ This is my second Melissa Whitney book and after this one, I can say, with absolute certainty, that I am a fan! I love Melissa’s work!
Let us start with the characters. Is it ok to say you love a fictional character? Well, I’m just going to go ahead and say it. I loved Penelope (FMC). She was such a well-rounded, realistic, and likeable character. I loved her advocacy work for those who are legally blind / disabled. I loved how she never allowed her disability to define her or slow her down and she never played small. She was bold, and strong, but still so sweet and loving and caring, and I have to say, I want to be Penelope when I grow up! And can I add that Miss Penelope was sooooo funny! She had me cracking up so much throughout the book. I just loved the way the author wrote this character.
Now Rowan (MMC)! Can we say swoon! My goodness! Though Rowan was not perfect, he always strived to be the best he could be. Due to some of his childhood trauma and family issues, he developed a reputation as an angry grump but underneath all of that was a man who loved his family, friends, and always stood up for and defended those who were important to him. The way he loved and took care of my girl Penelope made me so happy. From their initial meeting (at first smile lol), to the very end of the book, Rowan was perfection in my eyes. I just loved these two. Their chemistry, their banter, their friendship, their love…Oh! My heart! I loved it all!
I loved the world building in this story. It was so realistic. The use of the secondary characters to tell Penelope and Rowan’s story was perfection. From Jojo, who was an absolute hoot (she was sooooo funny and blunt {I loved it}), to Trina, to Wes and Greg and his wife and Rowan’s brothers, everyone had an interesting back story that I enjoyed just as much as the FMC and MMC’s stories. I loved how these characters fit right into the story and were not just there to be there. Sidenote…I really want Finn and Trina’s and Gillian’s story. I hope they are coming up soon because I need more of these characters.
I said all of that to say…do yourself a favor and read At First Smile. It is a cute, and funny rom com with tons of great characters. You will not be disappointed.
🆆🅷🅰🆃 🆃🅾 🅴🆇🅿🅴🅲🆃
🦯Meet Cute
🏒Sports Romance (Hockey)
🦯Blindness Rep
🏒Own Voice
🏒Slow Burn
🦯Commitment Adverse MMC
🏒Jane Austin Vibes
🦯Grumpy x Sunshine
🏒Stranded Together / Close Proximity
🦯Themes of Grief / Loss
🏒Golden Retriever mmc
🦯Strong / Sassy but Sweet FMC
🏒Explores Family Dynamics
🦯An Adorable Rescue Boxer
𝐒𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐞: 3 /5
“𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒅𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒐𝒍𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒕. 𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆—𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒏—𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒔 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒆. 𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒉𝒐𝒘, 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒆. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒎𝒆.”
I cannot begin to tell you how much I enjoyed reading 𝐀𝐭 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐒𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 by 𝑴𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒂 𝑾𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒏𝒆𝒚. It was so good and is a definite 𝟓 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝! ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ This is my second Melissa Whitney book and after this one, I can say, with absolute certainty, that I am a fan! I love Melissa’s work!
Let us start with the characters. Is it ok to say you love a fictional character? Well, I’m just going to go ahead and say it. I loved Penelope (FMC). She was such a well-rounded, realistic, and likeable character. I loved her advocacy work for those who are legally blind / disabled. I loved how she never allowed her disability to define her or slow her down and she never played small. She was bold, and strong, but still so sweet and loving and caring, and I have to say, I want to be Penelope when I grow up! And can I add that Miss Penelope was sooooo funny! She had me cracking up so much throughout the book. I just loved the way the author wrote this character.
Now Rowan (MMC)! Can we say swoon! My goodness! Though Rowan was not perfect, he always strived to be the best he could be. Due to some of his childhood trauma and family issues, he developed a reputation as an angry grump but underneath all of that was a man who loved his family, friends, and always stood up for and defended those who were important to him. The way he loved and took care of my girl Penelope made me so happy. From their initial meeting (at first smile lol), to the very end of the book, Rowan was perfection in my eyes. I just loved these two. Their chemistry, their banter, their friendship, their love…Oh! My heart! I loved it all!
I loved the world building in this story. It was so realistic. The use of the secondary characters to tell Penelope and Rowan’s story was perfection. From Jojo, who was an absolute hoot (she was sooooo funny and blunt {I loved it}), to Trina, to Wes and Greg and his wife and Rowan’s brothers, everyone had an interesting back story that I enjoyed just as much as the FMC and MMC’s stories. I loved how these characters fit right into the story and were not just there to be there. Sidenote…I really want Finn and Trina’s and Gillian’s story. I hope they are coming up soon because I need more of these characters.
I said all of that to say…do yourself a favor and read At First Smile. It is a cute, and funny rom com with tons of great characters. You will not be disappointed.
