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Touch Within the Abyss
A love story between two lonely people, spun with overwhelming artistic skill. A promising debut work from a new star!
"If you knew the real me... you'd be disappointed."
Hitman Chinatsu once failed to pull the trigger on his target and it cost him his brother's life. That day, the sole witness who took Chinatsu's trembling hand had clear eyes that stared right through him... straight into the abyss within.
Five years later, a purse-snatching reunites Chinatsu with his savior: Kasumi, a young blind man searching for a way out of his own lonely world. Chinatsu knows better than to get involved with a potential witness, but he can't help but be drawn to Kasumi's radiant smile. If Kasumi knew the truth of their provenance, could he ever forgive the sins of Chinatsu's past?
"If you knew the real me... you'd be disappointed."
Hitman Chinatsu once failed to pull the trigger on his target and it cost him his brother's life. That day, the sole witness who took Chinatsu's trembling hand had clear eyes that stared right through him... straight into the abyss within.
Five years later, a purse-snatching reunites Chinatsu with his savior: Kasumi, a young blind man searching for a way out of his own lonely world. Chinatsu knows better than to get involved with a potential witness, but he can't help but be drawn to Kasumi's radiant smile. If Kasumi knew the truth of their provenance, could he ever forgive the sins of Chinatsu's past?
208 pages, Paperback
First published October 7, 2022
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February 14, 2023
I can't believe this is a debut work.
The murderer incapable of killing and the dreamer incapable of seeing.
The quality. Honestly, the art alone is good enough to give it five stars right off the bat. The way Kasumi and Chinatsu are presented as polar opposites, not only in personalities, but with their portrayal, with one full of light, the most delicate strokes and the other being a walking shadow, full of gloom. What stands out for me is how we get to know them, how we get to see how they bled into each other: they're not as pure, not as corrupted.
They're just endearing. The gentleness which with they communicate has me in shambles.
100000/5, I can't believe how short it's, I would gladly read a 600-page book of these two.
The murderer incapable of killing and the dreamer incapable of seeing.
The quality. Honestly, the art alone is good enough to give it five stars right off the bat. The way Kasumi and Chinatsu are presented as polar opposites, not only in personalities, but with their portrayal, with one full of light, the most delicate strokes and the other being a walking shadow, full of gloom. What stands out for me is how we get to know them, how we get to see how they bled into each other: they're not as pure, not as corrupted.
They're just endearing. The gentleness which with they communicate has me in shambles.
100000/5, I can't believe how short it's, I would gladly read a 600-page book of these two.
September 6, 2025
Absolutely gorgeous artwork in this story!
Chinatsu is a hitman haunted by a mistake that cost him dearly.
Kasumi is a blind man quietly navigating his own isolation.
Their reunion weaves these characters together in a way that feels both meant to be, yet very fragile.
"When you look at me, I want to become the version of me you see".
Tropes:
Gay romance/Yaoi
Hitman with a conscience
Found family
Blind H
Fated reunion
Sunshine x broody
Secrets and hidden identity
Forbidden romance
Redemption arc
Steamy, but not overly graphic
HEA
Touching, tragic and heartfelt. Looking forward to seeing what else this author creates.
Chinatsu is a hitman haunted by a mistake that cost him dearly.
Kasumi is a blind man quietly navigating his own isolation.
Their reunion weaves these characters together in a way that feels both meant to be, yet very fragile.
"When you look at me, I want to become the version of me you see".
Tropes:
Gay romance/Yaoi
Hitman with a conscience
Found family
Blind H
Fated reunion
Sunshine x broody
Secrets and hidden identity
Forbidden romance
Redemption arc
Steamy, but not overly graphic
HEA
Touching, tragic and heartfelt. Looking forward to seeing what else this author creates.
June 25, 2023
Read this for the concept of a blind boy and assassin who can't kill, ended up crying due to the explorations of how trauma can impact your self worth to the point where you don't believe you deserve goodness, but once you find happiness and safety, you can begin to hope and break free.
September 12, 2023
3.5
Nếu biết con người thật của tôi... hẳn em sẽ thất vọng lắm.
