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328 pages, Paperback
First published October 5, 2023
The word for egg in Dutch is ei. In German it is Ei in Yiddish ey in Old English ey. The word for egg in Norwegian is egg in Icelandic it is egg in Faroese egg in Swedish ägg in Danish æg. In Old Norse the word is egg in Middle English egge. (In French it is oeuf.) (In Scots Gaelic it is ugh.)
‘Her selfishness kept reappearing in so many different forms. She would recognize it in one form attack it think she knew her enemy. Then as she was occupied with struggling against it it would reappear in another form or rather she would recognize it in the form of something that had been so familiar to her so constantly there that she had never suspected that it too was a form of selfishness. Oh she would then say so that is also selfishness.
Was it like a cancer?—just like! Because as she was fighting it in one spot with all her weapons she would recognize it in another spot. And as she was fighting it in that spot she would see it in another. It was everywhere. But it was not like cancer after all because it had always been there. And she would probably not die of it.’
‘—In any case I would rather suffer a slight discomfort than be complicit in the felling of old-growth trees in Canadian boreal forests merely in order to enjoy virgin toilet paper that is softer and tears more neatly.’
‘He had at one time spoken French fluently and took pleasure in conversing with the French. He was able also to read German, Latin and Greek. But as he read less and less and ceased to welcome foreign visitors into his house he began to forget these languages. And as he forgot them he also came to feel that to be so very well educated was the privilege of only a few not the many and he preferred to be one of the many or to see himself as one of the many—.’
Betrayal (Tired Version)
Sometimes in fact what I want most is to be left alone. Is this because I am so extremely tired? Then my fantasy of a relationship with another man, a man other than my husband simply involves being left alone. My lover who is sometimes faceless if I haven't yet decided who he is comes to my door and I tell him to leave. Go away. I do not even have to be polite. Leave. Then I can remain alone. I can rest. But of course it is an important part of the fantasy for him to want to be with me and come looking for me. I ask myself after all How can I dream of anything more active if I'm so very tired? When I am so tired I can't even manage a fantasy about having any company at all even sitting side by side on a sofa. So I say:
Sometimes in fact my dearest wish is to be left entirely alone. A lover will come to the door and I will turn him away. Go. I do not even have to be polite.
But because it still seems wrong to have in my fantasy a relationship with another man that is concealed from my husband even if the fantasy is about telling the lover to go away the fantasy itself still feels like a betrayal.
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