🆆🅷🅰🆃 🆃🅾 🅴🆇🅿🅴🅲🆃
🦯Meet Cute
🏒Sports Romance (Hockey)
🦯Blindness Rep
🏒Own Voice
🏒Slow Burn
🦯Commitment Adverse MMC
🏒Jane Austin Vibes
🦯Grumpy x Sunshine
🏒Stranded Together / Close Proximity
🦯Themes of Grief / Loss
🏒Golden Retriever mmc
🦯Strong / Sassy but Sweet FMC
🏒Explores Family Dynamics
🦯An Adorable Rescue Boxer
October 23, 2024
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/ 🌶️🌶️🌶️
My second book written by Melissa Whitney and she proves her first book that I liked wasn’t a one and done read. I love how Melissa writes people, both inside and out. She advocates for people through her writing and does it in such an elegant way. As someone who I am sure has gone through her own hardships, she captures what makes people beautiful and real.
Penelope is an absolute delight to read. She was easy to love, find genuine, and very relatable. Not once did she let her own disability slow her down, but rather found ways around obstacles. Not once did she use it as an excuse for anything in her life and didn’t allow people to pity her. She definitely knew her worth did not lie in her ability to see, even though she was able to see better than seeing people. However, when we see inside her heart, she wants people to see past her disability and the real her.
Rowan is just that person. When these two meet, all he sees is the beautiful woman in front of him. He also loves that she wants to get to know him as Rowan the man, not Rowan the hockey player. He hasn’t had many people want him for him in a while and Penelope reminds him how good it feels to be seen for real. However, Rowan has to prove to Penelope that he is not playing with her heart and feelings, once she learns who he “really” is.
As these two continue to grow closer and closer, seeing each other for who they are on the inside, they can’t stop the feelings they grow for each other. Melissa wrote a beautiful story about seeing people for who they are, not what they are. Beyond the MCs, Melissa always writes amazing side characters who add so much to her stories. I do hope to see more of them in future books.
As always, review any author notes before reading.
Tropes:
🏒Hockey Romance
🦯Blindness Rep
🏒Commitment Adverse MMC
🦯Strong / Sassy but Sweet FMC
🏒Grumpy x Sunshine
🦯Forced Proximity
My second book written by Melissa Whitney and she proves her first book that I liked wasn’t a one and done read. I love how Melissa writes people, both inside and out. She advocates for people through her writing and does it in such an elegant way. As someone who I am sure has gone through her own hardships, she captures what makes people beautiful and real.
Penelope is an absolute delight to read. She was easy to love, find genuine, and very relatable. Not once did she let her own disability slow her down, but rather found ways around obstacles. Not once did she use it as an excuse for anything in her life and didn’t allow people to pity her. She definitely knew her worth did not lie in her ability to see, even though she was able to see better than seeing people. However, when we see inside her heart, she wants people to see past her disability and the real her.
Rowan is just that person. When these two meet, all he sees is the beautiful woman in front of him. He also loves that she wants to get to know him as Rowan the man, not Rowan the hockey player. He hasn’t had many people want him for him in a while and Penelope reminds him how good it feels to be seen for real. However, Rowan has to prove to Penelope that he is not playing with her heart and feelings, once she learns who he “really” is.
As these two continue to grow closer and closer, seeing each other for who they are on the inside, they can’t stop the feelings they grow for each other. Melissa wrote a beautiful story about seeing people for who they are, not what they are. Beyond the MCs, Melissa always writes amazing side characters who add so much to her stories. I do hope to see more of them in future books.
As always, review any author notes before reading.
Tropes:
🏒Hockey Romance
🦯Blindness Rep
🏒Commitment Adverse MMC
🦯Strong / Sassy but Sweet FMC
🏒Grumpy x Sunshine
🦯Forced Proximity
November 5, 2024
Title: At First Smile
Author: Melissa Whitney
Hero/Heroine: Rowan & Penelope
What to Expect: Dual POV, Legally Blind FMC, Hockey Player MMC, Airport Meet Cute, He Falls First and Harder, Retinitis Pigmentosa Representation,
tw/cw: depictions of ableism, loss of a parent (off page but mentioned), a plane emergency, discussion of disabling injury, dog attack, discussion of toxic masculinity, loss of a sibling (off page but mentioned), emotionally abusive relationship, stalking,
Penelope Meadows, what an absolute queen. Living with Retinitis Pigmentosa, she works hard to make sure that people don’t just associate her with her disability. She was a wonderful character, and I loved how feisty and independent she was. Rowan, that Irish Canadian snack, was also an absolute delight, if a little bit of a grump. I loved how he never tried to make out that he knew what was better for Pen than she did; they were a team and this was apparent throughout their relationship.
Along with Rowan and Pen, there were some really great supporting characters. I loved how, though Rowan and Pen’s was the central relationship, there was still a clear focus on Rowan’s relationship with his oldest brother, and Pen’s somewhat tense relationship with her mother. This wasn’t something that was fixed in one part of the story and that was it, you could see the clear progression and I loved it.
This definitely won’t be the last book I read from this author, I ate this up and left no crumbs. Now I’m just over here hoping Gillian and Finn get their own stories.
Thank you to the author and Happily Booked PR for providing me with a copy of this to read. This is my honest review.
