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Monster of My Dreams

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Shadowy tentacles are invading my dreams. And I might like it.

All I do is work and sleep, an uneventful life, to be sure.

Lately when I close my eyes, it feels like there's something there with me. The shadows touch, probe at me, and there's no explanation for it outside of the paranormal.

What I thought was a figment of imagination turned out to be a fierce shadow daddy with a protective streak. He's possessive, dangerous, and yet somehow alluring . . . I shouldn't want this, shouldn't want him. But he's everything a normal man isn't.

When my friend goes missing, he's the only one I can turn to. So I do.

Now if only I can escape this with my head--and my heart--intact.

252 pages, Kindle Edition

Published August 11, 2024

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Profile Image for Kat Simmons.
53 reviews5 followers
July 27, 2024
I received an advanced copy of the book and this review is my honest opinion.

4/5 🌶
Janie has recurring dreams (or nightmares) of shadows “disturbing” her sleep. She starts to notice shifting shadows everywhere she turns and strange flickering lights in her apartment. Janie starts to fear she is losing her mind. But when a bad date takes a terrifying turn, a creature from the shadows saves her and he becomes her only hope to find her friend.

This paranormal romance from S.R. Griffith immediately pulls us into the shadows and has our main character, Janie, wondering if her newly found Shadow Daddy, Meical, is there for nefarious reasons or truly for love. Although he continuously reassures her his actions are pure, she can’t help but be wary.

Even being an ominous creature from the darkness, Meical can really be a sweetheart. He does everything he can to win Janie’s affection, including making her meals so she eats well. He’s passionate about protecting her and comes across as a clingy, jealous puppy at times always needing to grasp at her with his tentacles. Janie is constantly reminding him that there’s a little thing called consent and just because he considers her his mate, she still has a say in how things turn out. I liked that even though he was obsessively in love with her, he always did as she pleased.

There is a lot of open-door spice between Janie and Meical.  You also get a dual point perspective from our two main characters as the story progresses.

I would highly recommend picking up this book if you like demons, monsters, shadow figures and tentacles. The spice level is high and steamy, with a dual point perspective from Janie and Meical. It’s a good story with a plot and not just smut. Those that like a quick read, will appreciate it is under 250 pages. If you like a hot, paranormal romance with a shadow daddy, tentacles and a little mystery mixed in, then definitely indulge in this read.
Profile Image for Ashley.
395 reviews25 followers
September 19, 2024
Spice: 🌶🌶🌶🌶

Tropes:
He Falls first
Monster X Human
Shadow Daddy
Paranormal Beings
Mates
Dual POV

Trigger Warnings:
Bondage
Attempted r@pe
Kidnapping
Trauma
Violence

Monster of my Dreams was a true Shadow Daddy spicey romance! The MMC, Meical, is a Monster of Shadows... but the good type- think Dexter vibes. He's not a bad Monster, but he does take out the evil of the world, by consuming them lol.

Janie, the FMC, is a lonely woman who's literally just going about the repetitions of Day by day. Until night... when she's visited in her wet dreams by Shadows.

The story wasn't what I expected haha. Medical spends his time convincing Janie that they're mates and that his touch in person is way better than those he provides in her dreams. It's a cute but very spicy story.

My favorite character is Vampire Urien. He's witty and someone I want to be bffs with haha.
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Author 8 books226 followers
August 2, 2024
Shadow figure that is possessive and sweet and has tentacles? SAY NO MORE! Reoccuring ominous dreams cause Janie to be on edge. Shadows figures following her, watching her until a bad date proves men are worse than monsters. Meical saves her and grows very attached to this human woman. All the spice and sweetness to top it off! This was such a fun read from S.R. Griffith. It was a little dark which really gave it some edge and I enjoyed it.

*ARC REVIEW, OUT 8/14
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206 reviews28 followers
August 15, 2024
A really enjoyable dark romance between a lonely human and the shadow monster obsessed with her.

Janie is lonely and working a job she hates when her dreams take a spicy and shadowy turn. But they're just dreams right? No way those shadow tentacles and claws could be real. And what does it say about her that she likes them?

