In the aftermath of the censer's spell, Mo Ran awakens on Dragonblood Mountain beside a slumbering Chu Wanning, everything between them forever changed. Yet before he can explain himself, Hua Binan--the mastermind behind their plight--arrives on the scene and kidnaps Chu Wanning, leaving Mo Ran utterly alone.
Down the mountain, a man with Mo Ran's face has been committing heinous crimes, and the cultivation world clamors for blood. Helpless to rescue Chu Wanning and fearful of the consequences for Sisheng Peak, Mo Ran returns to face the justice of Tianyin Pavilion and the darkness of his buried past.
Meanwhile, trapped in Hua Binan's grasp, Chu Wanning is haunted by dreams of his past life--the life he shared with Taxian-jun. What he discovers in them stands to change everything he thought he knew about Mo Ran's bloody path to becoming the cruel tyrant he once was.
This was an incredibly difficult volume to get through, not only because of the overwhelming angst but also due to the slow pacing that tested my patience. The pacing in this volume was barely tolerable; it dragged on so slowly that it felt as though nothing significant was happening, even when a lot was actually occurring within the story. It genuinely pushed my limits, and I found myself questioning whether I still enjoyed reading it. The answer is yes, I did still enjoy it, but I also experienced more annoyance with this volume than with any of the previous ones.
The plot revolves heavily around angst and more angst, often veering into melodrama. Some moments did bring tears to my eyes, yet the sluggish pacing and repetitive narrative ultimately diminished the overall emotional impact.
However, the most compelling part of this volume was Chu Wanning's character arc. I greatly enjoyed seeing him interact with Mo Ran from the 0.5 timeline. Every scene featuring both of them was incredibly powerful—their dialogues and interactions were so well-crafted. The feelings of hurt, betrayal, longing, even more hurt, love, hate—all the complex emotions intertwined between them created a deeply engaging and emotionally rich experience.
Mo Ran, on the other hand, made me realize just how reckless and foolish he can be in this volume. Without Chu Wanning by his side, he tends to make some of the dumbest decisions, which often frustrates me. I personally dislike characters who sacrifice themself for others, and Mo Ran's actions in this volume fit that pattern perfectly. While his behavior annoyed me a lot, I also felt immense sorrow for him—life continues to be unfair to him, and I couldn't help but feel sympathetic towards his suffering.
Xue Meng remained my source of comfort once again. I'm not entirely sure why, but there's something about narcissistic characters with a soft, caring heart inside that makes me feel so attached to them. I love him dearly and find his personality incredibly captivating.
In conclusion, the pacing issues in this volume significantly diminished my overall enjoyment. Similarly, some characters' actions made me feel frustrated and disappointed. Despite these drawbacks, I still love this danmei series and am eagerly looking forward to starting volume 9.
"I'm the one who didn’t protect you properly. I let you become someone else’s pawn. I let you become a monstrous tyrant.
No one knows who you really are. No one knows you were once kind and innocent. No one knows how you once fretted over the earthworms you couldn’t save on a rainy day, how you once smiled brilliantly before a pond of lotuses in full bloom.
Everyone thinks you’re cold-blooded and heartless. They don’t know you once scratched your head and said bashfully, “It—it’s not like I can do anything special. But when I was little, I didn’t have a place to stay. When I have money to spare in the future, I’ll build lots of houses so people like me have somewhere to live. Wouldn’t that be nice?”
Everyone hates you for being a ruthless butcher, but they don’t know you once told me, “Shizun, I want a holy weapon like Tianwen. It can tell lies from truth, and it can save lives.”
Everyone curses your existence, wishes you’d meet a terrible end. And even though I know the truth now, I still can’t give your dignity back to you."
This book was both amazing and not fun at all. It reminds me of vol 3 of BAB- emotionally brutal from beginning to end without relief. Short book but loaded with reveals. I am so jealous of people who have finished this entire story because the wait is excruciating.
I don’t think these are spoilers but just in case beware: 🥟How does such a perfect man still think so lowly of himself, blame himself, have body dysmorphia, etc. Chu Wanning is absolute perfection and I won’t listen to any CW slander EVER. 🥟Dying at the golden dragon on someone’s 🍆 I cannot with Meatbun right now. 🥟Xue Meng💔. Please PLEASE give him a HE. 🥟I think I still might be a little confused about chap 252
Meatbun, I offer you a respectful fuck you. I don’t know how many more tears and throwing-book-across-the-rooms I have left in me. I need you to give Mo Ran a happy ending or I will literally unalive myself.
Meatbun is such a genius. Volume 8 was fucking insane holy shit. The way everything is starting to connect??? Can’t believe i’m gonna have to wait another 4 months for volume 9 😭
*Ignoring all the suffering in this volume* MY GOD, THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR!! MO-ZONGSHI, TAXIAN-JUN, AND CHU WANNING MEETING ALL AT ONCE!!!