✨overall thoughts: engaging story with wonderful characters, loved this
✨ 3rd act break up: no
✨ heat level: 🌶️🌶️🌶️
✨ star rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Author: Melissa Whitney
Hero/Heroine: Rowan & Penelope
What to Expect: Dual POV, Legally Blind FMC, Hockey Player MMC, Airport Meet Cute, He Falls First and Harder, Retinitis Pigmentosa Representation,
tw/cw: depictions of ableism, loss of a parent (off page but mentioned), a plane emergency, discussion of disabling injury, dog attack, discussion of toxic masculinity, loss of a sibling (off page but mentioned), emotionally abusive relationship, stalking,
Penelope Meadows, what an absolute queen. Living with Retinitis Pigmentosa, she works hard to make sure that people don’t just associate her with her disability. She was a wonderful character, and I loved how feisty and independent she was. Rowan, that Irish Canadian snack, was also an absolute delight, if a little bit of a grump. I loved how he never tried to make out that he knew what was better for Pen than she did; they were a team and this was apparent throughout their relationship.
Along with Rowan and Pen, there were some really great supporting characters. I loved how, though Rowan and Pen’s was the central relationship, there was still a clear focus on Rowan’s relationship with his oldest brother, and Pen’s somewhat tense relationship with her mother. This wasn’t something that was fixed in one part of the story and that was it, you could see the clear progression and I loved it.
This definitely won’t be the last book I read from this author, I ate this up and left no crumbs. Now I’m just over here hoping Gillian and Finn get their own stories.
Thank you to the author and Happily Booked PR for providing me with a copy of this to read. This is my honest review.
✨overall thoughts: engaging story with wonderful characters, loved this
✨ 3rd act break up: no
✨ heat level: 🌶️🌶️🌶️
✨ star rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
September 29, 2024
As a dark romance loving girly, I have a confession…
Romcoms have recently grown on me. Admittedly, it’s nice to occasionally cleanse my soul with meet cutes, fluff, and happily ever afters, all of which can be found in At First Smile by Melissa Whitney.
At First Smile is an adorable tale of love and acceptance, forgiveness and growth. Our main characters are Pen, a sassy, independent, self-sufficient businesswoman with a heart of gold and a focus on disability advocacy, and Rowan, a mentally and emotionally guarded, pro-hockey playing Irishman with a protective streak and a knack for self-sabotage. There’s an adorable meet-cute in the airport, followed by a whirlwind romance lasting 35 hours, before a reality crash once both Pen and Rowan return to normal life. Throw in some meddling paparazzi, stalker exes, tough-cookie friends and family members, brunches, and a few more sprinkles of drama, and you’ve got the makings of a truly charming and delightful romcom.
I will undoubtedly read At First Smile again in the future. Watching the characters learn, love, laugh, forgive, and grow made my heart happy. Seeing the monumental amount of representation was also extremely refreshing and something I hope becomes so frequent and common in literature that it’s no longer a novelty, but the norm. It sheds light on the common misperception that people who are “disabled” are not as capable as their able bodied counterparts, a lesson that we, as a society, often need reminded. The romance, social lessons, and sassiness presented in this book were fun and fulfilling, and I really enjoyed it! Plus, Just Pen and Just Rowan’s banter and personalities made me just swoon. I loved them! You will, too!
Romcoms have recently grown on me. Admittedly, it’s nice to occasionally cleanse my soul with meet cutes, fluff, and happily ever afters, all of which can be found in At First Smile by Melissa Whitney.
At First Smile is an adorable tale of love and acceptance, forgiveness and growth. Our main characters are Pen, a sassy, independent, self-sufficient businesswoman with a heart of gold and a focus on disability advocacy, and Rowan, a mentally and emotionally guarded, pro-hockey playing Irishman with a protective streak and a knack for self-sabotage. There’s an adorable meet-cute in the airport, followed by a whirlwind romance lasting 35 hours, before a reality crash once both Pen and Rowan return to normal life. Throw in some meddling paparazzi, stalker exes, tough-cookie friends and family members, brunches, and a few more sprinkles of drama, and you’ve got the makings of a truly charming and delightful romcom.
I will undoubtedly read At First Smile again in the future. Watching the characters learn, love, laugh, forgive, and grow made my heart happy. Seeing the monumental amount of representation was also extremely refreshing and something I hope becomes so frequent and common in literature that it’s no longer a novelty, but the norm. It sheds light on the common misperception that people who are “disabled” are not as capable as their able bodied counterparts, a lesson that we, as a society, often need reminded. The romance, social lessons, and sassiness presented in this book were fun and fulfilling, and I really enjoyed it! Plus, Just Pen and Just Rowan’s banter and personalities made me just swoon. I loved them! You will, too!
January 29, 2025
Charming #ownVoices romance about a blind social media advocate and a hockey player. It had a solid storyline balanced with steam and tension, fun side characters, and solid disability representation which fit realistically within the flow of the book.
Rowan is a hockey player, in trouble for punching the NHL golden boy for reasons he won’t share. Pen is a blind hospital volunteer coordinator who educates about blindness on social media. The two have a meet cute at an airport Tim Hortons as they are about to fly from Buffalo to LA. Airplane troubles mean traveling together longer than expected, forging a strong connection with lots of chemistry.