A highlight of the book for me was the way Meical cares for Janie in her loneliness even before she knows him. He is just so devoted and obsessed to her happiness and safety. And although this book has some darker themes, it made their trip to the HEA more fraught but also sweeter. Janie gets into some dark situations, but her shadow mate is always there to save her. And he is also more than willing to grovel when he himself has done wrong.

And being a shadow monster certainly has some spicy advantages. Those shadow tentacles know what they're doing, and Meical's ability to manipulate his shadow anatomy makes the spicy times super hot!
254 reviews
August 20, 2024
This book came out the gate swinging with smut and it was so much fun😮‍💨

It was a good amount of romance mixed with adventure. Going along the journey with Janie finding out about and navigating the paranormal aspect was really fun. It felt like I was truly along the journey with her.

Although it was kind of aggravating how hard she tried not to see or hear what people were trying to get her to see.

I also personally felt it took her too long to accept their relationship.

But overall it was a cute and fun story with a little action in the last quarterish of the book!
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317 reviews
March 8, 2025
There is a Facebook group which features poorly written erotica - it feels like this was a product of that group. It feels like a 7th grader and AI tried to write a book. It feels like I have lost brain cells as a direct result of trying to read this.
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Dnf the sample... Normally I would just say meh and move on but this was the most poorly written book I have quite possibly ever come across. Between the typos and poor sentence structure this was unreadable. I am not normally this picky, but I have to have some standards!
Profile Image for Nora Ellen (Nbbookery).
690 reviews19 followers
August 31, 2024
When Janie finds herself becoming a plaything to a shadowy monster in her dreams, she never realizes that might spill over into her waking life. Blissfully ignorant of the paranormal, it isn't until people start acting odd around her, and she makes a fanged friend, that Janie learns her shadowy lover is siphoning her seggsual energy so he can manifest a body. When Meical does surface, he's otherwordly, terrifying, and claims Janie as his fated mate. Janie has too much going on to deal with her newfound soulmate houseguest because her friend is missing. Her vampire bestie and shadow lover help her hunt through the suspicious men of dating apps in an effort to find her friend before it's too late. What Janie doesn't realize is that all her fake dates and flirting are turning Meical into a possessive monster, and it won't be much longer before she has to stop pushing him away.

Shadow daddy with touch-starved tendrils that won't stop being touchy-feely? Where do I sign up? Meical has been in an in-between shadow phase of life for so long until he sees Janie and realizes she is his light. Siphoning off energy from the world to manifest a body and visiting his newfound mate every night renews his purpose for living. He doesn't accept her to fight him on everything or be so stubborn when he saves her. She's a spitfire. And Urian was delightful. He's a vampire with no qualms about befriending Janie and helping protect her. The team go about their mission to find her friend, but Meical and Janie are at odds about their relationship. I loved how he respected her boundaries, mostly, and let her make the choices. King. And the spice? Fantastic.
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72 reviews1 follower
August 2, 2024
This book has a way of captivating your attention and keeping it. I couldn’t put this book down. It’s not something I would usually read, but I’m glad I did. It’s so good. I decided to read it because monster romances are quite popular right now and the descriptions of the book caught my interest.

The relationship between Janie and Meical was something different from the typical dark romance relationships. I like that she didn’t automatically put everything that happened aside, she actually took time to adjust to the new situation she found herself in. And Meical, as a character, was lovable, he was all about her and helped her when she asked, because he knew it would make her happy.

I’d like to say I found aspects of this book to be rather confusing, especially with how some of the characters spoke. The way they worded sentences was strange. Maybe I missed something, and it was meant to be that way, but it felt odd to me. Hence, why I didn't rate it higher.

Overall, I loved this book and definitely recommend it if you like dark romance books and/or monster romance books. The author did a great job with it.