Sát thủ Chinatsu đã gặp lại định mệnh của anh ta, Kasumi. Năm đó, Kasumi đã chìa tay ra để Chinatsu nắm lấy trong lúc tuyệt vọng nhất. Giờ đây vô tình gặp lại nhau, Chinatsu biết được Kasumi bị mù và không khỏi không muốn giúp đỡ Kasumi, mặc cho Chinatsu biết rằng nếu tiếp xúc với anh ta, Kasumi có thể gặp nguy hiểm...
Chinatsu đã mang nỗi dằn vặt vì bản thân đã khiến anh trai chết. Là một sát thủ nhưng Chinatsu quá mong manh, yếu đuối trong cái thế giới phức tạp và đen tối đó. Tiếp xúc và sống trong thế giới như thế không khỏi khiến Chinatsu nhìn cuộc sống một cách u ám, cô đơn. Kasumi, người luôn thấy bản thân vô dụng vì đã bị mù, và để trọng trách gia đình đè nặng lên vai em trai. Kasumi dần quên đi dáng vẻ của cuộc sống, phải làm quen với một thế giới chỉ có màu đen, nhưng Kasumi khác với Chinatsu vì cậu lúc nào cũng cười, cũng cố gắng nhìn và tìm kiếm ánh sáng của cuộc sống.
Chinatsu và Kasumi đều chạm vào "màn đêm" của nhau, giải thoát sự cô đơn của đối phương. Chinatsu dẫn bước cho Kasumi, khiến cậu dần trở nên hạnh phúc dù Chinatsu hiểu rằng điều này không ổn. Kasumi giúp cho Chinatsu nhìn ra vẻ đẹp và niềm vui của cuộc sống mà anh đã mất đi. Cùng dẫn dắt nhau trong màn đêm tối tăm vẫn ẩn chứa một vẻ đẹp, dù thế Chinatsu vẫn không khỏi lo lắng, tự trách mình về sự nguy hiểm mà anh ta có thể đem đến cho Kasumi.
Bản thân mình thích nét vẽ của tác giả, nó đẹp. Nét vẽ và truyện dễ thương, nhiều khoảnh khắc Chinatsu và Kasumi trông đáng yêu và ngọt ngào, đẹp cũng có nhiều tiếng cười nhưng truyện vẫn luôn phản phất một màu đen. Mình nhìn Chinatsu mà cứ nghĩ tới Sangwoo trong Killing Stalking: Deluxe Edition Vol. 1 =))
Mình thấy mối quan hệ của Chinatsu và Kasumi bắt đầu hơi gượng, bù lại diễn biến truyện lại đẹp và hay. Mình thích cái cách Kasumi nhìn và cảm nhận Chinatsu, dù bị mù nhưng Kasumi nhận biết được vẻ đẹp bên trong con người Chinatsu bằng chính tâm hồn. Mình thích câu chuyện "Cá heo và rắn biển", Cá heo biết Rắn biển có độc nhưng vẫn để cho Rắn biển dẫn đường cho mình. Khoảnh khắc bình minh ở bãi biển là thứ ánh sáng soi chiếu cuộc đời mới của Chinatsu và Kasumi.
Mình vẫn muốn tác giả dành thời gian cho câu chuyện về sự phức tạp trong cuộc sống của Chinatsu nhiều hơn cơ, lúc nhìn thấy quyển này mình tưởng nó sẽ máu me, bạo lực hơn thế; mình cũng thắc liệu việc sát thủ có dễ từ bỏ muốn đi là đi thế không? Sau nhiều ngày mình quyết định còn 3.5 vì truyện thiếu thực tế. Quyển này là debut nên còn thiếu sót cũng phải, nhưng nó kiểu như dành cho mấy tâm hồn mơ mộng, HE các kiểu =)) không thực tế!
Nếu biết con người thật của tôi... hẳn em sẽ thất vọng lắm.
Sát thủ Chinatsu đã gặp lại định mệnh của anh ta, Kasumi. Năm đó, Kasumi đã chìa tay ra để Chinatsu nắm lấy trong lúc tuyệt vọng nhất. Giờ đây vô tình gặp lại nhau, Chinatsu biết được Kasumi bị mù và không khỏi không muốn giúp đỡ Kasumi, mặc cho Chinatsu biết rằng nếu tiếp xúc với anh ta, Kasumi có thể gặp nguy hiểm...