I really enjoyed both the struggles and celebrations of this book. Not only do the characters have to navigate ableism out in the world but there is grief from the loss of parents/parental figure, a stalker ex-boyfriend, and conflict as two people let go of their own fear to integrate their lives together (do check the content warnings at the start of the book for the full list). On the positive side, there are messages of standing up for yourself by finding you own voice while also being willing to rely on others. I particularly liked how the main characters handled Pen’s disability — it wasn’t Rowan’s problem to solve, rather his role was to support her using her own voice. There was so much to dig into with this book!
Overall this was a solid book. There were a couple small areas where the plot could have been smoother (e.g. the aside in how the paparazzi knew Rowan was at LAX) but these are minor in comparison to the full range of emotions the book covers and the way it demonstrates how life might look for a legally blind person.
4.5 stars of 5
Rowan is a hockey player, in trouble for punching the NHL golden boy for reasons he won’t share. Pen is a blind hospital volunteer coordinator who educates about blindness on social media. The two have a meet cute at an airport Tim Hortons as they are about to fly from Buffalo to LA. Airplane troubles mean traveling together longer than expected, forging a strong connection with lots of chemistry.
I really enjoyed both the struggles and celebrations of this book. Not only do the characters have to navigate ableism out in the world but there is grief from the loss of parents/parental figure, a stalker ex-boyfriend, and conflict as two people let go of their own fear to integrate their lives together (do check the content warnings at the start of the book for the full list). On the positive side, there are messages of standing up for yourself by finding you own voice while also being willing to rely on others. I particularly liked how the main characters handled Pen’s disability — it wasn’t Rowan’s problem to solve, rather his role was to support her using her own voice. There was so much to dig into with this book!
Overall this was a solid book. There were a couple small areas where the plot could have been smoother (e.g. the aside in how the paparazzi knew Rowan was at LAX) but these are minor in comparison to the full range of emotions the book covers and the way it demonstrates how life might look for a legally blind person.
4.5 stars of 5
Did Not Finish
June 19, 2025Did not finish, but not for the reason you would think…
As a legally blind woman myself, I thought it would be interesting to see a character who is legally blind (plus the book sounded like a good read). I just could not get into it. I’m really surprised actually because I would’ve thought that this book would’ve been something that would engage me, but I think the opposite was true. I saw too many of the annoyances and inconveniences that I deal with every day even in the first couple of chapters and it pushed my buttons. By the way, not the author’s fault at all actually I love that. She brings them up so others can see how they affect individuals with visual impairments.
I guess I see reading as an escape… or a way to sort of get out of my own head a little bit and in this case I wasn’t getting out of my head as much as continuing to stay in my head in a different way! I work as an assistive technology instructional specialist for people with visual impairments. I see micro aggressive ableism a lot, both aimed at myself and as visually impaired individuals as a group.
I do want to say that I encourage the writing of books featuring characters who have disabilities… I honestly do. And I applaud the author for finding a way to work visual impairment into the story where the main character is a strong, independent blind woman. Not enough of those out there to be honest. This one just hit a little close to home for me and although I liked the characters… It just wasn’t happening for me.
So in short, I normally don’t review books that I don’t finish, but I did want to write a review that acknowledges and thanks the author for sharing her live experiences so that others can learn from them.
As a legally blind woman myself, I thought it would be interesting to see a character who is legally blind (plus the book sounded like a good read). I just could not get into it. I’m really surprised actually because I would’ve thought that this book would’ve been something that would engage me, but I think the opposite was true. I saw too many of the annoyances and inconveniences that I deal with every day even in the first couple of chapters and it pushed my buttons. By the way, not the author’s fault at all actually I love that. She brings them up so others can see how they affect individuals with visual impairments.
I guess I see reading as an escape… or a way to sort of get out of my own head a little bit and in this case I wasn’t getting out of my head as much as continuing to stay in my head in a different way! I work as an assistive technology instructional specialist for people with visual impairments. I see micro aggressive ableism a lot, both aimed at myself and as visually impaired individuals as a group.
I do want to say that I encourage the writing of books featuring characters who have disabilities… I honestly do. And I applaud the author for finding a way to work visual impairment into the story where the main character is a strong, independent blind woman. Not enough of those out there to be honest. This one just hit a little close to home for me and although I liked the characters… It just wasn’t happening for me.
So in short, I normally don’t review books that I don’t finish, but I did want to write a review that acknowledges and thanks the author for sharing her live experiences so that others can learn from them.
October 12, 2024
at first smile by melissa whitney .｡.:*✧ 🏒🐾🥐 ✧*:.｡.