I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
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6,285 reviews89 followers
August 4, 2024
Lab technician Janie (h) starts experiencing disturbing and vivid dreams about a shadowy figure and her reality begins to blur. These unsettling visions turn out to be more than just dreams when Meical (H) manifests in her life, revealing himself as a supernatural being who feeds on fear and sexual energy, drawn to Janie as his mate. Bound by an inexplicable connection, Janie must navigate her complicated intense physical and emotional interactions with Meical while dealing with a series of increasingly dangerous situations. Meical’s constant presence, both comforting and invasive, forces Janie to confront her feelings for him. Her life takes a darker turn when her friend Tana goes missing, prompting Janie to join forces with Meical and his vampire ally Urien to uncover the truth. As Janie dives deeper into a world filled with supernatural threats, she faces numerous perils and discovers unexpected strengths within herself, even as her connection with Meical grows. Hot and steamy dark monster-human romance with dream play, public play, tentacles, bondage, and more, exploring fear, desire, love, connection, growth, and embracing the unknown.
Profile Image for Briana Bailon.
854 reviews16 followers
August 13, 2025
3⭐️/ 4🌶️

A spicy, fast paced monster romance that was surprisingly entertaining and interesting. I went into this book wanting pure smut and I got exactly that, but I also got a monster who was absolutely in love with the FMC, Janie, and this story had mates! Janie found herself struggling with getting sleep, and that was all due to the mysterious monster creeping in her dreams, and….railing her and pleasuring her in all kinds of ways in her dreams. Little did Janie know that the monster in her dreams would later appear in physical form and profess his undying love for her! Meical surprisingly had some endearing moments where he did whatever he could to prove his loyalty and affection for Janie, but also committing acts of violence in order to protect her too. There was also a bit of a plot line in the story that I wasn’t expecting, but I wasn’t fully invested in it. All in all, this was just an easy, fun monster romance that I enjoyed, and gave me the fix that I was wanting in the monster romance department. Would recommend if you want something spicy with a monster who is all shadows, hot, and did I mention he uses said shadow tentacles in a variety of ways?! Now you know.
Profile Image for Darcy.
2,158 reviews23 followers
July 29, 2024
I loved this story. It is one that pulls you in right from the very beginning. It has a bit of spice, action, drama, and a bit of suspense. We meet Janie who has a personality that is sweet and caring but you can see she is going through some things. We meet Meical soon and boy do I love his personality. At times I feel bad for him because Janie tends to get upset with him. Now, that is not saying she wasn’t justified in her anger but I still feel bad for him all the same. He has this super caring and protective personality that is felt throughout the story. It has bits of humor at times that had me laughing. I loved the side characters as they really added the story. I think my favorite was Urien. He totally had me laughing at his antics and his personality was fantastic. This story is extremely well written and developed. It will have you on the edge of your seat. It pulled me in and I couldn’t put it down until I reached the end. This is absolutely a fantastic story that does not disappoint.
Profile Image for ❁ Ashton ❀.
174 reviews69 followers
September 22, 2024
"Shadowy tentacles are invading my dreams. And I might like it" - The very first line of the book and I'm already sold. A monster and his shadow with tentacles and a shape / size changing 🍆? YES PLEASE!!!

I am definitely in my monster / PNR romance era! I enjoyed this book a LOT!! It had it all- a strong mysterious plot, a "bad guy" MMC who is a total golden retriever, a lonely human FMC who was thrusted into the magical world by her stalker. Her lightness vs his darkness created the perfect tension., Where evil is shown to be the opposite.. I swear these books have me rooting for the "bad guys" but i could only love Meical!!

I loved Janie and Meical!! This is the first book by this author and i will definitely have to look at her other books!! The amount of heat and spice, my, oh, my 🥵🌶️!!

“Belay that order, Urien. I have her,” - AHHHHH my favourite line in the book! 😍😍 I swooned!! The possessive and protective way he came to her rescue ... This monster and his shadows has my heart!!