Chinatsu đã mang nỗi dằn vặt vì bản thân đã khiến anh trai chết. Là một sát thủ nhưng Chinatsu quá mong manh, yếu đuối trong cái thế giới phức tạp và đen tối đó. Tiếp xúc và sống trong thế giới như thế không khỏi khiến Chinatsu nhìn cuộc sống một cách u ám, cô đơn. Kasumi, người luôn thấy bản thân vô dụng vì đã bị mù, và để trọng trách gia đình đè nặng lên vai em trai. Kasumi dần quên đi dáng vẻ của cuộc sống, phải làm quen với một thế giới chỉ có màu đen, nhưng Kasumi khác với Chinatsu vì cậu lúc nào cũng cười, cũng cố gắng nhìn và tìm kiếm ánh sáng của cuộc sống.
Chinatsu và Kasumi đều chạm vào "màn đêm" của nhau, giải thoát sự cô đơn của đối phương. Chinatsu dẫn bước cho Kasumi, khiến cậu dần trở nên hạnh phúc dù Chinatsu hiểu rằng điều này không ổn. Kasumi giúp cho Chinatsu nhìn ra vẻ đẹp và niềm vui của cuộc sống mà anh đã mất đi. Cùng dẫn dắt nhau trong màn đêm tối tăm vẫn ẩn chứa một vẻ đẹp, dù thế Chinatsu vẫn không khỏi lo lắng, tự trách mình về sự nguy hiểm mà anh ta có thể đem đến cho Kasumi.
Bản thân mình thích nét vẽ của tác giả, nó đẹp. Nét vẽ và truyện dễ thương, nhiều khoảnh khắc Chinatsu và Kasumi trông đáng yêu và ngọt ngào, đẹp cũng có nhiều tiếng cười nhưng truyện vẫn luôn phản phất một màu đen. Mình nhìn Chinatsu mà cứ nghĩ tới Sangwoo trong Killing Stalking: Deluxe Edition Vol. 1 =))
Mình thấy mối quan hệ của Chinatsu và Kasumi bắt đầu hơi gượng, bù lại diễn biến truyện lại đẹp và hay. Mình thích cái cách Kasumi nhìn và cảm nhận Chinatsu, dù bị mù nhưng Kasumi nhận biết được vẻ đẹp bên trong con người Chinatsu bằng chính tâm hồn. Mình thích câu chuyện "Cá heo và rắn biển", Cá heo biết Rắn biển có độc nhưng vẫn để cho Rắn biển dẫn đường cho mình. Khoảnh khắc bình minh ở bãi biển là thứ ánh sáng soi chiếu cuộc đời mới của Chinatsu và Kasumi.
Mình vẫn muốn tác giả dành thời gian cho câu chuyện về sự phức tạp trong cuộc sống của Chinatsu nhiều hơn cơ, lúc nhìn thấy quyển này mình tưởng nó sẽ máu me, bạo lực hơn thế; mình cũng thắc liệu việc sát thủ có dễ từ bỏ muốn đi là đi thế không? Sau nhiều ngày mình quyết định còn 3.5 vì truyện thiếu thực tế. Quyển này là debut nên còn thiếu sót cũng phải, nhưng nó kiểu như dành cho mấy tâm hồn mơ mộng, HE các kiểu =)) không thực tế!
September 17, 2025
Angry axolotl, I just might need you to be my manga dealer - that was incredible for a standalone! And the art, MY GOD 😩😳😍❤️🔥
Mafia killer boy who's actually a soft, sad boy (and fuck me, so handsome!), and a sweet, gentle, blind boy who completely wins him over with just his eyes and smile 😩❤️❤️
Mafia killer boy who's actually a soft, sad boy (and fuck me, so handsome!), and a sweet, gentle, blind boy who completely wins him over with just his eyes and smile 😩❤️❤️
June 11, 2025
This was surprisingly wholesome despite the dark premise.