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thank you to the publishers and to the lovely @melissa_whitneyauthor for allowing me to read this beautiful arc in exchange for an honest review.
you all know me, i love a hockey man. hockey romances are my kryptonite, so when i saw this book involved a hockey man, but also was written with disability representation, i was all in. i truly believe that we need more books with disability representation, because not only did i enjoy every moment of the love story of pen and rowan, but i also enjoyed learning about how it is to live with a lack of vision. both the fmc and the author herself have vision impairments, so this book is so authentic in educating people on what it is like to live with a disability, how the outside world thinks they're helping but are actually moreso insulting, and of course, that they deserve a really sexy hockey player too!
rowan and pen's relationship was written so beautifully, like why can't i have a hockey man like that? rowan was a perfect gentleman (apart from when he was being horny but that had me giggling and kicking my feet anyway), pen was an absolute badass to read about, i just loved this book a lot.
this book set up further romances between pen's friends and rowan's brothers, which i truly hope that the author is going to give them their own stories as well because this book peaked my interest when it came to further books in the series 👀
if you love a good hockey romance, and want to delve into some disability representation mixed with romance, i deeply recommend at first smile!
thank you again to the author and publishers it was truly a magical experience 🖤
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thank you to the publishers and to the lovely @melissa_whitneyauthor for allowing me to read this beautiful arc in exchange for an honest review.
you all know me, i love a hockey man. hockey romances are my kryptonite, so when i saw this book involved a hockey man, but also was written with disability representation, i was all in. i truly believe that we need more books with disability representation, because not only did i enjoy every moment of the love story of pen and rowan, but i also enjoyed learning about how it is to live with a lack of vision. both the fmc and the author herself have vision impairments, so this book is so authentic in educating people on what it is like to live with a disability, how the outside world thinks they're helping but are actually moreso insulting, and of course, that they deserve a really sexy hockey player too!
rowan and pen's relationship was written so beautifully, like why can't i have a hockey man like that? rowan was a perfect gentleman (apart from when he was being horny but that had me giggling and kicking my feet anyway), pen was an absolute badass to read about, i just loved this book a lot.
this book set up further romances between pen's friends and rowan's brothers, which i truly hope that the author is going to give them their own stories as well because this book peaked my interest when it came to further books in the series 👀
if you love a good hockey romance, and want to delve into some disability representation mixed with romance, i deeply recommend at first smile!
thank you again to the author and publishers it was truly a magical experience 🖤
October 24, 2024
ᴀ ʜᴏᴄᴋᴇʏ ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ, ʜᴜᴍᴏʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ʟᴏᴛ ᴏғ sᴀss!!
I’ve always had a soft spot for books that can seamlessly blend a swoon-worthy romance with a deeper, empowering message and At First Smile delivered on every front.
👩🦯Penelope is an absolute gem of a character—her fierce spirit & sassy comebacks kept me grinning throughout. She’s not just a heroine but a true advocate who challenges perceptions about living with a disability, making her journey all the more inspiring.
🏑Rowan, the grumpy yet lovable hockey player MMC, came across as more than just a romantic interest. His struggles, fueled by childhood trauma and the pressures of fame, made his journey with Penelope feel authentic & layered.
While I’m typically a fan of slow-burn romances, the "insta-love" vibe worked perfectly here, adding a spark that kept me hooked from the start.
🦯💕Cane Austen deserves a special shoutout—not just for the clever wordplay but for being a symbol of strength & confidence. It’s not every day you see a cane named with such style & it adds a unique touch to Penelope's character that sets her apart.
It’s not just a romance, though. At First Smile offers a beautiful portrayal of living with a disability, shedding light on the challenges and empowering aspects of Penelope's experience. The secondary characters, like Jojo & Gillian, added charm to the narrative & I can’t help but wish for their own stories🫶
Why read this?
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♡ A strong, witty FMC whose sass and style make her unforgettable.
♡ A romance that’s equal parts sweet and sizzling, with a hero who’s as grumpy as he is endearing.
♡ A lovable dog sidekick who adds extra heart to the story
I’ve always had a soft spot for books that can seamlessly blend a swoon-worthy romance with a deeper, empowering message and At First Smile delivered on every front.
👩🦯Penelope is an absolute gem of a character—her fierce spirit & sassy comebacks kept me grinning throughout. She’s not just a heroine but a true advocate who challenges perceptions about living with a disability, making her journey all the more inspiring.
🏑Rowan, the grumpy yet lovable hockey player MMC, came across as more than just a romantic interest. His struggles, fueled by childhood trauma and the pressures of fame, made his journey with Penelope feel authentic & layered.
While I’m typically a fan of slow-burn romances, the "insta-love" vibe worked perfectly here, adding a spark that kept me hooked from the start.
🦯💕Cane Austen deserves a special shoutout—not just for the clever wordplay but for being a symbol of strength & confidence. It’s not every day you see a cane named with such style & it adds a unique touch to Penelope's character that sets her apart.
It’s not just a romance, though. At First Smile offers a beautiful portrayal of living with a disability, shedding light on the challenges and empowering aspects of Penelope's experience. The secondary characters, like Jojo & Gillian, added charm to the narrative & I can’t help but wish for their own stories🫶
Why read this?
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♡ A strong, witty FMC whose sass and style make her unforgettable.
♡ A romance that’s equal parts sweet and sizzling, with a hero who’s as grumpy as he is endearing.
♡ A lovable dog sidekick who adds extra heart to the story
October 23, 2025
I thought this book was spectacular. It was deep and nuanced. Beyond that, it made me think about things in a whole new way.
