Holy shit. Best murder mystery/romance I’ve read in a long while.
I’m still trying to sort through my thoughts after finishing it.
Let’s get to the first thing that I absolutely loved, but that got me a bit to get used to: Everett Larkin, who works in the Cold Case unit, is… something else. He’s suffering of Hyperthymesia, which - if you google - is the rare ability to recall nearly all past experiences in great detail. The causes of HSAM are currently unknown, but here, it seems to have its origins in a former head trauma. And you might say - that’s great, he’s the perfect cop, always taking everything in, never forgetting any detail, always analysing, processing, remembering. And the way the story is told, we’re in his head all the time, cataloguing, remembering, noticing details others would overlook. Every date, every time stamp makes him remember, his busy brain jumping around and making connections where others would see white noise.
So as you can see, it’s not just awesome. It’s a blessing and a curse. He’s remembering everything, reliving every detail, every traumatic, messy experience, every fight with his husband.
Because yes, he’s married. And his husband Noah isn’t a villain, but they’re not good together, both trying, but being toxic for each other nevertheless. And even though I really want to see Larkin and Doyle together, my heart broke a bit for Noah, too. He really tries, but he’s just not good with (and for) Larkin.
And there’s Ira Doyle. I KNOW, RIGHT???? Of all names, why another Doyle when we already have another awesome cop-couple, Valor & Doyle? But while both Doyles are cops, they’re different enough: Ira Doyle is an artist, specialised on reconstructing faces, or drawing accurate images of people from the description of others alone.
Ira is warm and charming where Larkin is not, has a warm voice where Larkin speaks with almost no infliction. And he instinctively knows how to deal with Larkin, touching - and awakening- him underneath his efficient, almost emotionless shell.
I can’t even begin to describe how their budding relationship moved me, and how my heart broke for how lonely Larkin was despite being married.
If you’re expecting smut - this is not it. It’s very slow burn, but their relationship develops just at the right pace to be believable and real.
The mystery had me on my toes: I’m usually pretty good with finding out who the murderer is, but here I think I found out at the same time Larkin did.
So good.
And the last paragraph???? Are you kidding me????
What I also LOVED was the narration by Kale Williams. It’s told from Larkin’s (3rd person) pov, and Larkin’s voice is - as mentioned - a bit toneless, at least usually. And he speaks (and thinks) quite quickly, so I really had to pay attention to what he said and thought. But once I got used to it, I realised that the voice Kale chose to give Larkin fit him perfectly.
So good. Really. I’m still reeling and can’t wait to start listening to book 2.
Thank you, Kati, again one of your recs managed to blow me away 🥰