“You. Only you. Everything that makes you you is perfect.” ✨5/5, ✨
Profile Image for Lisa Bing.
6,237 reviews70 followers
August 13, 2024
Once again, this author has given me a wild reading ride that took me outside what I expected and left me thrilled with the outcome. Janie and Meical were so well suited to each other and I loved the journey she went on to prove her sanity over movements in the shadows and her crazy tentacle dreams. She ends up discovering there's a whole world outside of what she ever thought, including witches, vampires and demons. Meical has hid from all self care and is so weak when he feels Janie is his mate. Well, he courts her in dreams but takes her energy to become physical again. Explains her exhaustion ;) Now that he's here with her, though, he has to work to prove he's sincere in his feelings - and to keep her safe. With fab side characters and great steam, this was an engaging page turner for me. Loved it!
Profile Image for Victoria Golby.
1,734 reviews13 followers
August 24, 2024
Dreaming of Shadow Monsters

This was good, with humor, banter, spice, mystery demons, monsters, tentacles and plenty of steamy paranormal romance.

Janie has been sleeping restlessly for a while with shadows disturbing her sleep but when she starts to notice shadows following her everywhere she starts to worry she's losing her mind. When a date takes a bad turn she finds herself being saved by the creature hiding in those shadows. Then when her friend Tana goes missing Janie turns to Meical and his vampire friend for help in finding her.

Meical is focused on protecting Janie as he believes he's found his mate in her, and just wants to do everything for her; though he does need to watch where he puts his tentacles.

I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
Profile Image for tattooedbooknerdgirl35 (Amanda Lynn).
551 reviews20 followers
October 15, 2024
This book was pretty good for a monster romance. S.R. Griffith can really tell a good book. The plots to their books and characters are just so amazing. This book you won’t want to put down before the story ends.

This story is about a woman named Janie who hasn’t had good luck meeting guys and feeling a pull towards them. She’s had steamy dreams about a monster with black mist. They feel so real in the morning she notices things that weren’t there before she went to bed.

Meical a monster is gaining strength through the dreams he is in with Janie and he has been having feelings for her since the first time he saw her. He finally becomes whole and Mets Janie and doesn’t go so well at first. Read and find out what happens between Meical & Janie and all the other twist and turns in this monster romance.
Profile Image for Librosentrelazos.
273 reviews2 followers
August 31, 2024
This monster romance was very fun to read! I love an obsessive MMC like the rest of us but mixed it with a little paranormal and shadows, I’m sold!

The world that S.R. created is very unique, the different kind of monsters running around living their lives alongside the “normies” was very realistic and I loved that!

The relationship between Janie and Meical has a lot of twists and turns, and I loved that Janie always reminded Meical the importance of consent, she didn’t fall immediately just because of the sexual chemistry and that was very refreshing.

The mystery and the sidekick characters added a nice touch to the story but I could’ve used more depth.

Thank you so much for the opportunity to read this as an ARC.
Profile Image for Shion Black.
34 reviews6 followers
August 1, 2024
*Thank you to the author who gifted me an ARC copy of this book*

I had so much fun reading this book!
The author puts an interesting spin on the fated mates trope and brings a shadow daddy to life unlike the ones we are used to reading about - a bit more... primal

Janie & Meical are so sweet together... he is a very possessive MMC who would do anything to win over his mates' heart - even cook for her!
The FMC struggles with every day issues like self-love and loneliness which makes her relatable

The spice is HOT and frequent in this book! We also get a not-so-traditional HEA
At 220 pages, it was a fun and easy read which made me smile
Profile Image for Sara  Persman.
232 reviews3 followers
August 2, 2024
I wasn't certain what to expect with this book, but I was pleasantly surprised! I love a good paranormal book, especially since the monster was a multitasker lol, in regards to the story I loved how the FMC wasn't overly confident but things built along the way, she found a family in a sense and that she over came a lot in her journey. This felt like a book that had a happy ending but also felt a bit grey, like things were just really starting. Either way, I was happy to be able to read this and again I truly enjoyed it!.

Profile Image for Amanda Hetchler.
65 reviews2 followers
August 22, 2024
I'm so sad this book is over! Monster of My Dreams was so good! It had spice, banter, humor, and everything I wanted in a paranormal romance.