While I do need glasses, I’m fortunate enough to have a visual impairment that can be fully addressed with corrective lenses. This book made me stop and consider what it would be like to live, not just without glasses, but with even less natural eyesight. I won’t lie. It was quite humbling.
I absolutely love the way that, in spite of her visual impairment, Ms. Whitney succeeded in describing Pen as a strong, capable, and delightfully sassy woman. Yes, Pen is legally blind, but that is far from all she is. She is a powerhouse who simply has to make adjustments in order to make life work in a physically seeing world.
And Rowan? I definitely loved him, too. Talk about a sweet, highly misunderstood man. He has his issues, but underneath it all, he is a good person who wants to be the best he can be for the goddess who captivated him at first smile.
There are so many more things that I want to say about this book, but I also feel like there’s something about it that’s like a precious journey that I don’t want to spoil for anyone. It’s a sweet and uplifting romance, but it’s also so much more.
No book is perfect for everyone, but I think you might like At First Smile if you enjoy:
🌸 Sports romance (hockey)
🌸 Grumpy x sunshine
🌸 Forced proximity
🌸 He falls first—and hard
🌸 Disability rep
🌸 Open door spicy
It’s now been months since I read this book and I still look back on it, appreciating some of the insights I gleaned from it. If that isn’t the sign of good writing, I don’t know what is.
While I do need glasses, I’m fortunate enough to have a visual impairment that can be fully addressed with corrective lenses. This book made me stop and consider what it would be like to live, not just without glasses, but with even less natural eyesight. I won’t lie. It was quite humbling.
I absolutely love the way that, in spite of her visual impairment, Ms. Whitney succeeded in describing Pen as a strong, capable, and delightfully sassy woman. Yes, Pen is legally blind, but that is far from all she is. She is a powerhouse who simply has to make adjustments in order to make life work in a physically seeing world.
And Rowan? I definitely loved him, too. Talk about a sweet, highly misunderstood man. He has his issues, but underneath it all, he is a good person who wants to be the best he can be for the goddess who captivated him at first smile.
There are so many more things that I want to say about this book, but I also feel like there’s something about it that’s like a precious journey that I don’t want to spoil for anyone. It’s a sweet and uplifting romance, but it’s also so much more.
No book is perfect for everyone, but I think you might like At First Smile if you enjoy:
🌸 Sports romance (hockey)
🌸 Grumpy x sunshine
🌸 Forced proximity
🌸 He falls first—and hard
🌸 Disability rep
🌸 Open door spicy
It’s now been months since I read this book and I still look back on it, appreciating some of the insights I gleaned from it. If that isn’t the sign of good writing, I don’t know what is.
September 15, 2024
Melissa Whitney has done it again! I am head over heels in love with Pen and Rowan. From their very first meet-cute you love them.
Not only are they absolutely adorable on their own, but together they are everything you want in a romance. Swoony, giggly, gooey....basically any adorable adjective I can think up...they're it!
Not only that, their instant dirty thoughts about the other (that has a very clear theme) had me giggling out loud. There is a physical attraction there that is described so well you can feel it.
On top of their romance, let's add in some found family in the bicoastal besties! I love Trina and JoJo! Wes, Finn, and Gillian are also high up on my list.
Basically, we have a story of an amazing FMC and MMC and seriously strong supporting characters that I fully expect to see books written about (I'm looking at you, Melissa!) *heart emoji*
On top of everything that is amazing with the relationships in this book, there is a lot of discussion about Pen's vision and how she feels, adjusts, and has to deal with others reactions to it. Her advocacy work is such a big part of the story, and it leaves you feeling fulfilled in how she approaches it. Also, there is such a clear message in the book that there is a difference between WHO you are and WHAT you are. Even if that is technically Rowan's lesson, it translates to Pen too.
I could go on and on about this book. Just know that you'll giggle, gasp, maybe blush a bit, and feel satisfied at this HEA.
Overall: highly recommend!
Not only are they absolutely adorable on their own, but together they are everything you want in a romance. Swoony, giggly, gooey....basically any adorable adjective I can think up...they're it!
Not only that, their instant dirty thoughts about the other (that has a very clear theme) had me giggling out loud. There is a physical attraction there that is described so well you can feel it.
On top of their romance, let's add in some found family in the bicoastal besties! I love Trina and JoJo! Wes, Finn, and Gillian are also high up on my list.
Basically, we have a story of an amazing FMC and MMC and seriously strong supporting characters that I fully expect to see books written about (I'm looking at you, Melissa!) *heart emoji*
On top of everything that is amazing with the relationships in this book, there is a lot of discussion about Pen's vision and how she feels, adjusts, and has to deal with others reactions to it. Her advocacy work is such a big part of the story, and it leaves you feeling fulfilled in how she approaches it. Also, there is such a clear message in the book that there is a difference between WHO you are and WHAT you are. Even if that is technically Rowan's lesson, it translates to Pen too.
I could go on and on about this book. Just know that you'll giggle, gasp, maybe blush a bit, and feel satisfied at this HEA.
Overall: highly recommend!