July 19, 2025
₊⊹♡ 5 stars ⋆˙⟡
it’s only 6 chapters, but it comes with a gorgeous art style, a really good plot, and a sweet and cute romance 🫶🏻
it’s only 6 chapters, but it comes with a gorgeous art style, a really good plot, and a sweet and cute romance 🫶🏻
February 5, 2024
“in the deepest darkest pits of the night, i rely on the light as i walk to stop me from being swallowed by the abyss…
relying on… your light.” ( ;´ - `;)
relying on… your light.” ( ;´ - `;)
August 7, 2025
This was AMAZING. I can't believe I hadn't read it until now oh my god. It had beautiful art, the characters were so intriguing and very charming - I loved everything about it. I had thought it had more volumes, but it's only one volume!
What can you find inside?
♡ A sad assassin who is grieving the death of his brother
♡ A blind boy who just wants to be free
♡ A beautiful reunion
♡ So caring, so soft, so warm!!!
What can you find inside?
♡ A sad assassin who is grieving the death of his brother
♡ A blind boy who just wants to be free
♡ A beautiful reunion
♡ So caring, so soft, so warm!!!
February 2, 2025
Where to Read: MangaPlaza
I loved this so much. I was planning to wait for it to get added to futekiya, but I read the free chapter and I had to continue immediately because I'm impatient.
This is such a sweet story about Chinatsu, who comes from a family of hitmen, but can't find it in himself to kill and a blind man named Kasumi. The two have a fated encounter of sorts and end up spending a lot of time together. Chinatsu knows he shouldn't get close to Kasumi, but he feels drawn to him and Kasumi is able to explore a world he's been sheltered from through Chinatsu.
I want to read more soft and angsty stories like this. That's what I felt after finishing this. I just loved their relationship. I loved the time they spent together and the way they both cared for each other. It was an incredibly sweet and touching story. I need more of this. The art style was beautiful and I loved the story and the writing. Definitely hoping this author puts out more works.
I loved this so much. I was planning to wait for it to get added to futekiya, but I read the free chapter and I had to continue immediately because I'm impatient.
This is such a sweet story about Chinatsu, who comes from a family of hitmen, but can't find it in himself to kill and a blind man named Kasumi. The two have a fated encounter of sorts and end up spending a lot of time together. Chinatsu knows he shouldn't get close to Kasumi, but he feels drawn to him and Kasumi is able to explore a world he's been sheltered from through Chinatsu.
I want to read more soft and angsty stories like this. That's what I felt after finishing this. I just loved their relationship. I loved the time they spent together and the way they both cared for each other. It was an incredibly sweet and touching story. I need more of this. The art style was beautiful and I loved the story and the writing. Definitely hoping this author puts out more works.
July 9, 2025
Ну тут був «батько року», звинуватити дитину в тому, що той бачьте не стежив за своїм старшим братом і того вбили🗿 і ще як же він не посмів помститися, та взагалі не може нікого вбити...
June 26, 2025
Delicatissimo. Non riesco a descrivere questo Manga in altro modo.
November 21, 2023
Just read this in one sitting, it's cute and fragile, like the mcs are so vulnerable in a good way that they completed each other!!
I loved how the main focus are on the mcs and their relationship because lots of manga got sidetracked and turned out to be messy, here we can like engraved on the story as a whole.
The way it was set up how they already met before just perfect how chinatsu reach our to Kasumi on that dark alley and their ending vacation was so cute and romantic.
I loved how the main focus are on the mcs and their relationship because lots of manga got sidetracked and turned out to be messy, here we can like engraved on the story as a whole.
The way it was set up how they already met before just perfect how chinatsu reach our to Kasumi on that dark alley and their ending vacation was so cute and romantic.
November 21, 2024
tender is the night, a sweet treasure indeed x
March 27, 2024
Para leer con tranquilidad y disfrutar de unas ilustraciones maravillosas. Me ha gustado mucho la historia de Chinatsu y Kasumi, los dos son fantásticos.
April 5, 2025
Crying in the club rn
March 26, 2025
Already read it ages ago just wanna add to ku collection 🤩
August 8, 2023
Chinese title: 觸摸你的夜晚
This one has 神率 of 61.5% on Chil-Chil.
5⭐️
I’ve read it online a few months ago, coming back to update the review after I’ve bought the Chinese paperback special edition with 20p booklet. Very impressed by Mori Moyori sensei’s debut BL manga and look forward to her new serialization.
This artist’s drawing style is very beautiful and delicate, every page is like a standalone illustration. The frame layout is well designed like an art house film. There’s so much emotion in her art, the eyebrows, eyelashes, pupil (reflection), hand gesture, hair strand… A large part of the story happens at night, she has good handle of light vs. dark, using gradient screentone and shading.