I loved MMC Meical! He was so sweet and thoughtful! I wouldn't mind having one of him invading my dreams 😉. All he wanted was Janie's love and did EVERYTHING to get it.
At first, I wasn't sure about the FMC, Janie, but as the book went on, I really enjoyed the banter between her and the other characters.

But I think the star of the show should go to Urien! Oh my gosh, was he such a great character! He was hilarious, and I just loved his personally from the start.

This was my first read from this author, and it didn't disappoint!! I am so glad I had the opportunity to receive an ARC edition to voluntarily leave a review.
3,273 reviews20 followers
September 30, 2024

Shadows And Tentacles
Janie’s reoccurring dreams are getting dark - and she’s starting to see shadows when she’s awake. Is shadow Meical protective of Janie, or dangerous to her health? One thing is for sure, their interactions sure are steamy!! While a quick-ish read, this one has depth, and with dual point-of-view, you really feel like you know Janie and Meical. Plus, I really enjoyed how the paranormal world was unveiled to Janie - hoped there’s more to be written in this world! A great read.
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639 reviews20 followers
September 9, 2024
Gleeful Goblin Review: This book is a little darker than I tend to read but I saw mention of shadow monster/tendrils so I couldn't help myself. The tone of this story is definitely (no pun intended) a good bit on the dark side. Definitely check the trigger/content warnings for this story but if you like your shadow monsters and your stories to be equally dark then you'll certainly be into this story. 5/5 Stars
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39 reviews
July 25, 2024
If you liked Death's Obsession you'd LOVE this book. Meical is absolutely the monster anyone would dream of. I was screaming at Janie to give in as Meical just had me swooning. The banter between the two had me laughing out loud & the spice is certainly on point. Highly recommend if you'd like a short, light read but with a twisting plot & a whole hidden world.
Profile Image for Lulu Williams.
280 reviews2 followers
September 8, 2024
This is a first from this author for me and definitely did not disappoint . My only question is where can I get a shadow daddy of my own lol. Hmm a shadow daddy with tentacles… He is like what we want in monster and man. I love this full of steam humor action and mystery.

I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
Profile Image for Ciji Jacober.
238 reviews6 followers
August 5, 2024
This a very cute and spicy story about Janie and Meical’s journey to happily ever after. There is bad guys, good guys, and luckily for Janie, a shadow tendril wielding monster with a touch her and die attitude.
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745 reviews
October 24, 2025
3 stars for the sex scenes, other than that it would be in the 2 star range. Most of this book is oddly written, with things often getting repeated. The same conversations happening multiple times, just with different words.
134 reviews1 follower
August 26, 2024
Human + shadow monster. Janie makes some interesting choices and makes some friends along the way. Loved meical. Possessive, tentacles, shape shifting, shadow monster.
Profile Image for heather krym.
72 reviews
August 2, 2024
This story was very well writing. There was a main character that, in my own head, reminded me of Johnny depp's reenactment of the mad hatter. So I kept giggling to myself whenever he came up. The spicy scenes were spicing for sure. I really enjoyed the fantasy, the world, and the mystery.
Profile Image for Anna.
169 reviews4 followers
October 27, 2024
A very different type of story than I usually read, but it surprised me!

We meet Janie, a shy and reserved girl who mostly keeps to herself. We quickly learn that she seems to be having very spicy dreams about an unknown man. Then she starts to discover that this man is a “monster” invading her dreams and feeding off her sexual desires and feelings. This starts to open her eyes to the magical underbelly of her city, hiding in plain sight. When her 1 work friend goes missing, she works with her monster lover and magical friend to find out what happened.

This book is HIGH spice, so I appreciated the interspersed plot throughout. The underlying storyline of trying to save Janie’s friend was well-written and compelling. We also worked through a lot of trust issues that Janie had, given the dubious consent that occurred between her and Meical earlier in the story. Once he was with her in physical world, he worked hard to gain her trust after her near-r@pe and what occurred in her dreams. If you are a fan of monster romance, shadow daddy, bondage, and save the girl, give this story a read!

I received an advanced review copy for free. This review contains my honest opinion and is being left voluntarily.
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