"i'm so dumb. i don't know how i ended up in this hopeless darkness. i don't know how it came to this. when i think back on it, everything was a mistake. i can no longer find mom. or shizun. please. hell is too cold. let me go back, won't you..? i want to go home."
edit (04/19/25): finally got my copy of this and amendment! it doesn’t contain the SADDEST stuff in the entire novel but some very sad stuff nonetheless. two of the illustrations in this are so 🥰🥰 when (not if. when) i reread this, ill be able to give my thoughts on the actual volume.
original (12/24/24): my predictions about the chapters in this novel are correct, this contains the saddest stuff ever 🥲🥲 read at ur own risk... actually heartbreaking stuff
(will read the actual official translation when it publishes and make sure but this is HORRIFYINGLY SAD. i love this book already and need it in my hands right now).
“i can no longer find mom. or shizun. please. hell is too cold. let me go back, won’t you…? i want to go home.”
“it’s cold as ice. if i could, i’d be the candle waiting at the fork in your winter road. i’d burn my entire life up to light your way home. why are you so cold…? i don’t know how long i can burn for you. what if my life is exhausted, what if i burn out? what if my flame is extinguished, but you’re still walking into the darkness, refusing to turn back? what would i do then?”
how can someone write something so devastatingly beautiful?? atp i don't know what to say, just kill me it's going to hurt less.
🔹 In both of his lives, he'd wanted to be good. He'd failed to do so his past life, and in this one... How could he make up for it? If he were to say he'd once dreamed of saving the common people, who would believe him?
He'd be mocked, berated, and derided.
He was Mo Weiyu, he was Emperor Taxian-jun. No one would forgive him... Only then might he have the right to cautiously say: I too would want to be Chu Wanning. Please, don't laugh at this wish of mine. Don't make fun of me. I know I'm dumb. For a long time. I had no one by my side. That's how I lived for two lifetimes, walking the wrong path for twenty years. I'm so dumb. I don't know how I ended up in this hopeless darkness. I don't know how was a mistake. it came to this. When I think back on it, everything, I can no longer find Mom. Or Shizun.
Please. Hell is too cold. Let me go back, won't you...!
I want to go home.
🔹 It's cold as ice. If I could, I'd be the candle waiting at the fork in your winter road. I'd burn my entire life up to light your way home. Why are you so cold...? I don't know how long I can burn for you. What if my life is ex- hausted, what if I burn out? What if my flame is extinguished, but you're still walking into the darkness, refusing to turn back? What would I do then?
Reading this volume filled me with anguish. I've been grappling with the overwhelming emotions it left me with—completely shattered by Moran's past and his relentless suffering, watching his very tender soul be torn figuratively to pieces again and again. At the same time, I felt a mix of sadness, frustration, and even fleeting happiness during the tender moments CWN and TXJ share in the cave, blissfully content while Moran is tied up, starving, and suffering yet again, likely awaiting a death sentence.
I understand that TXJ still has goodness in him—he loves CWN and wants him all to himself. It makes me happy to see these kind sides of him and how different he is too, all while he fights against the flower's power and savagely speaks to Hua Binan, putting him in his place. But as a reader who has grown attached to Moran 2.0, witnessing all of this unfold simultaneously is heartbreaking.
Not to mention the frustrating moments of Hua Binan and my wanting to hop in the book and strangle him to pieces.
4.4/5 because of the amount of overwhelming mix of feelings.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
This volume has me in a bit of a deadlock. On one hand, I do think Meatbun can deliver genuinely strong dramatic moments and great characterization; on the other, I genuinely think the story is being dragged out.
There’s a constant introduction of new twists and villains, and each time we’re asked to invest in yet another extensive backstory to understand their motivations. The frustrating part is that these backstories are often well-written, but I’m at a point where I want the narrative to zero-in on Mo Ran and Chu Wanning. I don’t particularly care about how Hua Binan connects to Tianyin Pavilion, nor do I need another drawn-out backstory in the same vein as Xu Shuanglin/Nangong Liu now potentially repeated with Mu Yanli/Hua Binan.
Some of the twists also seem so convenient, which adds to my sense that the story is stalling rather than progressing i.e.
This volume also(also) continues the trend of gratuitous sexual violence, which I’m really struggling with. Earlier volumes allowed Taxian-jun to be monstrous without forcing me to witness repeated, step-by-step assaults on Chu Wanning. Here, those scenes feel so excessive and unnecessarily graphic, and as if that weren’t enough, we also get a scene involving Hua Binan assaulting Chu Wanning, only narrowly being stopped short before penetrative rape.
Overall there are still moments of what makes the series compelling, but the pacing, repetition, and reliance on shock value are starting to wear me down and I’m ready for Meatbun to finish her story.