November 7, 2024
Wowowow, I loved this book!
Pen is a fiercely independent woman, supported by her two bicoastal besties Trina & Jojo. We meet Pen as she’s grieving the loss of her Aunt Bea while also leveliny up at work. What she didn’t expect, was to meet a sexy Canadian-Irish man on a flight gone wrong. Enter Rowan—the sensitive, sexy, manly guy I wish I’d stumble upon IRL.
Did I mention—Pen is blind. We rarely see (pun intended) protagonists who are visually impaired or living with blindness. This reality of Pen’s adds extra depth to her character and perhaps all too realistically, the challenges she faces in real life. As readers, we see how the world is determined to define her and how Pen insists on carving her own path.
I try to read books with varying representation and as someone with milder visual impairments, blindness is something I wish was represented more in fiction. Whitney does a fantastic job of educating the reader of what living with visual impairment means on many levels—but you’re too entertained by the steamy romance between Pen & Rowan to notice your empathy growing.
Speaking of Rowan…this character may ruin my dating life for a bit. I’m going to have trouble not comparing men to him😂Don’t get me wrong—like every well-rounded character, he has flaws. But lord is he hunky.
If you’re looking to read a book so entertaining that it almost feels like a story your friends are telling around the brunch table, then pick this one up. But I’m also warning you—it will make you blush, in the best way possible.
Pen is a fiercely independent woman, supported by her two bicoastal besties Trina & Jojo. We meet Pen as she’s grieving the loss of her Aunt Bea while also leveliny up at work. What she didn’t expect, was to meet a sexy Canadian-Irish man on a flight gone wrong. Enter Rowan—the sensitive, sexy, manly guy I wish I’d stumble upon IRL.
Did I mention—Pen is blind. We rarely see (pun intended) protagonists who are visually impaired or living with blindness. This reality of Pen’s adds extra depth to her character and perhaps all too realistically, the challenges she faces in real life. As readers, we see how the world is determined to define her and how Pen insists on carving her own path.
I try to read books with varying representation and as someone with milder visual impairments, blindness is something I wish was represented more in fiction. Whitney does a fantastic job of educating the reader of what living with visual impairment means on many levels—but you’re too entertained by the steamy romance between Pen & Rowan to notice your empathy growing.
Speaking of Rowan…this character may ruin my dating life for a bit. I’m going to have trouble not comparing men to him😂Don’t get me wrong—like every well-rounded character, he has flaws. But lord is he hunky.
If you’re looking to read a book so entertaining that it almost feels like a story your friends are telling around the brunch table, then pick this one up. But I’m also warning you—it will make you blush, in the best way possible.
January 6, 2025
🌟 Rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
🥵 Spice: 🥵🥵🥵🥵
📖 Synopsis: Disability advocate and social media influencer Pen Meadows is focused on her mission: grab breakfast, catch her flight, and enjoy her smutty audiobook. But a chance encounter with the sweet yet gruff Rowan Iverson, complete with an irresistible Irish lilt, throws her off course. When fate seats them together on a cross-country flight, sparks fly despite Rowan’s efforts to keep a low profile after a scandal threatens his NHL career. Back in Los Angeles, Pen discovers Rowan isn’t just the charming stranger she met; he’s a hockey player with a reputation she’s not sure she can trust. Now, Rowan must prove that his heart belongs to Pen and that he’s ready to leave his player days behind for good.
💭 A’s Thoughts: I absolutely loved this book! The spice, the characters, and even the side characters had me hooked. I devoured it in just a few hours. It had me crying, giggling, and grinning like a fool, all thanks to the thoughtful storytelling and beautiful execution. GB the boxer was beyond adorable, and Rowan? Swoon-worthy doesn’t even begin to cover it; he’s overprotective, self-aware, and the ultimate romance book boyfriend. Pen was so relatable, and I deeply admired her strength, courage, and fierce determination as she navigates life with PD. I can’t recommend this book enough. It’s a must-read!
🧡 What I Loved: Obviously Rowan and Pen! GB has my heart! And all that spice was just *chef’s kiss*
😬 What Didn't Work for Me: Nothing! I LOVED IT!
🎉 Overall Impression: I highly recommend this to the romance reader who enjoys a well done insta-love with a gorgeous Irish hockey player mmc and a strong willed and beautiful fmc.
🥵 Spice: 🥵🥵🥵🥵
📖 Synopsis: Disability advocate and social media influencer Pen Meadows is focused on her mission: grab breakfast, catch her flight, and enjoy her smutty audiobook. But a chance encounter with the sweet yet gruff Rowan Iverson, complete with an irresistible Irish lilt, throws her off course. When fate seats them together on a cross-country flight, sparks fly despite Rowan’s efforts to keep a low profile after a scandal threatens his NHL career. Back in Los Angeles, Pen discovers Rowan isn’t just the charming stranger she met; he’s a hockey player with a reputation she’s not sure she can trust. Now, Rowan must prove that his heart belongs to Pen and that he’s ready to leave his player days behind for good.