One of the story book (analogy) inside the manga talked about a dolphin (uke) who’s trapped inside a water tank meets a sea snake (seme) who’s poisonous and could eat the dolphin, instead he brought the dolphin to see the outside world and finally swim in the great sea.
This manga is about two young men with sad lives, they’ve actually met under unfortunate circumstances in their early teens, the uke’s a bit older than the seme because he was taller back then. The seme’s older brother 冬樹 (18) got shot by another guy because the seme hesitated to kill, the uke (wasn’t fully blind) stumbled upon the scene after hearing the loud gunshot and found the seme trembling and crying. The uke stepped on a knife and cut his hand when picking it up, the seme reached out to help and wrapped it.
The seme 榊千夏 was forced to become a professional killer by his dad, he’s been living in guilt since his brother’s death 5 years ago. The dad went nuts and killed his mom too and the seme lost his loving family. Now the seme still cannot use gun or knife therefore can only punch people with his fist.
The uke 御縁佳澄 became completely blind since 5 years ago and then been isolated by his parents, living in a hidden small room in their 200 year old large family ryokan. His younger brother 聰 will be taking over the family business as heir, so there’s no space for him in this household.
The two men meet again after 5 years, when seme caught a thief running away with uke’s bag. The seme recognized the uke right away and worried about whether the uke still remembered the murder scene, if so he would have to eliminate the threat as required… The uke naively brought the seme back home because he wanted to become friends, while the seme kept close watch on the uke’s behaviors to assess the risk.
The atmosphere is a little dark and sad, but the plot is about mutual salvation and healing. The uke is pure and innocent, always alone and trapped, still curious about the outside world. The seme has seen all the dark and evil things in the world, feels lost and wants to run away.
The seme became the uke’s first friend and introduced him to many new experiences with his remaining senses (hearing, touching, smelling), giving him freedom and feeling alive for the first time. The uke is like a ray of light in the seme’s dark sleepless nights, cleansing his soul and forgiving his guilt, stopped him from following his dad’s path. Together they were able to escape from their controlling families and rewrite their own fate by starting a new life together.
在這⋯深不見底的⋯黑夜裡，
憑著燈火向前走去，
為了不被黑暗吞食⋯
我想倚靠⋯你的光亮⋯
The white flower in uke’s garden is Marvel-of-peru (four o’clock flower) and its meaning is very suitable for uke’s personality. 懦弱、懷疑（相信）愛情⋯
I wish the book could’ve been longer by a few chapters, it’s a really beautiful read nonetheless. In the extra booklet the seme came back home after work to find the uke tipsy because he mistakenly drank fruity alcohol and they had some sweet sexy time.
This one has 神率 of 61.5% on Chil-Chil.
5⭐️
I’ve read it online a few months ago, coming back to update the review after I’ve bought the Chinese paperback special edition with 20p booklet. Very impressed by Mori Moyori sensei’s debut BL manga and look forward to her new serialization.
This artist’s drawing style is very beautiful and delicate, every page is like a standalone illustration. The frame layout is well designed like an art house film. There’s so much emotion in her art, the eyebrows, eyelashes, pupil (reflection), hand gesture, hair strand… A large part of the story happens at night, she has good handle of light vs. dark, using gradient screentone and shading.
One of the story book (analogy) inside the manga talked about a dolphin (uke) who’s trapped inside a water tank meets a sea snake (seme) who’s poisonous and could eat the dolphin, instead he brought the dolphin to see the outside world and finally swim in the great sea.
This manga is about two young men with sad lives, they’ve actually met under unfortunate circumstances in their early teens, the uke’s a bit older than the seme because he was taller back then. The seme’s older brother 冬樹 (18) got shot by another guy because the seme hesitated to kill, the uke (wasn’t fully blind) stumbled upon the scene after hearing the loud gunshot and found the seme trembling and crying. The uke stepped on a knife and cut his hand when picking it up, the seme reached out to help and wrapped it.
The seme 榊千夏 was forced to become a professional killer by his dad, he’s been living in guilt since his brother’s death 5 years ago. The dad went nuts and killed his mom too and the seme lost his loving family. Now the seme still cannot use gun or knife therefore can only punch people with his fist.