💭 A’s Thoughts: I absolutely loved this book! The spice, the characters, and even the side characters had me hooked. I devoured it in just a few hours. It had me crying, giggling, and grinning like a fool, all thanks to the thoughtful storytelling and beautiful execution. GB the boxer was beyond adorable, and Rowan? Swoon-worthy doesn’t even begin to cover it; he’s overprotective, self-aware, and the ultimate romance book boyfriend. Pen was so relatable, and I deeply admired her strength, courage, and fierce determination as she navigates life with PD. I can’t recommend this book enough. It’s a must-read!
🧡 What I Loved: Obviously Rowan and Pen! GB has my heart! And all that spice was just *chef’s kiss*
😬 What Didn't Work for Me: Nothing! I LOVED IT!
🎉 Overall Impression: I highly recommend this to the romance reader who enjoys a well done insta-love with a gorgeous Irish hockey player mmc and a strong willed and beautiful fmc.
September 16, 2024
I received an ARC but all thoughts are my own.
I am in love with this book. Pen is legally blind and has a series on social media where she shares the world from her point of view. Rowan is a hockey star who's in a bit of a pickle after punching an opposing player. They cross paths at the airport with an adorable meet cute, and from there it's off to the races in this "Own Voices" romance.
This was my first time reading this author and I was hooked from page one. I just love Pen's attitude and really enjoyed watching her grow as a person. I was cheering when she finally stood up to her mother and explained how she felt about everything going on between them. The same can be said for Rowan. Family can be complicated, and this book handled that beautifully. I love how protective Rowan was with Pen, and how he never wanted it to look like he was using her for his own purposes. He was quick to shut anything like that down!
I thought the ex factor with Pen added a little something extra to the story. It didn't feel out of place, and it wasn't over the top. Her girl gang was spectacular as well, and I adored Rowan's brothers, even if one was a bit of a jerk at the beginning. The scenes where they had brunch and just hung out were some of my favorite scenes.
The spice was just right! Not too much, just enough to add to the story. If you're looking for a book that will make you laugh but hit you in the feels as well, this is the book you're looking for.
I am in love with this book. Pen is legally blind and has a series on social media where she shares the world from her point of view. Rowan is a hockey star who's in a bit of a pickle after punching an opposing player. They cross paths at the airport with an adorable meet cute, and from there it's off to the races in this "Own Voices" romance.
This was my first time reading this author and I was hooked from page one. I just love Pen's attitude and really enjoyed watching her grow as a person. I was cheering when she finally stood up to her mother and explained how she felt about everything going on between them. The same can be said for Rowan. Family can be complicated, and this book handled that beautifully. I love how protective Rowan was with Pen, and how he never wanted it to look like he was using her for his own purposes. He was quick to shut anything like that down!
I thought the ex factor with Pen added a little something extra to the story. It didn't feel out of place, and it wasn't over the top. Her girl gang was spectacular as well, and I adored Rowan's brothers, even if one was a bit of a jerk at the beginning. The scenes where they had brunch and just hung out were some of my favorite scenes.
The spice was just right! Not too much, just enough to add to the story. If you're looking for a book that will make you laugh but hit you in the feels as well, this is the book you're looking for.
September 30, 2024
I absolutely loved this book! Thank you to Melissa for the physical ARC.
The disability rep in this book was so phenomenally done. This is an own voices story with a legally blind FMC. Pen is relatable and so well written, it was really easy connect with her. The meet cute with her and Rowan was everything. Rowan is an NHL player with a bad reputation after he very publicly hit the star player of the team that just beat Rowan's team in the Stanley cup championship game. Pen is a disability advocate influencer that uses her platform to raise awareness and understanding for her condition. These two meet in an airport, sit together on a plane, and then have a whirlwind 35 hours together after the traveling doesn't go as planned.
This book is insta lust but I loved the way it was handled. They both are immediately enamored with each other, but they both don't know who the other person is so they get to know each other for this 35 hours before reality hits them.
I laughed, I cried, my heart felt like it was being ripped out of my chest, and I walked away from this book with a little bit more understanding.
This book does have a lot of modern references (Famous people, places, current events). That isn't something that bothers me and I enjoyed it in this context, but I do know some people are not fans of that.
The disability rep in this book was so phenomenally done. This is an own voices story with a legally blind FMC. Pen is relatable and so well written, it was really easy connect with her. The meet cute with her and Rowan was everything. Rowan is an NHL player with a bad reputation after he very publicly hit the star player of the team that just beat Rowan's team in the Stanley cup championship game. Pen is a disability advocate influencer that uses her platform to raise awareness and understanding for her condition. These two meet in an airport, sit together on a plane, and then have a whirlwind 35 hours together after the traveling doesn't go as planned.
This book is insta lust but I loved the way it was handled. They both are immediately enamored with each other, but they both don't know who the other person is so they get to know each other for this 35 hours before reality hits them.
I laughed, I cried, my heart felt like it was being ripped out of my chest, and I walked away from this book with a little bit more understanding.
This book does have a lot of modern references (Famous people, places, current events). That isn't something that bothers me and I enjoyed it in this context, but I do know some people are not fans of that.
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