The uke 御縁佳澄 became completely blind since 5 years ago and then been isolated by his parents, living in a hidden small room in their 200 year old large family ryokan. His younger brother 聰 will be taking over the family business as heir, so there’s no space for him in this household.
The two men meet again after 5 years, when seme caught a thief running away with uke’s bag. The seme recognized the uke right away and worried about whether the uke still remembered the murder scene, if so he would have to eliminate the threat as required… The uke naively brought the seme back home because he wanted to become friends, while the seme kept close watch on the uke’s behaviors to assess the risk.
The atmosphere is a little dark and sad, but the plot is about mutual salvation and healing. The uke is pure and innocent, always alone and trapped, still curious about the outside world. The seme has seen all the dark and evil things in the world, feels lost and wants to run away.
The seme became the uke’s first friend and introduced him to many new experiences with his remaining senses (hearing, touching, smelling), giving him freedom and feeling alive for the first time. The uke is like a ray of light in the seme’s dark sleepless nights, cleansing his soul and forgiving his guilt, stopped him from following his dad’s path. Together they were able to escape from their controlling families and rewrite their own fate by starting a new life together.
在這⋯深不見底的⋯黑夜裡，
憑著燈火向前走去，
為了不被黑暗吞食⋯
我想倚靠⋯你的光亮⋯
The white flower in uke’s garden is Marvel-of-peru (four o’clock flower) and its meaning is very suitable for uke’s personality. 懦弱、懷疑（相信）愛情⋯
I wish the book could’ve been longer by a few chapters, it’s a really beautiful read nonetheless. In the extra booklet the seme came back home after work to find the uke tipsy because he mistakenly drank fruity alcohol and they had some sweet sexy time.
July 1, 2024
tw - meurtre, sang, violence parentale, mort d'un proche
rep - personnage mal avoyant/aveugle
cette histoire est toujours aussi belle, poétique et tristement joyeuse. elle nous enveloppe de mélancolie et d'espoir. c'est une belle histoire entre deux personnages à la fois opposés dans leurs tristesse mais qui se complètent parfaitement pour créer quelque chose de beau et plein d'espoir pour futur.
foncez ! achetez et lisez ce manga <3
rep - personnage mal avoyant/aveugle
cette histoire est toujours aussi belle, poétique et tristement joyeuse. elle nous enveloppe de mélancolie et d'espoir. c'est une belle histoire entre deux personnages à la fois opposés dans leurs tristesse mais qui se complètent parfaitement pour créer quelque chose de beau et plein d'espoir pour futur.
foncez ! achetez et lisez ce manga <3
December 25, 2023
I'm not much of a fan of stories yakuza related, but I was lured to this one by the art. I wish this could have been longer so we could get a bit more depth about the characters, their background and stories. But the art was stunning and the story very sweet, all things considered, and that made up for the rest.
This is an author to keep an eye on, their art is truly amazing.
This is an author to keep an eye on, their art is truly amazing.
March 8, 2023
Omg guys this is such a sweet emotional story with a hitman seme x uke who is blind 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
August 25, 2023
rep - blind li
tw - death of a loved one, murder, weapon (knife)
this was so pure. so beautiful. so poetic, i might cry.
tw - death of a loved one, murder, weapon (knife)
this was so pure. so beautiful. so poetic, i might cry.
April 3, 2024
Dibujo 5⭐
Personajes 4⭐
Argumento 4⭐
Coherencia 4⭐
Originalidad 4⭐
Disfrute 5⭐
Personajes 4⭐
Argumento 4⭐
Coherencia 4⭐
Originalidad 4⭐
Disfrute 5⭐
November 20, 2023
10/10
i cried the whole time
i cried the whole time
February 12, 2023
Beautiful story and art!
July 1, 2023
well this was real pretty
March 5, 2024
This was short and soo sweet! It felt like my heart was healed after reading it.
January 5, 2024
SÅ JÄVLA BRAAAA😻😻😻 jätte vacker… fin story… älskar deras lilla character growth… vad mer kan man säga? Kort men ändå impactful :)
November 9, 2024
PERFECTION. JUST WHAT MY SOUL NEEDED!!🥰🥰🥰
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